I need to get this out OR I will burst

     I'm putting it here because well its a rant of sorts, its not a pity party as I dotn feel all upset but there's a part of me that is a little jealous. Its not going to make or break me at all but Im tired, its been a fucking crazy week, people on the phone have been especially stupid.  To quote Murtough from Lethal Weapon, I'm getting too old for this shit!!  LOL  Not really but I am getting tired of hearing people bitch and yell at me because they are pissed off.  Like before  - I get a guy yelling that he cant enter his time.. Um  dumbass, its past lock out time, like it is every week at this time!! so you fuck up and its my fault!??  Ah well  I am staying at this job as long as I have to and not a moment longer, but I digress  hehehehe
 All day today, as I expected, the flowers all got delivered, Sharis Berries and Edible Arrangements are on many desks. Everyone is talking about all the restaurants they are going to such as Mortons and J.Gilhooley and Ruth's Chris.  I don't need flowers or restaurants, but part of me misses it , its just a nice change. Not for show but to treat my loves to a nice experience.  I work fucking hard all week and I HATE HATE HATE having to scrimp with everything. I don't know what I'm saying I guess I just need to get this superficial cape off my shoulders I guess, I will look at all my beautiful pictures I have of the flowers that I've received in the past, red roses , beautiful white roses and other types of goodies and sweet things. I even got a cook book!  lol  Love it  I know love and I return it and am so lucky that I have a hubs, and family and friends that love me.  I just hate that you feel pressured on this holiday, why wait for one day, I want those I know reading this,  that if I could, I would have sent them dozens of roses and yet one rose is just perfect too, I wish you all the love your hearts can hold and whomever you love (spouse, lover, friend)  returns that love and doesn't need a special day to prove it.  Ciao For Now

So It's Thursday

     So far this week hasn't been too bad at all. I'm glad I said something about wanting I go into emails, my manager has been putting me in emails. I like it, put on my headphones and chill to the tunes.  I found out that my co-worker got the job I applied for.  I'm quite pleased for him, truly. I don't think I'm meant to go further in my department. I'll either go to another division or another company altogether. I'm back to the "until hubs gets a solid job" I'm staying here. Ah well we shall see where it goes.
     I'm freezin lately, it's been so cold, and this Sunday it's going to be a high of 19! Brr baby. It's also Valentine's Day.  Hubs informed me that I'm getting the same thing as last year, yep nothing. He can't afford it and I don't want him spending money that we font gave on me. I bought us a 160 count nix it Yorkshire Gold tea as a treat, so I said there's our Valentines. We enjoy a nightly cup. I miss flowers or gifties but they are lovely extras that will wait and in the meantime we do what we need to to.
     I did decide that I'm pushing my trip to NYC forward a week. So it will be the first weekend in March. The week I was going is husbands last day of work. How can I leave him on a day like that. He said go, but no, it's his last day, he will not admit it, but he needs me there. Wether or not he realizes it. Lol plus it's the loving thing to do, told Sis, she understands.
     So it's been good as I said, but today I found out that my uncle was told that he is now legally blind. He's quite depressed. I spoke to my Aunt this afternoon. He has an appointment at the VA hospital to help him and take some more tests.  I feel so bad for him. He loves to read and this will be a major slow down. I'm going to see if I can find some large print books about the Civil War for him. That's his passion. He loves that era, actually all American history. When they visited us years back he was so happy to be here in this area. We went down in Leesburg, and along some of the civil war paths. I told my Aunt I would call back this weekend to speak with him. I asked my solitary witch group to send him strength and healing.  My great Aunt Nancy went blind when she got older. I tell you, I am so thankful every day for my Dad. He is in quite good health for his age.
     Well I'm going to get ready for bed. I'm still not feeling 100%, hubs sharing that cold if his. Haha
I wish you all that you have a lovely Valentine's Day. Ciao For Now

Sorry Guys

Last night was nice, pancakes for dinner is awesome.  BUT hubs is really sick and he's passing on to me.   Sweet of him  right? Lol. So I remember seeing 8pm but not much after.  I must have been snoozing by 9. So no blog last night.  Sorry.   More later. Ciao for now.

Ain't That A Kick In The Rubber Parts

    As we know I did not watch the Super Bowl' but they had a big pool at work. You know where you  buy boxes for money, in this case $5.00 a box. If you win, you get a bit of all the money collected, yeah. So I had a fiver in my wallet and well, why the hell not. I'll contribute, everyone was. So I wrote my name in a square on the page. Well this afternoon, one of the ladies says congratulations on winning the pool. I'm like I didn't win anything. She pulls out the copy if the original paper and asks me if that's my signature. I look at it and well yes it was.  How about that?! I won the 2nd Quarter.  It's about $75.00 maybe a bit more. What a nice surprise. Haha, yay!
    So basic day, not much to talk about. Oh but I was on Facebook earlier on one of the big girl groups I'm in. Someone was asking about finding wedding gowns in large sizes.  Her sister was having a hard time finding one.  It brought back the joy of shopping for one myself, and I'm being sarcastic here folks.  First off, you're stressed because you're getting married and you've had this dream all your life of what it's going to be like and what you will wear. Hell I had my color scheme by 4th grade. I also had just that at my wedding. Maid of honor in hunter green velvet off the shoulder gown with a glowing back cowl for knack of a better word. She looked gorgeous. Anyway, getting back to today. The bridal shops all mark the sizes down smaller so even an average size of 12 of 14 may find themselves in a 16 or 18. Not cool man!! So thus woman was saying she was having a hard time and without saying it I got the feeling they were strapped for money.  It made me think of my wedding gown just hanging in the vilest in its big pink bag. I thought well, she can have it if it's still in good condition.  It will gave to be cleaned again but if it's not worn and still good, it's hers. So I said she could have mine and put some pics up.  She loved the gown and asked to private message me.  We chatted and I was right. Her sister said things to her like maybe we don't need a wedding cake, or I don't need flowers. Truth is you really don't. If your marrying the right person none of that matters. So I said I will check it when I go to NYC end if the month and I'll see about the shipping costs.  She wants to psy that for her sister.  Her sister is very excited and said it was awesome of me to offer this.  Meh, I loved the day I wore that dress. But I gave no children to hand it down to, nor would anyone I know got it of want to wear it. So this way it gets to go to another happy party. We chatted a little and I gave her my number and said I'd call her soon.  I'm mentioning it here because if I tell anyone it would seem like I was boasting and I'm not. Just a nice thing to do. My gods, I've had my friends and family help me so much lately. I know how it feels to need help and I can help this woman.  ( crossing fingers dress is in good condition ) So that was my night.
     Hubs has a cold and I think he's given it to me. Throat is a bit scratchy , but had some honey and lemon in hot water. Feel better. Took some aspirin and heading to bed. Mardi Gras party at work tomorrow. Ooooh and pancakes for dinner.....yum.  So until next time. Ciao For Now

Super Bowl Sunday and I Don't Care!

.    I don't hate American football, over the years I've developed a lovely apathetic attitude towards it. I did my stint, I was in the color guard in high school. Was at all the football games. Our school had quite a good team. We also had a kick ass rugby team. Some division over in Ireland invited us to play with the boys over there, and I know we won several games. They weren't expecting the Yanks to fare so well I'm sure.  Surprise. That was years ago though. I watch the Barclays premier league games on Saturday mornings here quite often.  I don't shout about it though as I'm only in this about 2/3 years and I've not watched for years like those I would speaking about it with. As Mark Twain said, better to be thought a fool than open ones mouth and confirm that fact.  Or it's something like that :-D

     So it's been a lazy Sunday, reading magazines after cleaning was done. Enjoying a fresh brewed cup of tea and settling in for and afternoon of whatever. I've diced tomatoes, onions, herbs, and roasted some garlic. This will be tossed over our rolotini for dinner, with some pignoli (pine) nuts thrown in. Simple, good, and pretty healthy. The pasta is whole wheat and only oil is virgin olive oil. 

I must make a note that this blog will turn into a place of articles for things like this. But not to ad nauseum status. I mean I hate when people who are losing wright of want to lose weight canly talk about that. There us more in this world. On that note I will mention an article that was in Diabetic Living. I bought it, not because I'm diabetic but it had some good recipes listed.  Why not right?  Well this man is a reporter in DesMoines. And he was talking about his wake up moment.  He was honest and I tell you it's hard to always be that way when you have a great amount of weight to lose. He voiced in at 563 pounds. He spoke of losing his sense of being, all things he can't do anymore. I know all too well what he means. Now I'm nowhere near that fat but damn if I don't understand. I understand not wanting to go out, not doing anything, how it can be a struggle and knowing what you need to do, but not having the energy or even want , to do any if it.  Thankfully I have learned to do these things, I fail some days but that's okay too as I've learned to forgive myself as I alwatpys freely do with friends and family. His article was a really good read. The food recipes were very inspirational as well. It an enjoyable magazine and worth looking at even if you don't have diabetes or are boarder line on getting it and need to step up.  

      It's been a week of ups and downs for me, so business as usual.  I've learned that I can take my breaks and tell my boss I will do that as soon as I'm done. He's cool with it, but of course I usually just do it right then as that's just how I am. Lol. But I will take time in the afternoon to brew a lovely cup of tea. I use a loose blend. It's the Yorkshire gold I love but loose. I have my Doctor Who teapot that I rinse with boiling water then throw in my tea after I fill it with more freshly boiled water and go back to my desk and enjoy a proper cup of tea. I have my strainer for my teacup and my co- worker said when he watches me he wants to have a cup and he doesn't even drink tea.  Lol he said I get so much enjoyment from my little afternoon ritual that it must be really good. I laughed and asked how could he not drink tea, he's Indian.  Lmao.  

He's young and doesn't drink caffeine. He's easy on the eyes too. He's very, I'm not sure how to say it without being insulting, but very hi class.  He's not snobby but he's the type of man that many US men don't get but US women like. He's meticulous, but he also went to military school so that may have something to do with it. He dresses well, and he knows how to wear a scarf!  I know some American men are that way, usually executives, but even up to the 1960s men here were like that also. We've lost something I swear. Grooming and appearance say something. Although if you had seen my Mustang you would have though I lived in her.  Lmao. My deck is a different story, nothing and I mean nothing is out of place. I've gotten compliments on it. Someone sat there while I was on vacation and she said it was the prettiest desk ever. I have my bamboo plant, my teas, my pretty pics. Little statues, pink water bottle, pink fan, pink little Buddha cat and my pens and post-it's are colorful. My desk is very me, if that means anything.  Lol. 

      Hubs is just waking from a grandpa nap and the cat is upset as she was leaning into him but now she's abandoned her. She's taken solace in his warmed up spot on the couch as he's gone into the kitchen.  So glad she'll not be scarred for life, hahaha.  

      So peeps just dropped in to put down some thoughts and say hello.  Ciao For Now 

Have You Ever...

...been afraid to fall asleep because you felt like if you did, you wouldn't wake up?

Sitting In The Parking Lot

As I sit here before work I'm thankful for a job, I'm thankful for my car that gets me here and that I can afford to put gas in it.  I dud not get that other position as as a friend so bluntly put it yesterday- better luck next time! Yes indeed, but the next home won't be here at this company.  Oh my manager couldn't say enough of how great a worker I am.  Whatever, I know this. The whole day just left a bad taste in my mouth.  Hubs has a few more weeks left. More concerned about him anyway.
     It snowed last night and there's not much here but NYC is getting it. I hope it's clear at the end of the month. I am going up to visit and see a friends band play.  Crossing fingers.  Well it's almost 8. So I'm heading upstairs. Have a fabulous weekend peeps. Ciao for now

Same Song As Yesterdays Blog, Different Response LOL

 The difference a day makes, interesting. I guess there will always be a deep down feeling that may on occasion come to the surface. I was feeling a bit weak yesterday but stronger today. We all have ups and downs. But i never want to forget, as it was beautiful. its different now and just as beautiful but in a different way and that's very cool.  I am working this weekend Sat and Sunday as we are slammed on emails and i can use the OT. I'm getting that very positive feeling again. It was a good celebration of Imbolc last night and I am feeling quite rejuvenated.

Just wanted to make the observation and share it and I will admit I am addicted to the new show Lucifer. I love it   I hope it says on longer than one season, not sure , it may be too kitschy for some and well the overly religious may have an issue with the show itself, but oddly the star Tom Ellis is the son of a preacher and several in his family are also preachers  LMAO

Ah well until later peep, Ciao babies.....

Music

All it takes is one song to remind you of the past!! DAMMIT!!!!   Good thing you have a handle on it (for the most part, damn onions!! HA :-D

I do love doing emails though and listening to music, it makes the work day so much more enjoyable.  If you remeber I said I was going to ask my manager about doing it full time when I have my interview. Well I had the interview, I dotn know, I have as good a shot as any of the others. But he said that he is going to rotate emails which is good I suppose as Im sure we all feel the same pretty much LOL     Ah peeps it a decent day, although its been overcast all day. I have two friends who are having birthdays tomorrow, one is going to be 24, old man  hahaha and the other is not 24 ;-)   I won't say how old as she wouldn't like that. but I love birthdays :-D

Just stopped in to say a mid day hey, may be back tonight, may not, we shall see. Ciao for now

There You Are

   Well I did it, I added the pink. Will I keep it? I don't know, maybe. Its fun but as my hairdresser told me this has a tendency to fade out quicker than the blonde. That's fine, gives me more of a chance to switch it up and keep on changing. A work in progress right?   I am indeed. My cousin loved the hair, she said not to lose my flair.  LOl  I have flair? Damn right, dont we all?  It's up to us whether or not we want to let it shine through.  Hubs didn't care for the pink, I looked at him right in the eye and asked him "When did you get so old and lose your sense of fun?"  He stared for a moment and then I think he realized what I was saying, He said, I am not not fun. So I said then lighten up, it's just hair. It grows back and gets cut all the time. So here is a pick of the hair

yep it's cheeky, but hey you have to be a bit whimsical in this life or else you get cold and bitter, It's that flair that my cousin mentioned.
     So it's lunchtime and I'm eating an sachet of oatmeal. I have food that i forgot to bring.  I also have the makings for a one minute muffin that actually has no carbs in it.  Its made with flax meal, egg or egg beaters, splenda and baking powder. There is something else I think. Its really tasty and hey its nice toasted with tea for a little treat at night.  I may make it for breakfast tomorrow along with a scrambled egg.
     It's life as usual now, no more holidays until Presidents day which is February 15th., so it makes for a nice Valentine's day weekend. Not that we are doing anything  LOL  Well maybe Outback. I know its not Smith & Wollenskys but its in the budget and its a decent steak. I make no apologies for it. I would apologize if it was Olive garden, ugh the Italian blood in my veins boils when I hear someone say what a great italian restaurant. I mean okay Im sure its tasty but when you've grown up with Nona and Mom, and you actually, (yes I make a damn good meatball and gravy) it's hard to find a place out that you like.  LOl   But it's the joy of no clean up isn't it? hehehe
     So I was this close (fingers put really close together) to getting into it with a chick on facebook. She was saying how fat girls are just ugly and there is nothing anyone can say to change her mind.  I stopped myself because it wasn't worth it. There are people that will just tear others down for any reason and I'm sorry, but looking a certain way in not a good reason. We were talking about it at the hair salon on Saturday. My hairdresser wants to gain muscle, she's slender and she feels too weak. So she wants to gain weight in her arms and butt area. I want to lose my belly area, One of the other ladies can't gain weight at all and she is too thin to carry a child. She is so sweet, I hope she gets preggers.  Is anyone happy with who there are. Ina  world that strives for perfection, I say embrace your imperfections, thats what makes you you!!   Too tall, Too short, Too fat, too thin or a mix of several  like me  LOL  Be happy, if you don't like something and want to change it, then do it for you, not to fit in.   Go us!!  LOL  
     So peeps its getting a bit crazy, our systems are down and I am having to double on my work because of it   oh joy!! :-D but Im on emails so thats a huge plus.  Until next time   Ciao for now

Therefore By The Grace Of God Go I

     Well hubs got the news, he has 3 weeks left before he will need another job. Sigh...but we will get by, you do what you must.  But it got me thinking of those less fortunate.  Yes we are tight on money, we barely will make the bills. But we will do what must be done, but there are those who have nothing. We see them on the street, but do we really see them. They are people, they have families or had families. It may be a similar tale to ours,  but they weren't fortunate enough to keep the roof over their heads. We are fortunate. We have family and friends who love us and helped us.  Twice this evening hubs saw panhandlers. A woman asking for a few dollars and a man asking for donations to a very good cause. Hubs felt bad about the last one, the man from D.A.R.E. (Drug abuse resistance education) was very nice he said.  Hubs used to do work for them at the printing company he worked at years ago, the owner never charged them. The woman seemed sincere but how can you tell really? Yet if I had a few extra dollars I would have given her some of at least bought her some food. But I honestly didn't have one bit of cash on me.   I look at the ads for all the homeless children, animals and people out in the cold. I read about the abuse elderly people get in nursing homes. It's deplorable, and oh to have won that powerball.  The good that money would have done.  I always gave to The North Shore Animal League, and DAV (disabled American veterans)  I want to help.  There is no place nearby that has a physical place to help. I am thinking of volunteering at the county animal shelter, but right now my extra time would best be put to an extra job.  I'm getting in some OT this week which us a good thing.  NYC us my buffer, don't know what the next few months will bring but hopefully it's good.
     I never thought I would have this kind of struggle with money, but no one sees it coming. If you gave a good job, appreciate it.  A roof over your head, and friends and family to visit you, then smile and be very thankful.
     I still feel this Spring will be bring hood things. I don't know why, perhaps because I am seeing things in a better perspective, it just that I'm not going to host pity parties.  It's life, not always great but at least it keeps you on your toes. Dancing on my toes, oh how fucking awesome I'd be as a Ballerina.  Ha!! Pink tutu of course.  Maybe I'll dye my hair black, nah but perhaps a touch of pale pink? It's fun, why not?  I'm not old and yes, even though I'm not 20 anymore I can still have some flair.  But now it will take the form of stratigicaly placed strands of pale pink mixed with my blonde locks.   Oh I can't wait to run this past my hairdresser.  You think I'm daft right?  GOOD!!! I love tea so why not be a Mad Hatter once in a while?  This thought has me doing flippy flops inside.  I need to research colors...off to Pinterest I go....but first I must give cuddles to the cat. She just settled in next to me and is doing that kneading thing with her paws and purring......so fucking cute..Squeeeeeeee!!! I love her.  :-).    So ciao for now peeps.

Blizzard of 2016

      So the weathermen were correct, we got 30" of snow within a 2 day period. The official ruling for my area is 28, but it ended being 30.  Hubs went out to shovel and he's in a bit of pain. You know they still have not plowed our street.  You can't get out. You can walk to the main road, but there is no real way to get to work without the car.  He doesn't know anyone from work that can come get him. If they plow overnight he can go in. I took a vacation day as I didn't want to go in, as I figured it would be a right mess.
    All the photos on Facebook, including mine, showed all the snow that fell in drifts and prevented people from going anywhere far. My friend had a goodnight idea, and her kids were jumping off a small ladder into the snow. Looked fun. We had really high drifts, some taller than me.  I called my dad, because NYC got hit much harder than they originally said. They got basically the same as us.
     So I've been sketching, online, had great chats and here we are Sunday night.  It's not unusual to have nowhere to go on a weekend but the fact that there was no option,  made it weird. I really wanted to go out. Figures right?
      At 5:30 am this morning, it's now Monday, our street still had not been plowed. Checked in with a friend in NY to see if he was able to get into work. He's a teacher in Brooklyn. He lives in Staten Island and the mayor has opened the schools. How stupid. I know of others in the same area who got into work. And of course you have police, firemen, hospital workers. I hope they are safe. Here too, our emergency people and civil servents have to get in. I wish them all good luck.  I'm snuggled in my bed.  I'm fully awake, have brought up a cup of tea for me and for hubs (he's home today) but tomorrow I'm at work.  Message on my office phone said that the parking lot is not fully plowed so be careful. Hope it cleared by tomorrow.  I don't want to use vacation again. Schools and federal government offices all closed today. 30" of snow in 2 days is a lot to handle.
     Got some good sorting done on my laptop actually. Deleted old files and cleaned it up. Looks brand new. Backed up all my files and transferred music. Been wanting to do that for a long time.
So I'm baking today, looking st Pinterest to get inspired. Meatloaf tonight, chicken chili tomorrow. I want to go out and play in the snow but no one wants to. Boo!! What good is snow if you can't have s snowball fight? Lol. Well ciao for now peeps

Bit Nippy Out

     So everyone is all a Twitter about the snow that's coming.  I must admit, I'm looking forward to it myself. Watching it fall gently, but they are saying Saturday may see gusts of wind at 40 mph. Breezy. Lol. Who knows. The Euro model has us getting pounded, the American model about 6" to a foot, still sizable. East coast is in a watch and wait. Called my dad, he is going to the store tomorrow. He's pretty self contained, minimal living makes times like these seem not as crazed.   We are going mellow. I did ask hubs to get cheese and tomato soup si I can make grilled cheese sandwiches Saturday.  Movie marathon, grilled cheese and tomato soup, then throwing some snowballs, good day     {goofy smile}
     Well hubs got word, he will not be working more than about another month st this place. I'm hoping he gets something else. Sigh, I hate going back to stressful days. I'm already being garnished, I can't afford to have more taken. As it is I will have to put hubs back on my medical benefits. I have no problem doing this but my check is going to be minuscule. I'm talking just about able to pay the mortgage.  Not counting car payment, utilities, and the bankruptcy fees. This must be paid or they take the house.  Well saving every penny, which is why that cheese is not the fancy cheeses I would have liked, but it is food that is needed. I'll be juggling again :-)
      Just stopping in folks, I'll be back. Lol. Ciao For Now

Powerball

Powerball closer now to almost 1.6 billion dollars.  That's obscene!! Yes of course I bought some tickets. I won $4 last time.  Lol what would I do with all that money? Shake the economy that's for sure. The usual, pay bills, pay off house for my family and us. Buy a few houses for people. Sis for one, would have a house near the water, south shore of Long Island. I'd have my Long Island home also. Put money in a tax free something or other. Then build a new place for the no kill animal shelter  I love so much so they could keep a thousand or so animals, with top rate vet  care. Homeless shelters and children's hospitals, veterans hospitals too. Where to start? I'd give to my friend to help him start his dream, I'd set my niece & nephew up with college money. I'd drive cross country with the hubs just enjoying all the different places. I'd travel too.
But in reality I will wake up tomorrow, no better or worse than I am right now.  Things are tight, hubs job is helping but tonight even that bright spot got a bit of a tarnish.  Just think positive for us - okay? I'm still so grateful for what I do have. My job, a roof over our heads, clothes, cars that get us where we need to go. Yes we are already richer than many. I try to keep it in perspective.  So good night all, sweet dreams, and ciao for now.

A Day In Queens

     So i find myself back in NYC, its been a two week break yet again. I am done after this trip until the end of February and i think thats okay, have things to do in VA. So Once more I made very good time and thats a plus as just as i pulled into the driveway I got such a leg cramp, oh man it hurt. Can't really show Dad how badly as he kind of freaks out if I'm in pain. Went right up to go to bed and I took some magnesium pills which usually helps but not last night. Hopefully better tonight.
    Off I went to get pastries for tonights gathering. As I passed by a church i could see a lot of cars and limos. Either a wedding or funeral. It was the later. At the point I was passing by the were bringing the soul down to the awaiting funeral car. I heard the church bells start to toll. I felt that I was intruding on a very private moment and as I drove past I could hear the bells still chiming in metered ringing. Very somber indeed, the gloomy weather just added to it. I felt a sense of passing grief, no I did not know the person, but I know loss. I was immediately struck at how hollow the chimes sounded, almost as if they were crying along with the family. Its interesting to note that around 4PM or so those same bells will most likely chime to mark the happy occasion of a wedding. There will be smiles on those church steps instead of the grief i saw today. I wonder what made those bells sound so hollow, and yet will sound so full and bright later on?
    More observations as I made my way along Tulip Avenue in Floral Park. Lovely little town. It still has a small town feel, signs that read Village Florist or Village Diner. Not big conglomerate names. Even the druggist, not a CVS or Duanne Reade, no this one said Floral Pharmacy. You can just imagine that the druggist knows the patients he dispenses the medications too. I went farther along and I noticed the deflated Santas and Snowmen on the front lawns. Christmas is over, even The Epiphany is past, if you follow that. Yet the last remnants remain. Maybe if by holding onto these decorations will keep the "Christmas Spirit" alive. Hey it could be that the weather is finally getting colder, or that this weekend they will indeed be packed away until next year. Thats how it is by where i am headed tonight.  A good pal in Lake Peekskill, and his partner are keeping up their decorations so we can see the house in all its holiday glory. He is even going to make another figgy pudding to add to the celebration. We will toast the holidays, there will be a small gathering of about 8 or so. One last toast to this New Year and then tomorrow the decorations come down. At least the outside lights wont be on. Im looking forward to tonight. Sis has never been up that way. I have no problem getting there, its at the top of the mountain, getting down is okay too, its just that teeny section of when you reach the bottom which way do you turn  lol
     Hey my friend got a new car, I'm beyond happy for him. It's always a great thing.  He has basically an identical car to mine now.  He originally had the Fiesta which made me look into one and i can understand why he likes it. Its very roomy for its size and its a sweet looking car too. So I test drove one and bought one. Our front fascias were different though, but now with his new one, they are the same. Except of course the steering wheel is not on the proper side. LMAO  I wish him many happy and safe driving miles.
     So the 800 million dollar powerball is tonight. Can you imagine??? yeah I'll let ya know how that goes! :-D
Well, I need to do a few things then hop into a shower to get ready, Sis will be her in just over 2 hours. So enjoy the rest of your weekend peeps. Ciao For Now

VERDICT? Thumbs Up

     Well we saw Star Wars and I really liked it, I will agree that they set it up for the next movie but that's to be expected.  I enjoyed it so much in 3D.  The technology blew me away and even hubs was very impressed at the way it was filmed. He thought it was very well done. he wasn't as thrilled as I as but he did still like it. I think it didn't help that he had to sit in the theater for almost 45 minutes as I didn't want to be late  LOL  Im going to try to get back to go see The Jungle Book in 3D  it looked really good.
     Im actually going into the kitchen, its one of those days when I need to get away from my computer screen. Tomorrow I go to NY and Im so looking forward to it so I will have some new things to blog about. My silly little world.  So until that time , ciao for now peeps

Window Shopping Online

I need to get some clothes. I'm not talking a lot, just adding to things I have so I can wait for the spring when I can get things. I am saving some cash, so I'm looking at sale items.  I love so many dresses but this one would have to be worn with a shrug as I don't like my arms uncovered. I give it to women who are confident enough to go sleeveless when they have large arms. I'm not saying I don't do it at home, just out and about I prefer to cover. I'm going to get a pair of capris me thinks plus a few pair of jeans. Those I need, I have work slacks, need casual ones too.   

     Oh I picked up our tickets for Star Wars tonight, so yay, finally getting to the cinema. I'll give you my thoughts tomorrow.  I'm excited for the movie but I'm also happy to be going out with hubs. We are having a bite to eat before the movie so it's a nice date night. Been awhile. 

     Just took off my make up with coconut oil, ladies it's so gentle and works really well. I used these pads I got at the drug store, they are more like cotton pads. Did that, then washed my face and it feels so smooth. Try it gals, you'll like it, promise. I know boring blog but it's my blog, it's been a quiet night. So I will leave you some photos.  Here's a few pics of what I looked at to purchase.  And ciao for now 

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Will We or Won't We?

Hubs is pretty sick. He's got just over 100 fever and is under 3 blankets.  I'm stroking his head as he makes the weirdest noises while he's sleeping.  Sitting upstairs in the bedroom with him in case he needs something.  So Star Wars tomorrow? We shall see.  Crossing fingers.  All in a day.   Ciao peeps

So Far

    Not bad....lmao.  So it's now almost 5 am, I just can't sleep tonight. Hubs is having a time of it and I think I'm having sympathy insomnia. It's only Saturday, and that's good. Why? It just is, no reason needed.  I think today calls for a glass of ice cold lemonade. I know it's January, cold out, and others are thinking hot chocolate or coffee, nope not me.  I want something super refreshing. None of that fake powder shit either, I'm talking real lemon juice, ooh my mouth just puckered thinking of it. Ha! So as you have seen, I'm all about me.  I did some soul searching about 2015.  It ended better than it started. Dare I tempt fate and shout out I made it through a holiday season without residing in a hospital bed. Fingers crossed as I say that, I am most grateful to the powers that be, this has not occurred. Going to do my fucking damnedest to not have it occur again. Oh and I'm going to say FUCK a lot more in 2016. Fuckin' ay, Fuck off, Fuck yeah and Fuck you!! Fuck Fuck Fuckity Fuck Fuck :-D
      I've decided that in the last few years, I was hurt by things. Not the actual occurrence, but the way it was handled. I have a right to be a little angry about it too. But in the big picture, and I always like to take in the big picture, things went as they should. Lesson learned, I passed - move on to next level.  We all hurt each other at some point, we try not to, but it happens. We are such fragile beings. Oh don't give me that I'm not fragile bullshit. If you have a pulse and a conscience, you are fragile.  The strongest person on this planet, at one point in time is alone in a room and will allow a shadow to cross their minds, a moment of weakness we say. It's allowed and it's our right as humans. Over the course of the last month, I've had more than a few people tell me I'm funny, and one tell me I'm special.   That's another tale, as I think someone may be crushing on me. How the hell do ya like them apples!?  On me!! It's helped put a few things crystal clear to me. Interesting to look through the mirror to the other side. I'll say that for sure.  
     It's so weird. I'm tired and wired at the same time.  I have this energy running through me, I can feel it. It's not for this moment in time, later today perhaps.  The upcoming week it will be needed.  Work is going to be crazy. We had issues with the new timekeeping system. Total SNAFU. Between that and the fact that this Friday is the first payroll off the new year, the calls will be nuts. At least I may get some overtime out of it.  I can use it, it offsets the garnishment. Which will be over in 4 months. It's fine, one more bill I can then say good bye to. It's for my lady hospital visit, last December. I know, how the hell did I not pay it.  Well, when you have your little pay and hubs used to bring home more than double your pay and that one stops then severance runs out and you are now trying to pay all the bills, plus whatever fun house issues pop up all on one little salary, it happens. But now there is another income. Not what it was but it's still another income. I want to zero out bills, get my credit back in good standing. It's still poor but at least it's not very poor anymore so that's the right direction. It's orange now, soon, yellow, then green, eventually blue. Lol color codes, they dumb down everything these days.
       So food, remember how thus all started. It will be lifelong, I'm down with that, I'm down to being a big girl the rest of my life, just want to be a bit less big and feel a lot more healthy.  I am feeling less sluggish, yay, and I'm not giving in to bad choices, BUT,  I will live my life as I need to. Do what I can, for myself. I need to gain strength as I think I'm going to need it towards the middle/end of the year.  I also need to walk better in heels. My friend, he walks better in them than I do.  Sigh....bwahahaha.  Bit of levity thrown in there.  Seriously though, I have to get this ass to the gym again. My back tits are better than my front ones at this point.
     So, it's now half 5 in the morning and I've been rambling about 40 minutes. So now that my brain is fully awake, the it's time to go scrub my face and great the day. So peace out ( I'm so street LOL) and Ciao For Now

2016 THIS..........