2013 bye bye

     Writing this from my hospital room, I may even be here tomorrow at midnight when 2014 comes rushing in. I admit I will be upset. Not that I was going anywhere, but would be nice to be in my own bed when all is done. Although this bed here has this really cool traction bar with a chain bar attached which off course my mind wanders and thinks of cool ways to use this , hehe. I'm so naughty but hey, I will be the same in 2014, so get used to it ☺️
     I am not going to focus on negative, I am going to work to make 2014 the way I want it to be. And that's what is my focus, no resolutions I will break I a day. Just to move forward and better myself as I can. Got to work for things right? So I will work.  I'm trying to sleep but can't , so I'm jumping on here to wish everyone a fabulous 2014
      That's it and I'm sure there will be some sappy blog tomorrow. Lol. So ciao for now peeps. Until next year 😜

Being Sick Blows! And not The Fun Way

My temperature has looked like a bad NASDAQ. 101.4, 100.8, 100.2, climbing back to 101.4 and now 101.6.  I am sitting here in bed as hubs is asleep ( a rare thing I don't want to disturb). I am so uncomfortable, but oddly my cat us lying next to me and her fur feels so good on my skin. I love the feel of fur on my skin. I used to have a fur mitt, it was used in amour (teehee) just to rub your partner down. It's very sensual, and I like the feel. It wasn't anything more than relaxing and went well with wine. Lovely way to end a passion filled evening. God, even sick I'm a horndog! Not really but I feel cranky, like I want to cuddle but not get hubs sick too. Maybe one of those body pillows, that might work. Spray it with cologne and sink into it. 😉☺️
     Oh I just took a quiz that us supposed to tell you where you are from. I got New York! Spot on, hoe about that. Lol. Okay I'm getting delerious. I so need to sleep but - not happening! Sigh.  Well peeps have a fabulous Friday. Xx

Well The Hoopla Is Over, For Now. 😊

     Well Christmas is over, Boxing Day is over, only thing next is week is New Years. I'm looking forward to 2014, so many things to look forward too. I'm sorry if my last post was mean, but I'm feeling like shite. It's now half 8 in the evening, and my temperature is still 101.4, I'm uncomfortable. I am watching tv and hanging on Facebook but bored! Two friends facetimed me today and that was really nice, I really enjoyed that. I'm hoping to go in tomorrow but if I have a fever I'm calling my manager to get her view. I don't like taking off, I enjoy my job.
     Oh peeps I hope to chat with several of you tomorrow, but right now I'm going to bed. I'm very sleepy, I'm medicated up too. So ciao for now. Xx😷

Christmas

     Glad it's over. Didn't get to speak to people I wanted to. Hope they wanted to speak with me. I'm sick, I'm wheezing, coughing. Day was fine, always nice, but all in all I'm glad this Christmas is over. Yes I'm in a bad mood, I'll be fine tomorrow but right now I'm just irritated. Ciao For Now

Here We Go Again.

     Well I'm in hotel again, the hot water heater hubs bought is not the correct connection, or something like that. So he got us a room for tonight. I don't mind as the bed is better than ours and someone else cooks breakfast. Lmao I tell all of you peeps, this year is ending on a not so great note for so many people I know. I'm actually okay, I mean I would love my friends near me and have hot running water but in the grand scheme, to stomp my foot over these issues would make me the spoiled brat. I have 2 friends who lost parents just this month. I have several friends who are realizing  the men they live may not be the right one and in one case definitely not. Another who is calling it quits. Does this happen so that the rest of us get a kick in the arse, letting us know that maybe it's not bad, or at least not as bad as we think.
     I can nitpick, a lot, oh yes I can. But in comparison to last year, I'm golden. This year I am not in hospital, I don't have antibiotics running through my veins. I am relatively healthy, and looking forward to some wonderful things. I am planning to make my dreams come to fruition one at a time. I am going to try, try I said, to not worry about things I have no control over. I know I will win this and lose this both. But going to try.
     I wish I could make all my friends lives perfect, but I realize that's not my place. My place as a friend is to listen, let them know I love and care for them and am here should they need to cry, vent, scream or have an ear that is not going to judge them. Offer advice maybe, with the understanding that it's free and worth every penny. Or tuppence lol (inside giggle. I hope lmao) it can get better and if we have no bad, how would we know we have it good.
      I am being brought a cup of tea right now, I am very appreciative because a cup of tea makes you relax and think a bit more clearly. ☕️ Personally I'm in a decent holding pattern. Not much other than the heater issue. I just cut all my nails off. I was letting the tips I had put on grow out and I didn't get a fill. I'm going to grow the tips off so my nails stay strong. Whenever I have removed them, my nails are weak then break. Not this time. So right now I have my real nails with little burgundy tips. Looks funny, but who cares. It's going to be my mark for now. Oh look, there's Mary, her nails look odd but interesting. I can hear it now. Lmao
      Well peeps, I'm out of here. Hope your weekends were great. Let me know if you want. No one really replies anymore and you know how much I live comments, BWAHAHA   Ciao For Now

The Christmas Post

     Sometimes I try to make believe I'm that heroine in those chick flicks, sitting in my perfectly messy apartment. Those that are messy but look perfect. When I try to do this, it just looks messy! Lol Well Christmas is almost here, when did this happen? This year is ending and the end is coming soon. I can finally say I'm going into the new year with things crossed off my bucket list, well not a lot of things but even one would be better than ever, and this is at least a solid 3. Lmao

     I have been on the receiving end of a pay it forward, it was such a nice experience and I've never had it happen. I told you all, the lady in front of us paid for our meal. I still need to do my own pay if forward.
     I went to hold the inner door for someone, while he was holding the outer door for me, as we both laughed in the little vestibule of a restaurant. We both stretched out for the other door and then thanked each other. I'm finding people are smiling more. What is it about this season that makes people smile? On the other hand, what is it about this season that makes others so sad. Funny thing is I think it's the same reason.  Family, the being with those we love makes us so happy, and sharing and giving gifts, laughing with them, is the reason. There are many though, who have no family, no loved ones, and so there is no one to share or laugh with. They feel lost.  I personally feel a bit of each. I mean yes I love those I know, and want to laugh and share and exchange gifts with, but I'm not there in person. New York, Maine, Florida,  England, France, and Australia. I have friends in all theses places yet I'm not going to be there for Christmas. That makes me sad, yet I'm happy to be able to send them love and hugs in the form of presents. Hopefully they will think of me and know they matter to me. But again as much as I get sad not being there with them, they are there. The people I really mean are those that have no one. They either live alone, or in shelters or homes. Families are gone or choose not to know them. They have lost the ones they love for whatever reason. The sadness that is there always just seems a little sadder when everyone is celebrating around them. I give to several shelters, both human and animal. But I am one person. I wonder, how much difference I can make? Not much I know, but I'm still going to try. I wrote out a bunch of cards today that are being mailed out to Walter Reed Hospital. It's a veterans administration hospital filled with those men and women, who were injured overseas. Some of these soldiers have lost limbs, and worse, their will to go on. So does a thank you and merry Christmas card really mean anything to them? I don't know, but if  it cheers up a person who us down due to injuries or what have you, then it's a good thing. I would like to donate time, but you need to fill out forms and interview, if you can believe that?

     Christmas is felt and not bought. Each bow is a hug, each gift a kiss, and the price doesn't matter. It's the intent behind it, the thought that someone took time to remember you. I know some of my gifts fall flat on their proverbial asses! But I think my intent comes through. 

       I find it interesting that in the darkest days of the year (northern hemisphere really ) that people of different faiths all gather around the same time, to mark the return of the light. It's a magickal time of year.   I wish all of you who read my blog, blessings, good times, laughter, and love of family and friends.  Ciao for now everyone and speaking on my beliefs, I wish you all a GOOD YULE!

As It Was

     Well , this is amusing, to me at least.  If you didn't read it, our hot water heater broke. So hubs is going to fix it. This will take a few days. So tonight we got a hotel room. This way after being ill, I can have a nice hot bath, and wash my hair. Just for tonight though as it should be righted in a few days. I can heat up water to wash up, but if it goes more than that I will just shower at the gym doing the hair again. So this time I am not hooked up to a picc line getting antibiotics, oddly enough I am in the same room as before. So as I twirl my glass, watching the orange peel go round and round, I hear the ice machine in the hall. I'm downing the last sip of my rum, thankfull for the upcoming new year and all the new things I'm going to do and see.
     I probably shouldn't have had the rum considering I haven't eaten much today and I'm feeling lovely floaty.  Wish I was out with friends right now, enjoing my buzz. Ah well. Lol. Shutting down now so ciao for now.

Surprises

    Love them, right? Not all are good. Let's see didn't get to NY as weather was bad but that turned out okay, as I got bloody sick! Stomach thing from out of the blue? So weekend spent very close to home, if you know what I mean. Ick! Well let's see,  it gets even better. Our hot water heater died. So tomorrow I get to shower at the gym. I never really needed a gym bag as I go home after doing my circuit but hey I'm good with new things.  Lol.  I really need to get to ups tomorrow or Tuesday the latest. Must ship, must ship. 🎁🎁 how was I so ahead and then so far behind?  Silly bunny me! Oh well. Despite all this I'm in a good mood. Let's be real,  this time last year I was in a hospital room. I'm not this year, and I'm down 2 full dress sizes, 3 if it's a better end store! I have my health and those I love. So I'm real good!
      Hope you all had great weekends, I'm off to sleep as it's an early rise tomorrow. Ciao for now.

GUTTED!

     Not in NY but Mother Nature is not cooperating. Later peeps- sigh

I Really Should Get To Sleep

     I have work in the morning and I will be driving myself. As much as it was nice getting driven around town, it put a serious dent in my Christmas prep. I have to pick things up, ship things off, and I'm sitting here at 20 min to 1am, not able to sleep. Thoughts like, will I get this all done, will I get the work party flyers out, how did I gain 5lbs? I know it will get done, flyers will be done and I know damn well how it got there. Too many "oh I made these you must try one " cookies from co-workers along with gym closing early and all day due to weather. Back to gym tomorrow after work, I miss it. Oh god did I say that? Hahaha  I am okay with a few pounds over the holiday, but I don't want to lose the gym schedule, as that should keep me even. I bought fiber powder that you take as a supplement with meals. It's supposed to help you feel fuller, I looked it up. The one I got is the main ingredient in a pill that people are swearing helps lose inches but those pills are expensive. So I got this, if it fills me up I'm happy. There is no magic pill, but if I feel fuller, eat my good foods and work out, well can't hurt me. I'll let you know if I see any difference. Ah the holidays, I'm not stressed but just a bit anxious. Lol
     Next, oh man, ever text something, and then think, oh I hope they get how I meant that. Did that this evening, and I hope he knows I was trying to be funny, but I'm fretting that it may seem petty. Fuck, see I do this. Ack, I do before thinking. Always have, been burnt, but I slip sometimes and just do it again.
     Well another short blog, I need to get to bed. I'll give you bigger ones I promise.  So as always ciao for now

People Can Still Amaze Me

        I've already said this on Facebook. Tonight the hubs and I were at a very bad for you taco place. He wanted burritos and I got a naked taco salad. Well when we got up to the window to pay, we were told no need. The guy told us the woman in front if us had paid for it and told him to wish us a Merry Christmas. A "Pay It Forward" moment. I was so touched, it wasn't the amount, it was the gesture. We get so caught up in the holiday crazy, that it's just nice to be reminded of what matters.  Doing a kindness without expecting anything back.  I don't know why she chose us but bless her for doing it.
     It capped off a snowy lazy work day and for me that can cause me to think of things I shouldn't. Oh peeps this girl was thinking some fun naughty things. And I will leave it at that. Lmao
I got my tree at work today and it's quite cute. It needs balls though. I've got to pick up some little ones soon.  I can't believe how soon Chrimbo is. I must ship gifties.  I was so ahead then snow came. Looks pretty but not good for shopping as hubs took me to work these past few days.
     Well it's almost half eleven. And before I turn into a pumpkin I'm going to say ciao for now

This The Season

     You know what really creams my corn? People who you have known for over 20 years, for some reason have no time fir you. You have called, left messages, texted, and on a day like your birthday they can't even be bothered to say happy birthday. But then they text you a happy birthday saying they were out of range, yet their other half was on there several times. Someone you have purposely traveled for. Been supportive in their endeavors and for some reason they have stopped being in contact with you. Not even a phone call. Ever! I know I sound trite and bitchy. But you know what, it is my fault perhaps. Maybe I am too over the top, hell no maybe about it, I am over the top. It's easy to leave when you're not there. It hurts. I admit that now, it really fuckin hurts...sigh....  Tidings of comfort and joy right?    I want all you friends to tell me if and how I annoy you - please!
      I will say I do like the snow, but not a fan of the ice though. See I have things to ship out and I can't get to where I need to go if I don't have the ability to get there. These must ship out so they are received by Christmas. Hubs and I are going out for Christmas or the eve, depends when we go to the in-laws. That will be fun. Going to NY this weekend to see my dad and some friends. Unfortunately I need to give one of them hugs and love as her mother passed away on Saturday. Sad, so sad.
      Well guys I need to get you all a blog worth reading, it will happen soon. I'm going to sleep early as more snow coming. So until then, ciao for now.
   

If You Don't Want It Raw, Maybe You Shouldn't Care

     Today was the calm before the storm, literally. It's almost 2am, about 6 hours from now the snow is supposed to start. Not bad really, about 3" but and this but is the kicker. It's all going to turn to sleet then icy rain. So I am not going anywhere tomorrow. I got all my gifties wrapped today, but they need to be shipped. I am going to have to Fed Ex I think as they are heavy. I am concerned about customs charges. Post office doesn't do that but I need one item especially to be really wrapped well, as it's glass. It's the hols, so I am thrilled to be able to get things for those I love. The odd thing is today, as much as I was happy in wrapping each gift, as my Christmas music blared from my Ipod, it was later in the day I was just as sad. I don't know why exactly. I feel like I'm losing Christmas a little. THAT would be a personal tragedy. I so love this time of year, but I just don't know. I've been crying on & off all night. Keeping to myself actually. I had a good laugh with the hubs earlier, was nice, but I have my headphones on tuning the world out. Maybe I just need it. I was eying my rum again but decided against it. Hubs is not having a good night and I can't afford not to be at 100% of my senses. Should I need to drive somewhere tonight. Hope not, so far so good. I can only be here, I can't help, SUCKS!
     So peeps, I am going to try and sleep, so until tomorrow I say Ciao For Now

Listen To The Rhythm Off The Falling Rain

     Well it's an hour til the Witching hour hits. I'm sitting here after a quite enjoyable calm night. A nice meal and catching up on my episodes of The Voice tv show. And now we have low lights on and I am indulging in a most excellent glass of  Pryat rum. Thank you again! 😘 I took my friends advice, and used the skin from an orange to rub the oils around the top of my new "rocks" glass. I filled the glass with ice cubes and rum and the flavor of the rum combined with the oil of the orange is making my mouth and throat very happy, as well as relaxing my body with a warm feeling. The rain is making music on the windows and it's just a lovely calmness I'm feeling right now. Bit ""floaty" if that makes sense. I would love to share this with the gentleman who sent this to me, some cool jazz in the background and most excellent talk, would round out a fab night. One day I will, as well as share with his family. For now though I am lost in my moment. Sharing it with all of you.

     It ends a rather good work day. We decorated our office, and the tree looks nice and bows all around. My little tree will arrive Tuesday. I think it will be my only tree this year I think. We have 2 nice ones in the storeroom but hubs is not a big fan of Christmas. I know seems impossible, but years of struggling as a young teen, kind of put the frown on, as the December days wind down. Now me, well fuck we all know I'm as giddy as a kid at Christmas.  This year though I don't want to argue it so all my holiday will be at work. Going to decorate my desk, then of course my in-laws decorate and have a huge tree. We go there so I share in their tree ☺️So not too shabby. 

     I'm headed into the office in the morning, I know Saturday! But I need to wrap gifts and they are there and the post office is close, so makes sense right? Lol

     Well my glass of rum is almost gone and I want to enjoy the last few mouthfuls quietly, so I'm saying as always, ciao for now. 

Unexpected Pleasure

     It was a decent day, but very busy. I was anxious to get home, and when I did, I was treated by a package sent to me and the hubs. It contained such glorious elixirs. Two of them I have been wanting to try. A Japanese scotch and a rum that's seems right up my ally. There is also a cheeky bottle of vino. From past wine experiences I am sure this is going to be just lovely. Thank you dear friend, you and your fam are so great. So I've gotten my first card and first gift. Feeling loved bunny here. I have more I want to say but my eyelids are betraying me. I'm just tired. So I'm going to bed peeps. Ciao for now.

The Start Of The Holiday Madness

Parties, gatherings, going to see my friends band,
Lots of drinks, a pink strap on I don't understand.

Need more paper, we need more cello
Eating salads made with fruit in jello.

That elf on the shelf, is really not new,
The people packed malls, crazy as a zoo.

Going to buy some bows for prezzies
Sending out cards to wish folks a Merry

Special foods, decorations, lights on a bush
First time ice skating , you may fall on your tusch.

Egg nog made with copious shots of rum
Make the mood more festive, and friends lots more fun.

The holiday season is starting full swing
I don't want a lot, really only one thing.
That those of you reading, this blog of mine
Have a wonderful holiday, and a new year that's fine!

Peace out, ciao for now!

Good Day, Not So Great Night.

Had dinner but tummy us not happy. No clue why. Having tea, then going to bed.  Ciao for now peeps, until tomorrow (I promise there will be a new blog) 😀

Lets's Get It Started...

     Well, tomorrow is here, my first "official" work day. I am very happy, as I will now have benefits, and vacation accrual and pay. I also will accrue at a higher level as my 5 1/2 years will count. From here it's go time. No more pussy footing around. Slow and steady and damn if I am going to do my very best to keep myself in check! I get overboard and get clingy and I'm really trying to get into my head that I can not worry about things not my concern. It's so hard sometimes because I draw up scenarios in my head and I'm just an ass, that's the only way I can explain it, it's just that I .....fuck I can't explain it. I just hope those I care about can understand the thoughts in my head. And if they can, would they explain it to me!? lol
     I'm some feel like a live wire that is writhing on the ground and emotions are coming out instead of currents. Kind of the same effect though. I am feeling over sensitive to everything, and I mean weird shit. My taste sense seems heightened, my emotions and sense of smell too. How bizarre is that? I'm such an odd duck. lmao   I was looking at clothes today and saw so may things I would love to get but I'm not. I'm going to start being a miser. Saving up my money, so I can enjoy my first trip abroad. I want to treat everyone in the fam to a lovely meal out. It's the very least I can do. Plus I will have to buy clothes over in England, must have some UK fashion. I need to buy me some nightgowns or lounging outfits as I really don't wear anything to sleep. Oh peeps, I have written myself a workout plan too. I am going to try and add yoga to my regime. I am not going to promise I won't fall over. I didn't come in like a wreaking ball, I'm just shaped like one, with a bit of a waist carved in now. So should be interesting. I didn't do a lot of walking today, about half a normal working day. But tomorrow after work I am going to do the treadmill, get my miles up. Then I take the Yoga on Wednesday I think. I will be sure and let you know. :-D
     So since I am on my laptop, I am adding a few pics that you may get a kick out of. We are in control, going Zen, getting my ducks in a row, I will prevail, and holy crap I wish someone would stop me when I start writing crap like this........:-) Let's just go on and see what happens.
Im going to give myself a facial and hit the hay, so ciao for now.
Like I said ZEN

A night I will never forget, it was beyond amazing:

Getting that waist, bit flattening of the tummy, and hamming it up at work:

 

The last one is for my Doctor Who inner geek LMAO

Later Peeps!! LMAO