Memorial Day Weekend

So this weekend, well Momday to be exact, we honor the men and women who lost their lives while serving their country. Here in VA, the DC district, and Maryland, we are seeing an influx of motorcycles as Rolling Thunder comes in to pay tribute to their fallen brethren. I have witnessed a teeny section of this and let me tell you watching almost 100 motorcycles coming on to the highway is very impressive. I can only imagine 1000's.  So many forget what this holiday means, so many have no respect for this country. I agree we have a very bad government at the moment. I am not impressed with this country's leader and staff at the moment. But this day is for all that served and did not return. They deserve to be remembered.  I do, that's for sure.
     Today has been a mix of rain and clouds so not the nicest day although the temperature is pleasant. We've been vegging, totally non thinking kind of day. Nothing planned, just some music, Facebook, straightening my make up area. Like I said, nothing special day. Hopefully a drive to the mountains and farmers market tomorrow.  I've been sorting my thoughts, if you understand me.  Just thinking. More money crap has come up, but we will work it through. It's life, I'm trying to stay upbeat as I keep looking for work.  It's hard sometimes, as often as you feel happy, you also feel sad. Unless you've gone through it, you may not get it, and I know some of you have.
     But every day is a new start. Weight is coming off slow but steady. I'm okay with that. I'm on several weight loss boards on Facebook and although not the way I'm doing it, there is still much support and lots of funny posts. Plus Sis is a huge help. She is a great advisor and inspiration. Another inspiration is my overseas friend, I swear he gets thinner every time I see a recent pic of him.
His girlfriend has also lost weight, in their photos from their holiday they both look fab. She is stateside, and I'm hoping to say hi in person one day soon.
    Tangent - it's rainy gently but the windows are open and that sweet mowed lawn smell is coming in. I love that smell.
     I went to get a pedicure the other day, and if I doubted losing weight I knew I had because the chair was so much roomier. Lol. Yep I had room to shift around, didn't touch the sides with my but or tummy. Trust me, that's a huge tell sign. It felt so nice to have it done. They gave me a paraffin foot wax for free as it was my first pedi of the season.  My little sausage toes look so pretty all painted up. I still have to scrunch down in the seat a little so my feet can be fully flat on the chair rest where they actually work on your feet.  As usual they love the tattoos on my legs, they always get smiles.
My tummy does hinder me doing my own pedis as they should be done, can't do the toenail cuticles properly. Hehe but it's cool, they do a great job. And I definitely can bring my legs farther back than before. ( no, won't tell how I know this ).
     I had gotten and email not to long back from another pal over in England. We've only chatted online, never met, but we became online friends. He's getting married soon and I'm very happy for him. He's not well though, and I spoke with his sister and I let her know he hadn't returned my emails recently. She informed me he is starting to have both liver and kidney failures.  I think that's why he decided to get married so fast, speculation on my part of course, but he has 3 children, 2 of them still teens and perhaps he wants to make sure all is legally done. I am very saddened by the news of how bad his condition is. I am not sure how long this can go on or if it can be reversed. I didn't ask, so I will just hope for the best.  I feel a bit selfish when I hear things like this, I mean I'm just looking for work, it can be much worse.
     Just some twaddle on this blog which really comes down to, life is status quo at the moment. Dad is good, as is hubs. My nephew got accepted to the university he wanted, yay :-D. Now to just get a job and life will be complete.  So until next time peeps, ciao for now.

Sleep? Of Course Not

     So it's now just after 1in the morning. I should be asleep. Obviously, I'm not.  I'm listening to the rain hitting the window and enjoying the comfort of my blanket. Watched a show on HGTV using my phone app. Headphones in of course, don't want to wake hubby. I'm feeling cozy, but a bit annoyed. I'd hope to have a job by now. Not letting it get me down. I've had my moments.  Trust me on that one.
     The cat has now jumped up and is purring quite vigorously in my ear. She's like a little furry motorboat sometimes.  Lol. I'll be back in the am, some stuff to chat about. Until then, ciao for now.

Yes, I'm Still Here

     I don't write nearly as many blogs as I used to, just trying to get a grip on life at the moment.  Life really is a series of events , of small things, held together by the occasional big thing.  It's very easy to write about the big events in ones life. The markers of sorts we'll call them. Birthdays, anniversaries, births or deaths. Theses happen daily in the world and are expected. But the better "big things" are those things we plan for. Like buying a new car, or going on vacation. Then there are surprises, kindnesses shown to us by others.  All mentioned can be written about quite easily, and I have :-D
     What's harder is the daily day to day stuff, the thoughts, the dreams, the struggles. They come across, more times that not, as trivial. Defiantly not reading material. Yet I've written about these also. My mind races with thoughts and ideas that sound great in my head, yet I often find difficult to convey in my blog. I see all theses awesome blogs, fashion, make-up, cooking, etc. and I find myself amazed at how put together each one is. It's not the fractured hodgepodge that mine often are.  It's like that shabby chic cottage look. It's lovely, chintz, and distressed wrought iron, usually in bright yet softened colors. The rooms are filled with mismatched sofas and tables, lamps and textiles. Yet the room looks perfectly cozy and inviting.  Now, if I tried this, my room would look like a year of nothing more than hoarding, or at best, a cute junkyard of "stuff".  The everyday thoughts are tough to get down. Example, my days right now are basically the same. I wake up when hubby alarm goes off. We chat and cuddle awhile before he gets ready for work. ( he gets to hear all my mundane ramblings first thing, oh boy!) then he leaves, I go through job applications, shower then off to run errands, come home clean, then off to more errands or just for a drive as I need to see something other than these walls.  A friends laughed, saying that every time we video chat, I'm in my car or a parking lot.  I'm on the go, but never seem to get anywhere.   Mundane can be very boring to those looking in. It does have a comfort about it though. That's the beauty of the little things, the day to day. The bring small spots of happiness.  Like that first sip of tea or coffee in the morning. Or smelling the onions cooking in the pan, knowing dinner will be yummy.  The little things, like finally getting your closet in order. Or putting in your earbuds at night before you sleep to listen to some music. Or the sound of rain on your roof, while your cozy inside. It's these little things that make up your life. We need to appreciate them as much as the big things. And not worry that you're not going to be voted best emotional blog of 2017.
     I do dream though, I've got snippets of thoughts and phrases written down that one day, I believe, will be a kick ass poem, I'm talking fucking amazeballs poem!
My little things right now are concentrating on finding a job, losing more weight, and just trying to be a good person.  That last one I feel I'm good at.  But when something big happens peeps, I'll be sure to write about it. I promise ya that.   So until next time, ciao for now.

Just sayin'

Just an observation: I'm noticing that liberals are called snowflakes, due to that fact they are perceived as whiney. But as soon as anyone speaks out of turn about Trump, people call for boycotts.  Seems that everyone has snowflake capability.  Everyone is going to both agree and disagree with everyone at some point.  How about we all grow up , work together, agree that no one is perfect, that the man in the White House has the ability to be wrong and right. And that that is what freedom of speech is. How about common sense, right from wrong. I am sad for us all right now.