Hospitals and Teddy Bears

     So peeps. I know it's been a few days. I'm in the hospital. SURPRISE. Today is the first day I've felt decent enough to actually write. I'm here in bed, yet there is no real rest. One moment I will be wide awake then BAM I'm falling asleep.  It's a bizarre narcolepsy that I think only happens in hospitals.

     Turned out blood clots made their way in my lungs. Whaaaat??? Yep. Who would have thought this would happen. It happened a long time ago and now it's back. They are putting me on this medicine to reduce the risk of it happening again. GOD I HATE BEING HERE.  My hubs has been here right along with me. Sometimes just sitting there while I'm sleeping. I would do the same for him, you do that for those you love but I know he's losing his application time. He's still looking for work and he's wasting time here with me.  He's looked a little, the hotel has guest WiFi, but not like he would if I were at work. He came into my room the evening they admitted me, and on top of his head was this super soft teddy bear.  He was grinning like a kid.  I named the bear Hiroshi. The next day he sprayed his cologne on the bear, at my request, so I can hold the bear and pretend he's here.  

      So it's Sunday, just after 9am, nurse has been in. My blood pressure is much better. It was strange my lower number is fine, even lower than the 80 which is deemed "normal". It's the upper number that is going above the 120 they want.  This morning it was 160/64. Blood sugar is normal, heart okay. Who knows why it's up and only in one direction. 

     I'm getting quite bored. I'm supposed to go home tomorrow and I so hope so.  I'm out of work this coming week, will be nice but I'd rather have a vacation later this summer.   I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself. You know I didn't even tell my Dad I was in the hospital.  It's not that I'm keeping it from him, it's just that oh hell if I get a cold he's all nervous and freaking out about me. I don't want him to get worried but I really want to talk to him right now. So I'll call him and tell him I'm fine. I just don't want him to worry. 

     I'm going to go, all of a sudden I don't feel like writing.  Ciao For Now

The Weekend That Was

    I am tired, let me start with that. Oh and I'm also full. We ate so well this weekend, from lamb to brunch to shepherd's pie. Accompanied with cocktails all equaled a very lovely weekend. Did a few things around my dad's home. The usual dishes and laundry, and on Monday morning after my shower I scrubbed the bathtub and sink and toilet bowl. Dad likes to do a James Pollock with the toothpaste in the basin. LOL   Ah I love him very much.
    So Sis and i tried a new place on Saturday and we had that bourbon my friend recommended. I am not sure if it was the Gold version but it was very very good. The Sunday was mother's day and we went out to brunch bringing my neighbor with us. She doesn't go out often and she is such a lovely person. We were out almost 12 hours  LOL, yep left at about 10AM got him about half eight in the evening. It was a very full day. After brunch we went to this fabulous outdoor mall. Had so many shops and I was able to resist the Coach store. I love Coach handbags.  They are well made, now I have to tell you my friend in England had bought his wife a handbag from a high end store for Christmas one year, he mentioned the brand but I do not remember. This is a good thing as I can not afford 800 dollars for a purse. But I saw a gorgeous purple one that I am still lusting after 2 years later LMAO
     We got some walking in which was good and I bought my first purchase ever from the store Torrid. They have some amazing things and know I know my size there. So I will occasionally go online to see whats there. I ended up with 2 dresses a few new blouses. It was funny. Sis and I went to one store before Saturday dinner and I ended up wearing the blouse I bought and the shoes I got also. I stood there while the sales lady cut tags off me. She teased me if my jeans were the same ones I came in on. I swear there were so many things i would have loved to get but watching my pennies.
     The night came to a close at an Irish pub, that had a elder man playing electric guitar singing the songs of Tom Jones and Bobby Darrin, he was funny and we laughed at this one little boy wearing an O2 shirt that was a dancing fool, cutting shapes with the best of them. he was fun to watch.  The lemon Drop martinis were good, had two of them and I guess they were stronger or I was tired as they hit me harder than normal.  We are in the car, Sis has the air conditioner on as it was hot out, but at one point she opened her sunroof.  So I felt something on the top of my head and I went all freaked out by it asking what is on my head??  Sis looks at me and replies  - AIR!  hehe I felt my face get hot at that one  HAHAHAHA hey at last it wasn't a spider
    One thing I will say is I HATE ALLERGIES!!   I am sneezing like a fiend today. yesterday I was driving back to VA on the PA Turnpike and i had a sneezing fit. I almost pulled off the road, I was afraid I'd cause an accident LMAO   I have to laugh at PA  - one sign I passed said Old Hershey Road, I had to chuckle at that, yes I have a dirty mind - sue me! ;-D
 (for those not understanding that, its  a reference as to the color of chocolate and using a certain body part during physical relations  :-)
     The weekend was a good one, NYC is usually a good time. Hoping the summer brings friends in, good places to go and lots of fun.  I'm thinking yes!! So anyway ciao for now

Its FRIDAY!!!

    Woohoo, no more sleeps until NYC I'm off tonight to see my beloved but hurt city.  I was raised in Queens, got there at 18 months old and lived there for all my life, same house my Da still lives in. It was an amazing childhood. Oh there were moments but, looking back and trying to be non biased, I had a good time. never wanted for anything and lived in a community that you felt safe in. Today on the computer I watched a live feed of a young man laid to rest. He was shot in line of duty as a member of the NYPD. They kept showing the precinct he worked at, my precinct, the one that keeps dad safe. Tears streamed down my face as I watched this young man's father sobbing with grief. I can't even imagine how broken his heart is.  Tonight I will arrive at Dads anywhere between 12 and 1:30 AM. I am bringing cookies with me that I am dropping off at the 105th  precinct either tonight or in the AM. I want them to know that people still respect them and are grateful for their service.
    Then onto shenanigans for the rest of the weekend LOL  YES!!! I will tell all about it in next weeks blogs. Im out peeps , have a fabulous weekend, Ciao For Now

But But.....It FEELS like Friday

     For some reason lately, every Thursday has felt like a Friday here at my office. Funny thing is I'm not the only person that says that. Everyone here is very happy today as the Washington Capitals Hokey team won again last night against my NY Rangers.  Not easy being the lone fan in a group of opposing fans. They did well though, must admit. 
    Well I promised the weigh in and its been 6.7 pounds in the last 2 weeks. I am pleased considering i had a few drinks in between. So its back on. I am not hounding on it as that would get very boring and I can't make this more boring than it usually is or none of you will read it anymore LOL 
    So on to new things......
One is that I am now using coconut oil as a major moisturizer. Its amazing, you can cook with it, and I also use it on my legs and arms. I have mixed it with raw sugar to make a scrub I use on my legs after I shave them (can't afford a waxing at the moment) but its lovely. Makes them smooth and soft and its great on my ink too. Keeps them looking sharp and bright.   I love this stuff, I use it every other day as a full body moisturizer so of course I have the really bit jar as I have a big body :-D  Its great and the only downsides for me are:1) I lay there at night craving a Bounty or Mounds bar as I smell of coconut and 2) the cat likes the taste , so I have been woken up once or twice my the cat attempting to lick my ass cheeks. NOT happening cat!!   Aside from this - it's great  I even use it under my eyes to help with wrinkles. I don't mind them, especially the ones I got from laughing but it helps. On my lips too to keep them kissing soft.  I have yet to try that oil pulling thing that everyone says helps with your teeth. I'm going to though as I need help in that area. I so need to get my other bridge done, I just need to find the time to get to the dentist, sadly he doesn't have weekend hours. 
    This actual Friday I am off to NYC, The plans have changed a bit, 2 of the couples are now spending the day closer to home so I cancelled the reservation and Sis and i are going to cause havoc on our own Saturday and Sunday. I am off on Monday so I will not have to rush home. I'm thinking of getting bagels for my co-workers. REAL NYC Bagels, YUM  Hot and crusty on the outside and moist inside. They MUST be boiled then baked.  I have a recipe that I'm dying to try but the less carbs I make the better. CARBS RULE! oops did I say that?? Whoops, evil sneaky bastards they are :-D  Hubs loves - on a sesame bagel with lox and cream cheese , I am more a cream cheese and jelly on an everything bagel  LOL  Oh hell I love them all BUT I don't care for the poppy seed bagels, They get stuck in my teeth.  YAWN  Oh God I'm boring myself now  hahahaha  
      I could talk about the racial unrest or people stomping on the US Flag here now. I'm blind to race colors so I will address the flag issue.  I am not a soldier but most of my family has been in the service and I am proud of my country, we are in a bit of flux at the moment but we will be great again one day soon (I'm  hoping with our next president) As far as stomping, standing , jumping up & down on it - if you do this and you are getting any type of government aide ANY TYPE , it should immediately be taken from you. Sorry but if you disrespect the symbol of our country you DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING FROM THIS COUNTRY. Tough titties people. It's a too way street. Don't like our rules, our regulations  then leave. Do not  try to impose your beliefs on us. You come here respect our laws, Don't like it? Get the hell out then and I'll help you pack your case!  I would love to travel the world and see every country if I could, But I'm a visitor and yes I personally will respect the rules of the land I am in, That's all I'm saying on it. 
    Ooh round chick had a bit of a rant LOL   Well thats it for this morning peeps I may be back tonight maybe! :-D    So Ciao For Now 
    

Cinco De mayo and other Spanish Words

    Happy Cinco DeMayo celebrate safe 

 Well its been a few days and so far Weight Watchers has been very good, now I am figuring out my points for this weekend.  HAHAHAHAHAHA yeah well, I must try the duck confit fries right? Also sample a few libations especially since they have the bourbon my friend mentioned was outstanding, at the moment I can't think of the name, but it starts with a B.  lol  I cant wait to get to NYC especially with the upheaval in my old neighborhood. A young policeman was shot in the head 3x when he and his partner saw a man walking around adjusting something in the waistband of his jeans. When approached he immediately took out the gun and shot the cop. No talking , not even running, just shoot!! The guy had a long criminal rap sheet too.    So sad, only 24. This was on the south end of where I grew up, I was on the east end. Still the 105th precinct  is about 6 blocks from my dad's house, MY house. Things like this never happened but its a different world. We need to be a bit harder shelled. I don't know if I can, its not my nature. I don't know whats going on, race wars seem to be escalating at a ridiculous rate. There are hate mongers taking advantage of people who are lost and afraid. Such a shame and I wish I had an answer to this, but I don't. Sigh
     Hope all is well, just living life and actually feeling good. Got my review yesterday and got all high ratings, not surprised. LOL now I'm not saying that because I'm so grand, but I am a good worker. I enjoy work, it gets me out of the house, gives me purpose. I get to interact with mostly good people in an office large enough that I can stay away from annoying people yet small enough that I can go visit nice people easily. I do wish my pay was higher. Im hoping that we get our raises this year. There were none last year :-(   
     I am looking forward to having some adventures this summer. I really hope I get to have some drinky-poos with my friend from England this summer if he happens to get to NYC again. I miss him. I'm seeing Sis this weekend. We are hanging out on Saturday, shopping and maybe visiting the wineries or taking a boat ride on the island, who knows. Sunday I'm meeting some friends for brunch. many of us have lost our mothers and Sis lives far from hers so its a Mom tribute day for us. then after brunch, who knows. maybe a film, Avengers anyone??  Weather is promising sunny skies so anything can happen. Maybe a jaunt into Manhattan to check out some rooftop bars or old haunts.  
    Well thats it for now peeps, weighing in tonight so I'll let you know if i will be ordering that duck Saturday  LMAO   Ciao For Now 

Making Up For Lost Blogs

     Does seems like it eh?  Lol.
     Well just now, I was on Pinterest. I saw some amazing pieces of old Victorian dressing tables. I simply melt at the thought of having a dressing, or if you'd rather, make up table. I often look at things like this. This does not mean I'm against woman being equal, or getting paid less, far from it. I think people who do the same work should get the same pay, it's just that my sex, in their quest for equality may have lost something along the way. Don't think badly of me, it's just that femininity is not always in the front line. Looking at these pics, it makes me a little wistful. There was something so appealing. Sitting at the dressing table in a pretty dressing gown. Prepping for your evening. Brushing your hair and applying rouge, then perfume behind each ear. Applying your lipstick and putting the pearls your man gave you for your birthday. Silly I know, but there is nothing wrong with getting prettied up for the man you love. Men did this too. They were well dressed and groomed. My dad has pics of his friends and him when they were only about 16 or 17. They were in suits. He said they always hot dressed when they went off. Now I'm not saying to wear a suit if you're going bike riding. But what happened to taking a little time to look nice. When I used to meet my boyfriend, lover whatever you call him, once this was actually a relationship, I always tried to have myself groomed, nails done, hair done. I tried at least, so when the no make up moments came about it was okay. Believe me it's not always easy to look my best. I can be scary. Lmao
Another thing I actually love to do is cook for my hubs, making foods he likes. It makes me happy and when I wasn't working, I used to have dinner ready for when he got home. Not always with candles on the table but again it was what my mom taught me growing up. I love having dinner parties and watch friends enjoying my culinary offerings.
     There was something about the past that seemed romantic. Even in the accoutrements that would be on the dressingt table, or dining table. Furniture too. They were intricate in design, people put some of themselves into each piece. Oh I sound dumb, of course I'm speaking of upper middle class. Those times were extremely hard for poor folks back then, and personally if I ever could go back in time, I'd have to have money and an air conditioner. Definitely an air conditioner:-D
     Then I love modern time as well. I love the convenience of modern cleaning appliances, cars, technology and of course air conditioners. Hehe. The thing is to incorporate the passion into what you do. Put some of yourself into all you do. As the saying goes - Do it with passion or not at all.  I'm realizing this more and more. So friends my wistfulness has been penned. I'll let you know the day I get my dressing/make-up table. I know you'll be waiting. Lmao.  So until next time. Ciao For Now
   

No One Is Alone

     So have you ever had a song stuck in your head, and you are a bit surprised since its not your normal type of song that usually sets up residence in your mind?  Today the song going through my head is No One Is Alone from the musical production of Into The Woods. Its very cute considering its Sondheim. The man has a dark streak running through him that makes his music very interesting, for me anyway. The music and chords that you don't always see follow one another. bass lines are prevalent. It appeals to me very much. Oh I love a sweet melody in a show as I tend to sing melody but his music has some songs you can really have fun with. I was doing a music review and I had to sing one of his songs and I had a hard time reaching the bottom note and would slide over it into the next note and damn if my musical director (and friend) would not let me. We went over and over it and then when I finally got the right note, THEN he said I could do the easy slide. I wouldn't though at that point. Hey IO worked hard and was able to give a good solid performance. He was never easy on me and I never sang better than when he was my musical director. I had that pleasure on 6 different musicals I did.  So my long story actually plays into the words of the song i was thinking of all day.  We can do things on our own but we are never really alone. There is always someone who is watching out for us even if we don't want them too. I tend to do this and I know I have others who do this for me. One of the verses goes like this:  

Sometimes people leave you
halfway through the wood.
Others may deceive you.
You decide what's good.
You decide alone.
But no one is alone.

     I like knowing that people care for me and hope they don't mind I care about them. My dear friends are always in my heart and mind, I pray to my Goddess every night to bless and watch over them. To help them with situations they may have and just in general to give them strength to face their days. Oh I ask this for myself as well :-D    There again we are not alone.  I was basically an atheist before i found my path but even as an atheist I believed in the spirit of the universe.  Hard to explain this to you Italian (Catholic) Grandma. But she was actually pretty cool about it. I mean I am a decent person. HAHAHA 
    Obviously this is a random post that just came over me today about an hour ago when the thunder started.  I adore a good thunderstorm but sadly the sky is brightening up and I think this part of the storm has passed over us. Powerful night, night before Beltane.  Energy can be felt by those sensitive to it. Even if not known why :-D
So i am signing off as it's almost 4PM and I leave work at half past.  So thats its for now, Ciao For Now 

May and Moms

     So, the merry month of May is almost here. It's a month I have 6 friends celebrating birthdays, 3 anniversaries, Mother's Day, and a partridge in a pear tree. LOL  So for me a few things are going on. Friday is May Day. It's the feast of Beltane. I'm probably going to be cheesy and watch the original Wicker Man, with Edward Woodward. It's actually pretty accurate, except for the human sacrifice. They may have done that eons ago but not now. It's time of rebirth. Plough those fields, start planting so fruits can grow, sex plays a part also. Who would have thunk it? Hahaha. Not sure what I'm doing. I actually think I'm going for drinks with some folks from work. Next week, I will be in NYC for Mother's Day weekend. I'm off that Monday so I will head home that day. It will be a treat to have Saturday AND Sunday to hang out with friends. Since most of us have lost our mothers, sis doesn't live close to hers, so we are all going to brunch at The Milleridge Inn out in Long Island to celebrate and remember our moms. Saturday I'm spending time with Sis, if the weather is nice maybe a trip out to the wineries on Saturday.  Who knows, I'd like to go to Janes in NYC Saturday, and who knows what else?
Another thing, in regards to Moms. A friend lost her Nan today. Very sad, but I was told it was expected, and she is in a better place. I tend to agree. We are the ones who suffer. Peace to her in the next life.
      All the talk of mothers gets to me a little. It pulls at me a little since I couldn't have children, but I was able to experience things I wouldn't have otherwise. So I think it worked out how it was supposed to.
       I know I've been scarce blogging lately, been busy. This weekend is going to be bed buying and maybe even delivering on Sunday. God my left hip needs it. It actually hurts when I walk. Not like I strained it on the treadmill, which I've been on again, more like my bone or joint is injured. I'm thinking of going to the doctor for pain meds. I wore a dress to work the other day.mits long do I wear my sandals, with a heel on it, but this time I wore solid black sneakers. Well let's just say, I almost tripped 3x stepping on my skirt. Lol. Graceful is not a word one would think of.  Hehehe
      Just lots of work going on. My friends you know who you are, I love you much, miss you even more. We will chat soon I'm sure. So that's it for tonight, until next time, ciao for now

I got nuttin"

Nothing today peeps, check back soon  X

Snippet

     It's Monday late afternoon. I am home, I needed today, I woke up with pains that reminded me of when I used to get bad colitis attacks. I called in this morning around 6am. I had been up a few hours. I am pure slug girl right now. I feel like sh#t. I'll be fine tomorrow and get to work as always. I just getting nervous for my husband.  He has gone on interviews and no one of them have had the courtesy of telling him thanks but no thanks. They just leave you hanging, hopeful.. IT SUCKS! I see him getting more and more upset. He tries not to show it, but after almost 20 years I know him. I see the look he gets when he thinks I'm not looking.  It's taking its toll, we both look haggard, not eating as we should. I am not at my best. But more importantly I'm scared for hubs.
More things going through my head but not in the mood to blog. I'm in a good head, good place, not sad, just feeling rough at the moment.  May be back later, if not tomorrow.  Ciao For Now.

HAPPY FRIDAY PEEPS

     The sun is shining and it's almost May. Although this morning I had to wear my coat! I couldnt believe it. We had the heat on last night and I heard from my cousins in upstate NY they got snow!! Mother nature is reminding us that she calls the shots boy.  We are supposedly headed for a high of 60 degrees F but its only 42 at half nine this morning. brrr
     Headed out tonight with some people from work. We are going to a place called The Green Turtle. Its kind of like a T.G.I.F or Applebees. Very casual bar and food place. Looking forward to an after work drink and nibbles. Was a very steady week!
     Not much going on, aside from tonight, I'm going out to breakfast then a matinee on Sunday  with a friend of mine. Not sure of what we will see.  I'll give you a round up on Sunday night  LMAO
    So im off to take my morning break, be back later , ciao for now.
   

Let's Start At The Very Beginning

    So when I started this blog, it was for me to track thoughts as keep up to date on me trying to get fit. Well here we are about 2 years later, I am more fit and even with the loss and yes I admit regaining of some weight back, I am still down 55 pounds. Great right? yes and no  I should be much further along but I enjoy food , I enjoy cooking for people, I enjoy the act of cooking itself.  So this is going to be a lifelong struggle. I have resigned myself to this so with that being said I am happy with shedding only 55 pounds. I will shed another 55 pounds and then eventually another 20 or 30 or so. Im not going to lie , Im not a teeny person, nor will I ever be. My structure is a medium bone for my height of 5 foot tall. Oh yes I have stood in front of a mirror and looked at where my body should stop without my tummy claiming dominance of my silhouette. Im pretty, but oh man I can look a fright in random pics. As you can tell Im doing an honest personal study right now. Im not kidding anyone, proof is in the pudding.   OOO Pudding   LMFAO   I am walking easier which for me is huge. I am pleased with this. I get winded if I walk a lot but I'm walking and that's what matters . Not as much as I did in England and Paris, but more than I used to here.  I no longer look for the closest parking space near a house when i visit. WHOOT WHOOT  
      So as time has gone by this blog as become a place to bitch, to vent, to admire people, and today a kind of a do over re-start. 
     So much has happened in this time, I am not the same person, my friends are not the same people, I will say the good thing is the people I trust and loved I STILL trust and love and I'm getting the fact that even though I don't speak to them often I love them dearly. Some I see as often as I can, one or two I rarely see due to logistics. Still love them and still want to see them. This year hopefully. 
     I am cooking good food, measured meals and cutting back on carbs again as after all this time, I know for certain they are my worst offenders. I an realizing that a bag of chocolate raspberry milano cookies is not a single serving size.  I leave a bit of food on my plate now. Usually between hubs or the cat it gets eaten though LOL 
     I went out this weekend to go for a walk and it was just the perfect weather, it was low humidity, 83 degrees. A bit warm for April but the weather has been crazy from the start. Roll with it I say. I am tempted to go buy some of these cool looking veg pods I saw advertised. I dont really have enough sunlight in our yard but I'm thinking if I get some larger planters I can do some tomatoes and put the planters in the sun.  I adore fresh tomatoes.  I always get them at the farmers markets when I go. 
    So on the home front we are finally getting a new mattress. Its actually an used new one. My in-laws had bought a king mattress last year, actually not even a year and they now have and an adjustable bed so we are taking theirs. Its like new, I know them so I am not worried about it being clean, and the price is right. :-D   This is a good thing as hubs still has not gotten work. he was very hopeful on his last interview but its been over a week and he has heard nothing. He called and left VM. No return call so he figures they are not hiring him and just not answering. I HATE that. It seems so rude. At least let the applicant know you are going another route. Doing it this way just keeps one hopeful and it just lends itself to more upset when you know they are not hiring you. I dont know if its age, maybe hubs suit isn't the right cut or designer ? Who the hell knows  He is more than qualified for all of the jobs he is looking at. This morning he told me hes going ot deliver pizza until he finds another job so at least he will be bringing in some cash. Not that thats anything to be ashamed of, its honest work, but he's not a college kid or retired. he has so much to give a company and it makes me sad he is at the point of settling. I mean he will not stop looking and interviewing, but if he does do this he will be gone at night. Not sure I like that all the time. sigh.....
     Dad is great though, he said that it was so windy in NYC yesterday. I laughed and asked him if it bothered him to have all his hair blowing around.  if you saw my dad that would make you laugh as he is almost totally bald, sans a few stray hairs on his head that will not sucumb to time. He laughed hard at it. As I enjoyed making him laugh, Love him so!  
     This brings me to the end for today. So onward and upward I say, heres to more boring blogs to come, more weight loss triumphs and fails, Until next time Ciao For Now 
     

Beautiful weekend

     The weather was incredible if not a bit too warm for April in the Mid Atlantic. It was 85 degrees F yesterday. I was up early to get my car her first state inspection. I will have Tink a year on Tuesday the 21st. Hard to imagine that a year has already gone by. So much has happened. I finally got to England, whoop whoot!
     We have been invited to a wedding in California, one of hubs cousins have invited us. I'm looking forward to it. It's right after my birthday, would be a nice birthday trip. We shall see, think hubs is afraid to fly. Lol
      Man was I a cooking fool this weekend, more than just the regular fool I usually am. :-D. I like cooking for hubby, always live cooking for him and friends too. I still get teased. We used to go to each other's homes years back. Usually one particular friend. He made spaghetti or burgers. So I decide to have a dinner party and I make sauerbraten. Yep, it took a week to marinate or brine or whatever you call it. It turned out amazing if I do say so myself. The guy who ran the German deli gave me the recipe. It was his mother's. I made that, with red cabbage and apples , potato pancakes and homemade chocolate fudge cake.  I was teased by one friend terribly, but I was quick to notices her boyfriend has seconds of everything and three pieces of cake! She wasn't thrilled by that. I love making dinners, have done brunches too. I sit right where my mom used to sit. I don't eat a lot when I cook. One good advantage, as I watch the others enjoy what I've made. I am my mother's daughter in regards to this.  Fir hubs I made citrus salmon, tonight was spicy brown sugar pork chops. Not much sugar but a touch of sweetness with a nice kick of cayenne. Made enough for several meals do I don't have to cook during the week. Just some veg and dinners done. Enough food talk.
     It was a nice relaxing weekend. Wish Monday didn't come do quick. It does though, so enough boring only interesting to me babble. My bed is calling.  Ciao for now.

I Was Never Part Of The COOL Group

     Let me state right now, I AM cool, but I'm a bit weird also. Being an only child, there will always be a part of me that will need reassurance of this from others. I understand how this can be annoying, I have lost things and people because of this,very sad to say. BUT I can deal with this and have calmed down very much.
     I do have a COOL group of friends though, I lo9ve hanging out with them. Shit part is they are not near me. I have a lady here who has befriended me and I like her very much, so I think I may have someone her in VA I can hang with.   Movie will be seen soon  YAY
     Oh peeps yesterday I swear i was so teary, i would have sworn I was a woman 8 months pregnant my emotions were so high. I was reading about the rhinos, how one type is now extinct and another is on the verge of the same fate. I was so upset, then I see a baby elephant photo, his mother was killed for her tucks and he is in the crook of her neck with his little trunk around her, his eyes looked so sad, truly and then a baby pot belly pig who went blind after have spinal meningitis was being held and comforted by his human as she sung to him  OMG I started crying like a complete fool. Hubs was looking at me like WTF is wrong with you.  He took a tissue and wiped my eyes for me and put his arms around me. So that made me cry too, the pure gentleness of the action  Damn I was a string pulled tightly last nigh.  LOL Then I asked him why he loved me, and he said that he couldn't put it into words. It was beyond that , it was a feeling.  I was surprised at this.  He rarely speaks like this to me. Was nice to hear.
     I think sometimes we all want to say things that we don't and  I think we need to say them. I have held back (oh yes I have!! LOL)  and I'm sure those I know have. Who knows what may have been if we all spoke our feelings and not hold back. I may need to stand behind a wall with somethings Im sure but i openly accept all honest thoughts and feelings. If I do wrong by someone I want to know, and on the flipside if its positive I also want to know. More so, as I like making those I know happy.
     headed back to NYC in about a month and I'm already counting the days  LMAO A friend is heading there this weekend and I'm jealous, partly because I wont be there to have a laugh with him and also that he will enjoy my city. I hope he will take some city photos for me. I am headed into NYC on the next trip, girls weekend it will be. Tea in the afternoon and then drinks in the evening. Im already looking at Zaget and Yelp for inspiration.  Im thinking maybe we can see a show. haven't seen one in awhile, LaCage Aux Folles was the last show I saw.  WAIT I lie  it was Godspell I saw in Sept of 2013. So its time for another.
     I do ramble I know  but I am at work and so far so good. I do have to go but may be more tonight we shall see   Until then , Ciao For Now

Gods I Needed That

     Well, I'm a little tired from all the driving but I got the injection of NYC I needed. I drove under clear skies, and very little traffic, got to my Dad's in about 4 1/2 hours. I lucked out as earlier they had predicted rain. I adore a good thunderstorm but not driving in it. Anyway, back on topic. It was a relaxing day, ran some errands for my dad, he's getting on and I tried to clean things without him noticing. Joke is that in one breath he tells me to relax, next breath, he's asking me to do laundry. Well I spent my time, doing said laundry, and all his dishes. Dad has one plate, bowl, mug. The rest sit there and get so dusty.  Fast forward, sis came over, and as usual, she gifted me with some sneakers. I forgot to ask why she didn't want them, but I so like them. The black ones will work for those days at work you don't feel like heels and the white eyelet ones will go nicely with the dress the girl at work is making for me.  I also got a very cool necklace set, I already wore the ring and earrings Saturday night.  And speaking of....I had an amazing time. The place we went to was featured on a show called diners, drive in and dives on food network. Thinking of trying a few places featured that we can get to. Sidecar was on point!! It has a Manhattan feel, but is in Brooklyn. The place used to be a speakeasy and in places you can see this. The ceiling is one of them. Old fashioned tin ceilings are still up, nice long bar on one side, tables along the other.  I wanted to try all the drinks. Had some stout (as soon as we got there) and negroni. The juke box, yes juke box, was cranking out music from the last 4 decades. At one point in the night, I had my hands up in the air twisting my round little body in dance moves from the butt up. I was having fun. Sis enjoyed herself as she made her way to the booth next to us. We made friends with the group there, fun but oh so drunk people. Awesome!!  Our waiter Alan, was just the cutest, sweetheart. He was friendly and social. Also attentive and seemed to know when drinks needed refills. It was fun going to a new place. I smiled my entire weekend. When I'm with these people I get rejuvenated. Plus seeing my dad is always a good thing.
     Now I thought perhaps our waiter had a boyfriend at home, turns out he has a girlfriend, and she's from Ireland. So of course caught up in our festive mood, I say "and your always after her lucky charms" Alan thought that was funny, but them a friend say " of course, she's magically delicious" oh snap, we all cracked up at that.     One highlight and good laugh came at the end of the night, I am coming out of the toilet and sis is waiting turn. Well I had tried to steer clear of the toilet paper on the floor, and thought I had. But no, it was stuck on the heel of my boot. Sis comes up behind me and puts her foot on it so I didn't trail this on my heel as I walked to the front. Oh man, I would have been embarrassed lmao. Can you imagine, trying to look all cool and together with TP dragging behind you.
     The place is hipster, funky, neighborhood haunt and awesome, I will be back. More places to try though first. There is a fish n chips place that also was featured on triple D, also in Brooklyn. Run by a man from England. Speaking of England , ooh wasn't that a great segue? My friend went to a costume party over the weekend, his costume was awesome, must say so. Shout out to him as he sometimes reads this blog. You looked great my friend. Xx
     So I am ending here still smiling. I already can't wait to get back home though. Beach and wine time will be soon, whoot whoot.  Lol.  Ciao For Now

The Vampire Said - "Can You Please Stop This Coffin'"

     HAHAHAHAAHA   Coughing - get it?  Ugh I swear my cough will not leave my chest. Its giving me headaches when I have coughing fits.
Well today has not really changed but my mood is lighter. Its nice to know that some of the complaints I have are echoed by others here at work. bad enough we have a break board but we are supposed to wait until someone comes back from break if we have to go to wee. SERIOUSLY?! This has bugged me from day one. I am not 4 years old going to the potty. I am in an office yet now everyone needs to see when I need to use a toilet?  Mostly us gals have the biggest issue. Women should never hold it, it can cause issues.  UGH I am looking for a new job, if something looks good I will use vacation time to interview.  Hubs yesterday got the same song and dance as I mentioned. Its very disheartening when the first guy really likes you, then this other guy walks in and is fixated on one application and is upset that you don't know it. There were other aspects that hubs excelled at but all this one guy cared about was this one server application. Not because he is my hubs, but he can learn most anything with computers in a day, he's worked on servers, he knows how they work, one program would not slow him down. He would run rings around others at that place. I hope this is not going to prevent him from getting this.  He is not sure now.
     I went on Facebook tonight as I'm trying to limit my social media, few cool things, one friend posted a video of this man playing amazing guitar, and he had only one arm. Amazing! Also, my friends daughter got some new ink, very nice butterfly. My other friend put up a few pics of his ink, which is fabulous I must add, and put a pic of what he wants to get and it's really fine, but  I must ask him about it. The placement confuses me as I thought he already had done ink on where it looks like it would go. Personally I'm looking forward to getting ink later this year, but as soon as hubs does get a job, sometime in the summer I'm getting something done behind my ear to my neck towards the back. Delicate, flowers or feathers. I found an artist I want. They are in Brooklyn. I may venture into the city one day though. Speaking of....
     2 more sleeps and Im in NYC, my mood will instantly change and this is a very good thing. Even the sun has decided to come out for me to play on Saturday.  My Dad finally saw his ladyfriend in church on Sunday, did I say this already? anyway,  she kissed him and hugged him but he said her speech was not anything more than mumbles. Her daughter drove and I told my Dad I assume thats why he hadn't heard when he called her to make sure all was okay.  She had an MRI not to long back and now the speech issue, I think that she had a stroke. I'm not certain, but that would be my guess. Poor Dad, he doesn't drive so he said he may walk over there to visit her. Poor lady, she is very nice, hopefully she will get better.
I feel bad for Dad too, he loves going out with DA LADIES, the first one died, now this one had a stroke, 3's the charm maybe.
ah well , it was doctor this morning but tomorrow is 8am start. So until next time , Ciao For Now

Feelings for today

Call me if you want me, social media can suck it, emails are rare. Im tired of explaining things to employees over and over and then have them yell at me. I am not a whipping post, I am not a doormat for them or anyone. I want to go into my car and drive until I run out of gas and then start over there.   Im in a fucking pissed off mood. I love my friends but they are not available at this time. Plus I am not good company right now.  Hubs got the usual we will call you in a few days from his interview this morning. Sucks.  Today needs to end soon. Here's to tomorrow.

Chocolate Bunnies, Colored Eggs & A Cast

     So another holiday under out belts. Really not much of one for me, but my families on both sides celebrate Easter.  Its always nice seeing family (well usually LOL) Ive heard tales from everyone I know about love/hate relationships that we have all had through our lives.  So my niece and nephew must have been eating their veg. We walk in and my 13 year old niece is now taller than my sister in law ( not hard to do) ,and my nephew is just about as tall as my bro in law so thats makes him about 5'7 as bro is 5'8". So my nephew who was always the shortest has now equaled out with his friends.
     Speaking of my nephew. We get there and he walks out with this full cast on his arm. WTF?? Seems he got beaten up. He had gotten into a fight with a kid on his street, (he's 16 - going to happen) so he walks away from the kid after the word exchange then the kids younger brother (by a year and a half) comes and starts yelling at my nephew. let me interject as kids these days immediately start filming everything and this is what happened, its all on video,  So anyway the kid throws a punch at my nephew and my nephew puts him in to a head lock and they are on the ground. So then out of the blue the original kid comes at my nephew and does a jump and lands on my nephews face and upper body. His FACE!!  Long story short, he ended up with a broken nose, eye shut swollen, and a broken wrist. because of this he had immediate surgery and now he has a titanium rod in his wrist. My hubs was ready to go at the kids dad and I was like , back off, this is your nephew not your son and you need to let HIS dad handle it. They filed a police report and are deciding if they will sue. Um  yeah, he had surgery!! I would be sueing. Apparently the father has 3 boys and they are all very neanderthal(ish). The kid has had altercations before but since he is under age they do nothing but put it on his JV record. Ah they grow up so fast.....
     Im hoping hubs gets some good news this week, cross fingers and toes please. Things seem promising, but they have before too.  So im just hoping this is it!
     Just wanted to say hi, Saturday was quiet, watched Into The Woods, did laundry and read. Chill indeed.
     Oh, Spoke to myDad and his lady friend was at church on Easter.  She gave him a big kiss but he said it was like she was a bit out of it. Damn shame.

 So hope you all have a fab week. Until next time - Ciao For Now

Tomorrow Is Friday - Whoot 😎

I swear I have never been happier for a week to end. Work has literally drained all my energy. I'm sitting here thinking, oh I should write this down, or yes, they'd like to hear about this. And I look at my screen and pretty much say F it! I think possibly there are too many thoughts for me to put one subject down. I'm not complicated but some might say I am, I'm not selfish although I do use the word "I" quite often. I use that word "I" mainly because here in VA, I don't have many "we" times. So this afternoon, I decided to try and change that.  I went to lunch this afternoon, didn't eat, not hungry. I did finally have an orange. Lol there was a woman there who I know goes to NY often as she also has family there. Upstate NY though.  Well today we started talking and we started about Manhattan. We are age comparable, she's about 4 years older, but she is really funny. It's a NYC girl thing. BWAHAHA well we chatted for about 1/2 hour and we gave now planned a bar weekend. There are several very cool old haunt bars, speakeasy type, and rooftop places. I mentioned my sis and I were thinking of hitting up done this summer. She is so in to join. I know she and dues will get along as thus lady is like us. Similar experiences, so I told her I'd let her know when we go. Maybe we can get a city room and split the costs. How cool to hang out in the city and not go home. Love it! Can't wait.
One weekend count down until I do see Sis and friends next Saturday. Going to be nice. Spending the day with Sis then meeting up with the rest later that night.
     So nothing else, except a person I know put, on his Facebook page, put Holy Thursday! So I left a comment - Batman?       I thought it was funny. Hehehe. Yes it's Holy Week for Catholics. Tomorrow is Good Friday. I think every Friday is good :-)
     Ciao for now peeps.

Wow France - You Rock!!

     You are reading my blog big time this week. You have the 2nd top spot, right under US , well done  HAHAHA  Actually thank you , and a huge thank you to all who read my silly little blog.
     Well at work, its been busy as all get out today and still having issues with that new system I mentioned a few blogs back. Its crazy, its not working as it should and making more issues than one can think. I feel a bit better knowing that its not just me feeling stupid with this as even my poor manager is having trouble getting answers. She is awesome (despite my grips sometimes) and listening to managers calling in I am so glad that I have one that knows here job (as well as other's jobs)  Makes the day interesting I suppose.
     Well it seem that hubs is not getting Unemployment fro some reason, he is waiting for a letter to see what the issue is but so far nothing, he has emailed and phoned to no avail. He is sending out applications every day and I see his inner light (so to speak) get dimmer each day. Mine is too but I'm trying to be upbeat for him, as well as for me. I think positive, -  I have a roof over my head (for now) , and even though its uncomfortable I have a bed to sleep on, I have the love of family and friends so yes I have my riches ....but all that aside, I's still scared. I want to move back to NY, hubs is not a fan, he knows it may come to this but he is fighting tooth and nail against it.
     I went to a seminar to become a phlebotomist, oh yeah, I didnt mention. I met with the director of the school, I was thinking, hey its  a 6 month course, with assistance for tuition, I can do this, It would be classes every night on weekdays but hy for more money , its not very much to ask. Well today I get an email. Just one of those random ones that sees I applied at a medical school, and it lists the pay rate for the job I'm thinking of training for.  They make less than I do!!! Looked at all the lists and the range is showing the equivalent of what I make as the HIGHER end of the pay. WHAT???!!! I make squat, how the hell can they make more? I think I need to look at the schools offerings again. I wasnt going to say anything, wanted it to be a surprise but oh well. I looked once - so I will look again. I just need to do a bit more homework first.  I am not afraid of hard work and working for what I have. I just to be payed a fair wage. of course I would never leave the job I have now but one day  I will move on to bigger and better. I KNOW IT!!!!