Am I Becoming THAT GIRL!? Plus Good Stuff Too lol

     Years ago, someone told me it was not fun being my friend. I was too much work. I'm scared that I'm becoming that woman.  In scared that I am turning people off where I used to, for lack of a better phrase, turn them on. Thing is, when I don't have interaction, or things are scrambled to me I need to speak to that person. This is not always able to be done, for whatever reason. Normally it's just my mind anyway. I overthink every fucking thing. I realize this and gods know I try to hold back and not get frantic, but the more silence I get, the more I push. I just don't want to push people away from me, that would kill me SERIOUSLY IT WOULD!!  It's this season, I want to be with everyone, I'm jealous of those I love when I see them with others. I feel so alone right now. I know I have friends who I love dearly and they love me but it's not the same, not being able to give them a hug or have a drink or a meal with them, is it? Maybe I just feel more, I never really learned portion control. Which led to another situation. My ample figure. Lol but that's cool, I'm okay with that. It's taken awhile to come to terms with that and maybe it will happen here too, it has too. But damn hurry up. I'm so delightful that this blocks that from being evident. :-D
     I found more gifties today for the young ladies on my list. My friends daughters and my niece. I'm loving what I got them just hope they like them. Think they will. Hope they will. Ack. LOL Made some cards today. Only making about 6. My special friends only. Boxed cards for the rest, picked them up on Saturday. I have to look through my stamp collection. I want to find my hedgehog stamps for my friends son. He wants one. He told me this today, he wants one more than anything. His words. Can't blame him they do look cute.  He has awesome reptiles. I was able to hold two of I them when I was there. Little Bo. He was so small and cute, then Shy. She is gorgeous, and has some weight on her. She wrapped on my arm and settled but kept wanting to go up in the crook of my neck.   She is so smooth, snakes get a bad rep.
     I'm feeling a bit better tonight but still not 100%. Must get better as I'm so looking forward to NYC next weekend. Needed as I'm being a loon about friends. I'm needy when it comes to friends. Guilty. But give me a gentle sentence please. Although sometimes strict discipline is needed. Ooh daddy. Lol okay I must feel better. I'm getting naughty. I like naughty, speaking of, the adult store I get stuff from is having a cyber Monday sale. Yes folks, stuff your stocking with a vibrator. Hmmm, not in my stocking.......stop that me. I'm a lady. Yes but I can get my freak on, haven't had the chance in a long time. Getting itchy. But I'm good at scratching my own itches. Another blog for another time. So let's see, I've gone from needy, to Christmasy, to deviant. Yep complete night.  Well I'm going to grab some tea. Then I'm off to bed. So ciao for now. X

Much Brighter AM

     Sunday morning and Christmas season is starting. I'm not fully in the mood yet which for me is very odd. Thing is, life us hard at the moment. I'm struggling with cash, trying to make a house a home although so much needs to be done here. This is not how I envisioned things BUT it is how they are. So I must soldier on and do what I can with what I have. It's been quite awhile since I've had to juggle which bills to pay and live paycheck to paycheck. My in laws just loaned a bit of cash, not much (they have bills too) but it will help this month coming up and even allow for some prezzies for Chrimbo.  I am supplementing with baked goods as well. Sorry but this is a must. I have flour, sugar, etc to bake. And although the gifts are small they come from the heart. I am so so lucky to have friends I can count on. Wether they know it or not, a simple email or conversation brightens up my day. I will smile at the world and at them. I mean that smile, it's not fake and it runs deeper than one would expect. Theses people matter to me, put up with me and here's the weird part - they understand me. Better than I do myself sometimes. So Christmas gifts, yep, no options there. :-)
     Hubs is looking for work, and since I've been back, he's been very attentive. It's been 20 years and love changes. We don't see eye to eye in many things and that's okay, but I wish he'd tone it down in some ways and spice it up in others. Lol. God, are we ever satisfied? I'm really a simple creature, I like to go do what I need to (aka work) go out with friends, laugh a lot, cry at sad movies and have kinky sex sometimes to mix it up with regular sex. Is that too much to ask? LMAO
      I've already gotten a few gifties, I need to get my overseas ones as soon as possible for shipping reasons. It's mt Dad, I never know what to get him. My neighbor in NY said he's taking him to a strip club for a boys night out. :-) He's almost 87. Hope his heart can take it.  Hahaha. Maybe we can give him $40 in singles to take. I'm just trying to picture my dad at a place like that. Know what, I think he'd have fun, and I'm glad about that. I hope it happens. I know my neighbor will look after him.
     Well it's past half 10 and I've done squat so far today. Hubs is reading his A+ certification book. He knows it but is taking the test so he can add it to his resume as then it will be official. I'm off to vacuum our Brady Bunch carpet. Ciao For Now peeps.

Blah :-D

    I'm not feeling great tonight. Have a headache and feeling achy. Went to the gym this morning, did my treadmill and circuit. Came home and did some errands, yet I'm now having tea with the TV on in the  background and getting fidgety. I have some cold meds left from overseas, just took some. Thinking sleep. Tomorrow is laundry, cooking for the week and getting ready for work.
     Been stalking Facebook, looking at friends pics. A few groups I know had get togethers. One was in my fav place, Lancaster PA. Such great pics.   I often wonder though, is it me, that makes people never take a hugging pics with me? I looked at my pics and there are very few of them. Just an odd thought. Lol told you I feel rough.   I'd better go, I'm cranky. Hubs is rubbing my back and it feels really nice, so going to enjoy the massage. :-D. Ciao For Now 

One Line Random thought

Sometimes a not so great memory clouds an amazing one. Choosing to focus on the amazing one.

Half 3 - Ugh

     The only time I want to see this is if I've been partying all night. But not this time.  This time I fell into a turkey coma sometime around 11 last night. Day started early so I was done. Made a lovely pie, the cat then proceeded to make it fall on the floor. Bought one, along with some wine. So the day continued with no more SNAFU's.
     My sis made these apple pie cocktails. They were really tasty and I know this, as I had several just to make sure. Hehehe. The dinner was excellent, conversation good. My niece loved the down vest I brought her back from England, courtesy of my dear friend. He saved my ass but good. She didn't take it off all day. Lol
     Just want to say TGIF to all of you, as I'm in bed and going to try to sleep a few more hours. The stores are open as it's Black Friday. No way am I stepping outside this house right now. Too cozy in bed. So until next blog. Ciao For Now.

I Said I'd Be Back

     Well Happy Thanksgiving one and all. It's now almost 4am, I've been up almost an hour. Lots on my mind. It runs from being determined and confident to omg what am I going to do? I'll settle for a happy medium.
      Was in a rotten mood last night. Then as the night went on I felt better. Got some cuddles from the cat, kisses from the hubs, and I ordered my first Christmas giftie. Like I said before, can't do anything big really but I really wanted to get this for my friend. Things like this make me happy.
      I was treated to a dream, for almost 2 weeks I enjoyed amazing experiences and barely opened my wallet sans for personal items I bought. WHAT? Yep and I'm still in awe at this.  I had help getting there, with my accommodations, again, in awe. I have some amazing friends and on this day I am most thankful for them.  My only real sadness today is that my father will be alone on this Thanksgiving. His neighbors are visiting family, now they did invite him, but he said no. He has not heard from his lady friend so not going there. I feel tears coming right now. I love my dad and wish we were together. He has done so much for me, and it hurts not being able to celebrate with him.
     I will call him later of course. I'm about to go bake pumpkin pies to bring over to my in-laws. I make a mean pie. I'm a good baker.  I'm sad I didn't get the chance to cook for my friends in England. I think I will make cookies and ship them over.  Regular and spelt cookies, for my friend sometimes suffers tummy wise.  Hey if you can't make something special for friends who can you make them for.
      Going to quietly head downstairs for tea. Ciao For Now xx

Short Week and Long Thoughts

     Today is Wednesday, tomorrow is Thanksgiving. It's pouring down rain and cold. I really don't mind the rain, but it seems to be the general consensus to complain about it. I also don't mind the cold and as I'm looking out my office window I am seeing the rain switching over to a slushy mix. Guess we may find out how Tink (my car) does in the snow after all :-)  
     I also will be changing my calendar to December as my next work day will be Dec. 1st. This is always a mix of joy and longing for me. Joy because - Christmas. I love this season, it will be a bit more meager this year gift wise but my love for friends an family is a plentiful as always/
OMG  just need to interject  - I had a peppermint mocha this morning at Starbucks (treated myself and I and bouncing off the walls, yapping away and a bit giddy. What is in this stuff  LMFAO
     Headed over to the in-laws tomorrow and then chill for the remaining days off. Gym Saturday, Friday as well if I get the time as I am planning a major bathroom clean and bedroom sorting out.  I mean really - I found my snow boots in their box UNDER a quilt in the bedroom closet. WTH is with that?? They are a blue plaid lace up and oooh daddy - sexy sexy   hahahaha  They look decent and work well and they keep my pedicured tootsies warm. Keepers!!
     I am waiting for the holiday mooching ads to start.  I sound so cynical with that and my heart goes out to all of them truly it does. I know first hand what its like to live paycheck to paycheck and juggle bills. I've watched my credit score go from 765 to just about 600. It sucks but I am very lucky that I still have a rook over my head and a job to go to.  I wish I had money enough to make sure that everyone I know would never want for anything, to be able to enjoy life's adventures in style and elegance while laughing too loud and eating/drinking the finest available. To be able to share the wealth with those that need it. Put clothes on a persons back, a roof over a family, educate a child , allow people to enjoy art and architecture in whichever country they want.  To appreciate the beauty this world can offer.  I mean you can't take it with you.
     As of late here in the US there has been so much turmoil. Riots are going on, racial tension, religious tension. People being killed for voicing an opinion, or for just nit being the same. It is hard for me to grasp this, as i treat people as they treat me, I try not to judge anyone, but dam its hard sometimes. It seems sometimes we are going backwards. I hope calmer minds will prevail.  I'm not political, I can see both sides although I do lean towards conservative, I believe you earn your living and work for what you have, but if the ability to learn is not available to you that's a bad thing as well.
     Okay now its proper snowing out. It looks pretty. It makes me feel better. God I'm a simple biatch!  lol
     Im stopping now, going to make a cup of tea. Always a good thing. I'll be back very soon.  Muah  Ciao For Now

My Body Is So Mad At Me

     At the gym tonight my back said, "bitch, what are you doing to me?"  I said "back, shut up, you'll thank me later on." I'm pushing, but I've got goals man. I need to pace it I know, but I want this more than ever. Things in my life are changing, I need strength and energy. I want to be like a caterpillar and emerge a butterfly. Oh but shouldn't I work for a card company with lines like that. Lol
     So the snow we are getting is not going to be anything crazy. I knew it wouldn't but at least it won't be nuts getting home. Then again, who knows it may change again and we'll get pounded. Thursday will be spent at the in-laws and Friday is bathroom cleaning day. Such an elaborate day, be still my heart.
      I have plans, surprises for people I know in the coming year, maybe a new job. Yep I'm looking after the new year, once hubs gets a job.  I'm wasted where I am, I'm a fuckin great employee. I will do more than my share, help where needed, etc, and I'm likable. I get along with pretty much everyone. I'm well versed when composing proper emails. Enough about that.  I'm going to have those around me, want me around - big time!
     Like I said I am in pain, good pain though. Shower is needed. So ciao for now.

Quick Lunch Blog

     Okay back to work today and amazing how it feels like I never left. I, like a dumb bunny, forgot to set my out if office, so I had over 500 emails to go through. Good think i came in early today. LOL Its good to be back I suppose and it felt like I've never left. I was greeted with much enthusiasm, but one wonders was it that they are glad to see me or that they are glad to see me since the phone cue is tremendous right now. I'll go for the first one.  I handed out my key chains to the group and I am not sure how I did it but I got exactly enough. WHEW!!!  Genius I am, its the only answer. LOL
     Hubs has been amorous since I've been back, a very welcome change. We even took a little video of me LOL  Oh stop that, I'm an adult with a very healthy carnal appetite. Let me have this!! ;-D  I've also been continuing on my healthy eating quest. Not diet, healthy! BIG difference and I'm hitting the gym tonight or in the am, not sure which -  but in the next 24 hours my ass will be doing the circuit and treadmill. I made a promise and I intend to keep it, I had bought a sexy little piece of bedroom attire that now fits wonderfully. No I cant share that pic here - sorry  HAHAHAHAAHA
     My hair is back to looking decent, my god but over in England it had a mind of its own. OMG It was horrid. The lovely lady of the manor I was staying at (LOL) is a hairdresser and she recommended an intense hair treatment. I did one and I also gave myself a more ash blonde look. I may go lighter again come the summer but winter hair is here, I like it
    I am excited about getting more ink this year as well. Upper thigh this time or inner leg. I may get a collar piece instead ans I have been wanting to get rid of my "titty kitty for some time now. I shall see. This is a year of change for me.
    I am amazed at how nothing here has changed.  I would have thought maybe in two weeks that things may have been a but different,  I need to change my world up a bit. Spoke to hubs,  told him I don't like our home. It needs so much done and after being in a lovely home and also missing my NY home we discussed it and Im thinking in the new year - we are doing minimal upkeep and then selling as is. Moving into a two bedroom condo in 2015  Thats my hope anyway. More to come on that in other blogs
     We got bad news on a financial issue so not happy there.  I am weighing in tomorrow to see what my start weight is now. I lost just under 4 lbs while on vaca, hot damn!!
Just saw that we are expecting snow on Wednesday  its 70 degrees right now  LMAO   ah Mother nature is as crazy as me.  Ciao For now lovelies  

GOD!! Why do I love beating dead horses

Really???????   I do this  and its just because I cant verbally tell someone something and then I get all stupid!  I did it again in an email just an hour back I hope the recipient understands what I mean and that Im not hounding him   UGH Im an arse!!!

No Christmas Music Yet - PLEASE!

It has been a long time tradition that the radio stations here in America, will start playing Christmas music either on Thanksgiving day, or the day after. So imagine my surprise when I switch my cars entertainment system from my iPod to the radio and I'm listening to Michael Buble singing that he'll be home for Christmas. I roll my eyes and switch back to my iPod so now Bruno Mars is telling me he'd catch a grenade for me. Lol That's better, and I put my car into reverse, get out of my parking spot then off on my way home.  Look, it's not that I don't like Christmas music, I do, very much.  The music I like runs from the afore mentioned, Mr. Buble to Run DMC's Christmas In Hollis (which is the town next to where I grew up - cool huh? LOL) I also have an awesome jazz Christmas cd that's smooth as 20 year old scotch. I love Christmas.  My thing is there is a tiny part of me that gets sad when these songs come on. I don't have a large family, my friends are scattered so I don't wake up on Christmas morning and get to see the faces of those I love as they unwrap their prezzies. I want to hug and kiss them all and tell them I love them. That they mean the world to me. Truth is I miss the Christmas I used to have. Big family get togethers. Me, my Mom and Grandma cooking all night. Those days are no more. Everyone of us, all us cousins now have our own families. Different states and countries. No more kids tables, or tons of aluminum foil covered leftovers handed out to you as you left the house. Sometimes it feels like when my mother died, Christmas died with her. Yes it makes me cry, but then again, everything makes me cry. LMAO.
     I got my present this year already, I have friends who for whatever reason, love me. This is a fact. I love them too, very much. They are family, my family. They are special, hurt them and I will freak out on you and you will be the one hurting.
     So this was the thought running through my head at 7 am on a Sunday. I'm a bit broke this Christmas, so I'm thinking handmade gifts for the adults. The kids, well, it's Christmas. Always a way for them right?
     I'm out of here peeps. Going to put the kettle on and have some tea.  Oh my friend, I miss your coffee in the mornings, it was lush. But good tea, is always lovely.  So until later.  Ciao For Now.

So Long England

     I said I wouldn't cry - I was mistaken.
     Until next time my friend - I love you.  💋❤️

Ciao For Now

Really??!!

    In life things change. Sometimes for the good and sometimes for the bad and then sometimes it's just a natural progress as in the change of the seasons. It's just what happens. But we look at the trees in winter and remember the full blossoms and sweet scents through the leaves clearly and we long for it.  We can love the look of the snow and ice caressing the branches and how beautiful it is, wouldn't change it at all as it's perfect. You love how it is and the surrounding landscape. Take in the stillness and beauty around you. Yet in the back of your mind you will always envision the full sweet blooms of summer. For it was summer when you first smelled the seductive scent of those gorgeous blooms. You will always be moved and yearn for them. Perhaps you will one day again hold those blossoms in your hand, take in the sweet intoxicating scent and enjoy them.
     You know this was going to happen and as much as you wish it didn't. Yet you love the fact it did happen - it just pushes you forward to even more changes. You love the newness of it, the deep feelings of a sense of home. Yes-  Change is good Change is good Change is good!!  But god how memories are good as well. Don't we want it all? Lol   But as a friend recently told me. I'm only human. :-D   Ciao For Now

Feeling Proper Posh I Is

     I'm sitting having a lovely breakfast in the executive lounge, Michael Buble playing in the background. I slept with the Tower Bridge keeping sentry outside my window. I'm having drinks later on Canary Wharf. I am such a lucky girl. Some issues at home have crept up but as all storm clouds they have passed over for now. Today is a morning of recoup for me. My dear dear friend and his family/friends have made sure I have the most amazing visit. As I have mentioned PARIS was surreal. Was I really there? Yes I was. Now I'm in London. Having spent a week (almost) in St Neots. I experienced my first kitchen party. Very interesting as I spent about an hour of it with a turkey mask on my head. Lol nice time, copious amount of alcohol flowing. Not talking your basic gin and tonic. I mean lovely cocktails with a taste of lemon, mint, vanilla and caramel.  These concoctions were made by my friend and one other, well, new friend. I think I may have drank more in this last week than in the last 6 months. At home I tend not to drink as I need my wits about me since hubs has the skin issues.  He drinks to sleep and I'm worried that at any moment I'll have to drive to the hospital or someplace. So I nee a clear head. Which is why I may be letting go a bit more. I also know my friend will keep an eye on me and let me know if I'm turning into a total fool.  So far so good. :-)  I am in a bit discomfort this morning as my leg still hurts from the other day and my chest is a bit congested. Nothing serious but it's making me have trouble breathing do I am walking badly and stopping even more than usual.  He is taking it in stride and I love him for it. Today won't be too much walking and I'm grateful  for the reprieve. Tomorrow is a boat ride or a open your bus. I'm meeting up with another friend. I met her earlier this week for lunch in Milton Keynes. Will be a nice day. Then I'm off to Heathrow early Thursday morning. I don't want to go back. Lol. Plus I am so sad that I won't see my friend before I leave. Damn tears (again!!) they start when I thonknkf this. - yes I know. Don't think of it. Haha simple right? Yeah - no. Not for me. This trip has made me aware of so many things. Things that need to be worked on. Me for starters. I'm in pain. Not going to lie. But my resolve is stronger than ever. My hubs and I need to have a proper sit down. I need to improve my life. Steps at a time of course but I've allowed myself to let things slide. I love my hubs to pieces but we need to iron things out. My friend and his family, well, I love them. Those kids are wonderful. Talented too.  His wife is lovely and I'm sure happy to get her home back. Haha. I was made to feel at home the moment I crossed the threshold. She even cut my hair for me. Wow!! I was treated as family and also like a queen.
     My friend well hell, I love him to the moon and back. I wish nothing but the best of everything for him. He deserves it and if I've told him this once I've told him ad nausium how much I treadure our friendship. So now I've downed my last but of Earl Grey. And am headed outside.  I will be back shortly though to take a nice cleansing and relaxing bath before this afternoon. So until next time. Ciao For Now

Next Stop London

I'm excited, looking forward to it. But also sad, soppy. And already missing these people.  More tomorrow. Ciao for now

Paris Day 1 Just a quickie

     What can I say PARIS!! Tonight I am sitting on the balcony of my hotel room on Rue Pappion. Interestingly I know this means Butterfly street. I am, at this moment just so overcome with emotions. Today I was up at 5am. We met up with lovely people and then we took the Eurostar to France. We had 2 bottles of fizz and sandwiches. How interesting to have an international section but whoot whoot I now have another stamp in my passport. Was awesome to meet my friends sister at the train early this morning. Will see her later this week. Beautiful woman and huge boobs that I am envious of lmao.
     We all know I'm shirt and round. Today I walked so much. This is a good thing. I must press on but oh my god. My legs were killing me. These people I am with. These amazing people are taking it in stride. I'm both proud of myself and embarrassed both at this walking and having to cab it.
     Paris is amazing. We went by the Moulaun Rouge (spelt wrong I'm sure)  and so many sex shops.  I saw a few things I really liked. Hey a new toy maybe? I like toys. Lol
We got on a tour bus from there. Drive the city and when it ended we went to The Buddha Bar. What an amazing place. Wonderful atmosphere and drinks. On the way there had a nice chat with my friend as he and I took the cab. He's a wonderful man, he mentioned things to me and it's so warming to know that our friendship is one of honesty and trust. Such a rare occurrence these days. I mean here is a man who I know was genuinely concerned when I hit personal snag. He has always encouraged me to do better but in a way to let me know I'm fine but it would not be a bad thing to refine myself at the same time? Understand that? Okay if not. We do.  I have a lifelong friend that I connect with and that's just a blessing. I'm looking at the room light coming from his and his wife's hotel room right now. We share a balcony. Oh yes. I am looking out at ancient buildings that have balconied and window boxes. You can picture the old days in your head. There's a feeling about Paris that can't be explained. Only experienced. Tonight we found a lovely Italian restaurant with superb food and a hands on chef who was a delight. I got drunk. Are amazing risotto. Had lots of laughs and this brings me to the start. Sitting looking out. Starting up at the sky. Once again I'm weeping again as I thank The Mother Goddess for bringing these people into my life. I'm silly I'm soppy and getting sleepy. So I'll say good night and ciao for now.

England - I Have arrived.

     Arrived at Hesthrow this morning. Flight had a bit of turbulence but was fast. Good tailwinds. So I know know what it's like going through TSA security and customs. Not bad really. I will say Hesthrow is huge. My friend picked me up at the airport. All was smooth sailing until I couldn't find my suitcase. Finally did but not after I had a mini freak out. I was taken to Starbucks for a much needed caffeine jolt and then we got to his home where I met the family. They are the warmest, sweetest most welcoming group I've met in a long time. I can't thank them enough for all they are doing for me. I'm getting a bit weepy right now. These fabulous people are not only showing me this beautiful land but they are taking me to Paris. FRANCE!! OMG!!!  I will never be able to repay theses kindnesses , and just want them to know that now, that I've finally met those who up until this time were only faces on  Skype and FaceTime , that they are wonderful and I love them. Forget Buckingham Palace in the one being treated like a queen. My friend works hard and plays hard and has the biggest heart. Anyone ever try to hurt these people I will go after them and I mean that.
     I got to play with my friends sons snake.  Gorgeous oh and Oscar the family pooch is just soooooo fookin cute. Cuddle monkey he is.
     I met up with other family today as well. Mom and dad and brother and sister of my friends wife. Oh and the two nieces as well. They are precious little girls with huge lovely eyes. Was a lovely afternoon and u had pork pie for the first time as well as my first parsnip. I thought I had had one before and didn't like it but I was wrong. This was lovely. I couldn't finish dinner and I wa s saddened by this as it was delicious. Roasted chicken with a yummy gravy and veg and afire mentioned parsnip and Brussels. Then Banoffe pie for afters. I waddled off to bed tonight but not before a Sazerac nightcap. Was really good and OMG the liquor cabinet was a thing of beauty indeed. Can't wait to sample some of my friends concoctions later this week. I will be back in a few days with more. My heart is so full of love for these people and awe at the things they are giving me. Beautiful family and not because of the trip or sightseeing but simply by their character and if all we did was just stay home. I would be just as thrilled with my trip. In the local vernacular I am chuffed to bits. Ciao for now peeps.

I Should Be Asleep

     But I'm not! I'm not sleepy really and I'm kind of hoping that by being up now, I will be able to sleep on the plane. Yes boys and girls the day is here, I leave for England this evening. I'm arriving there at about half 7 Sunday morning. My friend is picking me up and I have a sneaking suspicion that his youngest will be with him. I can not wait to give her huge hugs. Gorgeous girl, all his children are beautiful.
     I packed my bag last night, just a few odds and ends to go in this morning. It's a bit surreal to be sure. I'm both excited beyond belief and calm at the same time. Of course my tooth chipped sometime between 10 and 4 this morning. The back part and although it's not bad I can feel it. And I have a pimple on my girl parts. I had a Brazilian done so perhaps an ingrown hair? Joy- LMAO but it's not going to take away from my trip. We are all adults here and understand that we are not airbrushed to perfection.
  Hubs is sound asleep and I'm debating on going in for cuddles before the alarm goes off  in roughly an hour and a half . I'm going to miss him so much. It's hard right now, me being the only one working, we will get by, I know I this.
    My mind is over active but all is done, work this week was hell so I need this vacation lol I'll post more later this week. Stay cool peeps and ciao for now. Cheerio! Hehe

4 More Sleeps

     Okay yes I am getting excited, hehe, soon I will be on the other side of the Atlantic.  I'm loving that fact that I even got a free duffel bag that has owls on it. Wasn't expecting it but was nice. Peeps I had to say I did something I've wanted to do for awhile but always felt I was too fat. Well I've lost weight so today I went to get a professional waxing down. I'm talking full Brazilian and legs. She was wonderful. I was a quite relaxed despite the fact that my girl junk was hanging out on the table. She and I were chatting about pain tolerance. Mines decent, I mean sitting 4.5 hours getting some ink can be painful but I didn't  think this waxing was bad at all. She was quick, and knew her stuff. I was very impressed. I love it and I really had no "fat" issues either. I'm so over being embarrassed by how I look. Not that I was, but I was obsessing over meeting all these wonderful people in England. I'm so dumb sometimes, I'm fine. I will be fine. We are going to have a blast. I admit I would like to chat with my friend now. It just seems odd not to have seen him in NY. This makes twice now. So close BUT I am going to see him Sunday. I said I'd like to not must, I'm not that possessive. I know I am over zealous  with friends sometimes but I'm not stupid. I like to share things.  Another dear friend, well she has gone above & beyond. She has loaned me things to take and I can't thank her enough for her kindness. yes you guys know who you are. Love you both and I want you to all the best ever.    Tomorrow is my mani/pedi. God I sound like such a primadonna. Lmao I just like to be well groomed.  Just chilling with hubs tonight. He's being so sweet and picking me up slippers tomorrow.  Although I love being barefoot. Dad keeps telling me to text him when I get there. I said Dad it will be 3in the morning. He then said call later then. Lol. I hope I can sleep on the plane.  Perhaps, an allergy pill and a few cocktails will put me out.  Hehehe. Well I need to get to bed so I'll say goodnight. And ciao for now.