Yep I've been Incognito

   The past few months (year really) has been very hectic, crazy, frantic, frustrating, pick a crazy adjective and insert as you see fit.   Through this all I've felt high and low and every single step in between. I am no the carefree sprite I care to be  LOL   I swear I am still fun but my mind is so occupied with dark thoughts and fears and hopes and well you get the idea.  I think its coming to a light at the end of the proverbial tunnel, at least I hope so.
    Through all this I have to say that I am so thank full for my Sister, she is the light I need to see and my rock. She has been there for me in such a way that I can only say I hope you all know someone lie this and if you don't, ...I'm sorry about that,  She is what I call a pure soul. She is there for you through thick and thin. I am most grateful to have her in my life.
     I also want to say if this lean time, so to speak has done anything, its' strengthened the bond I have with my husband.  I know that there are some out there that are waiting for him to fail. Some since the day I got married.  To them I give my middle finger way up!! He is a good man, he has faults as do I.  I know shocking, I do have faults,  no no  stop its true!! hehehe We are working as a team to get through this and hes ever diligent on bargains and I am so much better at cutting costs and we have worked together on bare minimum,for months now.  I've noticed we argue a lot less and when we do its not frivolous, meaning its for real things , not petty things that often get drawn into fights with spouses.  We atre closer and I can't wait for the days when we don't have to penny pinch as much and can enjoy some of our spare time together. Things that we did "just because" now get looked at (like is spending the money for a drive on a Sunday worth the price of gas), I don't look at things (or people) the same anymore and that may be a good thing.
     I love my friends, they know this, but I may be distant at the moment, I'm not on that dear old facebook near much as before, if I am its because Im playing Alpa Betty
Life WILL get better, its better than many so I have no right to complain really, So lets see what happens from now on
I'll be back , ciao for now

I Felt Bad But It Was Not Working

...the trainee I had. We let her go tonight. It's been almost 3 weeks and still not quite getting it.  Never asks questions, takes very little notes and doesn't keep them with her , the few she did take.  I really hated doing it, especially with hubs looking for work still. I know all to well how hard it is to get a job.  But I wasn't going to waste time either. Well I'm sure I'll be training someone else when the time comes.

I wanted to have a bright and cheery blog, but I'm not in the mood. As a matter of fact, I'm getting frustrated. I miss Mary, she was a great gal. She'll be back one day I know.  Ciao For Now

I Should Be Outside

     But I'm not.  Tonight is a big night. It's Litha, the summer solstice, it's also a full "strawberry" moon. This hasn't happened in about 70 years. Two big events on the same night. But I'm inside here, writing for the first time in days.  I'm getting more and more upset when I go on social media. People are just downright rude. I know it's a silly thing to say, but I'm talking, non thinking, non caring rude. This upcoming election, well it's just ludicrous who we have to vote for, we can't say certain things in a country that was founded on freedom of speech all because it offends a person or group. I'm tired of the entire thing. Illegals are getting benefits and help and yet myself and hubby are finding us again scrambling to pay the mortgage and bills. I'm tired of crying and feeling helpless. I've sent out my resume now, have to look for ways to help. I know it doesn't magically come to you. If we were in NY, I'd drive for Uber, but I'm not as familiar with the area I'm in now. Hubs looked into it too so hopefully he qualifies. He has been going on interviews galore and getting nothing. So when I go on social media and see all the turmoil it just adds to the angst I have inside.
     Sis is good and she had me laughing tonight, oh the shit that goes on. Lol. I miss her and hate that I live so far from her. I am already looking forward to my next trip up.
     Ah I'm just bitchin, I'm not happy, I'm not angry really either though. I'm just unsettled, I'm touchy, things that normally would never bother me are doing just that, my hair sucks, but that will change this weekend (yay). I'm going to work on a really fun positive blog, instead of the crappy ones like this.   Peace out peeps, until next time ciao for now

Night and Day Indeed

.    So I'm sitting in bed, lights out, and it's delightfully chilly in the bedroom. It's a half hour until midnight. I may be done with this blog by then. Lol.
So I left to go to NYC on Friday night.  Left later than I normally would as the sun is setting later and people freak out and drive badly when the sun is setting. I don't know why, perhaps they forgot sunglasses but there was rather heavy traffic. Got to Dads and we chatted for a bit then went to bed. I was getting up early Saturday. Fast forward to Saturday. It's just after 9am and my sister gets to the house and off we go, out to the islands or breakfast/brunch.  We went to a place called Maureen's Kitchen. It's over in Smithtown out on long island.   So I was expecting to wait quite a long time as I've been told the wait is lengthy but worth it. The restaurant has even been on Food Network show Diners Drive-Ins and Dives. Well we got seated inside of 15 minutes. So we are deciding what to have. Sis gets a French toast croissant stuffed with cream cheese and raspberry preserves and a side of sausage, I got lemon poppy seed ricotta pancakes, with a side of bacon. As I watch other folks get served, I notice the portions are huge. Ours arrives and oh man does it look fantastic. I forgot to mention mine came with fresh strawberries on top. Lots of them. It was fabulous. I think these were the best pancakes I've had in years.  The lemon flavor was just right and the strawberries were lush! Sis said hers was excellent and it looked heavenly.  We left about an hour and a half later and asked, so what do we want to do. One thing we both enjoy us just getting in the car and driving. No plans, just go. So that's what we did. We ended out at a town called Orient Point which is the farthest you can go on the north shore without going over water.  We spent some time out there. It was a very nice day, but it always is when I spend it with my sister. We are two peas in a pod except she's way more organized than me. I try, I do and at work I succeed. It's personal life I get cluttered. Lol
     She gave me some clothes to try if I want them.  In the bag were several capri pants. Tried one on tonight and well they fit fine. I just wouldn't call them capris on me. My sister is about 7" taller than me.  So yep, I'm almost at a perfect ankle length on these babies. Sigh.  LOL
      So I go to bed last night in a fine mood, only to wake up and read of this horrific shooting in Orlando FL.  Such a tragedy. 50 dead and 53 wounded. Worst shooting in America. So it seems it was  terrorist related, but of course the anti gun lobby starts.  I have no issue with guns except that you do not need a AK-47 to go deer hunting. Problem is that the people who buy guns for bad reasons will always find a way to get one.  I don't have the answers but my heart goes out to them all. The ones who died and their families/friends.  Also too the wounded, that they all pull through.
      So on a somber note, I once again say, hug the ones you love. Tell them you love them and  because sometimes tomorrow never promised to anyone.
 ciao for now,

He Got 6 Months!!!

    I am sad, and angry, and frustrated at the judicial system at this time.  That little shit who raped that UNCONSCIOUS young woman at Stamford University got only 6 months. The judge said it may be detrimental for him to spend any more time in jail. WHAT!!  This judge is crazy, I know he was paid off , he had to be, because if he believed what he is saying he is certifiable. This poor woman is now scarred for life, she is putting it past her and moving on she says and I applaud her and I know she has the best thoughts and hopes and I hope this all gets locked into the deepest part of her mind where she can then move forward, because 10, 20 , 30 years from now something will happen and its going to flood back and cripple her. She will relive the event and the pain will be real yet again.  This is what happens when you get raped, yet the POS guy Brock Turner, who shows no remorse btw, is getting off with a slap on the wrist.  His father wants people to go lenient on him as his young life shouldn't be ruined for "20 minutes of action"  WHAT THE FUCK?? What about this woman's young life? His son is a criminal plain and simple, he deserves no special treatment, yet he is a young white male in a very affluent area and money talks. DAMN SAD!!! I bless the 2 men from Sweden who by happenstance were riding by and saw what was going on and stopped it.
    People have fantasies about things like this and whatever gets ya going, I'm not a vanilla person myself, but I know the difference, I have to know!! I feel for this woman, my heart goes out to her. I know karma is going to come to Brock but the fact that a criminal is going to jail for 6 months (probably get out in 2) just makes my blood boil.

I'm done, I'm outta here, I'm pissed off  Ciao for now peeps

Monday Morning Is Here Again

    I have started a new blog 4x so far this morning, Nothing is coming out the way I want to say it.  I have this problem talking too  LOL   I will be back when I can formulate the words well enough to have them flow onto the page.

Just Sayin

   In life we meet people and suddenly it clicks, you have a friend for life, you found the family you didn't have. What makes it better is when you see that others are just as concerned and care abut those you love as you do.  Some get jealous, and I have my moments but I am glad, as it validates my feelings n that this is a great person.

                                             My Friends just know this

If you want to laugh, I'll laugh with you , hell I'll probably be the reason you are laughing (I hope)
If you need advice - I'll give you all the free advice you can use (worth every penny )
If you need space - I will let you have it  (but know that I am there for you whenever you need me)
If you need a shoulder to lean on - I have two. no waiting
If you need love - I love you , I will give you a strong hug and a kiss and maybe even bake you cookies
If you need encouragement- I have no problem telling you your good points and even your bad and I'll buy you a pint while I'm at it
If you need help moving -  I'll tape and label your boxes and even call the moving men for you,
If you need help moving a body - I'll bring a shovel (JOKING!!! (maybe) )
If you need help cleaning your windows - I'll clean the kitchen  I can't reach high windows ;-)
If you need to know how great you are - allow me to be your mirror, look at how much you mean to me and how you make my life better and I promise you will have no doubt how great you are