Not Really A Blog

More of a statement.  I realized this morning that I never actually said thank you to my co worker yesterday: (prior to this we had spoken a few weeks back that she was going to be laid off)  it went like this -
Co- worker - "girl, you are looking finer every day. You really can see your efforts, you're whittling away
Me: " awe , I'm working on it, ( we get interrupted as someone gets on elevator )
We get to our floor
Co-worker - "Bye, enjoy the day
Me: "You too, have a good one
Hands wave, we go separate ways.   Day crazy busy. Today I look for her to say thank you because her comment the day before was so nice to hear. She doesn't see me every day, so she actually could see a difference. So I went to the other side of the office and went to her cubicle and it was empty. Asked another worker, where was she. Seems yesterday was her last day. I knew she would be laid off just thought it was the end of the month.  I feel really bad. Why the fuck didn't I say thank you right away?! I need to look her up on Facebook at least to message my thanks and let her know that her words meant something to me.
      I know it seems that every day people speak just to hear their own voices, as a customer service rep I can fully attest to this, but this lady gave me a good feeling! She didn't have to mention a damn thing, but she did. I know it sounds like I'm making a huge thing out of something she is not losing sleep over but still we all know I'm so even keel I never obsess. Lmfao at that statement. And you know I will find a way to say it to her. I guess I'm just saying, if someone says something nice or something that lifts your spirits, let them know you appreciate it. It's wonderful to get a gift like that when you don't expect it.  Oh yes,  my inner philosopher comes out after 11pm. Just was on my mind so I thought I'd share.  Okay, sleepy time. Ciao for now.

In Dire Need Of A Facial

     Ugh my skin is feeling so dry and looking icky. You know those little bumps under the skin. They call it congested skin. I call it time to give yourself a facial with a nice steam face wash. The kind some people do when you have a head cold. Run the water really hot then drape a towel over your head and let the steam open your pores. I then like to use that lovely scrub, the one with brown sugar and honey, crushed almonds. You almost want to eat the damn stuff but rub it on, get that skin glowing. Finish with an astringent toner, cool water and a good moisturizer. Clarins or Origins are my two. I have Origins here, the other at my dad's. Love spa days, need a pedi, got my nails done but had no time for the pedi. Soon. Such a diva I am! Lmao
      This diva is back to blonde peeps. I like it better, the red shows my roots too soon. News flash, I'm not a natural redhead or blonde!! SHOCKER I know. 😳 I feel better as a blonde, more saucy. Hehehe
       Well work wasn't too bad, I'm sure as more people actually read their emails we will get more calls. Vacation changes and mandatory shut downs. Some not bothered at all some are furious. I'm kinda apathetic about it. They aren't going to change it so why bitch about it, but man some folks just like doing it. And they excel too. They yell at us like we made the changes. No person on the phone, I work here too and am just as affected as you are. But go ahead, tell me how this will ruin all your plans because you are being forced to take a vacation!! Boohoo. 😁
      Just wanted to stop in to say hi , let you know what the work secret was and let you know that I lost another pound. Whoot whoot and probably gained it back tonight. Ate late and they gave me fried chicken instead of grilled on my salad tonight and I ate it! Oh god it was good, but truth? My tummy isn't happy with me. Now my own body bitches at me? Bloody hell!! 😉
So peeps, ciao for now

Hello Monday, knew you'd arrive on time!

     So here I sit, tea on the table next to me. Using stevia now to sweeten my beverages. Cut out all artificial sweeteners. Everyone told me how bad they are but even though I know it, I had to stop on my own. Stevia is a plant and I use Stevia in the Raw, just stevia. It's sweet, and I'm getting used to the taste. Don't care for it in coffee but since I drink tea mostly it's fine. Man I was a cooking machine tonight. Bought minced turkey breast meat and made my own sausage patties, used vadalia sweet onions and spices and even chopped up an apple. Made a bunch of 4-5 ounce patties and they were yummy. That was tonight's dinner. Went to the farmers market and bought some bi color corn that I took off the cob after cooking. ( In the microwave! So easy and perfect, who knew??) bought some super nice cherries also.  I also made egg muffins using eggs, diced onions, tomatoes and spinach. With basil, garlic powder and cayenne for kick. Really good and you know I have to laugh. After years of watching Food TV, I can actually chop pretty well and I took the spinach and rolled it and did that chiffonade. I was a chopping fool UNTIL......I almost chopped into my finger. My nail stopped it but I did get a teeny nick in my thumbnail. And after a mani today. Lmao fear not I filed it smooth and continued on. I'm a trouper what can I tell you? BWAHAHAHA
     Enthralling aren't I? Yes I am. I'm a silly girl, and today I decided I needed panties. Didn't get any. I went and they had some very boring granny panties. I need to go to Cacique and get my cool panties. Designs and fun patterns. I got new bras from there. A cool lime green with hot pink lace, a hot pink one with black lace and a leopard one with black lace. That's right babies, you heard me.  Grrrr baby grrr. I just need some leopard panties to go with it. Will wear black for now. Why can't big gals have fun undies too? No reason I tell you, none!!
     My friend's son had his prom. Oh man I loved my prom. It was the end of the 1970's, very end, but we looked fine. Me in my powder blue gown and him in his matching powder blue tux, with dark blue velvet edging on the lapels. Sharp looking lad and lass we were. We danced the night away at the Hawaii Kai, The Copacabana, and finally the playboy club. I have regaled you with these tales I'm sure. I had such fun though. Tonight hubs danced me around the living room after dinner. I love when he gets silly. I wish he would get a job though, not for me but for him. His scratching is the same but it's so hard for him to get moving due to it. I was hoping he would come to NY this coming weekend with me but no, as par for the course I go alone. It's fine though, seeing friends as always. No goodies his time but going to a place I actually saw on Diners Drive. Ins and Dives. called TheSparrow  Inn. It's in Astoria Queens , looks so funky. Must go and see what it's all about.
      Well peeps it's almost quarter to midnight and this sleepy bunny is heading to bed. So have a great Monday, and as always ciao for now.

Small Miracles

     Not taking huge leaps but trying a little every day. The little things that may not seem big but do add up. Parking now in last rows at work, and walking around the office on breaks instead of going on Facebook. Just now, beautiful sunny day. Stopped at Starbucks and got a passion iced tea. No sugar no Splenda as it tastes lovely on its own. Very refreshing. I also did not drive through although the pic I posted on FB seems it. Lol. But I was thinking "now what little bit of something sweet cani get?"  REALLY MARY? So after wrestling with my powerful sweet tooth I opted with a banana.  Haven't eaten much today but realised stupid to get sweets or pastry.  Figured the banana although not the healthiest fruit was a decent option. Big yay for me people. I know - big deal is what you're thinking, but those who know me, know it is. This is hard. This is not like 30 or even 40lbs. ITS HARD! I'm human. I need to give myself a kudos sometimes as well as my ass kicks I need. 😎. Well hello from me to you, on a glorious Saturday . Ciao for now

Hell Yeah I'm Proud Of Myself

     Explain that statement you ask? Okay, today was shit!! Week actually has not been the best, first no bonuses or raises this year. Okay, suck it up, I have a job in a bad economy. Well today we are informed of some news that I can't really discuss as it's confidential for the moment but it effects us. NOT happy but again I repeat to myself - I have a job in a bad economy. I repeat this over and over. I like who I work with,  but damn, left field shot one out. Sorry to be vague but I have to be right now. Will tell ya next week when it's public knowledge. So the reason I'm proud of myself is simple. I didn't leave the office tonight and get a extra large pizza and bring it home for dinner. Oh I so wanted to. But nope, I had a naked burrito. It was comfort food enough to satisfy my need but without the actual burrito wrap the calories went way down.  I'm proud because I broke a routine of reacting first, and thinking later. This is huge for me. Last year I would have been on the third slice feeling a bit full and them guilty for eating those slices. Pizza is not bad, but using food as a crutch is bad indeed. I'm no angel but I felt tonight I got a little tarnish off my halo. Oh when I'm going to eat I sure will eat. But being sensible now will allow those times to happen later.  I so want to stress this is for me, I'm not preaching or bragging or telling anyone how or what to eat. I'm doing this for my reasons. Getting fit and healthy are número uno.  My looks, meh, I'm me. At 150 or 250 I'm still me. I'm fine with myself. I have friends of all sizes and shapes and color and creeds. They are all beautiful. When you have been judged your entire life by people you truly learn to love people for who they are inside. My friends don't judge me, but I do look to them for honest opinions. They give them yay!
      So glad I'm off tomorrow. 4th of July holiday. Will watch MACYS fireworks on TV. One of my favorite 4th of July was years ago when I spent it with a bunch of friends out on a boat in NY. We had such a great view of the water. We all met up early in the morning and left late into the night. Great time and listen up. I actually walked from downtown  Manhattan in Greenwich Village to uptown to 77th  and Central Park West. Where we started the day. Yep up and down twice!! You can believe it, I had the blister on my heel to prove it. Lol. I want to be able to do that. It's such a great city. And sharing it and it's streets and atmosphere with friends is just amazing.   So Happy Birthday America 😀🇺🇸

Ciao For Now

Sorry Y'all Been Busy

    Just tired guys, went to the gym again tonight. Trying to go more frequently but I get home late and am a bit sleepy. I'm sorry I haven't been writing boring blogs for you all. Lol  but I will write one tomorrow night. In the meantime life is like this. I'm not getting a bonus this year, only 1% of the company is (and not my tax bracket I'm sure), I did lose 4.5 pounds according to Mondays weigh in. USA got taken out of World Cup but I will still watch it, loving the game.  Short week this week, YAY!  Loving my car that now has 3,129 miles on it already. Fireworks going off right now at 11pm oh goody. Hubs not feeling well, double oh goody! Need a mani/pedi before I go to NY next week. Made a new friend on FB tonight. I have so many friends from England on there now. So fookin cool. Missing my friends here terribly. Just took off my make-up, brushed my teeth and am now sitting here in my slippers writing my blog.  So more to come. Ciao For Now.

Hump day =

Where the fuck did I get a stomach virus?  I'm home and bored and cranky. Had a cup of tea today. That's it and it's already almost 2 in the afternoon. Hubs just went off to the store to get light eats. I'm not very hungry, but a bit of broth sounds do-able. Ugh I hate getting sick. I left work yesterday afternoon. Slept till 11am today after up most of the night. Poor me. Lol nah I'll be fine.
     Although I haven't watched any World Cup today. Haven't missed a day so far. Maybe not all the games but I did catch Suarez take a bite. What the hell? Can his ass NOW! {shakes head-just amazed at people}
     I'm in my room, on my own at the moment. Watching a repeat of the TV show BONES. Cat is on the bed, looking at me to give her more cuddles. I have my tea cup next to me. A Doctor Who tardis teapot with the dregs of loose Earl Grey. Two special items indeed. Not the tea dregs LOL. The tea cup was a Christmas gift. I have a tea for one {another Christmas gift} in the same pattern. Moonlight Roses it's called. It's lovely! But I look at my nightstand, I wonder what it says about me. Along with the teapot and teacup, you'll find usual objects. Body lotion (Molton Brown ginger lily), candle (Yankee Candle Beach Plum), lamp (brass w/off white shade) , small funky box that holds a few earrings and bracelets I use frequently (wooden carved w/soft lining in pink) I used to have a lace doily under the lamp. Maybe it's the show, but I wonder what someone would surmise about me if they saw my nightstand? What would they imagine me to be like? The thought that I could be that easy to figure out kind of annoys me. I like to think I'm a bit complicated. Aren't we supposed to be? I'm pretty simple in most things, but like all of us, my experiences have added layers to me. Now I can say that I know at least one person who can read me like a book. I'm kinda glad about that, yet it gets me as I can't return it as fully. I'm knowing but still confused. Hahaha. My friends do get me though, and that is mutual. Thank the Gods for them. They keep me grounded and they often don't even know it. Buy yeah for them.
     See the reason I love them so is that I am such a true libra. I will say one thing, mean it 100%, but then do something so opposite what I said. It (and I I'll admit) will do your head in.  ooh perhaps I need to eat something, I'm getting all freaky deeky in my thoughts. Lmao.
     I may be back later. I'm not sure. Hubs just got back so I will have some soup.  So I'm saying Ciao For Now.

Busy Day I Tell Ya!

     Today was busy, but good. The sucky thing though I have a sneaking suspicion that we are not getting increases this year. Not thrilled about this. I got a good review, was hoping for a bit more money. Oh well! Who knows I may be wrong, but I don't think so. 😟
     Well today was WW, okay another pound gone. This must stop, I must lose more. We know how, I know and yes, I am going to the gym after work. I have to admit that I am at the age now where diet is not going to do it alone. This is how I lost steady a while back so not that huge an epiphany. Lol I have been trying to get up early and when I wasn't working this worked well but paired with work I think I will do better going after work. More on that on tomorrow night's blog.
We discussed summer road blocks like BBQ's and such. So we picked what we would like from the list of pictures. Then we looked at the same photos with the points on them. What I picked was 20 points, holy cow. So the point was how we need to decide if what we want is points worthy. I started to laugh, it reminded me of an old episode of Seinfield. It was when Elaine was dating a guy and she wasn't sure if he was sponge worthy. The sponge being a type birth control in the 80's. Lol it just reminded me of that, and it made me laugh. Luckily I'm not the only twisted mind in the group. 😆
     Well that's it for today, hope you're all having or will have sweet dreams. Ciao For Now.

Weekend Round Up

    So we meet again on Sunday night, the weekend now behind us. Not quite what I originally expected. I was quite upset on Friday night. Felt invisible in a situation. Not going into detail, some of you know. Thank you for the kind ear listening to me vent. That and a 15oz rum and coke made me feel better. So come the Solstice. It arrived at 6:51am eastern time. Longest Day of the year. I woke up at 6am on my own. My body must have sensed the changes. The energy around us. I did my working, asked for things, gave thanks for other things. Remembered someone who left this earth. (Too many as of late) So by half 8 I was riding high on energy that got me thinking I needed a new affirmation.  Hubs is not a fan of ink but I wanted kanji. The one I got was the Japanese word for "to believe" as in to believe in yourself.  Perfect for this day. I call the place near me, no answer yet. They open at noon. So I get there about half past and ask if anyone can do this for me. Well behold the person I wanted was able to do this as she had a cancelation. Perfect! So I get this done. It looks so dark. I mean it will mellow and fade a bit as all black ink does but next to my other ink it really stands out. Looks a bit odd I will admit.  One of my friends said she liked it but it didn't fit me. I appreciate her honesty and I will admit it looks a bit uneven since the color is so dark and my other one is lighter ( it's almost 2 years old).  Well as all ink should it means something to me. I'm sure lots of folks are surprised as my usual suspect to haven't even commented. Lmao.  I am still looking forward to my next big piece. It's with be a witchy owl, moon thingy. Drawn by a fabulous artist. I am on a 2 year waiting list for her. It's worth it though, she does amazing work. Her Persephone & Hades is stellar! No outlines, looks like a painting.  I can't wait. Won't be cheap I know. But well done ink is not cheap. I'm hoping my friend will draw me another piece. He did one already, and maybe if he has an idea, he can draw this one and she can ink it for me, adding here and there. But NOT changing his artwork. He's very talented and truth is his young daughter is following suit. She draws well and in time, I'm sure will be fab.
      So my day was spent getting ink and grocery shopping at a farmers market, and window shopping for perfume. I'm running low, I need more scent. Lol
      Today was chill except that I watched the World Cup. This game will make me bonkers. I am seriously getting very hooked. I have things I need to look up. Like why do they draw that line on the ground to keep the players behind. Is it really needed? Can't they stay lined up?  Also when do they decide when to have the player kick from the side? I think I was told this but I don't remember. And why does it seem that sometimes the ball goes one place and it's in, but another time it's out?  I'm sure I will find my answers 😀
      Tonight was also the start of True Blood, in it's final season, I can say it's getting odder and odder. Lmao
So that's my boring weekend. Oh another co-worker next to me said that when I talk on my cell at work can I leave my desk, as she has a hard time hearing the people on the phone. I almost laughed. She is so loud and anyone I talk to always comments on this. But okay, I can do this. Oy vey. Hehehe
      So peeps I'll end there and as always Ciao For Now.

Up Up And Away

     So, I weighed in yesterday. Not a pound was lost that week. What was list was inches. I have read that will happen sometimes. I am glad but it made me angry, I wanted to lose weight.  I told a friend today, his reply was keep going. Lol great advice indeed, straight forward, not sugar coated. Is it any wonder I love my friends? I am trying the smoothies route. I had a green smoothie today for lunch and I felt quite full until dinner. So methinks breakfast and lunch tomorrow. Along with string cheese, salad, and fruits. Then dinner is the Italian meatballs I made this weekend (no breadcrumbs) and more veg.   Let's see, because I need a certain number of calories so who knows, I may have not lost weight since I came under both points (on weight watchers) and calories (on my fitness pal). Lol
    So as I sit here in my bedroom, I am thumbing through a woman's catalog. They claim they now offer "Goddess sizes" I was amused, that that is their term for plus sized clothing.  Why yes I am a Goddess. It nice that they acknowledge this. Lol   They have very "witchy" clothes, meaning a bit old fashioned, flows with lace. But also some awesome dresses. I'm tempted, but they are not cheap. So on a sale I may indulge, just to see the quality. Hehe
    Short and sweet blog tonight. Just like me. Lmao
     Well I am just rambling so I'm saying good night. Until next time peeps, ciao for now

Tomorrow Is The Day

     I am starting a regime of green smoothies at least once a day. I have done research and found my mix. It's basically kale mixed with banana, strawberry, mixed with flax, soy, and maca powders. Touch of stevia for sweetness. I will also mix mango and strawberry, blueberries and banana. Not using almond milk, I'm just using water. They say it's the best for weight loss. "They" say a lot don't they. Lol We shall see. Wish me luck. I'm dead serious about eating better. I am in a good place. I must admit I'm enjoying going to the meetings with my friend from work. The leader is very good too, that makes a difference. What also makes a difference is that hubs is doing this along with me. It's been a long road so far and I've done it, but now I'm on the next level. I am not kidding myself, it's going to get harder. I already see gravity making me cringe. Boobs are not what they used to be. I keep getting told not to worry about silly things but see to me they're not silly. I had much bigger boobs. Of course I was lots fatter, that's right I said the F word. FAT FAT FAT!!! I can fix this in time but I'm self concious. I'm not saying I'm not sexy, but I want to be satisfied with me. I know I will have fun in England. It will be here soon and I will be able to walk it with the best of them. 

     Speaking of England, well Europe in general. I am so into European football. Soccer to us in the states. I'm watching the World Cup every day. Getting a good grasp on it too. I really hope I get to see my friend's son play when I go overseas. I am all set. I have my ticket, my passport, my case. I do want to get an over the shoulder little bag to hold my credentials plus bit of make up, money and my passport. Yes I'm such a brat. Lmao.

     Today was Father's Day, and I spoke to my Da. Was good to chat with him. I would really love to live in NY again. Not going to happen though. Hubs not a fan of NY. I wanted to go see the play Hedwig and the Angry Inch with Neal Patrick Harris. He leaves in August.  Well I went online and not one ticket available for weekends. It's the only time I can go. I was gutted. So I went to several brokers pages, holy shit. $130.00 for last row balcony. I'm still tempted lol. I am dying to see a play. Lasts ones I saw were La Cage Aux Folles and Godspell, I enjoyed them so much. Nothing like a live production. Want to see more 😎

     Well peeps, it's time to get ready for bed. I want to give myself a facial. Relax with. Warm cup of tea and my book.  So until next time, ciao for now. 

Weight What Want Not!

     So I finished my first week of Weight Watchers. It's interesting that now I am logging into 2 websites to track my food. It does make you very aware of what goes into your mouth.  I am able to reach places I had lost touch with, and now reach again and a tad bit better. Onward I go. I am delving into the land of green smoothies. I have been having an egg or two (depending on my appetite in the am) or a Greek yogurt. Fage being my personal favorite. So thick and creamy. But in reality, aside from my morning caffeine, I'm not always hungry. I have found myself under my calories for the day at almost half. If I figure 1200 a day I have been coming in at about 900. All fine and dandy but I know that if you don't eat enough your body hangs onto your fat. Like old friends that just don't want to leave a comfortable get together. Well I want to get closer to my goal and 1000 calories to 1200 sounds okay. So in order to get nutrients and yes even calories I am going to make smoothies for breakfast. Thank you for staying on my little tangent there, hope you kept your arms and legs inside during the ride. 😀 I have purchased a small but mighty personal blender for this purpose. Wait! Did I tell you all this already? It feels like I did. Well so as not to repeat myself, I did some smoothie shopping. Got some kale, stevia all natural sweetener ( no more equal or Splenda) Stevia is a leaf that just happens to be very sweet. Also some fresh frozen blueberries. Bananas and carrots.  I'll let ya know how it turns out. I'm actually really excited to start. I get weighed in tomorrow so we shall see how my first week went. My weight loss journey can be described in 2 old songs. First is " The Long & Winding Road" by the Beatles. Second is "what A Long Strange Trip It's Been" by The Grateful Dead.
     Well spoke to my friend, the ones whose had a family loss. He is okay and I was relieved. I figured I did enough, I'm sorry. You have to keep going, maybe even laugh. It's okay and he's a smart man. He knows my deal, and bless him, STILL calls me friend. Lol
     It's raining, and I don't even care. I'm thrilled again, as I was telling my dad about my upcoming trip, I mentioned going for my passport. Oh did I ever mention that it arrived!? Yep it did. So of course I now want to get a cute little "purse" with a shoulder strap. To hold my passport and some cash, etc. I've seen them and now I get to buy one. Lmao. I'm so bad hehe
     Speaking of my dad, I finally met his lady friend. She is very nice, very sweet. They do look cute together. I have to admit. I know I tease a lot about the entire situation, but in truth, I'm very happy he has someone to share things with. They go to dinner and next week, hold on to your hats, they are going to a movie. I'm very glad he's getting out.
      Well my peeps, it's almost the witching hour and I've done quite a bit of driving today, is I'm going to bed.  Ciao For Now.

Write On Baby😊😊

     Well got my hair done tonight. My hairdresser is a hoot, we get along very well.  I told her what I want done, she does it and then it looks great for a few days then I get to do it myself and ....not as great. Not terrible but, well fuck I need to use my straightener. I have thick hair and was told tonight, it's extremely soft. It does feel nice but I think it's the added bonus of my Paul Mitchell shampoo. Lol she made my hair a deeper red, with there separate layers, of lighter shades mixed in, looks funky fun. I may go back to blonde as I loved it, but I like the shorter sleeker style. It's kicky and kind of sexy. Let's not forget easy to shampoo and dry. Dear friend, you suggested a haircut, get rid of the rocker hair, and I am grateful for the honesty as I was stuck for so long. I like this look MUCH better. Lol.
     Well yes I went to weight watchers and was not as terrible as I was fearing. Isn't that always the way, you get so nervous then pony up to the bar and well damn, it's not as bad as you thought it would be. I knew I had gained weight, I knew I lost weight and my bathroom scale alternated between 2 weights depending where you stood. Ha! So I can now say, I am almost 3 pounds less than I was last August. Okay, I can work with this. I can be at least 40 to 50 pounds less by the time England trip gets here. Plus I have someone at work I can swap recipes and chat with. Also my friends are so supportive, thank the stars. All this and it hopeful The NY Rangers may win the Stanley Cup this year...ah yes.....deep breath....it's all good right now.
     Two birthdays happening. My friends son, and my friend in NY. The boy is 16, and a very handsome young man. The lady is a beautiful gal, who is so lovable. Happy Birthday to you both!
Headed to NY this weekend to celebrate the lady's birthday, and so looking forward to seeing my friends. Of course I get to see Dad. Always wonderful. Still trying to figure what to get him for Father's Day. He's hard to buy for.  I do t have much to say at the moment but stick by me, I'm sure something will come to mind. Lol
     So before I fall asleep at the computer, I will say ciao for now.

Ah Carbs, You Sneaky Bastards lol

     Been good all week. Today though was a bit of higher than normal carbs, and was it cake? NO Was it muffins? NO Was it bread? NO! It was BANANAS. Sneaky bastards, I had one as a morning snack, then I had one for dessert tonight. Wasn't feeling fantastic this afternoon, so I had Greek yogurt and fresh raspberries for dinner, all was well. I was full and felt better. Hubs decided to fix himself some beef hot dogs, and I like a good wiener now & then (hey hey keep it clean. Lmao), but the thought of it almost made me want to hurl. But I got peckish around 9 so I ate the damn banana. Still came in at just about 1000 calories, under my goal of 1200 , but not too far under as to make my body hold onto the weight. So I'm cool with it.
     I'm loving the onset of summer. NOT for the heat that comes with humidity, but for the fruits and produce I'm starting to see in the stores. I adore berries and peaches, plums, citrus of all types. Watermelon whispers sweet nothings to me and I must answer. I could forgo meats and just eat fruits and veg all summer. But I know I am not schooled in being a proper vegetarian, so I would not get near enough nutrients I need so I will have eggs, and meats too. Then there is the wonder of it being too hot to cook. My mom went through this when I was growing up. I don't really have that issue here as our home has central air, but in NY, as a child and into my teens, the summer meant cooking on the grill outside, or stovetop meals. Mom was clever and if she knew she was going to cook it happened on weekends very early in the morning or late at night. Then she would freeze the food and serve it after it thawed and was heated, yep, on the stovetop. Her meatloaf, well she would slice it, then simmer it in brown gravy. She even had a dessert recipe that was from when she was a girl. She called it ice box cake. I've seen it still with added tweaks that call it eclair cake. But I prefer it in it's original simple form. You basically cook Jello chocolate pudding (on the stovetop hehe) the you take a 9x13 pan and line the bottom with graham crackers. I suppose if you can't find them, you could use digestives or something similar. But the graham crackers taste the best. Then after you line the bottom of the pan with the crackers, you pour the pudding over them, then another layer do graham crackers, then pudding, and so on until done, ending with the graham crackers on top. Put it in the fridge for about 5 hours and the magic happens. The crackers soften and caress the pudding into a cool creamy lovely dessert. Mom would whip up some heavy cream with a tough of sugar and dollop it on the squares she would serve up. Simple and delicious. I would think if you used sugar free or low sugar graham crackers and sugar free jello it could be made as a low calorie dessert. Hmmmm, may look into it. BWAHAHA  I have a voracious sweet tooth, I'm trying so hard to curb it, so far okay, but god damn it it's hard. Eye on the prize right? Ack!!
      Had a wack- a- doodle on the phone this afternoon. She started screaming at me and wouldn't tell me her name or I'd number, nothing. She kept asking me why I needed those? I told her it's for her own security, if I can't verify who she is then I would be giving out information to a person who may or may not be her. It's the Schrödinger's cat of employees. Sheesh, she got so volatile I actually put her on hold and went to my director. He agreed to take the call of course, almost 45 minutes later he came to me and said I owe him while he was laughing. I think a drink was really what he needed. It happens I guess. Over 80,000 employees plus retired and gone ones. I should be grateful it doesn't happen more.
     Well peeps I'm heading to bed as it's just past the witching hour and this witch needs some rest. So I will say yet again, ciao for now.

Well Hello Tuesday Masquerading As Monday

     Well how do peeps. Yes it's the first day back after a long weekend, and all things considered, today was a very decent day.  It went really fast too. I was excited that my Tupperware order came in today. WOW,  that sounds even more lame when seeing that in print. LMAO I mean  I can now microwave eggs for breakfast, part of my plan. 😊
      Sometimes you just need to take a deep breath, and remember all you have. You know I am a frustrated poet/writer. I've been working on a story for my friend's daughter. Kind of a trade off. She is going to draw me a piece of art for me to hang in my NY bedroom, and I was to write her a story. I started it, and got about halfway done. I kind of painted myself into a corner with the tale and it's been harder than completing a Rubick's Cube to get myself unstuck! Fuck me, but I will get that cool twist and finish, just hasn't knocked on my minds door and walked inside yet.  I should get myself a journal of sorts and carry it with me. Oddly enough I do have the app notes on my phone, but it doesn't seem the same as a cool old fashioned bound journal. Pen to paper, old school, the way they used to do it. I envision the likes of Yeats, or Thoreau, sitting and looking out at the surroundings and words coming into mind, then onto paper. Filling this tome, this collection of thoughts copied onto pages, to keep, to cross out and re-write. Yes one day I will wander into a store and purchase a proper journal.
      Expect lies, but be truthful
      Know there is sorrow, but share joy
    Silly little lines like those just often pop I to my mind. So fucking profound, I am. I'm sure one day my red shoe story will be told in front of fireplaces. A modern Aesop she fancied herself, they will say, as they repeat my little tale. Wait, you've not heard it? Oh peeps, gather round and listen to this.
" I had been in a store with friends, feeling a bit of a clunky cog in a otherwise smooth gear. Well we ended up in the shoe department. We were drawn to all the beautiful shoes, heels, wedges, all colors and materials. Then I notice off to the side a funky little pair of red shoes, not really shoes, more of a cross between an oxford and a hi top sneaker ( or trainers if you will). As you can guess, they were nothing to look at, but I felt drawn to them. I asked to see them in my size and yes, I bought them! They were my go to shoe. They were comfortable, they fit me well and they were sturdy on all terrains. Then I said out aloud one day that I wanted to be like my shoes. My friends thought I was crazy, of course yes I am in a way, but not in this. Here was a pair of shoes that I'm sure were overlooked by many people. But given a chance, they turned out to be fantastic. They didn't hurt my feet , they were dependable, and they were actually cute, even though initially you may not have seen it. I said oh to be a little red shoe, and surprise everyone!" End of the tale. I know it's very Ugly Ducklingish, but I never said it was an original thought. LMAO.  See I need to come up with original things
     Why am I so awake at half 12 in the morning. I will pay for this I know. I will have to use my concealer from Yves St. Lourant (sp?). I also have, for under my eyes, a de puffer.  How I wish they made a huge version that I could roll over my body to de puff. Hahaha, yeah if only.  I took off my make up and brushed my teeth. I applied my moisturizer, then took a good look in the mirror. I liked what I saw. I looked okay, shiny, but okay. Actually I looked better than okay, I looked like me!
Ciao for now peeps. :-}

And That Quickly It Over

     Tomorrow is back to the grind and it's been a good weekend. I'm a bit tired so I'm headed to bed, but I will be back tomorrow night. It was a driving, good conversations, good eats kind of weekend. Details and more thoughts to come.  Oooh on the edge of your seats I betcha.  LMAO. So ciao for now peeps

And I Ran ......

      With my director - at work - today!! Lmao. I was coming from one section of the office and he was approaching from the other and then we met up and I said, " come on Jose, let's run" so we sprinted off towards the end of the office. My manager was starring wide eyed. Number one - I was running in the office and number two - Jose was acting silly. Running, me! What the hell came over me. I just blurted it out and he ran, I tend to make him laugh.  I'm sometimes goofy and I guess people get amused. I like that actually, I enjoy making people smile. Lots of youngins at work and they love to talk about the Eighties and Nineties. I bring in candy and often bake on the weekends. I have been known to bring brownies and cookies. So mama Mary comes out. It's comfortable, and like I said they are happy with me. Just want another position where I'm not on the phone all the time. I'm starting an excel class soon offered by our work. It's in one of our systems that list classes and they are free, so why not. I know very basic excel, but I want to learn all of it, spread sheets, power point , etc. it's free, I'm stupid not to take advantage of it.
      Well I've been looking at getting some nice fat girl clothes. I have some decent new blouses but I want some dresses. I have my eye on a few shoes, in bone, black and print. Now shoes aren't cheap, not decent ones anyway. Bigger size clothes can be really expensive. I was turned onto this site called Gwynnie Be.  Basically you pay a yearly fee and you can get outfits from dozens of stores. Now you wear these then return them. If you like them, you can buy them at a discount cost. I was looking at the dresses and tops/bottoms, they have some amazing things. They wash them and get them ready to wear again. So I'm thinking of trying it. There is one place called Igigi, they have stunning outfits but not cheap. $108 is a dress minimum. Using this service I can try them and see the fit and comfort. Game plan on for the long weekend.
     Yes speaking of the long weekend. Here in the US it's Memorial Day. A day of remembrance for those who gave their lives in service of our country. Oh a throwback to the last paragraph. I found a pair of walkers on the Tom's shoes website, kind of espadrilles bottoms with canvas body with a stressed American flag motif. So cool. Want for the 4th of July hehehe. Also want to get a few odds
and ends at a store called Home Goods. They have...um...home goods. Lmao
      Oh sitting here in my bedroom, sitting semi crossed leg on my bed, kitty snoozing near me, hubs is is in the computer room across the hall. I'm burning a Yankee Candle, the scent is beach plum. It is my all time favorite scent of theirs. They have limited supply on their website, but it transports me to Long Island.  The beach, not the busy commercial ones, but the ones you find out in the Hamptons, or Montauk. Cape Cod houses in slate blues with white shutters, very serene. Calm breeze, surf in the back and along the beaches the scent of beach plums in the air. I adore it. They are found in said Cape Cod and Massachusetts coastline also. It just amazes how a scent can calm me, makes me want to feel sand on my toes. 😀 beach plums are more like a blueberry. Similar taste, but the flowers, oh the scent is divine.
      Well one more day, then nothing to do for 3 blistfull days. Gym is one of them for a few hours, but then FREEDOM!! I would love to go see the X men movie, but doubtfull. Will drop in on in-laws at some point, maybe all go grab a crab dinner. Fresh crabs at Tims. Waterside, nice views, hot fresh crabs, cold Peronis. Sounds like a plan. Tim's Rivershore Restaurant and Crabhouse in Dumfries VA. Check it out and be jealous. BWAHAHA
     It's now almost half 9, I'm putting the blog away for now. Some thoughts for the next few, but it's smelling soooooo good in here, I'm going to make a pot of tea for hubs and me, then go read the book I'm into at the moment. Love reading, have about 5 books for my summer reading all set to go. So as always, ciao for now 💋
   

Yahoo For All People

     How do you think of what to blog about? Sometimes you just can't, which is why I'm doing it so infrequently as of late. For this I say sorry, and also thank you for checking in again peeps.
      Well today I felt I had to take a stand on Facebook of all places. You see as a fat girl I've dealt with stares, cruel words, and taunting by strangers. Look, I'm as human as the next person, and on occasion I have laughed at a photo or words that tease overweight people. Like the dog under the fat ladies chair that looks very nervous. Okay that's funny, I can appreciate it and smiled and I will kid about pics saying where did you get my picture? Lol of course theses are often posted by people I know, and no harm meant but it's funny that a post was done today in the opposite way. A chubby girl was holding a sign against thin people. Interesting to see the other died of the issue. To me it was just as bad as saying something against a fat person. See thing is, people are fucking people. Seems that everyone has their "thing"! Who feels fat, who thinks they are not pretty, too short, too tall. Media makes you feel like you will never attain perfection. Of course you won't no one is!! Getting to my point, what upset me were the comments. Some were purposely hurtful. Why, why do people hide behind the internet and shout out such remarks that can make you, in a weak moment, get chocked up ?  I felt I needed to reaffirm, that I am me, this is what I look like, this is who I am and I make no apologies for it.  Don't like me, well I don't care.  It just makes me sad that people still feel the need to tear down to make them feel good.   Fat and fabulous plus sexy as fuck= ME!! Lol
     I'm pleased peeps, I got a really good review at work. They were telling me how happy they ate I work there. My director and manager both said personally and professionally they are glad. It felt good, I won't lie. I often wondered if they were glad I was back or did they regret their choice. So now I know.  I admit though, I hate that I am tethered to a phone. I miss being able to take calls when I got one. I have had times when I had to leave a good conversation with good friends to start work. Hopefully one day soon I won't have to do that.
    I will be back tomorrow, I want to get this blog going again, until tomorrow I of course say, ciao For Now

So, What The Hell Was That? The Weekend Of Course.

     Well Friday was a day from hell. I woke up barely, by that I mean my head was throbbing. I don't mean headache, I'm talking ice pick through the brain, dizzy when I stand up, want to throw something across the room. So I called in, and about 4 hours later, I had hubs drive me to the doctor's.  He gave me a nasal spray that did help. So as the day progressed, I felt a bit better. By Saturday I was better and did some window shopping for backyard furniture. Hubs felt bad so he booked a room for us for the weekend AGAIN! Lol. We we had a lovely day, and I made the most awesome burgers for dinner. Truly, we experienced umami. This is a Japanese word meaning the six flavor, meaning divine. I buy extra lean beef, and often use Worcestershire sauce but didn't have any, so I used tamari instead. Along with garlic powder and minced onions, it added an amazing flavor. I was very pleased. Lmao. Then we had drinks and well the night went well. Until. The dog! Poor little pup was in the room down the hall. His owners may have went out and left the poor little pup all alone in a strange place, he started to whimper, it got louder and louder. Now hubs can't stand any animal in pain, he broke a window many years ago when someone left their dog in a car in the summer on a very hot day. No he was not arrested but the dogs owner was. Hehe. Well anyway, he was very drunk and kept going on about this poor dog, who was obviously upset. I held him tight and he was clinging so hard, he started to actually cry for the poor little dog. I must say, I felt such emotion. Well hubs fell asleep, my hair was wet from him tears. I woke up at half 5 in the morning to the dog barking as his people finally got home. I wanted to beat the shit out of them. Thankfully hubs was out like a light. So we slept in. Got up around 10, fed the hubs. Headache was back so I did some laundry, hand wash of course as we were at the hotel. I went for a walk, then came in to marinate dinner and bake cookies for work.  So as you can see the weekend was BORING for reading about. Work today started oh so fun, as I was not there Friday I could not change my password as we were instructed, so it took 2 hours on hold with tech, so started work at 11 today, but the day went okay. It's been a boring weekend, but I did get in a nice walk, and pup aside a calm enjoyable time, even caught a film. "Saving Mr. Banks". Good movie, check it out.
      So sometimes even boring is welcome. Hope you all had a good weekend peeps. Ciao for now.

Mom I love you!

Mom, you taught me to be independent, that being my own person was important and to speak my thoughts even if I was afraid of not being liked because of them. You taught me that true beauty was how you treated others, but the right lipstick shade could change your entire outlook on life. If you helped someone, you did it out of love and caring, and not what you could get for it. You were beautiful, you loved unconditionally.You taught me how to cook, you loved to share your culinary skills, you taught me the "right" way to iron a shirt. You also bought me my first amaretto sour. LOL I just wish I had more time with you as a married woman. To show you that I had listened to all your words. Happy Mother's Day Mom. I miss you every day, I hear your words in my head so very often, and I will love you until my last breath.