Realizations

     Well it's time for the boxes to arrive with the prezzies and they have!! I need to ship some things and I'm hoping to get them out this weekend so they arrive on time for Christmas. Now sometimes we need to be reined in and I am one of those people.  I know this but I get over zealous on occasion. LOL   A dear friend of mine & I were talking today and I was saying I was going to get him something for Christmas. He said not to and I started to disagree. I had to stop myself and agree with him, see if he matters that much to me, as my friends do, then I need to respect his wishes as well. So okay no prezzie in the box of prezzies for him, BUT there will be one big ass card!!! LOL I think he will allow me that pleasure. I just wish I could see the faces of the people I buy for. Many I don't and thats the best part of giving gifts. So I just cross my fingers and hope they like them. 
     Well a gift to myself arrived today, my new Iphone4S. I can't wait to get home to a wifi network so I can program the darn thing. LOL I love gadjets what can I say?! ;-D
     This morning Hubs left for work at 5:30 (his usual time) and I was wide awake so I threw some clothes on and went to the gym. There were quite a few people there at 6AM and they were all so awake!! I was like the walking dead on the treadmil but I did it!! Went home and took a shower then proceeded to fall asleep until 9:40AM. But its a good schedule for me as I dont start work until 11. I really need to get back in the swing, I am not losing the weight like I was and its because of the excersise. I will start losing more as I go more to the gym. By the time I get to England in a little over a year from now I want to be a fit, curvy size 14. I'm so short that a 14 is chunky for me, which is okay with me!! I like curves. :-)   Now the weight charts say I should weigh between 98 pounds and 125 ...say what!!??   My old dog weighed almost 98 pounds. In what universe am I supposed to weigh, at my age, what a grammer school child weighs?  Ain't happenin' folks.  It's funny I get so many looks now and smiles from guys in cars, I love it and I think it has more to do with the blonde hair, who knows because I am not arguing the issue, I like it. I know some of you are very used to being admired for looks but its a new thing for me. hahahaha
     I put my little tree up on  my desk as the office needed some Christmas..its way too negative as we are busy but to me there is alwasy time for Christmas, good little pagan that I am. LOL   
     Well folks its wrapping up time and I have to go look up something for an employee so I am off. I leave you with this pic of a tee short I so would LOVE to own if it was real. LOL Ciao for now!!!

Festive indeed!

     Well pumpkins lets see what has this day brought me.  It brought me a great surprise email that was very sweet and I loved. A friend offered me a solution to a small dilema I had and its most appreciated!!  I also ran into an old friend at the craft store. I haven't seen this lady in years, she had a lot of health issues and we chatted for awhile and ilet her know she looked great. An older woman at least 20 years on me and she was saying that she finally has health issues undercontrol and the past year has been very kind to her.  I was so happy to hear this as she used to monitor a class I took and we always had so much fun it was nice to see her smile. That was a good feeling.  I also had a lovely back & forth with a dear young lady, who is the daughter of a good friend. She is just adorable and so grown up that you forget sometimes that she is only 11.  We were talking about tinsel on trees (we both love how much brighter the lights look LOL) and I had to stop myself from telling her that my cat used to eat the tinsel and then the damn stuff would hang out of my cats arse!! It looked hillarious and see I think she would have laughed hard at that but I opted not to say it.  Haha
     It's starting to feel a bit like Christmas despite the warm weather. I swear buying a coat was the ju-ju to prevent the cold. Isn't it alwasy the way, like carry an umbrella and it doesn't rain.  I have to put up my little work tree tomorrow. This weekend I will be baking up a storm at my in-laws. They have a nice big kitchen. I'm thinking of maybe shipping some overseas. Wonder how they would survive the trip. I love making cookie platters and gifts for the people at work. I love to cook and bake and with just Pat & I, it nevers seems like I get to really shine. I have so many recipes I love and well this is the time to do them! :-D
     So it's been a good day and this has been a boring blog I know. Headed to the gym in the AM (5AM to be exact) so I may have some more interesting things for ya tomorrow.  Hey guys  give me some feedback , is there anything you would like to see me write about or any questions you may have, I will answer all of them, I  promise!  Okay well, ciao for now ..this bird has flown!!

You Know??????

     Day started in pain as I threw out my back lifting boxes over the weekend, serves me right for cleaning!  LOL   Way too many ibuprophen later and this awesome ibuprophen creme a friend told me about have made it very bearable.  I think someone has a little round voodoo doll they are sticking pins in, hehehe. I was busy this weekend and really randy yesterday for some reason  LOL. Cruel twist of fate though, I am so randy, and yay my knee is better, but boo, my back is out.  haha
     I am proud to say I weighed myself this morning and over our Thanksgiving weekend I did not gain any weight. I did not lose either but I'll take the even out. I did eat well but had more carbs than I should have so I was pleased. I asked Hubby to get me a gift certificate to a store that I like so I can buy some new work out clothes. I need them, mine are so ratty looking and if I am going constantly I want to be comfortable.
     I actually want to speak about my friend Jo-Ann. Remember her? Well I spoke to her over the Thanksgiving holiday and she is now in a size 30. She was a 5x/6x and her total loss is almost 30 pounds now. I am thrilled for her. I am sending her a coat I bought last year that I never wore as I bought the wrong size and it is way too big on me. I think she will be able to use it, of course I'm shorter than her, hell I'm shorter than most, but if she can use it great. It's a very roomy 3x.  I told her if it doesnt fit to give it to goodwill. 
     I am getting deliveries to my office now of prezzies that I have ordered and I can't wait to start wrapping and shipping. I am stuck on a few people, like a wife of a dear friend but I ended up getting her scent. It's really nice and oriental but with a floral overlay to it. Very Interesting and very sexy scent. I hope she likes it. Bought a robe for my friends son who lately has a penchant for singing in the shower, I can see him now in the robe and socks with a microphone in hand.  Pat is my hardest to buy for but he's supposed to give me ideas.
     Now here's a question, as a girl who has been a Pagan for over 20 years, is it wrong that I still love Christmas?  I mean I was raised Catholic and I have so many wonderful memories. I have no trouble celebrating this holiday. it's the Solstice for me and time of the "Sun/Son" so I can combine them I feel. I would be interested to get your thoughts on the matter. Feel free to leave the comment as an Anon if you dont want to give your name.
     Well darlings I will be back tomorrow so hope you all have a funky night and day. Ciao for now!!

Got My Soapbox Out

     I wrote this on another group I belong to but I figured it wasn't bad so I'm putting it here too! It goes like this:

     Just for the hell of it I entered the word fat in the tag look-up and what came up was so not what I expected. I figured there would be posts on larger ladies (& guys too) but was I wrong. I got through only the first 2 pages and everyone was about how I am so fat and I look disgusting and please kill me I am huge.  Dear Gods, it was so extreme. You would think that I can find the opposite as well. NOPE!! Now don’t get me wrong, there are pages of people with eating disorders but that’s not what I’m saying and that is an entirely different matter.

Why do we always look in a mirror and say I hate how fat I am but rarely do you hear I hate how thin I am?  I mean I am a big girl and being short (5 Feet!) makes it look even more robust. I want to get more fit which doesn’t automatically equate to thin. I want to wear a size 14/16 again and I will but still I know I will still be called fat and that’s fine with me. What I don’t say now at a size 24 (ish) is I hate myself. I don’t hate myself. I’m fun, intelligent, educated. I ride buses, do community theater, bowl just like my “normal counterparts”  I love art, theater, cars, dancing, sex, music, the list goes on and on. What I’m saying is I AM perfectly fine!!!! Growing up I was shy because of my weight then one day I said fuck it! I’m worth knowing.

     I just wish people would not immediately judge you on your weight. Everyone is different and it’s a beautiful thing. Fact: I have actually lost a job because I was “TOO FAT” ( WOW I've only told that to a few people!!) It was for a receptionist position where a friend of mine worked. She overheard them say they didn’t want me to be the 1st thing a person saw when they came in. I was so upset, hell they said the 1st thing! THING mind you, I was not even considered a person, I was a thing!! I have seen people move out of my way for fear of maybe if I touched them they would all of a sudden inflate and be fat too. Really people it’s not contagious I AM NOT A DISEASE!! Eventually I realized they were not worth my tears.

     One day, I want to speak to all those who hate them selves because of a few pounds and assure them that life is not measured in pounds. Unfortunately all they would need to do is read a magazine or look at the television and my point is lost. Kudos to you women who embrace your curves be they chubby, bbw or ssbbw. Major kudos to the men who prefer women this way and are not afraid to show it or say it. General affection holla to all those, men & women, who just accept people for who they are and not what they look like. Hey I like looking at the pretty people too, but damn it, pretty comes in all shapes, sizes and colors!! I don’t think just because I’m fat I’m ugly. Look I’m not perfect but if all anyone says to me as an insult is “You’re fat” then well, I’m all good because I don’t have an issue with that, they do!! There is ALWAYS something we want to change about ourselves no matter what size we are. Change it because you WANT to; don’t do it just to be accepted, because friends who say you should change are NOT friends. Big difference between constructive criticism from a true friend, and your “friend” telling you what to do because its better for them for you be just like they are.

     Stopping now, as I don’t know where this rant came from, but I’m glad to get it off my chest. Thanks for reading it.

TA  peeps
    

As Stuffed As The Turkey (for once - not really)

     So as I sit here this morning I am pleased to say I cleared the 2nd hurdle. Thanksgiving !!!!! Did well too, oh I had about a 2 tablespoons of mashed garlic potatoes and the same with the stuffing (maybe a tad less). Took a small amount of green bean casserole, which was my 12 year old nephew's contribution, then to round off the list there was mashed butternut squash and this really good I have no idea what to call it but it was made with turkey sausage, onions, carrots, mushrooms, garlic & spices, kind of a turkey hash and it was delicious!  Then my sister in law was sweet to make crust less pumpkin "pie" mini souffles since the hubs is gluten free and they also were very good.  So the main thing is when I was finished with dinner I wasn't feeling that stuffed and it felt good! I sampled pretty much everything but no seconds and no piles of food on my plate. I ended a very pleasant night happy with myself.  Now comes the Christmas baking!!!  (Crosses self for strength lol)

     This weekend we have a man named Matt coming over to look at the house and give us an estimate on a front deck. So much to do here and this is the main thing we need done and also the most costly. I'm hoping to come in under $2,000.00. Sigh...it has to be done! We are power washing the house this weekend too as the temps will climb to unseasonable low 60's,   I am also rearranging the living room so I can put up the tree. Yep going to do it this year, I need to have Christmas in my home. I wish all my friends could come for a huge holiday party and stay for days just having a blast.  Hey I can dream! :-)

     Well not a lot going on at the mo so I'm signing off but will have more over the weekend. Take care and ciao for now.

Happy Thanksgiving

Turkey day here in the USA today. Yes lets be thankful for all we have by stuffing ourseleves more than we stuffed the turkey. This year I can honestly say that food is not my focal point this year. We are headed to my in-laws today which is going to be lovely and not having to cook keeps food out of the house. Not having a big fridge means no tons of leftovers.I ail eat my meal and no dessert and be Thankful of my resolve. This world is far from perfect but I have lots to be thankful for, so here goes:

I am thankful for my family, they love me for me, nutty quirks and all
I am thankful for my friends who are to me an extended family. I live them deeply
I am thankful for my work friends
I am thankful for having a home and someone dear there to share it with
I am thankful for my Kitty Harley who thinks I'm the best person ever!
I am thankful for hot showers, cool drinks, warm breezes and European chocolates
I'm thankful I have all my 5 senses, 4 limbs and 2 eyes (bless those who carry on without them)
I am thankful my friends understand me and still STAY my friends
I am thankful to all those people in the grocery store who got things off the top shelves for me
I am thankful for countless other things and I am thankful to all of you who take the time out of your day to read my silly little blog. Bless you all!!
So again to all who celebrate it--- Happy Thanksgiving and to all others look around you, there really doesn't need a day special to be thankful. To my friends in England, thanks for being the wild children who made the Pilgrims leave and start this whole thing. LOL

SO AS ALWAYS..CIAO FOR NOW

SMILING

     Okay very few know already, but now I need to announce this as I am jumping for joy, wellmy equivelent of jumping anyway! ;-)   A friend gave me a pair of capris and well doubtful I tried then on and they fit!!!!!!!!! Now when I sit I get a muffin top, but they fit!! Drum roll please....they are a size 22!!  It's ben years since i've seen that size. This week my scale hasn't shown any loss but the pants prove it!  Yea, like a told a dear frined this morning I CAN do this!! It's not easy at all, and I know the bumps in the road will be there always but here is my proof I can loss the weight I want and still on oaccasion have an indulgence (JUST NOT WHITE CASTLE BURGERS!! LOL)   Maybe I shouldn't be so happy, dont want to jinx it but I am just so happy!  Okay, well THAT was a totally self absorbed blogette!!  
     More later today and there will be a special Thanksgivign blog tomorrow! So stay tuned, I'm sure it will be enralling  BWAHAHAHAHA   Ciao!!

Foody Day

     Woke up and went to to the gym for the first time in quite awhile...it felt GOOD!!!  Was great to move again and it will help me lose quicker..I have plans man!! LOL
     Let's see the day was good but it was a serious food choice day for me:
BREAKFAST: I wanted french toast - I had scrambled eggs & turkey bacon with tomato juice
LUNCH: I wanted a cheeseburger w/fries - I had a grilled chicken salad w/balsamic dressing
DINNER: I wanted pizza - I had tuna on greens with sliced avacado
Yep It's all about the choices we make and well I did good today, one day at a time and then step by step until you are walking then you run and then you get to what you set as your goal. Time is not the enemy it's on your side. Use it and plan your steps.
     So I was at it again, my mind wanders at night and I wrote this little ditty. It's not as explicit as my last story (more work appropriate LOL) and it's not a story more of a, well, little ditty!   LOL  Yet in it's own way I think its more erotic than the story was.  Here goes:  It's called TELL ME! ......

......In a room. Just us two, tell me what you want ! As our lips meet and tongues entwine, I want to hear the words. TELL ME NOW, I demand validation of what I already know. I beg you now tell me as I trace my way down your body.
Closing in; hot breath;  soft moans growing loader. Wetness pierced by hardness. Again as thrusts deepen and pace quickens, tell me what you want! Quakes and shivers, growls and sighs…fill me as I tighten. Explosion of desire, raw, & animal,  settles into quiet peace. You tell me what you want & I'll tell you it’s yours to have.
     So there you have it lovlies and well as always  ciao for now!

Monday Night Fever

Well I am writing this from my new Kindle Fire. I am truly amazed. I came home and hubby had this thing in his hand so of course I'm like what's that. He tells me and bold bitch that I am I ask if I can have his Nook. Well surprise for me...he asks if I would rather have this. Then handed me my own new Kindle. I was speechless. I was saying really for me over and over again. I mean an occasional scented candle but nothing like this. I was floored and I am so grateful. It was very thoughtfull of him. We both love to read so it's.just perfect. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE that's a squeal of delight. What a sweet surprise. Loo
Today was a good day. Got my nails done. Had them cut down and well they look nice but I'm used to them longer but as much as I like that its not conducive to major cleaning. Since they are my nails though they are quite sharp and feel good. Backscratch anyone? Loo Work like I said was good and my manager asked me if I'm learning more. I told her absolutey I am and she liked that. Hell I want to learn as much as I can. I love learning new things...in anything. I hope I always learn new things. We are going to happy hour tomorrow. Yea our director is taking us out for a few drinks and where as they leave after, yours truly has to go back to work. Lol Ail be interesting!
Short week this week. So busy ne t few days. Did some nonlinear shopping tonight. Want early start as I need to ship and want to beat the rush. Hopefully will be done with shipped items next week.Well peeps as always I find it so cool you all read Mg blocs. Means a lot to me. So take card and Ciao for now.
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Weekend Round-Up

     Half day on Friday meant my chance to head up to NY. Took a little over 5 1/2 hours, not too bad and as expected, at the end of the trip there was traffic. Prepped the dining room with some candles and a tablecloth, which Dad doesn't keep on the table. I put the Riesling to chill and opened the red to breathe, 5 bottles which 4 1/2 was consumed. I tell you my friends came in and both Steve & Mary Kay said "wow your clothes are hanging on you". It's been a bumpy road lately with my weight loss between my knee and just cravings but this made me feel so good. I don't think they know how much it meant. Now let me tell you being in New York I went shopping for my dad and ended up in Long Island. There it was White Castle hamburgers. You folks who never had one, well you either love them or hate them. I love them (or did). No I guess I still do but they are no where near south beach friendly. Well I had a double white castle, which is about the same amount of meat as a regular Mc Donalds, I'm not going to lie it was good!! About half an hour later I was regretting my decision big time. (Karma is a biatch sometimes I shouldn't have had it) As Winnie the Pooh used to say I had a Rumbly in my Tumbly and not the good kind. I was as green as the make up I wore on Halloween. So I went home to have a lie down, drank some ginger ale and after some sleep I felt better. I wasn't straying far from home though I will say that. LOL  So needless to say as much fun as Friday night was and it was a blast I laughed so hard and had a great time, Saturday was just as boring.  Made dinner for my dad, no I did not eat! :-) Was in my bedroom online wishing more folks were about but hey it was Saturday so I figured it would be quiet.  Ended watching a movie with my Dad and made tea for us and went to bed early. Woke up around 5AM on Sunday, took a shower then fell asleep again!! So I can't say I got no rest this weekend - I got plenty. 

      It was nice actually just chillin' with Dad and I swear even at my age I hate when movies we're watching have sex in them. Oh God one year we were visiting my cousins for Thanksgiving and everyone was watching The Devil's Advocate, I'm still embarrassed. LMAO   It's odd I have no trouble with porn  NONE!! watch it, love it. Yet certain things I get embarrassed about.  I mean I can write a dirty story and post it here and trust me when I say that was mild in comparison to some I've penned yet I look at the lovely ladies on other pages on other site posing nude pics but I just can't do it. See I have no issues with taking nude photos, as I have, but they are for only the eyes I'm taking them for. To me it takes away from them if that makes any sense at all. Plus I guess there is a small part of me that feels a bit inferior to them and I know I shouldn't feel that way but they have no problem posting all these shots and even have their own websites but I don't know i would rather the person who my pics are for know that it's for them and not public viewing. I can't tell you how many times I've posted a few pics then second thought it and taken them down. To me they are special, I don't know maybe I'm weird. I have nothing against nudity, I think the US is way too uptight about sex in general but as for posting nudies of myself, well that's just my opinion, feel free to disagree.

     This is a short week as Thursday is Thanksgiving. I can't believe the year is almost over. I love this time of year and I love Christmas although through my married life it's never been what I wanted. See my husband's family never really celebrated it he told me, they didn't have the funds and well it was never a big deal. When we dated I went all out  and decorated and bought way too many presents and thought he was getting with the idea of it but not really. Last year we didn't even have a tree. I don't know why I'm even writing this. Please don't think badly as my husband is a very hard working man and he tries to do the best he can with the aches and pains he has on a daily basis but Christmas is not his priority. This makes me very sad sometimes and I can go overboard gifting occasionally but I have very few people in my family that I see. My Dad never wants anything so I buy things he needs like the recliner one year and the DVD player the next but all he wants this year is shoes and slippers  LOL So that's what he'll get. I have no children so I like to indulge other people's that I know and care about. I just wish I could once again have a huge Christmas party like I used too. Decorate the house and the tree with my friends and cook for a crowd and go to look at Christmas lights. We used to do that but after hubby's mom died he lost the impulse to go do that I guess. See my Mom loved everything about Christmas so to me it is a remembrance of her. I have her ornaments and they are lovingly packed away. I so enjoy the party we have at work every year and we are having 2 this year. A holiday pot luck on the 1st then a secret Santa and dessert party on the 22nd. Some of us are also going out to dance the night away one weekend TBD as of now.  I have an idea of what I want to get my hubby and you know what after writing this I think I am going to take out the tree and decorate it and have him help, and he will, this I can say honestly and maybe by doing so he will get into the spirit of the season. I know he loves his family and enjoys seeing them in the holidays but I think his aches are more than he says sometimes and that's why he doesn't get into a festive mood, I suppose its hard to be jolly when you are in pain. So my Christmas wish this year is that his pain lessens so he can start enjoying himself again. I mean come on he's married to me so we know he likes a good joke!! ;-)

     WOW did my blog go from one thing to another tonight, thanks for taking the ride. I am going to sign off though, so until next time CIAO x

Weekend start up

Not much to report right now. Leaving at noon to head out to New York to see some friends and of course my Dad, that party animal.  So I will write more Sunday and tell you of the trials and tribulations of herself.   Can't wait right?!  HAHAHA
Until then .....Ciao

Another Hump Day Over

     It's 10PM, husband is already snoring...I'm sitting up next to him browsing tattoos with my ear buds in just winding down. I mean I only got home an hour & a half ago. Called my Dad earlier to tell him I'm coming up this weekend, he was very happy to hear, at least he said so LOL 

     Like I said I was looking at ink because the need is strong in this one, I want more ink. My artist Stacey is going to do cherry blossoms up the side of my leg.   OMG  okay breaking news....10 minutes has passed, not that you can't tell but yea. A cricket leaped onto my night table and sat on my phone RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!!!!!!!! shudder shudder..Needless to say, husband no longer asleep! ICK, I shood him away but now he's lurking somewhere....and he left little cricket marks on the glass on my phone!!!!!!!!!!! gross......

     Really not a whole lot going on, just tattoo dreaming and happy for a couple of my friends who just had cool things happen. I LOVE hearing good news from friends. My SIL, I still remember this, when having told me she was preggers with her 2nd child said that she knew I would get all excited. LOL She had told her sister she said but knew I'd go all googoo. I did, come on really how could you not? It was GREAT news and yes I do get a little overboard with reactions but they are real!! I get excited for my friends & loved ones. LOL

     By the way Mr. Cricket?  yea well I KNEW it. Sucker was on the side of my bed (  I happened to look over) well remember my cool cane? No more Mr. Cricket!! Sorry but bugs ick me out all but ladybugs, butterflies, lightning bugs, the rest I can admire from afar. I won't even watch Mothra, watching those two little singing Japanese ladies on its back...shudder!!!!!!

      Seems like a good place to end huh? Bwahahahaha   Okay then, until next time peeps - ciao! 

UPDATE (if you care LOL)

Just got notified that from 8AM until midnight yesterday we took 3016 calls. Whew!! I can only say well done to my reps they did a great job. I know you all don't care but those numbers are amazing!  LMAO  

The Day After

     Sitting here at my desk and my first issue of the day was speaking to a woman who said that she thought that annual enrollment ended today and I had to explain to her that no it was yesterday and she is locked out and of course she has one of the plans that was cancelled for next year. See we have sent out memos, emails, postacrds to the home as well as reminders where they enter their time so NO REASON not tho know.  She wasn't happy but oh well. She had 2 weeks to do this and 2 months in advance notice. So she started my day on a high note (sarcasm lol)
     Today it is a very weird day, the weather is oddly mild and the vibe here is aggitated for some reason. Not good for me as I tend to feed off my enviroment. I do try to spread smiles where I am but I am only one person  even though talking scales usually say "one at a time please" when I step on! I can only do so much and if the main populace is in a crappy mood well I get real quiet and stay at my desk writing blogs. LMAO
     I am doing well on my diet even though today I did have a bite of pumpkin muffin. I was just craving sweet this AM and I know me if I didn't have that I would have went overboard and its going to be lifetime so I did it !! Right now my lunch just arrived and its lovely grilled chicken salad with red pepper strips and avacado YUMMY!!
     So I was just informed as a perk for my efforts with annual enrollment I am getting a half day this coming Friday so I may just go to NY to see my Dad for a pre Thanksgiving visit. I am still debating as I may just take advantage and enjoy the time to dio a little holiday shopping .  I need to call the Kickers customers servoce as they are in the UK and i need to know if they shio to the US I want to get my boots  LOL   Priorites right ? ;-D    Well i am going to get back to work and get ready for my meeting so until next time I say Ciao.

What a day it was

Well let's just say it was crazy with bits of insane thrown in. We actually broke records. It's now 2 am and I can't sleep. Will write more later but so tired must rest. Bed feels good but sleep not coming. Ick. I tell you it still amazes me how people wait until the last minute to elect health benefits then get mad that it takes time. At one point we had 76 in cue. Well more later lovelies this round chick needs to get some beauty sleep. Ciao for now....more later

Zero Hour 8AM (apologies to Sir Elton)

    Ah the weekend comes to a close and some things did get accomplished. Poor Pat he had to go out and paint the house's foundation again as it has to be the same color as the trim and he was knackered when he got in. I made him a nice cup of tea and went to do laundry. Today was a slow day really, and for me a not hungry one either for some reason. I had breakfast and then around 3 I had a few spoonfuls of  peanut butter. That's it,  oh and 4 cups of tea as I'm drinking my final cup now. I did get my exercise in (mainly from running to the bathroom to pee from all the water & tea I drank today LOL) I took a friends advice to use a squeezy ball between my knees and push in to build up strength. Truth be told my knees had a bit of a problem getting in touch with each other, the ball was a little too small. Next time I think I will use a size where its not hard to get my knees to go in and touch, thinking maybe a football size one will be better , yea that should do the trick!! ;-)

     Now tomorrow the day is here...final day of annual enrollment, we are open from 8AM until midnight and it's going to be busy. We are bringing in lunch and dinner for the employees pizza for the lunch group, Red, Hot & Blue for the dinner group (it's a BBQ chain that's really good) I will just be looking at them as I eat my salad and chicken. No I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I like chicken and salad. I am actually feeling very strong in that respect. I am as of this morning down 34 pounds. I know it's not the 4 or 6 pounds I lost at the start but lets be honest that was water loss and the loss is steady once again and that's all I want. I will get to my size 16 before i know it. look how fast the years fly by.  Hey wouldn't it be a sick joke if the doomsday folks are right about the world ending on Dec. 21st that would mean this entire time I could have been eating all the foods I'm not.  LOL Nah I am focused this time more than ever before, I have my reasons and they WILL come to fruition!!! 

     I was looking at decorating books and Pat has agreed that we can break the wall down in the dining room that separates it from the kitchen to open up the space. I am so excited and we are going to start that sometime in January. I saw a photo of a kitchen in a house just like ours that was redone and i liked it so i showed Pat. Only thing I can't really do is move the sink under the window (too many plumbing issues for a home we will be leaving in a few years) but we agreed a counter would be good so I will have a nice view while I do my prepping in the kitchen.  Here's a pic. only thing is my cabinets will be white, I do want to Pergo the floors so they will look similar :)  What do ya think of this??

Right at the end of the photo from the angle you are looking in is where the wall is now. It's much nicer with it gone! 

     Yesterday I went shopping at Target and got lots of goodies, mattress covers, toiletries and more and I hate to admit this especially since I've been so vocal about it but when I was in the Christmas section and saw all the fun things I got into the Christmas mood and well, I bought a little foot high silver Christmas tree. I also got little balls for it! Red ones and a star to match, this will go on my desk at work AFTER Thanksgiving. Yep I couldn't help myself and I may go back next week to get a few more decorations that will go up ..yes you guessed it AFTER turkey day! It was such a great weekend temp wise also. Saturday I just people watched while sipping a unsweetened passion ice tea at Starbucks. I like doing that as people can be very amusing, I'm sure I give those watching me quite a performance at times. Like the time a stinkbug flew into my purse at the same Target I was at. I screamed out and asked this passerby if he would get it out for me. HAHHA yes I did!!  Wouldn't that have been fun to watch?  My point proven :-D 

      Well all I'm signing off early so I can get ready  for bed. Must be on top game tomorrow. So until next time. Ciao for now.

Well That Last Post Was Quite Blue

     I do apologize if anyone was offended. It was not my intent but I can occasionally write quite RAW stories. lol

     Well here it is 6AM and I am wide awake, been up about an hour so far due to Pat leaving at half past 4 this morning. UGH!!! We barely see each other during the week now, by the time I get home at night he's getting ready to go to bed. I usually stay upstairs and just prop myself up in bed with my pillows and get on my laptop with headphones in as not to wake him. This way we are at least in the same room. Usually when I settle in to sleep I will feel his hand rub my butt and hear a sleepy "good night Puddin'" from him. hehehe He sleeps so little I try not to wake him up but it's like he senses my laying down. I suppose after being together so long it will happen that way.

     Well today ends the last full week of annual enrollment and it's been hopping. Home stretch now and then it's on to planning our office pot luck. Should be good and I'm dropping hints to one lady to bring in her collard greens. I never had them until I moved to Virginia but they are good. Kind of like spinach which I now enjoy but hated when I was younger. I like most veg, but not fond of parsnips but a friend recently told me about a way to prepare them roasted with honey that sounds interesting. I may have to give them another try. I am working on a cookbook with all my Nona's and Mom's recipes. I am even going to make a copy as a Chrimbo gift :-)

      I am feeling good today, and unlike yesterday hope i don't have a case of bedhead all day LOL. Other than that the weekend looks to be filled with painting and raking leaves (AGAIN!!) So until later today I say ciao for now.

Stick A Fork In Me I Am Done!!

     Well guys, it's been a long day. I only got home at 9:15 tonight. It's getting busy and well that means home late. Heck on Monday I work until Midnight. I don't mind it.....it's my 3rd.

     I am just relaxing and thinking!!  LOL that can be either dangerous or hilarious, sometimes both even hehe

     Here's some of my thoughts right now: 

I like when I am alone in a home with others in it

I like the way a cat curls her tail into a question mark (complete with the "dot" under it if looking from the rear! lol

I really enjoy singing to my self in my head

I like how a hot cup of tea just takes away the stress with each sip

I like lots of things but mostly I love being happy and making others happy. The one thing I so hope is that when I'm gone people will have happy fun memories of me.  NO that's not morbid, that a good thing, means I did it right!! 

     I told you it could be dangerous.  hahahahahaha

YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!! I'm in the mood to post a story I made up....it's an adult only story so if written erotica bothers you ...don't look please, if it doesn't ...well have at it....here goes:

(Last warning..this is 18+ stuff)

The day was crazy busy. She finally got home. After a quick shower she lay back and took several hits. Her fingers traced down her throat as she let the smoke take her to days past. She slid her finger around her breasts first one then the other, her eyes closed. He appeared in her mind, the way he had the day he teased her and made her cum over & over. Thinking of this her hand traveled down until it reached just above her pussy. She imagined again and saw his face taunting her as he fingered her wet clit, oh how she was his to use at that moment. She now took her finger and rubbed her clit, first around it then over the tip . She was re-living his fingers inside her she slid a finger deep in that soft wet pussy and started to fuck herself. She thought of him again as she pushed in deeper & faster. She opened her legs wider and grabbed for her toy. She teased her clit with it and then rammed it deep inside her dripping pussy. Oh my god she needed to fuck, she fucked herself harder as she imagined his cock inside her, how he knew just how to move that made her scream with pleasure. His cock felt like no other. She was going to cum soon and how she wished she could cum over his cock. That beautiful cock, such a perfect shape. She loved running her tongue over the mushroom head. God it felt so good entering her pussy. Pushing in opening her wide.   She would swirl her tongue up and down the length of his hard cock and then trail her tongue down to his balls and then his ass. Letting her tongue flick at the opening she wanted to get lost in him. This was her thought as she felt her pussy tighten and then explode. She relaxed, and smiling to herself thought yes she remembered alright, hoping he did too. She may have to remind him again but that’s okay because she had some new ideas she knows will make him moan with extasy, oh she loved when he moaned, it just made her drip even more. She reached once again for her toy, closed her eyes and let herself remember.

TOLD YA....not my best but it only took about 10 minutes to write. 

Well everyone I'h headed to bed...there will be more tomorrow..ciao for now  love,peace,& chicken grease I'm outta here! :-D

Cutting Shapes

     Every now and then I have a call with my Dad that has the two of us really laughing. Today was such a call. I usually call every few days just to see how he is doing and when I called he told me he forgot to tell me that he went to the neighbors birthday party. Let me preface this with these are one of the nicest, sweetest most unselfish couple I have have known. They do so much for my Dad. Phil is a retired detective so every night he told me he goes around my Dad's house and checks the doors to make sure they are locked. They cook for him,  invite him to their family parties and that brings me back to this post. (See I DO get to my point!! LOL)  My dad will be 84 in December and he still loves a good party. Well he went over and told me that they had a huge "do" since it was Phil's 50th birthday. Mari made tons of food and after all was don they were in the basement which is a good size as it's the same exact house as my NY home so I know this. Well they are all from Peurto Rico and they start to Salsa dance and one of Phil's sister finally gets my Dad to dance with her. He was laughing as he told me and he had such a great time. I couldn't stop smiling at this. Then even better Mari was recording it!!!  She is going to send it to me and to quote my Dad, he told me "If I do say so myself I looked pretty good!"  hehehehehe  I starte to laugh and teased him that he neds to stop picking up women he's going to forget their names ones day and call the wrong name out! LOL   I tell ya though it was so wonderful to hear him having such fun. Sad because he has a better social life than I do :-D
     All good on my end and the Phase 1 is going well. I am stuffed from the dinner salad I made and it tasted better than I thought it would.  It's easier since lots of folks here are trying to be good and watch what they eat. Not just watch the food go into their mouths. I thin they figure if they lose some now it gives them a holiday buffer.
     Speaking of holidays. I am a bit miffed that almost every store I go to already has Christmas items up. I mean talk about rushing the season. I LOVE Chritmas but not in October!!! LOL
     Well that's all my mind has at the moment excet for a few silly random things that sound good in my head but will not transfer to paper wellenough to put them down here. Anyone who knows me knows how my mind jumps tracks easily..ooh shiny object!!  hehe ;-)     So until tomorrow peeps ..Ciao!
   

YeeHaw It's Tuesday

     We are in full swing here at the helpdsk today, annual enrollment is in it's second week and we have been steady with about 3800 calls as of last Friday. I can't wait for Monday :-D
     Had a chill Sunday I went out early to meet a friend for coffee and she & I caught up. She used to work with me, as amatter of fact we started the same day. Then I brought breakfast home for Pat.  We did some yard work later then had a nice dinner. Sunday night was odd I wasnt feeling well for some reason as stated in my "4AM" blog. Still feeling a bit yucky but popping lots of vitamin "C" and drinking lots of water so hopefully I will fend off whatever is looming. 
     I am back on Phase 1 on Southbeach as of today. I need to jump start again. I seemed to have hit a wall. It's the breads..any bread for me is evil and god Ilove it so!!  I love to bake my own also but not going to happen for awhile :-(
     I need clothes but I'm going to wait a bit more. I'm not happy that I haven't lost more. I so need to stop looking at others and be happy with me again. Thing is I am happy with me and I have embraced myself. I am sexy, I am fun to be with what I need to do is stop comparing myself. I am losing weight the way my body is going to lose it and even with targeted area excersise I am not always happy where it gets lost (ie BOOBIES!! LOL) but i have noticed they are looking larger since the fat beneath them is going away. HAHAHA  I love our bodies they are so amusing. Also annoying but they are beautiful in all forms. As Shakespeare said "What a piece of work is man." :-D     I have added my most recent pic that I took this morning on my way to work. Those of you on my FB page will recognize my profile pic. Yes I'm smirking! LOL
     Well peeps, it's getting busy so I have to go but I'll be back, maybe tonight but def. tomorrow. Ciao for now.

4AM

I am awake and not feeling very well. I'm laying here rubbing my stomach in circles the way my Mom used to when I was a little girl. It's not the same though. Moms just have that touch that makes you feel better. My thoughts are of my old room and oddly enough of my dark red wool blanket with the silk edges. Right now that memory is as warm as that blanket was. I'm hoping my stomach settles down so I can grab a few more hours sleep. Random blog I know. Hey it's. 4 in the morning, what ya expect. Lol ciao

Sunday Rambling

     Well weekend is fading to a new work week and we even got an extra hour this morning. Yesterday I took the gell overlay off my nails and my god they are sharp now LOL They have a new polish that has gell in it so no more drill on my poor nails. YAY   I know not ground breaking news but good for my fingers.

     I must be honest, as of late I feel weird. Can't explain it, just a bit off. Like a 3 second delay. Nothing wrong just well hard to say. I get dreamy sometimes and that's how I've been this weekend. I have been wishing to have a family get together again. Lots of people and laughs, just miss it.  I want to throw a dinner party but right now my home is not suitable so dream on McDuff!  I am getting a little excited about the holidays coming up and saw some gifts I want to buy. Next weekend I will . I love buying gifts. There is nothing better than getting something for someone then seeing them as they open it. Nothing better!!

     Okay weekend movie revue - Oldy but goodie was Hellboy II  - love it and the first one, whats not to love?? Next was the remake of Arthur with Russell Brand. (Pat hadn't seen it) Was okay but I like the original much better. Dudley Moore was just adorable.  Lastly was The Rite with Anthony Hopkins - not bad, not scary enough but then again it centered more on the priests and was based on a true story. There ya have it, the older is the better!  Any good suggestions?? I'm listening. 

     Well there will be more to come but I must get dinner started. Until next time my peeps, ciao!

I Am A Silly Bunny

     Yesterday one of my co-workers, he was wearing a tie that had little circles all over it, very 1970's looking  and another person said you have balls on your neck. So of course perverted folks that we are, we laughed and he said that sounds like a song. Me being me came up with this little ditty (now it took all of 2 minutes so be kind)

Balls on my neck I cry out in haste
if they were in my throat I'd know how they taste
if they were on my feet, I would hear them runnin'
if they were on my ears, I could hear them commin' (cummin' -  however you choose to spell that LOL)

hehehehehehehehe  Me so naughty

Well dears thats it for today it was a twofer friday LOL  Hope you all have a great weekend. i am here at work until at least 8 so those who know me well enough drop me a line on facebook as I am sure I will be on there later. Ciao for now :-D

It's A New Dawn, It's A New Day

     Hello all. Doing this from my phone again. I have to say that the call of the needle has been strong as of late. Speaking with a friend yesterday and he was telling me about an artist in Germany who is really good and I went to look. She is legit!!! Great work. So of course I want more ink. I am getting my chubby fairy done soon but I also want a cherry blossom limb so to speak done on the side of my leg up to my thigh. My new artist did one freehand on a client and it's just gorgeous. Yep by year end, some new ink for Mary.
     Spoke to Joanne last night. She said she now is down 26 pounds. I am so happy for her. She has 20 pounds more to get to 400lbs. Yes she is a big girl who from what I can tell has a big heart too. I told her last night that I was disgusted that I've.stalled and that my knee has me in tears most days. She said don't worry it will change. I know she is right and as soon as annual enrollment is over, I'm going to the doctor.
     Ah, annual enrollment...the 2 weeks of craziness. It really hasn't been too bad. Which makes me nervous for next week. I did work until almost 8:30 last nightbut that's par for the course. I think the best news is that they haulted renovations on our bathrooms so I don't have to trek up or down to pee. Lol
     Okay peeps. It's 6am and my alarm goes off in a hour. I may try to snooze then yay ...Friday starts. Pictures being taken so full make up is needed. Hehe. Until next time....ciao.

Meh!!!

     Just not in the mood to write. Knee is killing me, going to take a bubble bath and go to sleep. peace out!!

One Day More

     A great song from a great play which has nothing to do with this blog. LOL 
     I must remember to bring in my food to work as I had a grilled chicken salad today to eat and thats it. Now you may say great but I have found that not eating actually works in reverse of losing weight. You need to eat to lose. Also I am noticing that as I am not hitting up the gym because of my knee I am not really losing any weight. I am not gaining really. I did gain that half pound but it was lost again this AM.  So I need to move this saucy body of mine. Back to the I want to move it move it!! hehe  After all this annual enrollment is done mid-November I am going to see the doctor to see what he recomends.
     Speaking of annual enrollment (good segue eh? hehe) today is almost over. First day and the stats are showing that we are at about 1000 to 1100 calls for the day. We have 15 people full staff so you do the math. This is not even the tip of the iceburg, we will be even busier as it goes on and of course the last day will be outrageous!! We stay open to midnight and it can be lots of fun really. Usually around 10PM it slows down and we relax a bit. Music goes on if we have it but not to loud in case the folks are on the phone. Last year one of the new reps stayed late. So I went off to a secluded phone area where he couldn't see me and called his line. I made up some fake id number and when he said he couldn't find it I used the sexy phone voice and was like "oh you sound cute are you sure you can't help me?" He was looking at the phone and trying to be polite but I got so bad and he was flustered and then I hung up.  He was talking about it when I came back into the main area and laughing about it. So I went up behind him and whispered in his ear "are you sure you can't help me?" in the sexy phone voice and he was like "OMG!!! That was you!!!?"   Everyone started to laugh and then he did. It was great - he's a sweet guy and I used to do his reviews which were not great but I talked with him and went over things with him and 7 months later he is one of our better reps. I'm rather proud of that fact. He was like you'd be a good Mom. I felt a pang in my heart at that but it was sweet of him to say.   The days get long and it can be frustraiting for these guys. We try to help by buying lunch or dinner. We are planning a big harvest pot luck for eveyone so we can all relax and laugh together after this is over. A pre Thanksgiving pigfest so to speak, where everyone will bring in a goodie to share. I can promise I will be bringing grilled chicken and veggies so I dont get tempted by the cheesecake or cakes I will also be making for the occasion. I make a wicked pumpkin cheesecake and turtle brownie cheescake.  Yes the holidays are here! LOL
     I am sure the morning will bring a busier day on the phones than it has been today. So I wish you all a wonderful evening as I get ready to close the helpdesk down. Ciao for now luvs.