What Would You Do?

     Was thinking today. If you knew something was the last time, would you do it differently?  Even if it was unbelievably wonderful the way it was?

Been Training People Today

I really have enjoyed today so far.  It was cool to train a few on the people on HR and all its glory today.  I sometimes forget all the silly information that is in my noggin'  And nice to hear that I am a good teacher.  Now these people have a plus in that they know the other systems so this is just more added information but as one said, there are lots of little caveats within HR. It made the day go by faster and I've already got 45 hours in so all day tomorrow is overtime since I worked this past Saturday. Weeks total is 40 hours regular time 13 hours overtime. Not bad. It helps.
Hubs is sad, he won't say it but just now, he was very quiet and I looked over and saw a tear rolling down his cheek. My heart broke, so I cuddled into him and he's now asleep against me. So I'm sitting here for awhile I suppose. Lol. I am so annoyed at this company, they offer the full time job then realize he can't touch the new computers as he's not a full employee. So fuckin hire him! Ugh. So I brought home kabobs for dinner as a treat. It's been awhile and they were delicious. Slightly different spices from the place we used to go to, but really nice.
     So no OT this weekend. It's cooking time.  I'm going to make a bunch of things like grilled chicken breasts, lamb chops (if the store has them this week) maybe a pork roast. Then during the week hubs can add some veg and dinner will be quick to prepare. They changed my hours back to 8 am to half 4 so I'll get home early enough to cook it and not eat at 7pm. I'm going to bed peeps, it's actually almost 2 hours since I started, I got caught up in something so hubs went up already. It's going to be a rough day for him and I want to get up early so I can run to the store before work and get him a treat, a card some sweets, something cute, other than me lol.  So until next time Ciao For Now

It Busts My Buttons

    The problem with working in Customer Service more times than not is being the go between for the employee and the company
One woman today was saying that she was shorted for 16 hours on her last paycheck. So I saw that in the ticket she called in they made note she entered her time past the lock out and as I have said thats it and if we are in a week two you will not get those hours until the next paycycle. She was okay with that but she said there wa an additional 8 hours.  So I went back and did an audit trail and I found out that the prior week she had done her Friday time the following week again (bad pattern i know) so I let her know this except that this was a week one and it was approved so those 8 hours should have made the paycheck. So I contact payroll and am explaining this to the woman upstairs who says , well we don't see it.  I'm like how can you not?  I'm looking right at at the audit trail. So instead if taking my word or letting me send her a screen shot of what Im looking at she is asking me to contact the employee and her send me screen shots of her side of the time entry.  REALLY?  Lets just prolong this even more. I really understand protocol and I understand systems are in place for a reason but when I am seeing proof right here why is it needed to have the employee send in more proof.  I dont understand why the systems not flowing into each other on our end should make an employee have to wait for their money.  I am more and more disillusioned with this company's policies.  This whole new vacation additions for higher ups that must be used by end of first quarter, so not right just to make the books level out. As one employee said to me - Ponsey Scheme.   Hubs is on his last week at his job and will once again be looking for new employment. At least this time he will know to apply right away for the unemployment, our tax return will hold the bills for an other month maybe two if I pay minimums all across the board.  But I need to get out of this company soon.  In the time I've been here I've watched it slowly self implode
     I am so looking forward to NYC this trip will be a b;ast and Sis and I are hanging with an old school/neighborhood pal of mine who is a fab person. AND her boyfriend will be our designated driver so yes the drinks will flow.  Im not an every weekend kind of drinker but this will be a let the hair down kind of night. Then Im hoping to see some peeps on Saturday then back to work the next Monday.
     Hoping with hubs home at this point whilst looking for work he will do more throwing out and clearing rooms of all but the bare minimum so we can sell the house in the early summer.  Pay off the mortgage and start fresh in apartment as I still have hopes of moving back to NYC.  We shall see.  There is a bright side to this and I am going to focus on that little glimmer and fan it to a bright flame.  LOL   So I am shutting down my computer as its after 5.  Heading home and even planning to have some kebobs later this week, its been too long since the last time.  
So ciao for now peeps

Just Can't Fucking Sleep

     I have been horizontal in bed for almost an hour, I'm tired but sleep is not coming my way. Had a disturbing conversation with my friend about our mutual friend who died so suddenly on Valentine's Day. Seems she was speaking to the dead girls sister, she actually had an aortic aneurysm. Same thing John Ritter (the actor ) had. Seems she had a bad pain in her chest and called to her husband. In a matter of seconds her legs went numb. They actually got her to the hospital and operated on her. Somehow she ended up in two hospitals with two surgeries, ( I need to clarify this) but in the end she did not make it. My friend I spoke with got this from our deceased friends sister. She said it was hazy in parts as it all sounded so horrific and not real, like a medical tv show. This upset me so much. I have not seen this woman in years. Sure we always wanted to meet up when I visited but never seemed to be time. So now I'm here just feeling sick about the whole thing. Nothing we can do, you go when you go. That's not what I'm upset about. It makes me mad, the unfairness of it. But it is what it is. My time will come, as will everyone's. But I still find myself getting weepy.

     This is not the only thing on my mind, there's good stuff too.  My uncle is doing well. His eyesight is extremely poor, but he can still see larger print, I'm talking LARGE PRINT but it's a plus. Like I originally said legally blind is not total blind. I was talking with him tonight. My aunt had him call me to make sure I was okay, as she hadn't seen me on Facebook much today. LMAO.  Thanks for the concern dear auntie and I'm good.  Dad, well he's a kicker I swear. I told him to stay in last Sunday as it was very cold in NY,  I mean temps that felt like -8 on Sunday morning, but son of a gun, he walked to church. He told me he wore his coat and hat, and yes even his gloves. He worries me but I have to give him credit. He's tough! Tougher than me, I take after my Mom. :-) He said it was fine as there was no wind, so it was pleasant with the sun shining.  He's so cute, love him with all my heart. 

     Tonight, hubs and I tried this new hard soda. It was a hard ginger ale. Had about the alcohol level of a beer. Jerrys hard soda, I think is the name.  Drank it pretty quick, was sweet. Reminded me of the flavored wine coolers they had back in the 80's and early 90's. Think Bartles and James.  Or a fizzy sweet Blue Nun wine. The stuff we drank before we knew what was worth drinking. Although I can see getting shitfaced on this stuff too. Truthfully it's too sweet for me, and this is from someone, who at age 22, used to drink Southern Comfort and 7up. I think of that now and shudder at how sweet it was. I used to go to parties at a friend's boyfriend's apartment. He was older than my friend and in the music producing business. So it was a VERY VERY nice place, on the west side, midtown. Ah the mid 1980's. To quote Miss Babcock from the show Mame, " I lived!" Hahaha.  I remember one party I went to, this kid, I say kid, but he was about 20. I wasn't that much older, still way under 30 so there!! Well he kept trying to get me and my friend alone. We all somehow ended up in this butlers pantry type room or coat closet. It was a long narrow room. She and I were sitting along the wall, he was standing and telling us how great it would be, he would service us all night and then we would feast on him. I kid you not, this is what he said. I remember this very clearly. I couldn't stop laughing. I was in a definite altered state. Well next thing you know, the cheeky lil bastard, oh did I mention he was from England, yep great accent, he was sexy but blonde, well he unzips his pants and pulls his cock out. I looked at my friend, she had this look on her face I still can't figure out.  I was just laughing, in the end we didn't do anything. Had a nice kiss and he said he wasn't going to force us. We chatted later on that evening, actually it was more like 4 am. He apologized to both of us, I couldn't have cared less. I wasn't offended. Neither of us were. Alls well that ends well.  We went to about 3 total parties of this caliber that I recall. My favorite part of this one actually was when I got in with about 4 people outside  in the yard and we all started talking about the stars and what may be up there with them.  That was a great conversation. A bit new age and I remember none of the exact talk but I do know I enjoyed their company.  The Village , in Manhattan , in the 80's was lots of fun. I wasn't  a slut, don't get that impression, but I wasn't a prude either. I was familiar with clubs like Hellfire, Paddles and LaTrapeze. It wasn't an everyday thing though. I had lovers but I wasn't a one night stand type of person. Good thing too in hindsight. I just loved to go and listen to music and dance. It was great dance music, new wave, beat boys doing their thing on the streets , techno was starting. The club Magique, then became The Tunnel, Danceteria, Limelight. Then a few in Queens.   I'm having wonderful flashbacks. Lol Okay I will stop now, you don't want to hear all my boring memories. You won't have any reference points for the stories. 

     So now it's almost midnight, still not tired but I think I can fall asleep if I try. Weird blog I know. Surprised??  Lol 

Ciao For Now peeps, until next time.  

      

What Do They Mean

Been having weird dreams lately.  im always traveling in them but yeti alwYs end up in NY. My dad  and my mom have shown up too.  Wonder what they mean. Oh well night ciao for now

Indulgences. My 1000th post. WooHoo!!

    To lie back on an amazingly comfy bed with lots of puffy pillows, listening to music, sipping a great bourbon, feeling it warm your body as you float to a wonderful place in your mind. Been there, done that, but how great are indulgences. We need them don't we. And the great thing is they can be as small as taking a few moments to savor a rich dark chocolate or a full week on a trip you've planned, and all things in between.  For me it's spending times with friends.
I am seeing Sis soon and hopefully comes the summer or fall to FINALLY ( yes that in caps) hang out with my friend from overseas. I am trying to get to see my cousin this trip up too. Great person and I haven't seen her since she was a kid.  Indulgences are also watching someone enjoy a new experience. Someone laughed at me once because I was dining in a restaurant not my norm. It had new silverware for each course. Hell the fact it didn't have plastic knives and forks were a step up. Lmao
     Sis and I indulge, we try new restaurants and new drinks, let me tell you Yelp has gotten us to some good places. Sadly two of the places have since closed down. We wrote good reviews too.
Another indulgence of mine is scent. I adore it. I just splurged after putting a month and a half worth of savings to get myself a bottle of Chanel Coco Madamoislle. I would have loved another bottle of Balanciaga but watching the pocketbook. I went with the parfum as the scent is longer lasting. A nice spritz in the proper areas and it lasts all day. I've already gotten several compliments. It's a lovely spicy scent.
      So indulgences, you don't need a huge pocketbook to have them.  Right now I'm propped up in bed against 3 pillows on freshly washed sheets. I've taken a nice warm shower and the sheets feel so soft. I have my cute little Jammie's on, I bought them for England. Purple top with pants that are Capri length with cartoon foxes on them. I also have my Pirates Of The  Carribean throw blankie over me. It's so warm and comfy. I have a stick of incense burning and tea.  Oh yeah - indulgence.  I'll be lucky if I stay awake until the show I want to watch comes on. Property Brothers on HGTV ooh look, another indulgence.  Haha.
     I'm still not feeling 100%. All the sickness I've been feeling has settled in my intestines.  NOT FUN.  That's as far as I'll say, use your imagination;-)
     So go indulge peeps, enjoy life! Ciao For Now

Fear

We all have fears, they all make perfect sense to us.  We may even share similar ones. Me - I fear I'll be forgotten. I don't fear death, I don't even fear being alone. But I do fear being forgotten. Like the whole time I was friends with someone was just that - time! Nothing more nothing less.  I would love to know that on occasion someone will smile at my thought. Or laugh at something I did and say - she was fun.  I'm glad I knew her.
     I see all these posts on my friend Kas' Facebook page.  Mine is there too. And I know it's a bit morbid but I often wonder how I will remembered. I hope it's good. :-)
     I'm home today, been sick this entire long weekend which sucks.  But I don't want to stray far from home.  Hopefully I'll be okay tomorrow.  I am going to work no matter what.  I'm just saying hi. So take care peeps.  Ciao for now

After years of bullshit

I'm done!  If your in my life you mean something to me.  That means you will posts and notes on occasion.  I will share things. I will share good AND I will share bad.  Sometimes I'll be sad. Most times I'm happy.  I will be there for you if you want to share and if you tell me something makes you sad - I will be there for you.
That's it - simple!!!

OMG

     I had a blog all ready for today, that was scrapped as I just found out that an old friend from school died today. She had a brain aneurysm. I am still in shock. I just chatted with her yesterday on Facebook. She was a lovely woman, her son is an up and coming comic and she was so proud of him.
Two years ago when Queens Village had terrible snowstorms she asked me if my Dad needed anything as she would bring over whatever he may need as most folks list electric. Dad was without power but he was okay. She lives pretty close to him.  That's the kind of woman she was. I wish her a peaceful journey into Summerland. Kay's you were an awesome lady, glad I knew you.  R.I.P.

Thames nothing for granted and p,ease let those you care about know it. We do but it's nice to hear. I say it a lot I know but I love those I live with all my being. You can bet on that!!!

I need to get this out OR I will burst

     I'm putting it here because well its a rant of sorts, its not a pity party as I dotn feel all upset but there's a part of me that is a little jealous. Its not going to make or break me at all but Im tired, its been a fucking crazy week, people on the phone have been especially stupid.  To quote Murtough from Lethal Weapon, I'm getting too old for this shit!!  LOL  Not really but I am getting tired of hearing people bitch and yell at me because they are pissed off.  Like before  - I get a guy yelling that he cant enter his time.. Um  dumbass, its past lock out time, like it is every week at this time!! so you fuck up and its my fault!??  Ah well  I am staying at this job as long as I have to and not a moment longer, but I digress  hehehehe
 All day today, as I expected, the flowers all got delivered, Sharis Berries and Edible Arrangements are on many desks. Everyone is talking about all the restaurants they are going to such as Mortons and J.Gilhooley and Ruth's Chris.  I don't need flowers or restaurants, but part of me misses it , its just a nice change. Not for show but to treat my loves to a nice experience.  I work fucking hard all week and I HATE HATE HATE having to scrimp with everything. I don't know what I'm saying I guess I just need to get this superficial cape off my shoulders I guess, I will look at all my beautiful pictures I have of the flowers that I've received in the past, red roses , beautiful white roses and other types of goodies and sweet things. I even got a cook book!  lol  Love it  I know love and I return it and am so lucky that I have a hubs, and family and friends that love me.  I just hate that you feel pressured on this holiday, why wait for one day, I want those I know reading this,  that if I could, I would have sent them dozens of roses and yet one rose is just perfect too, I wish you all the love your hearts can hold and whomever you love (spouse, lover, friend)  returns that love and doesn't need a special day to prove it.  Ciao For Now

So It's Thursday

     So far this week hasn't been too bad at all. I'm glad I said something about wanting I go into emails, my manager has been putting me in emails. I like it, put on my headphones and chill to the tunes.  I found out that my co-worker got the job I applied for.  I'm quite pleased for him, truly. I don't think I'm meant to go further in my department. I'll either go to another division or another company altogether. I'm back to the "until hubs gets a solid job" I'm staying here. Ah well we shall see where it goes.
     I'm freezin lately, it's been so cold, and this Sunday it's going to be a high of 19! Brr baby. It's also Valentine's Day.  Hubs informed me that I'm getting the same thing as last year, yep nothing. He can't afford it and I don't want him spending money that we font gave on me. I bought us a 160 count nix it Yorkshire Gold tea as a treat, so I said there's our Valentines. We enjoy a nightly cup. I miss flowers or gifties but they are lovely extras that will wait and in the meantime we do what we need to to.
     I did decide that I'm pushing my trip to NYC forward a week. So it will be the first weekend in March. The week I was going is husbands last day of work. How can I leave him on a day like that. He said go, but no, it's his last day, he will not admit it, but he needs me there. Wether or not he realizes it. Lol plus it's the loving thing to do, told Sis, she understands.
     So it's been good as I said, but today I found out that my uncle was told that he is now legally blind. He's quite depressed. I spoke to my Aunt this afternoon. He has an appointment at the VA hospital to help him and take some more tests.  I feel so bad for him. He loves to read and this will be a major slow down. I'm going to see if I can find some large print books about the Civil War for him. That's his passion. He loves that era, actually all American history. When they visited us years back he was so happy to be here in this area. We went down in Leesburg, and along some of the civil war paths. I told my Aunt I would call back this weekend to speak with him. I asked my solitary witch group to send him strength and healing.  My great Aunt Nancy went blind when she got older. I tell you, I am so thankful every day for my Dad. He is in quite good health for his age.
     Well I'm going to get ready for bed. I'm still not feeling 100%, hubs sharing that cold if his. Haha
I wish you all that you have a lovely Valentine's Day. Ciao For Now

Sorry Guys

Last night was nice, pancakes for dinner is awesome.  BUT hubs is really sick and he's passing on to me.   Sweet of him  right? Lol. So I remember seeing 8pm but not much after.  I must have been snoozing by 9. So no blog last night.  Sorry.   More later. Ciao for now.

Ain't That A Kick In The Rubber Parts

    As we know I did not watch the Super Bowl' but they had a big pool at work. You know where you  buy boxes for money, in this case $5.00 a box. If you win, you get a bit of all the money collected, yeah. So I had a fiver in my wallet and well, why the hell not. I'll contribute, everyone was. So I wrote my name in a square on the page. Well this afternoon, one of the ladies says congratulations on winning the pool. I'm like I didn't win anything. She pulls out the copy if the original paper and asks me if that's my signature. I look at it and well yes it was.  How about that?! I won the 2nd Quarter.  It's about $75.00 maybe a bit more. What a nice surprise. Haha, yay!
    So basic day, not much to talk about. Oh but I was on Facebook earlier on one of the big girl groups I'm in. Someone was asking about finding wedding gowns in large sizes.  Her sister was having a hard time finding one.  It brought back the joy of shopping for one myself, and I'm being sarcastic here folks.  First off, you're stressed because you're getting married and you've had this dream all your life of what it's going to be like and what you will wear. Hell I had my color scheme by 4th grade. I also had just that at my wedding. Maid of honor in hunter green velvet off the shoulder gown with a glowing back cowl for knack of a better word. She looked gorgeous. Anyway, getting back to today. The bridal shops all mark the sizes down smaller so even an average size of 12 of 14 may find themselves in a 16 or 18. Not cool man!! So thus woman was saying she was having a hard time and without saying it I got the feeling they were strapped for money.  It made me think of my wedding gown just hanging in the vilest in its big pink bag. I thought well, she can have it if it's still in good condition.  It will gave to be cleaned again but if it's not worn and still good, it's hers. So I said she could have mine and put some pics up.  She loved the gown and asked to private message me.  We chatted and I was right. Her sister said things to her like maybe we don't need a wedding cake, or I don't need flowers. Truth is you really don't. If your marrying the right person none of that matters. So I said I will check it when I go to NYC end if the month and I'll see about the shipping costs.  She wants to psy that for her sister.  Her sister is very excited and said it was awesome of me to offer this.  Meh, I loved the day I wore that dress. But I gave no children to hand it down to, nor would anyone I know got it of want to wear it. So this way it gets to go to another happy party. We chatted a little and I gave her my number and said I'd call her soon.  I'm mentioning it here because if I tell anyone it would seem like I was boasting and I'm not. Just a nice thing to do. My gods, I've had my friends and family help me so much lately. I know how it feels to need help and I can help this woman.  ( crossing fingers dress is in good condition ) So that was my night.
     Hubs has a cold and I think he's given it to me. Throat is a bit scratchy , but had some honey and lemon in hot water. Feel better. Took some aspirin and heading to bed. Mardi Gras party at work tomorrow. Ooooh and pancakes for dinner.....yum.  So until next time. Ciao For Now

Super Bowl Sunday and I Don't Care!

.    I don't hate American football, over the years I've developed a lovely apathetic attitude towards it. I did my stint, I was in the color guard in high school. Was at all the football games. Our school had quite a good team. We also had a kick ass rugby team. Some division over in Ireland invited us to play with the boys over there, and I know we won several games. They weren't expecting the Yanks to fare so well I'm sure.  Surprise. That was years ago though. I watch the Barclays premier league games on Saturday mornings here quite often.  I don't shout about it though as I'm only in this about 2/3 years and I've not watched for years like those I would speaking about it with. As Mark Twain said, better to be thought a fool than open ones mouth and confirm that fact.  Or it's something like that :-D

     So it's been a lazy Sunday, reading magazines after cleaning was done. Enjoying a fresh brewed cup of tea and settling in for and afternoon of whatever. I've diced tomatoes, onions, herbs, and roasted some garlic. This will be tossed over our rolotini for dinner, with some pignoli (pine) nuts thrown in. Simple, good, and pretty healthy. The pasta is whole wheat and only oil is virgin olive oil. 

I must make a note that this blog will turn into a place of articles for things like this. But not to ad nauseum status. I mean I hate when people who are losing wright of want to lose weight canly talk about that. There us more in this world. On that note I will mention an article that was in Diabetic Living. I bought it, not because I'm diabetic but it had some good recipes listed.  Why not right?  Well this man is a reporter in DesMoines. And he was talking about his wake up moment.  He was honest and I tell you it's hard to always be that way when you have a great amount of weight to lose. He voiced in at 563 pounds. He spoke of losing his sense of being, all things he can't do anymore. I know all too well what he means. Now I'm nowhere near that fat but damn if I don't understand. I understand not wanting to go out, not doing anything, how it can be a struggle and knowing what you need to do, but not having the energy or even want , to do any if it.  Thankfully I have learned to do these things, I fail some days but that's okay too as I've learned to forgive myself as I alwatpys freely do with friends and family. His article was a really good read. The food recipes were very inspirational as well. It an enjoyable magazine and worth looking at even if you don't have diabetes or are boarder line on getting it and need to step up.  

      It's been a week of ups and downs for me, so business as usual.  I've learned that I can take my breaks and tell my boss I will do that as soon as I'm done. He's cool with it, but of course I usually just do it right then as that's just how I am. Lol. But I will take time in the afternoon to brew a lovely cup of tea. I use a loose blend. It's the Yorkshire gold I love but loose. I have my Doctor Who teapot that I rinse with boiling water then throw in my tea after I fill it with more freshly boiled water and go back to my desk and enjoy a proper cup of tea. I have my strainer for my teacup and my co- worker said when he watches me he wants to have a cup and he doesn't even drink tea.  Lol he said I get so much enjoyment from my little afternoon ritual that it must be really good. I laughed and asked how could he not drink tea, he's Indian.  Lmao.  

He's young and doesn't drink caffeine. He's easy on the eyes too. He's very, I'm not sure how to say it without being insulting, but very hi class.  He's not snobby but he's the type of man that many US men don't get but US women like. He's meticulous, but he also went to military school so that may have something to do with it. He dresses well, and he knows how to wear a scarf!  I know some American men are that way, usually executives, but even up to the 1960s men here were like that also. We've lost something I swear. Grooming and appearance say something. Although if you had seen my Mustang you would have though I lived in her.  Lmao. My deck is a different story, nothing and I mean nothing is out of place. I've gotten compliments on it. Someone sat there while I was on vacation and she said it was the prettiest desk ever. I have my bamboo plant, my teas, my pretty pics. Little statues, pink water bottle, pink fan, pink little Buddha cat and my pens and post-it's are colorful. My desk is very me, if that means anything.  Lol. 

      Hubs is just waking from a grandpa nap and the cat is upset as she was leaning into him but now she's abandoned her. She's taken solace in his warmed up spot on the couch as he's gone into the kitchen.  So glad she'll not be scarred for life, hahaha.  

      So peeps just dropped in to put down some thoughts and say hello.  Ciao For Now 

Have You Ever...

...been afraid to fall asleep because you felt like if you did, you wouldn't wake up?

Sitting In The Parking Lot

As I sit here before work I'm thankful for a job, I'm thankful for my car that gets me here and that I can afford to put gas in it.  I dud not get that other position as as a friend so bluntly put it yesterday- better luck next time! Yes indeed, but the next home won't be here at this company.  Oh my manager couldn't say enough of how great a worker I am.  Whatever, I know this. The whole day just left a bad taste in my mouth.  Hubs has a few more weeks left. More concerned about him anyway.
     It snowed last night and there's not much here but NYC is getting it. I hope it's clear at the end of the month. I am going up to visit and see a friends band play.  Crossing fingers.  Well it's almost 8. So I'm heading upstairs. Have a fabulous weekend peeps. Ciao for now

Same Song As Yesterdays Blog, Different Response LOL

 The difference a day makes, interesting. I guess there will always be a deep down feeling that may on occasion come to the surface. I was feeling a bit weak yesterday but stronger today. We all have ups and downs. But i never want to forget, as it was beautiful. its different now and just as beautiful but in a different way and that's very cool.  I am working this weekend Sat and Sunday as we are slammed on emails and i can use the OT. I'm getting that very positive feeling again. It was a good celebration of Imbolc last night and I am feeling quite rejuvenated.

Just wanted to make the observation and share it and I will admit I am addicted to the new show Lucifer. I love it   I hope it says on longer than one season, not sure , it may be too kitschy for some and well the overly religious may have an issue with the show itself, but oddly the star Tom Ellis is the son of a preacher and several in his family are also preachers  LMAO

Ah well until later peep, Ciao babies.....

Music

All it takes is one song to remind you of the past!! DAMMIT!!!!   Good thing you have a handle on it (for the most part, damn onions!! HA :-D

I do love doing emails though and listening to music, it makes the work day so much more enjoyable.  If you remeber I said I was going to ask my manager about doing it full time when I have my interview. Well I had the interview, I dotn know, I have as good a shot as any of the others. But he said that he is going to rotate emails which is good I suppose as Im sure we all feel the same pretty much LOL     Ah peeps it a decent day, although its been overcast all day. I have two friends who are having birthdays tomorrow, one is going to be 24, old man  hahaha and the other is not 24 ;-)   I won't say how old as she wouldn't like that. but I love birthdays :-D

Just stopped in to say a mid day hey, may be back tonight, may not, we shall see. Ciao for now

There You Are

   Well I did it, I added the pink. Will I keep it? I don't know, maybe. Its fun but as my hairdresser told me this has a tendency to fade out quicker than the blonde. That's fine, gives me more of a chance to switch it up and keep on changing. A work in progress right?   I am indeed. My cousin loved the hair, she said not to lose my flair.  LOl  I have flair? Damn right, dont we all?  It's up to us whether or not we want to let it shine through.  Hubs didn't care for the pink, I looked at him right in the eye and asked him "When did you get so old and lose your sense of fun?"  He stared for a moment and then I think he realized what I was saying, He said, I am not not fun. So I said then lighten up, it's just hair. It grows back and gets cut all the time. So here is a pick of the hair

yep it's cheeky, but hey you have to be a bit whimsical in this life or else you get cold and bitter, It's that flair that my cousin mentioned.
     So it's lunchtime and I'm eating an sachet of oatmeal. I have food that i forgot to bring.  I also have the makings for a one minute muffin that actually has no carbs in it.  Its made with flax meal, egg or egg beaters, splenda and baking powder. There is something else I think. Its really tasty and hey its nice toasted with tea for a little treat at night.  I may make it for breakfast tomorrow along with a scrambled egg.
     It's life as usual now, no more holidays until Presidents day which is February 15th., so it makes for a nice Valentine's day weekend. Not that we are doing anything  LOL  Well maybe Outback. I know its not Smith & Wollenskys but its in the budget and its a decent steak. I make no apologies for it. I would apologize if it was Olive garden, ugh the Italian blood in my veins boils when I hear someone say what a great italian restaurant. I mean okay Im sure its tasty but when you've grown up with Nona and Mom, and you actually, (yes I make a damn good meatball and gravy) it's hard to find a place out that you like.  LOl   But it's the joy of no clean up isn't it? hehehe
     So I was this close (fingers put really close together) to getting into it with a chick on facebook. She was saying how fat girls are just ugly and there is nothing anyone can say to change her mind.  I stopped myself because it wasn't worth it. There are people that will just tear others down for any reason and I'm sorry, but looking a certain way in not a good reason. We were talking about it at the hair salon on Saturday. My hairdresser wants to gain muscle, she's slender and she feels too weak. So she wants to gain weight in her arms and butt area. I want to lose my belly area, One of the other ladies can't gain weight at all and she is too thin to carry a child. She is so sweet, I hope she gets preggers.  Is anyone happy with who there are. Ina  world that strives for perfection, I say embrace your imperfections, thats what makes you you!!   Too tall, Too short, Too fat, too thin or a mix of several  like me  LOL  Be happy, if you don't like something and want to change it, then do it for you, not to fit in.   Go us!!  LOL  
     So peeps its getting a bit crazy, our systems are down and I am having to double on my work because of it   oh joy!! :-D but Im on emails so thats a huge plus.  Until next time   Ciao for now