What To Say

     Had a great weekend. Love my friends, concerned about one. Want to make everyone smile. Wish I had answers to all the questions in my head and in the heads of those I care about. Wish the weather would cool off so I can wear my new dresses. 
     I am tired, I'm going to bed. Ciao For Now peeps

Now What Will I Watch?

     Meaning that I saw the final episode of Broadchurch tonight. It was on BBC America. Excellent production. It's like reading a book. You get so caught up in the story that when it ends you feel a bit empty inside. Lol. We do that though don't we? Get so caught up in the lives of people in these stories, we use them to take away our mundane lives. I spent many summer afternoons with my nose in a good book. Or looking forward to the next installment of a favorite show. You have to be careful though or it takes over. Hubs is like that right now with the show Castle. So much that he  downloaded the remaing 4 books in the series. Remember I got him one for his birthday. So now he is either reading the book, or watching the show. I enjoy the show myself but it's getting obsessive. Glad we are going away.
     Oh yeah, we are going away. Lol. I am off on Friday. Saturday is our17th wedding anniversary  so we are doing an overnight in Lancaster  PA. It's about 2 hours from us and it's a nice change of scenery. We have no set place to stay but we will find something. One day I want to stay at the Lancaster Arts Hotel. It's a funky cool place judging from the website. Check it out if you're so inclined. Maybe a girls weekend, we all chip in for the suite. Always a good time.
     I feel a little odd. It's like I have been transported back to my dreary little world. The excitement of  a week and a half ago is now another beautiful memory. Life is good though. I can't complain. I just wish hubs would get out more. Filing for unemployment would be nice! He literally spends the day with his nose in the castle books or watching it on TV. Glad I'm working or I'd be a lot more upset. It's gets boring being home but that's one reason I was always going for drives. You have together out and mingle in the world. Staying home too long drives me bonkers!
      Aw peeps, I am going to bed. 5 AM is only 5 hours away. Getting to the gym early. Lots to do tomorrow. So until then. Ciao For Now.

Thoughts and Stuff

First a correction to yesterday's blog. It was just over a week ago not 2 that I had my amazing weekend. To you, still floating from it. Some people just have a way of making you feel so special. They ate a rare and wonderful breed. I felt special that's for sure. Okay enough. God someone shut me up. Lmao

 OMG today at work, I have a new dad on the phone. His wife had the baby 4 days ago and I'm walking him through the steps to add the child to his benefits, when all of a sudden, I hear his wife screaming! She's yelling "help me, help me," and she's got this fear in her voice. The man stops talking then she says quick the baby's got something stuck in her throat. The man starts to ask if he can call back I'm like go go now. He hangs up and I'm thinking to myself what could this infant have gotten into her mouth at 4 days old. This was their first child, I asked the Goddess to watch the baby and went on to the next call, but wow! Drama at the call center. Scary to imagine.
     Speaking of the Goddess, it's no secret I'm a witch, pagan, Wiccan, however you choose to word it. But to some it's still a frightening word. I wouldn't hurt a fly. But on Facebook I read an article by a woman who clearly had no idea what an earth based religion was as she kept referring to the devil. We don't believe in the devil. Satanists do, but not us. So how can I worship what I don't believe?  But I found myself laughing at what she was saying about Halloween. Basically it's the witches new year. The veil between the two worlds is thin so we honor our loved ones who have passed on. Christians gave All Saints and All Souls days. Also there is dios de la muerta. Day of the dead. It's not a crazy idea but she went off saying that don't buy candy at Halloween since witches pray over it and put spells in it. That we have time release curses, and that candy corn is the devils own .  OMG really? Okay I agree candy corn is evil, delish sweet evil.  And time release curses, for when the 1/ hour curses aren't strong enough?? And at what time do we start this praying over candy. I pray that I don't shove too many fun size bars into my gob! One person wrote on asking her if she knew the cut off time for candy buying. I was crying, so funny.
     Okay peeps, I can be a bear of very little brain sometimes. I am the type of person that on occasion gets feelings about people, that I lately have found to be accurate. It's kind of cool, and helps me tune into what's going on and what the pace is. It's happened at work several times and made for very easy fun days.  BUT  think a friend is hurting, and I can do nothing to help! I need to step back though because I finally realized the last thing someone wants, is to be reminded of is that they hurt, or feel bad.  They know I care, and if they choose to discuss it then I am there. They know that I am, I don't need to keep reminding them. So I'm bringing myself back to normal pace. Be the friend they know I am, you know, that cute lovable, sweet, funny, and modest gal. So that's it on that. Nuff said, 
     I found a new tattoo artist also a few days back. She is wonderful and I want her to ink me. Must save and also must be real sweet to a certain talented friend of mine who draws great, and it would be honored to wear another piece of his art. Maybe if I ask real pretty like, he will draw me something. He's got so much going on though with his football and work, but I'm not demanding. At his leisure of course. I love owls, fairies, moons, I would love him to draw something he thinks of when he thinks of our friendship. Now THAT would be interesting. Draw how he sees me. Oh that could be good or bad! Lmao. I wish I could draw. I can doodle but not the way he does and his daughter is just like him. She did a drawing of Ariel, and in her headband, she drew something. To me that was outstanding. It gave you another point of concentration. It drew your eye in. It's the details others years her senior forget to do. Brilliant!!   Well peeps, this overbearing, and sometimes annoying but always good hearted Baggins is headed to bed. Gym in the AM. So as always I say Ciao For Now 

I Wish I Could Select A Groundhog Day Of My Choice

     Well maybe more than one day, how about a weekend? I would have posted sooner but I was still floating on air from 2 weekends ago. Not going into too many details but I had such an amazing time. Sometimes someone takes what would have been a great night anyway and turns it into an amazing experience. I was so lucky to have this happen. I will eventually get over this. Maybe a year or two LOL 
     Today I got my arse to the gym again!!  Finally it's been 2 weeks. Today I was walking slow LOL  I swear it was like my body said,"its about time" or "oh hell I thought you had given this up" In the past it would have been the second statement. Today it was the first one. I have a different way of thinking, I missed going. Yes, it surprises me sometimes. I like how I'm starting to look and I'd be lying if I didnt say I enjoy being looked at. Not that Im going anywhere, I have my special someone, but it's nice to hear. I want to be so much more fit for when I go to England. I know it's happening and I can't wait to go. I have been forewarn that I will go mental when I see the tea aisle at the local Tesco.  LOL I am bringing an extra case with me for clothes and tea and Garibaldi's (a fantastic biscuit/cookie) I know aim not going to want to leave. Wonder if my friends would let me stay with them until  found a job. Maybe my friend has something I could do. Maybe be a maid for them  LOL 
     So lets reel it back in and talk work. I am feeling happy with my job, and funny thing today, one of the ladies who worked in payroll walked back in today. So it felt like old home week.I am back to my 8:30 to 5 schedule which is why I was able to get back to the gym. Oh peeps ever want to say things but really can't, I feel that way. It's all good things though I promise that. Well I just wanted to check in and say hi and I will be writing more, I am coming into my season. Love the cooler weather!! So until tomorrow I say Ciao For Now!

I finally have Something To Talk About

For over a year, the better part of two really, I have been trying to lose weight. That was my reason for this blog, I wanted to keep a daily log of my ups and downs, the emotional roller coaster that I was the correct height to ride. It went well for so long. I have readers who subscribe to my blog, I have people from countries that a year ago, I would have sworn were made up, reading my blog! Strangers and friends, all reading my words, for what reason, I really don't know. Who in Russia, what person in Latvia, no really Latvia? Well I finally can say after all this time I actually see a change in my form. A waist has appeared, and I can walk more than a block without feeling like I'm going to pass out. I actually have even pseudo ran across a street and "hopped" onto a curb. Look I have friends of all shapes and sizes and I care for them all. I am changing for me, I am no one to pontificate to anyone. I would never do that. I like people who look different, height, weight, different. We are all beautiful architecture created by whomever you believe, and we make up this neighborhood of ours. It's beautiful to see the differences, like lovely streets lined with interesting houses. Each with its own bits of special add ons, that add to the beauty and make each one unique. Look I'm not knocking cookie cutter houses, but when it's all the same, it can be boring. I refuse to believe we are created to be boring. We are created to live to the fullest of our abilities. I lived the first half of my life on the outer rim of my abilities. Some have said I wasted my youth, part of me agrees but what is done is done. I can only go from here. I'm no great scholar, I'm not a charismatic leader with a following of thousands. I'm just me, silly, short, animal loving, emotional dreamer me. I don't know peoples private thoughts on me, that's their secrets to keep. But I will tell you, I give thanks every day for the friends who stay by me, those that see past my outer shell, or as I like to call it my hard candy coating. The ones who see beauty where others see comical. Those who appreciate what lies inside and underneath.  Just very recently, I was reminded that actions speak louder than words. So very true, I hope my actions show the love I have for you dear friends and if I am lacking in this let me know. I always think it, but I can be a scatterbrained Baggins, and sometimes forget to say it , or I say it too much. Ah well, such is me.  I have a waist, go figure!!!

That's it, nothing great, just my thoughts, brought to mind by the cold medicine I've ingested. If it's all daft, blame Vicks NyQuill not me .  LMAO. Ciao For Now.

A Kind Of Thanksgiving

     Sounds like the title of a Nicholas Sparks book doesn't it? LOL I really have taken a moment today and I sat in a little par near my hose. Very warm out, more like summer than the turning to Autumn. I had just purchased my hubby's birthday gift. I brainstormed this one. He is so hard to buy for, he's a computer guy and I'm really not a computer gal. Oh I've learned quite a bit from him over the years but no where near his gift for understanding these machines. But I digress!  We watch a television show called "Castle". It's very good, cop show with a touch of humor, and he loves it. Boardering on obsession almost, lol, but it's nice to hear him laugh. Well I got two Rick Castle books and since he wanted cask I will put cash in the pages of the book fr him to find. Hehe. Taking him for sushi also. Will be a god night. Now today, I ran a few errands along with picking up his gifty. I came home and he was doing laundry. Does he do it the same as me? No he doesn't but he was DOING THE LAUNDRY! Lets focus on that. I got $65.00 in the mail yesterday from my dad. He likes to pay for my gym membership, as he's so pleased I go and he sees how much better I feel. I told him not to but he still sends it. It's a thing he does simply because he wants too. I can understand that! 😄 I have friends who post owls on my Facebook and Pinterest ages simply because they know I love owls. I have a job once again with people I like. Just know as I'm writing this, hubs put the kettle on and brought me a cup of tea. I ask you how lucky a girl am I?  I really am. I treasure all the little things that they all do for me.  I can be a handful, I can be jealous, I can be a total nutter! Yet they stay by me, and I love each and every one of them. I am so lucky to be urrounded by these people, who do for me, just because. Money? Wish I had a ton of it, not just for me, but for all these people in my life who are there daily, there for my ups and downs, these people who deserve everything good in this lifetime. I don't have that kind of money of course, but I would do whatever I can fr them. So yes this is a Thanksgiving of sorts. I am thankfull for them all.
     That's it for tonight peeps, it's been busy getting used to a schedule again. I will be more stray soon with my posts. Until then, keep looking, and thank you for reading. Ciao For Now

When Did This Become. Crime?

     I'm talking about flirting. I am a big 'ole flirt. I admit it, I enjoy it. It goes no further than that. Makes for relaxed time. Doesn't at long, and then it's bye. That was nice, see ya soon. I do it with friends, I've done it with strangers, I've done it on social meda. It's just me, I don't mean to but it happens. Well tonight I learned a lesson. Ths guy had said hello on a social media sight, saying he tought I was pretty. Well who doesn't like to hear they are attractive to o done, especially when you're not used to it. I replied thank you, very sweet of you. Few days later. I get, "so how are you" I reply and for a month or so we just chatted occasionally. Lately he's been more stronger in hs sexual overtones. Okay I can handle him, I'm savvy. Tonight I get asked what turns me on, what do I find erotic. Okay, flirting turns semi sarcastic as in I'll tell you what you want to hear BUT I'm adding me to it. I say I like porn (not a lie) but I find erotica in most things. The way velvet or fur feels on your skin, textures as you eat food, scent on a private place on a person so that when you smell it it reminds you of that person. That there's an erotic sense to most things if you look. It's not just sex, it's what stimulates all of your senses. Now please note that I truly mean this, I believe it fully.   Next thing I know he asks to Skype with me, tells me we could have fun. NO THANK YOU!! Not interested. Then he mentions 80's music and tells me I let my girly side show before. I write back yes I am girly, joked about Catholic upbringing. Then tell him a funny story about Duran Duran that happened to me.  He says he never got it. I not know who it went to. I texted a pal there to see if he got it. Don't know. But then I see I have a message and lo and behold its a pic of his junk , saying we need to stop talking, don't I want this? I wrote back no and I don't need that on my page. Don't do it again. Then he writes back, calling me a tease and a slut!! Saying I led him on, which I didn't do. I was nice, yes flirty at it times, but that doesn't  a slut make.  I immediately blocked him at that point. I have already deleted people for being too over the top. Hes the first full blocked. I've gotten lots of people asking for pics or to Skype or Kik with them. No no no!!   I was really upset, I texted my friend again, poor guy, only one I know on there, so he got the brunt of my freak out. Forgive me friend if you read this.
     Then right after I shut down my laptop, I started to wonder if maybe I portray myself  in a way I don't realize. Am I being a slut by being able to trump a guy in a conversation where he starts talking sex and I outwit him by replying in a more genteel manor and humor. I got so upset I actually cried for a few minutes. My friends those I love and trust , for a moment I thought I betrayed you all. I think I have no business messaging with people. But I have met some of you on the Internet, several of you who are now my closest and dearet friends, I know you trust me and I trust you. Has it changed so much in 5 years? Is it all just one big meat market now?  Look I'm not a prude but I'm not skyping or sending nudes to these men.they have raw porn on their blogs already, it's not me I can't do that.  I DON'T BETRAY TRUST, I DON'T SHARE ME IN THAT MANNER. There are so many ladies who post nudes but yet I don't see them as sluts. More power to them, I just wonder if they get ths crap in their inboxes?  I like to be sexy for a special person, not everyone out there. What's special about that? I think it's nice to do things for your special someone because they matter, and you want something  private between you & them. I guess  shouldn't worry about the social website but boy I wrote a rant on it! Now I guess I'll be a bitch instead, lol.  Guess you can't win sometimes. I'm just going to post pics of Star Wars and doctor who from now on. Maybe it was a good lesson, I'll say it again, I dont think sluts blush as much as I do. Lol
Ciao for now peeps.

Normally

I would be writing a new blog but I am a bit tired and feeling a bit rough. Not bad but just blah. I will write one tomorrow evening. I'm getting up early for the gym and then work. Do until then. Ciao For Now.

On being a grown up - A thought in my head!

I wanted to be a grown up so much when I was younger. Now that I am one, (at least chronologically)  I'm having second thoughts. I never realised how much my parents shielded me from bad reality.  Things like, Vietnam, having to hold down 3 jobs between them,  not doing for themselves so I could go to "good" schools. I'm sure just the daily grind wore them down. I never knew it though. 
      Now I am aware if such things, of money issues, of world issues, of all the "bad" stuff! I understand my parents so much better now. I'm scared of what is going on around me but because of them, I'm not making it my focal point. I will act accordingly as I must do as an adult, but I will keep my inner child happy also. I will have fun with friends, enjoy sports, go to parties and movies. Do silly things on occasion. Because the one thing they could not teach me is that to be a good adult, you still have to let loose. I never knew why my parents always had house parties and holiday parties. They would send me up to bed but heard laughing and glasses clinking. I now know it was at that time, they had morphed back into kids. Just having fun. Being an adult is not always fun. But it is interesting I suppose. Okay I'll be one!