That Damn Dress

     I'm sure by now, most of you, if not all of you, have seen the dress that people are arguing over what color it is. Hubs saw blue and black, I saw lighter blue and gold. Lots see white and gold. Apparently it's an experiment to see how people view colors. They changed the R,B,G settings. When you see what they did, they put all three exposures side by side, you can clearly see they photoshopped the image. I think it's interesting how we perceive things so different sometimes from another person. I could go all existential and say it's our own personalities, changing our views from the inside. It's pure science folks. We do perceive things differently many times and it's normal.  One thing I think we can all agree about this dress is - that it's butt ugly!!!! Best tweet I've seen on this was one from " Helen Keller". It said, dress looks black to me IDK.   Hahahahahahahahaha. (So wrong but admit it you just LOL at that )
     Decent work day. Snowing this morning made for late work start, always nice not to rush, so was able to get all set up but half 9 and do emails. My trainee didn't show up so I had my desk to myself, until the last 2 hours when I took another trainee from a gal who was leaving for the night.  Oh man. This one guy call all angry and demands to speak with the VP of human resources. He says her name is Linda, and I can google my company for her last name. Pardon? No, YOU Google it and tell me. He goes on a rant and I tell him I can help him. In 3 minutes I send him an email with a step by step guide how to get his online yearly tax statement.  Yep that's what he wanted. That was all, not a big deal.  I have no value why people want to scream at you girl 10 minutes, when once he actually said what his issue was, I got him his information in a matter of minutes. I'm so calm and collected a person, it baffles me.  (Almost couldn't write that, was laughing too hard) I can get freaked out, I admit it. I don't yell at strangers though. Only those I care about, do I get a tad mental at times. ;-D
     I got home tonight and my friend says to check his son out on his Facebook page. So I look and OMFG,  I was in awe of how he was dancing, the moves were outstanding. I was actually mesmerized watching. I watched it like 10x. So fookin good. I posted it on my page to share. He is outstanding. Any of you who know me check my Facebook page, he's there.
     Well almost the witching hour so I'm going to fly [snort] so as always, Ciao For Now

Ah My Bed Feels So Good

     Worked overtime tonight, ate dinner at work. I'm trying not to eat too late during the week, so food doesn't sit overnight in my tummy.  Lol when I get out at 6 it's fine but I worked until 8 and I wasn't about to go home and prepare a meal to eat at 9. It's half 10 and I'm all snugly, ready for sleep. I took a bubble bath and washed my hair. So of course, I blow dry my hair and it falls great. I will not have this look in the morning. Lol will get out the straightening iron. My bangs, or fringe, if you will. Is starting to grow out and the cut is getting closer to what I like. My, vanity, thy name is round chick! Lol
      I'm hoping to have good news tomorrow evening, I will let you know. I also sent my resume out to a few recruiters today. Never know, just dangling my line in the water, but someone may take a bite. I'd love more money. Gee, no one has ever said that before.  :-D
      I'm working on a card for my friends daughter, her birthday is coming up. She has seemed to grow up about 5 years in a few month. She is coming into her own, as us girls do. Yet another beautiful young lady in that family. Such gorgeous youngins.
     Well peeps, boring tonight. Calm bunny here :-) so until next time. Ciao For Now.

Question

  Why is it so funny to make fun of fat people?  I really am curious. I see it all over, and I'm really wanting to know. I see it all the time, calling us lazy, stupid and smelly? Really, smelly? You sniff every fat person? Let's address that first. Being fat, the majority of fat people, probably smell better than many thin people. Especially as a female, I am very aware of how I smell. I shower, use deodorant, shave my accepted body hair. Wear perfumes or body sprays. So I don't think I stink. If I'm doing something that ends in this result, I shower. I have stood next to some very stinky skinny people. So don't judge me.

Next stupid? How the fuck does your size determine if you are intelligent? Not even going into it, as it's too stupid to waste time. (See what I did there? Lol) so don't judge me! 

Lastly, lazy. Now maybe I'm not out running marathons (maybe one day......little ones {grin}) but I'm not lazy. I clean my home, I go to work, I'm carrying the load right now. I go to the mall, go to the gym. Okay not enough as I should I admit. I'd like to go cycling when the weather is nicer, play some disc golf with hubs in the sun. But I'm not lazy, so don't judge me! 

I am human like everyone of you. With so much in this world to fear, want to change, to help. Why degrade yourself by foolishly labeling me and others like me. Walk in my shoes, look through my eyes, feel what's in my heart. I PROMISE you will feel things you never imagined. You will see how strong I really fucking am. So sit on your thrones and look down on me. Then watch as I surpass every limit you foolishly put on me. I am me, love me or don't

So please answer my question, I posed at the start of this blog. I really want to know. 

Ciao for now. 

     

Speaking of Blessed I Must Also Mention

I can't forget my friends in England. I have known my friend for just about 7 years. Over this time, I've been treated to so many wonderful things when we would meet in NY. He would not think twice about spending on me.  I am not used to this, when I went overseas everyone there was the same. His family whom I grew to know through photos and Skype, were nothing short of wonderful. Opening their home to me. TAKING ME TO PARIS!! I didn't pay for any of it. Take about amazing.  So I am truly blessed to have these people in my life. My sister wants to help me again. I can't, I can't stop anyone but I don't deserve thus. I will do what I can for any of these people. I love them and would defend them to the end. My sis and my friend, well I would do anything in my power to take any hurt they feel away. I truly would trade my life for theirs. Not too dramatic right? Lol

I was in NY with dad, was so good to be back home. I love the old coot. Hehe, I mean that sweetly. He's my dad, I love him. Went out with sis Saturday night. Getting ready to go out. I finish blow drying my hair and it's snowing like mad. Great. Well we didn't let the snow bother us. We went to an Irish restaurant / pub. Each having it's own side. Excellent choice ( thank you Yelp). Had a pint, I went light due to the snow. Good laughs, great waitress. Meet some people as we were leaving, that started up a conversation. Add on 10 minutes to our departure lmao.  It was coming down by the time we left. Dropped sis off and she gave me a bag with some sweaters she was giving away to donate. Guess who now has 6 new sweaters. Hehehe
My dad had me laughing this morning. He asked if would drive him to church since it was nasty out, still snowy on the ground. Of corse I will. So he said he usually walks since he has his rubbers. 'scuse me? I know what he meant and I said, you know what those are used to refer to? He laughed said yes. He came downstairs in a black suit with a grey turtleneck. He asked how he looked. I looked and told him, he looked like a minister. Lol. He loves getting spiffed up for those church ladies.
Coming home was so much better than I imagined. Roads were brilliant. Dry roads, no traffic, made for outstanding time. Had some kebabs, now just relaxing before the Oscars. I like the host, Neil Patrick Harris. So not too much right now. Hope all had a great weekend. Ciao For Now

I'm back.

     to being blonde again. Lol I feel better. My hairdresser helped me trim up all the chopped areas, unfortunately not much she could do about the bangs but they will grow out. But the color is so much better. She also did not charge me at all. I was gobsmacked! Such kindness, I'm blessed. My sister did the same for me before I went to England. I need to remember these things before I go all mental. I am beyond humbled.
     I'm going to bed early tonight, I mean by 11:30. Going to take off my make up. Get relaxed, have a cuppa.  So ciao for now, until tomorrow

Gimme a Head With Hair

Well I'll be happy with a head of hair with a shape to it. Lots of highlights & lowlights. Oh peeps I fucked up, not so much with the color but the cut. Ick. It looked decent the first day but it's growing out - well - not good. Luckily my hairdresser knows my ditch and she is going easy on me. I'll post a before and after pic so you can see.
     So we got snow, about 6". Not terrible, a friend at work got 10. It depended where you live some more coming and tomorrow us a high temp of 14. Low will be -4. Brrrr. I love snow and winter but please Ostara, hurry up and come.
     Not much tonight peeps, heading to bed. More tomorrow night.  Ciao For Now x

im happy/ I'm sad. My blog my feelings

It's about 2 am. These are my thoughts. We all have things we are going through I wish I could help my friends but I can't even seem to help me  Finny that .

There comes a point in time when:
You feel like a dog abandoned by its owners and you can't understand why
You keep hearing it will get better but you can't see how
You work so hard but are still buried in a hole
You're almost glad you're not seeing anyone 'cause you've let yourself go
You feel you've become less than you've ever been
You want to scream so loud but who cares
You wake up in the middle of the night filled with fear
You feel unloveable
You try to smile but the tears come
You want others to realize how much they matter but you you say nothing in fear that you're labeled as weak
You just wish that no one you know ever feels like this
You wish you had an honest laugh inside you
You wish your heart were colder then get scared its happening
You're sorry you're depressing to those around around you
You are hopefull it changes soon and you find yourself again.

Shimmering Snow

    I'm sitting at the window watching the snow fall.  I'm so thankful we have heat again, or I would not be appreciating this silent snow. It's been steady, and it's starting to pick up. We went out before to get kababs and I just love how this kind of snow shines when light hits it. You can see how it glistens, each snowflake, the perfect crystal shimmering in the dark. It just makes me catch my breath and just stare at the simple beauty. You see I love fine things, good restaurants , fine dining, high end wines and drinks. I love the feel of soft leather, good fabrics, but my world comes in contact with these things in rare occurrences. So when this happens I latch on to it and those that allow me that beauty.  This snow though, speaks just as much to me. I love that my room in NY allows me a full moon view. I lie in bed, bathed in the moonlight, looking out at the sky.  This is what reaffirms my calling to the earth. To my beliefs. It's right.  Just thoughts in my head   More tomorrow. Peace out. Ciao For Now

Marriage Thoughts feel free to Jump In

     I assume most of you have heard the phrase "razors edge". Being wed is kind of like that. Watching the play Company on YouTube. Sondheim, I like him, less pretty than Webber, in my opinion. Enjoy them both though. Sondheim seems to write about human nature a bit more raw. In company, Bobby is so unsure of marriage, should he? Pros and cons.  I've had this conversation with a friend of mine. She is married, for years now, 2 beautiful children, and her usual day to day life. Theater is a relief we both share. We have spent weekends surviving on vodka and pizza whilst we pondered the question of did we choose right, did we settle, do we still care? We've both had sections of life  where we went off our "set out" courses. It settled my questions, her not as much. In the Spring we plan on meeting for a weekend to have a talk, get drunk, she said she has a lot to say, too much for emails or phones. So be it. I will be there.   I have learned over the years, that you have a roller coaster life. Thrills, anticipation, lows, highs, scares, unsure for a moment, just do it and see what happens. Yep a roller coaster, and if you don't get sick, you keep riding. That's the good part. But sometimes you want to get off the ride. And then, as you walk away, you look back and see it's not that crazy from a distance. As long as you're not the one riding the ride. So you don't wait in cue anymore to ride.  You go around the amusement park looking fir other rides, they are awesome, fun, exciting, and yet you find yourself looking back at that damn coaster.
     What is it with humans? We want someone so bad, to the point we actually allow a part of us to change for someone. Then as the years go by, we find that we don't want to make allowances anymore. Are we no longer in love? Or rather, do we no longer want to suppress a part of ourselves any longer? If that's it then, who's to blame, us or them? I think we don't fall out of love, if someone has gotten to us enough that we want to make them happy we just lessen the level of love. Even if we've been wronged, hurt deeply, we still don't want them harmed. If we want harm come to them well then we gave to think? Was it true love? Or was I just stupid at the time? If it's the latter then we need to let it go, fir our own sanity. But the pain stats there, even that they may cross our minds occasionally.  You know the saying, everyone you meet has something to leave us with. I believe that. I've been fortunate overall, I've been very hurt too.  So I'm like the majority of people I suppose.
     In the end, reading through this blog, it's obvious, I have no fucking clue of any kind of answer, and really am no help. I will though still meet up with my friend in the Spring, even if I have no answers, there is always vodka and pizza. Lol
      Ciao For Now.

So Valentines Is Over Thoughts of the day

Did some OT. Found that Rob at work sleeps naked , it came out in a conversation. Brought home burgers for dinner.  Hugs and tv tonight. Hubby and I have hope. I have hope. I drooled over meals I saw on Facebook. Wanted to call my friends to wish them happy Valentine's but didn't think it would go over so I didnt.  Saw that they made a parody play for shades of gray.  Looks hilarious.  Want to see shades of grey.  Curious.  Liked the books. I like naughty play but wondering how the hell it will be good without x rating. House is heated again. Very thankful hubs fixed it. If his back was good. I'd have had a brand new kitchen years ago. Would like to do more OT but not sure. Off on Monday. Yay  enjoyed nice cup of tea, my usual. Need to ask my friend again about being my tea connection lol. Can't wait to get to NY. Snow tonight. Not much though.  Need clothes. Looking to see cash for the week as payday is Friday.  Do that's a bit of my minds thoughts.  Lmao. Ciao for now.

Fuck It's Cold

    Shit, damn, twat waddle, it's cold. Sweat pants, sweat shirt, socks, 2 blankets.  I usually sleep naked at home! And OT tomorrow.  Will be warm at least. Lol.
    HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to those them thar I dun love.  Hehe.  Ciao For Now.

Really? {Crazy laughter}

    Okay, I've come to terms with life throws curveballs, I'm truly working on keeping a smile. I'm okay, yesterday sucked but today was okay. So hubby picked me up after work, and he was a bit quiet. I asked what's wrong? He said I'll let you know when I know when I'm sure. So I tell him, tell me, we are in this together.  So he says the heat seems to have gone out, or on the way of going out.  So we get home, long story short, I'm wearing a sweat top and pants. Socks on, so yeah we have no heat at the moment. I refuse to cry, I'm actually fine. I'm warm enough. Hubs thinks it's the thermostat. He will check in the morning, if not then he thinks it may be the coil. Hopefully it's the thermostat, sigh. What ya gonna do, I'm tired of crying, of bitching. I want to believe it will all get sorted. It will in time.
     Not really much going on, just enjoying a hot tea. Catching up on Downton Abbey. The cat is curled up next to me. Cuddling against me, personally I think she's stealing heat from me.  And she's snoring, LMAO!!   I'm off peeps, so ciao for now.

Was Home Today

     Years ago, in my teens, I was told I have colitis, so when I get very upset, it hits.  I've been lucky, over the years I've had fewer and fewer bouts. Last night and today, well I was not good. Along with the fact the muscles in my body decided to make it feel like I was being hugged by The Hulk. So needless to say, I'm home.  It's stress, I see it. My face looks tired, bags under my eyes that would make Louis Vuitton envious. I posted that I'm doing better and I am, truly, BUT yesterday I crashed and burned so bad. I angered a dear friend, which kills me, I snapped at a co worker, who being as sweet as she is, hugged me and said it will get better. I want to forget yesterday, but it happens. Well since I've been in bed most of the morning, due to sleepy meds just for these times, I had the weirdest dreams.
     Having a cup of tea, not asking for forgiveness, if people truly care and love you, as they say they do, they will understand eventually. That's what I'm hoping anyway, I'm going through a really bad patch, I know I'm better off than many, but yet when it's you it's happening to, it's not always easy to appreciate that as one should. If I was flush, I'd be helping everyone. So my dears, I'm out. Be back soon    Ciao For Now

Whoops I Did It Again

    Goddess please put your hand over my mouth so I can't say things and tape my fingers sometimes so I can't type. I've been so good and today I backtracked. Happens I suppose but my bank shock this morning made me feel like I'd been hit over the head with a cast iron skillet. Today I felt like I was fading from memories and although I know better I let that feeling win. Sigh. I'm going to bed early tonight I need it.  They are fucking up work schedules. Problem is my manager is not there. She is the voice of reason for the most part.   I saw the cutest and actually sexy shoes for spring. Want. Lol one day. It's still cool to look. Nothing much tonight so I will say ciao for now.

Well It's Nice to Hear.

     First and foremost, like many things in life, the day after brings a realization that awesome as it made you feel, the next day, although still pleased, it's not really as great as you originally thought. Now shame on you all thinking I'm speaking of sex with someone you don't really know. I'm not.  I've had that happen few times and luckily, for me,  it was always great! Nothing recent of course. LOL No, I'm talking about what I did to my hair. It's not terrible at all, but it's flat. So my hairdresser is helping me by adding some highlights and trimming down my hair to give it shape, layers, and take away the Dutch boy hair look. All even around the ends. This would look fine had I not chopped it short. I liked my sassy short hair. Thinking it will look just as good in a light reddish brown, with caramel and blonde highlights. I'm looking forward to sassy hair to west with my silver hoops. Like a friend told me once, " You would look beautiful if you were bald, it's in your attitude." He told me this when I was debating cutting my much longer hair. My 80's rock hair he called it. Lmao. He metaphorically held my hand as I jumped into 2008, 2009 actually. Never looked back, now I'm looking forward. What it's not vain to want to better your look. I'm not one of the beautiful people, the ones it all comes naturally to. So I'm working at it.
      What's nice is I'm getting comments on my Facebook from a few who had stopped. One sweet one is a relative of my hairdresser, of all people. He sent me a rose on my Facebook messenger. I thanked him said thank you but no more, absolutely nothing more. Not in the least interested. But it's nice to know I'm attractive to some.  Vain, no! Fishing, no! Happy, yes! I am a woman and it makes me happy that my efforts are noticed. But and it's a big but. I will not stop, I am trying to learn more things. Regain things I had and foolishly left aside. Art, my love of museums, music all types, laughter from being silly, just enjoying the simplicity and foolishness of enjoying a good fart joke. My eyes were opened again to theses things years back. They saw my world in an entirely different light. How can I ever repay that? I can't, I've realized that of late. Then again a few years back, once again, I found the pure caring of a similar soul, showing me selflessness that I had only experienced in a rare few over the years. He and She. These 2 people saved me in a way.  Even hubby, whom I love deeply never quite got / gets me. Only recently is he starting to appreciate my, let's say, uniqueness. Hahaha
     So I am moving forward. No need for day to day conversation, secure in my relationships. I will go forward, make them proud and even better. Make myself proud.

I'm going now, I have a headache. :-D. Bet after reading this you all may have one too. Ciao For Now

Sometimes It Changes

     One day you open up your eyes, get out of bed and decide I need a change. Enough of this pity shit. What's going to happen is going to happen, just do what you do and take it day by day. Oh and the cherry on top of this emotional sundae is that today I see a charge on my bank card that I didn't make. So bank call in the am.
     After OT this afternoon I needed some toiletries so I went to CVS, a drugstore/pharmacy and found myself in the hair color section. I've been antsy, looking to make some changes. I can't afford my hairdresser right now. Her and I spoke and she will help me if I want to go blond again, I'm thinking I will at some point, but I can keep this myself. Now aside from going a different color, I cut my hair MYSELF! OMG what am I thinking, I'm not a hairdresser but it's not bad. I watch my hairdresser very carefully and over the years I've got some basics down. Doesn't look too bad but Tiff will fix the flaws. Onto new things.
      Speaking of OT. I must share this.  I read you can microwave eggs so that they are like soft boiled. So I brought 2 eggs with me to work. So I poke a teeny hole so they don't explode. I put them in a bowl and into the microwave they go. So I take them out and the shells cracked a bit. They're hot ( no shit!) so I take my spoon and lift the shell then all of a sudden. BOOM!! The egg freakin exploded, I'm talking all over the counter. The side of the toaster, THE WALL!! Scared the bejesus out of me. Two people come into the kitchen and there I am on hands and knees picking up egg schrapnel. We all start laughing. So I had tea, that's it. Tea. Good tea though. Lol
     Oh check it. I'm seeing my two English birds in 2 weeks. Lol I'm bringing them some real NY bagels and we will have a breakfast feast before one of them flies back to England. I'm looking forward to this. I'll school them on phrases like Youze guys, and fudggediboutit. LMAO I do miss England so much. I had fun, and I know I'm silly but it felt right. I'm sure my peeps there would flip on a steady diet of me, but wish I could afford to go there more often. {wistful sigh}
     So let's see, dinners been consumed, dishes done, about to go take off make-up, try to be in bed by 11. That is rare. Tomorrow's clothes are already laid out so I'm thinking tea. I'm always thinking tea.  So I am saying good night, with a bit lighter heart than normal :-D  ciao for now x

Sometimes OT is great.

It was a good day. Got home. Hubs is making dinner, not sure what it is but don't care. It's just sweet of him doing it.  I was just window shopping online. Lol. I'm looking at clothes and shoes. Need new ones and as soon as hubs gets his job I'm going to splurge.  Just a little. But time to stop being self pity all the time. Good blogs are coming. Stay tuned.  Have a funky weekend
Ciao For Now

No I'm Not Proud Of What I Did

     I lost it today peeps. Today was payday. My pay and the mortgage hit the bank at the same time. So my balance was less not more.  So I get to work, just relaxing before work and this incredible wave of sadness (self pity?) washes over me. I had to go into the ladies, and I cried. I just lost it. I'm working OT and still I can't add money.  So after I wiped away the tears, I tried looking at it other ways. Yes I know, trying to focus on yes, I had the money to pay the mortgage so I'm a winner there. And yes, this is true. I know this, but with other things going through my mind it just totally threw me off balance.   I will keep trying to look on the bright side, I truly believe it will get better. So bear with me. Writing may be sporadic. :-)  cue music...Look on the bright side of life - whistle whistle...BWAHAHA
     I saw some very cute Spring dresses, but bigger gals like myself, often do not like showing our upper arms. I want to get some ink. But hell no not yet, perhaps in awhile. Have to get my arms a bit smaller, okay a lot smaller. Plus have to save the currency.  I'll have some more blogs comic up with some fun things, I'm not all doom and gloom. I used to be a fun chick, still am, you'll see lol
Ciao for now

I Have No Words

     I'm busting ass and am on my break, we are training new hires and as I sip my illy coffee I prepared to relax a bit, I look up and there are 16 calls in queue. Busy that fine but the two gals across from me (who are training new people by the way) are comparing hair colors and passing pics around. REALLY? Im all for kidding and laughing but fuck, the old supervisor in me gets a bit annoyed at the lack of professionalism.  DO you job and dont give bad examples to the new peeps. They will develop their own I'm sure
     Im just annoyed at people who think they can get away with things, and that pisses me off. Not going to say anything, nothing will change, so Im just turning away and being the good girl going about my day. Not that I get anything for it. World is fucked that way. Now I do have fun and I think that the universe at times takes pity on me in that I get a string of decent callers and not the crazy ones the others here tend to get on a regular basis. WHo knows, I just know I should be in another job.  One day!!
     Im changing my entire look, Im working on the weight and I as we ALL KNOW ALREADY  I've lost weight, yes Ive been told I look lots different and well its great but when others have already lost what you have and look amazing, its a combination of resolve and despair. Does that make sense to you? If you've never really had a struggle it won't, but it does. I'm changing my hairstyle and going to get me some deep red lipstick and go out! LOL  Going to meet up hopefully with a friend from England and another one who now lives in Brooklyn. We hopefully will get together later this month. I am looking forward to it. Going to pack a lot into that weekend. Seeing people I need to re-connect with hopefully, catch up with each other. Summer hopefully will show much change and you know the interesting part, I'm doing this for me, no one else. Not for my peeps, not for those I love, but for me!!! I've developed a bit of a fuck it all attitude, slight one lol
   OMFG  I am the only one answering HR call at the moment  2 people are on not ready and one has been stringing a call to bring him to 6PM     I just can't!!! Really Just can't !!

OH btw - This is the pic of my hair that caused a ruckus  LMAO

      I have to add an addendum to this. Something just happened that got me a little choked up. The lady who sits next to me has been out for 3 days in a row, this never happens. We've had breakfast before weekend overtime, a few times.  She's very sweet, but shy and quiet. She has opened up to me over the last year. Her cat just died and she took it very hard, she lives alone. So I took a few moments to text her, to see how she was feeling. Seems she was / is quite ill. her blood pressure was heart attack level, she's running a fever. She said she was so happy to hear from me. And said how she missed talking and it made me a touch weepy. All it took was 2 minutes to text. We really don't know how much we effect others. How much just one kind word can make someone's day. It made me feel good too. Just sayin'.  Ciao For Now.

Six More Weeks Of Winter You Say?

    Well I say I bet you'd be delicious on a grill. Lmao. Well not really, he's very cute. This weather though is coming later in the season and messing up my travel to NYC plans. I'm hoping to meet up with some friends on the 21st. My sis and I want to try this new bar/restaurant in Brooklyn and it may be the perfect place for drinks and some food with two friends of mine. My friend is coming in to the states to help her friend who moved to Brooklyn. I'm thinking where she lives would not be more than half hour or so from the new digs. Have to run it past everyone. Sis is in!  Would be such fun. I see a few negronis in my future.
     Well my Imbolc candle has been lit all day. Reminder of a Spring that will eventually get here. But the day was marked with sadness. My friends Mother died today. He is a former boyfriend, now married to a lovely lady (also named Mary lol). His mom was in and out of the hospitals the last year and a half. As usual it's a relief, as no one wants to see those they love suffer. I feel so bad for him. He was very attached to his mother.
     Feeling about 90% better, so I'm happy about that. Hubs bought me Alka Seltzer for colds maxiumun strength. Well it fizzed me into feeling much better. It tastes like orange soda lol.
So it's back to work tomorrow. Going in to start at half eight. Trying to get some extra hours since my weekend OT plans were shot to shit! Oh and my UP band is charged and ready to go. I try to walk as much as I can during the day but damn I'm so tethered to my desk. I'm going to try and walk around. I've been parking further from the front door and taking the stairs. So hoping to get at least 3 or 3500 steps in at least. More would be better. I am cooking tomorrow night, so back to healthy meals. Bought eggs to eat for breakfast, packing salads for lunch. Very few carbs and only in the mornings. My NYC weekends will be a bit looser but tight ship at home.  I've been lax with too many excuses. I barely was able to walk all those times in England & Paris. But I did! My friend will tell ya I could barely walk two blocks with him. City blocks but still not far at all. I will continue getting better at this. I'm hoping to walk the city at night when he visits. With him, not just wander around in circles. LMAO. ;-D
     Saw a pic on Pinterest of the little mermaid sewing up her legs together. The point being, stay true to you. If you are going to change, do it for YOURSELF!! Otherwise it's useless. You will never be happy. I take pics of me with no make up. Some think I'm crazy, but hey it's me. Like me or don't. I hope you do. I'm pretty cool, sympathetic, good cook, funny and quite humble. Hahaha. Still a good point to remember.
     Anyway everyone, I'm headed to bed. So until next time, ciao for now.



   



   

It's Monday, And I'm Still Icky

     Sounds like a weird song. Well I was feeling better. Just took at rather long shower and yes it's 1am. I've been dragging again today, spoke to my friend and he said I looked like I hadn't slept in a few days, lol. Well he's right, I went and looked at myself in the mirror and all I will say is you know I'm comfortable with you to let you see me like that. BWAHAHA.  I'm thinking tomorrow is a much needed day of rest and Tuesday I will be normal enough to handle the phones, perhaps even do a little OT to make up some hours although tomorrow is a vaca day not a sick day. I'm going to repot my bamboo plant and do a bit of Spring cleaning, meaning I'm rearranging the area around my bed and night stand.not up to a lot but as I get the feeling I'll be horizontal a lot, I want it to look fresh and tidy. New sheets were washed and the cheery quilt my sis in law made is going on the bed. An accent piece really, as it's not to big but it's a sunny pattern, and Spring WILL get here. To make this seem even odder, my dad is getting more snow tomorrow. Ugh. I feel bad for him, he likes to go for daily walks if only to get the newspaper, but it's so cold he stays in. I'm glad he does though.
     All of a sudden, I'm going to have to go peeps, Still not well....until next time ciao for now

Imbolc Is Almost Here.

     Being sick these last few days have given me the chance to re read my old Book Of Shadows (& Light) Old Imbolc, chants and lore, rituals and yes even foods. This holiday is one of crossed paths. Some call it Candlemas, others the feast if St. Brigid. Others simply call it Groundhog Day. I have been to Pennsylvania, I went to the groundhog ball, yes it's a real thing. No, it's not like the movie. LOL It is a very friendly town, and I met some great people in my short visit. Met a group of people at "the ball". One guy was very interesting, he was a teacher at a high school in Ohio. We clicked and the conversation was lively and we had great debates on different subjects. He taught literature, he was very interesting, had a great sense of humor and was in fact quite good looking. I was surprised actually he hung around for the entire ball. My friend was with the group at the table but he and I wandered around, danced a bit (great band actually) then we found a table near the bar where we could actually hear each other. LOL great band and a loud band too. It was fun, and I'm glad I went. It was way back in 2006. But I digress on a nice memory. 
     Candlemas actually goes back to Germany, Google it, it's interesting. Imbolc is a pagan celebration of a Christian saint, who'd of thought it possible. Like I said, a crossover. It's the time to reconnect with what you want to achieve, as the snow and cold leave, and the earth starts to warm up again, you gather your dreams and goals again. Many, including myself, light candles to celebrate. This year I am taking a votive and placing it in the earth (dirt) itself, to symbolize the warmth returning to the earth. A nice thing , in case, it's too cold outside (it IS February) is to take a clear bowl or vase. Put earth in it and place your candle directly into the dirt so it's about half buried. You can even melt the wax into a hole you've made in the dirt and make a true "earth candle". Eggs and cheese are popular food choices. I'm thinking a nice warmed Brie with cranberries and walnuts. Anything with oats is also good. I have a traditional oatcake recipe but I tend to use that for later on in the year when we celebrate the harvest season. I'm hoping I will be well enough to actually do these things, if not a candle at the very least will be lit. I have pure beeswax candles just for this and also for Litha. (Later in the year for that one) I'm feeling a bit better but my digestive system is still a bit off as my stuffy head is clearing a little. So I'm on the mend I believe. I'm off Monday as I had taken a vaca day, so one more day to rest. All I've done is sleep, oh and play Trivia Crack. lol 
     I didn't eat much today at all. Some Wheatabix cereal. 2% moo juice and 2 packets of Stevia. Then tonight about a cup of mild white cheddar mac n cheese. Not the healthiest food, but not a lot. Also an orange. Of course hubs has kept me in supply of tea and water, bless. I'm actually looking forward
to a soft boiled egg in the morning, oops mean later today, as it's, 3am now. Can't sleep, been sleeping too much. This started Thursday night around 9 then hit hard, Friday I barely moved at all. Getting up only to wee. 
     So looking forward to my next NYC trip. My sis and I are heading up to Connecticut for the day. Seeing what we can get into there. It's about 2 hours east from my Dad. I used to go there on weekend jaunts quite often when I was younger and single. Hehehe. Had great times, meeting people, went whale watching one time, hit a jazz bar one night....good times! 
Speaking of my travels, when last I drove my car, I had just under 11,000 miles. My car will be a year  old on April 4th. I'm going to be under 12,000 miles. WOW For me this is a new thing. I have always had at least 14 or 15,000 by the time I had a car for a year. My Mustang had almost 100,000 miles on it when I sold it, well kinda close. 97,645 to be exact. I had her for just over 7 1/2 years. About an average of 13,000 a year. But my first Mustang in 1986, I had 121,000 miles on it when I sold it. I did that IN 4 YEARS!!!  Yep I had a duffle bag in the trunk that had, toiletries, make-up, extra clothes, shoes. I would just up and go. Made sure I had a credit card and some cash, my music and off I went. I always liked just driving and not always know where I would end up. I would call my parents, from a pay phone ( no mobile then) lmao.....again, good times. 
     Boy I'm all over the place, it's been awhile since I've felt like writing so I'm on a tangent ride. Plus I'm hot - I'm cold. The one thing I hate about being sick. Hubs is snoring away, kitty is off, who knows where. So I'm going to take the last sips of my now cold tea, and head to bed. So until next time, ciao for now.