Tidbits

     Well let's see
It was very hot today - no like - too soon
Down a size in panties
Bra is the same. Good don't want the girls getting smaller
Had some pizza for dinner, had a craving. Didn't eat much. Yay for me
Man, it feels good taking a shower the laying on the bed totally starkers with the fan on.
Day went smoothly, but very busy
Quite tired, going to bed
Ciao for now

Back in VA

     As always, I feel wanting when I get back from NY. I just miss it so.  Had good chats with Dad though, took pics of old pics he has. Put them on Facebook in an album I have there. He told me that when he was about 16 he and his friends all went to Coney Island. He asked a girl if she wanted to go for a ride in the tunnel of love. She said sure, but not with YOU! He got all upset he said, no girl had ever turned him down. (Holy shit! Lmfao) he asked why and she said I've heard all about you.  Oh god, dad was a player! I was crying, never heard no from a girl. Crap, dad was the hottie of his group. It makes me laugh, and cringe a bit too. I'm more like dad than I ever knew. Hahaha
      Had fun teasing him after that. Took him for a drive in my new car. He really liked it. It said it's so roomy, and after our trip into New Jersey my friend T said that it suited me and I made a good choice. I agree with her. It's an awesome car. Her name is officially now, Tink! That suites her too, I think. I already have just hit 1000 miles. NY trip was about 746 all on it's own, as we ventured, as I said, into Jersey Saturday night. We had a really nice evening. The food was outstanding, and I fell in live with the mango peach salsa. Had some sweetness and a medium heat that was perfect. Had a soft taco then took the fillings and had it on a plate. No reason to add all the taco shell calories. Then Sunday Dad's neighbor came over. Thankfully he did not have to put his dog to sleep. The pup is responding to the medicine and the vet is hopeful.  Little pagan me is praying to St. Francis to keep the dog healthy and strong. He's a member of the family, those of you will fur babies you love can understand I'm sure.
     So today started my 60 in 6! More if I can. Gym in the am. Today was okay.  Tomorrow will be better. It helped that a co worker told me I looked like I lost weight, and an worker who used to work there, came for a visit and said I looked great.  So I have lost all the weight I gained since I started work there again so I'm happy again. Will keep you posted every now and then as it's not my main focus. It's just my life. BWAHAHA
     I did have a mini panic attack. I had printed out my E ticket for my flight, I had even taken a pic to send my England hosts but I thought I had archived the email it came on.  I did not. So I went through my drawers at my desk in a mad dash but I found it. Whew!!! It is now where I can get to it.
Dumb bunny I know.  Hubs was looking on line for me and showing me all the 3 ounce bottles so I know what to get to put my face lotions and potions in. Lol
     Not much else, few odds and ends but I'll save those. Oh goody, I hear you say to yourselves. Lmao. Well peeps, I will leave you, saying, as always, ciao for now.

New York - early Saturday

     I mean early. It's 2am, and I've been here just over an hour. My numbers were not so great on my up today as I spent 5 hours driving up to NY tonight. The new cars first big trip. She did great. Baby has lots of oomph,  and looks good. Just like her driver. Lol I was making great time then on the last leg of the journey as I was coming off the Verrazano Bridge, the traffic to the Belt Pkwy was backed up all the way to the exit on the bridge. So I was able to get out of it and I took the Brooklyn queens expressway instead. Through Brooklyn and not always top rate areas but I have driven these roads many times. Instinct took me home.
     As I lay here in bed listening to the noises outside my window, I can imagine being transported back in time to younger years. I still hear the traffic on the Grand Central Pkwy.  It's a good 2 miles away but sound travels this time of the morning. It's still a quiet block. I almost think I hear Michael's car go by. A past boyfriend. Who was a friend and still is. His mom was from England and she watched me often. So started my love affair with England. Mike would get home then take Brandy got a walk. He would wait for me to come outside. We would talk and make out and quiely laugh for hours, while Brandy just waited. She was a Dalmatian and a good girl. It was sweet and is a pleasant memory.   Mike and I have  known each other forever it seems. This room, this house, my dad! They all are slightly fading. This house needs an overhaul (hell so do I lmao) but my Dad was saying he cleans, he polishes the furniture and he cleaned the bathroom. I look around and wonder where? But he is 86. So I say nothing as I pick up the sponge and give the sink a scrub. I did the dishes he had there also. I wish I had more time to spend here. To give it all a good scrubbing. As for my dad. He's getting thinner and he seems frail. Not in the sense that he'd break if hugged to hard but in a way I can't explain. But those of you with older parents know what I mean. To the world they think themselves forever 25. Able to do it all still, but when you watch them, it seems even a tea cup
seems  heavy for them. He's got lots of fire left in him but the fireplace is looking tired. I love him dearly, he loves life, always has but again I am sensing something. Just a feeling. Not bad. Just nature.  This I can't explain. It was this way last visit too never was before. I am not sure why I'm getting this vibe. Sorry for the downer but it's almost half 2 now. I love him, he is my Da! Shaking this off now.  Busy weekend. Visit friends in their new home. Partying Cinco De Mayo style. Then a friend's little boys birthday when I get to VA tomorrow. I am not sleepy but I must try.  So have a fantastic Saturday make it a funky one. Ciao for now

A Quickie Before Work.

    Well hello peeps. A rare early blog for me. It's not even 9am yet. I'm in the parking lot at work. Today is May 1st. Beltane. A fire festival for Spring. Still celebrated with the most known tradition if the maypole. Yes a very sexy image and fitting too, as this holiday is about rebirth. Yes and sex is a part if that. It's natural and fun. Lol always on my to do list {blush} I feel recharged today. I wish that for all of you as well
     Just chillin before work starts. In my car listening to Bruno Mars. I think I may have a bit of a crush on him. But methinks I'm going to head inside and get a yogurt and tea before the day formally begins. So I'll be back tonight peeps, so until then. Ciao For Now

Well La De Fuckin Da

     Was a lovely weekend. Very chill, but got things done that I wanted. New things. Like yoga. Oh yes peeps, herself found herself in a room with other ladies, all of us in various stages of roundness. I was not sure what to expect. It was stretches, and loosening ourselves up. Simple stretches that limber you up gently. Moves I wouldn't have thought possible from this short round body. Some were not done right I know, but I've got things to do.
     I started work in August. I was going to the gym like a good girl. I looked and felt great. I was sexy, it showed I felt it. Then work started. Thrilled to be working again. Yet the side effects of working everyday with a schedule smack in the day, left me figuring when to work out. I've made it to the gym, not anywhere near what I should and sat on my ass all day. See my work ethic is a good one. I stay at my desk, answering phones and do it quicker than some, so although I get more calls done, I am quite stationary. Well I got this bracelet that measures my steps. Yes my circuit does not show up but I need to gain leg stamina so I can walk a lot. Now in the last few weeks, I've changed things up a bit. I'm not booking at the 5k a day steps I want, but I am over 1k and keeping steady around 2k. I almost got to 3k one day. I'm getting up and even just to get water from the kitchen, the walking at lunch is giving me more walking in the day. I drive to work, I stay at my desk. All day nothing gets done at home, one would think it would, but I know the depression that being out of work does. Hubs is buried in it, even if it seems okay, I see it. What makes it worse is that he gets paid the same as when working so now I know he's scared. Scared he's been out too long, scared he's older than the others, scared he's washed up. It makes me sad, so I tell him all the positive things I can. They are not lies, he truly is brilliant with computers. Well anyway, nothing gets done, so when I come home at night, it's picking up, it's getting dinner. Weekends when I should be out, it time to clean, to do the things that should be getting done. I'm not making any excuses, well maybe a little, but no more. I'm down to the wire, 6 months, 6 months until a lifelong dream will come true. I can't disappoint those people that have burrowed into my heart. They are planning a party for me, for me! Nobody me!! I'm gobsmacked by that. I can't let them down.  I can't let ME DOWN!
     Time to get serious, I will be damed if I will trip myself up, as I've done so often in the past. I am going to board that plane, have amazing adventures, then come home still feeling like I'm flying from the rush of the week and a half that just had happened.
      Truth peeps, I'm scared, I'm getting nervous, I feel like I'm not living up to what's expected and worse I'm feeling very needy. I feel ugly, not desirable and when push comes to shove I feel I disappoint when I try. I know this will pass, as I get stronger, but for now, I needed to confess my thoughts. It's been awhile but please don't let this turn you off my blog. More fun to come.  Ciao For Now.

Well Here We Are In The Office

Its now about 3:46 in the afternoon and the wave of calm that always happens this time of day is here and it is not doing me any favors boy! I went to sleep at a fairly normal hour, half 11, then I woke up at about 1/4 to 4 and couldn't sleep for almost and hour and a half, so very little sleep fo rme. I feel it too. Yawning evey few minutes, tacky I know. LOL Well my new car has arrived. It was such a thril to look at the odometer and see 45 miles insted of 96K. I will miss my Pony but it was draining me dry in gas. She needed high test premium and gas prices are high again. The gas milege wasn't very high either, ranging about 25 mpg on highways. This now one is at 39/40 highway. I look forward to visiting my dad on half a tank. It's nice to be able to use the bluetooth to speak through the car. I am just learning the bells and whistles it comes with and once I figure it all out, Bruno Mars will be singing his heart out as I drive the roads. (I'm getting a weird fangirl crush on him LMAO hahaha) My biggest heartbreak this weekend came in the form of my friends Mom dying. I have known this woman since 1980 when I met my friend. She was a very lovely lady who used to spoke French with my Uncle when ever they met. She was from Hungary and actually spoke 4 languages. She unfortunatley had a very hard young life as she was jewish and put in the concentration camps as a young girl. She survived and I have to tell you her stories were mezmerizing. They gave you chills! She was friends with Sidney Poiteir (wrong spelling I know)but she is now at rest at least and I now it will take time but my friend knows this too. So here's to life! I'm a very boring gal, I have nothing new going on (other than my car of course but I dont want to be a pest with that) BUT I IS ONE HAPPY BUNNY! lol okay no more, squeal!! lmao I do have a yoga class this weekend at my gym THIS shoud be interesting for certain. It's called lower body Yoga and I want to decrease my lower body without taking anything from my upper. HEHEHE I dont know , when you think of yoga, maybe its just me, but the downward dog position seems futile if thre is not a hot partner behind you,with some spanking, some wine and Maxwell playing on the Ipod. BWAHAHAHA I'm wicked I know, that ain't changing anytme soon, I can promise that! ;-) I tell ya peeps. I am ready to go home, after I drop off my title at the dealership as I forgot it yesterday. I am looking forward to snuggling up on the couch and reading my new book as I drink more than enough tea. Quaint right? Im headed to the gym tomorrow night as I already told hubs I wont be home right after work. Well thre is my boring day peeps. Ciao For Now.

Readers Digest

Friend broke her foot, Dad had a date, Hubs has a slight ear infection. I bought a car, dear friends mother died. Had Easter at the in-laws. Just had a very strong night cap. Sleepy now. Ciao for now peeps🐣🐰

It's Been Awhile I Know

     Well let's see what has been going on in Mary land. Not Maryland, that's a state sillies! Lol life is as we go on day to day, the same basically with little notches of funny. A surprise too this week.      Hubby sent me a lovely orchid, that came in a very vintage looking tea cup & saucer. So pretty and it looks great on my desk. I also got the fall fairy I ordered plus an added surprise of a beautiful necklace as a gift.  I was touched. I also got an early birthday gift for a friends daughter. I am actually thinking about other items I may order. I mean one of a kind cool gifts are the way to go I think. I love when I get a handmade gift. A couple of years ago two of my English friends made theses awesome tea cups for hubs and me. We use them quite often. Hubs really was taken by his, and my creative artist was a young lady who has such talent that is developing and I smile every time I use it. I've had some good laughs with my old girlies. Looking at mine and hers wedding pics, we just laugh over what happened behind the scenes. Just good memories. 😂
       Well on the car front, I am getting more and more frustrated. I just can't find the car I want in the color I want. Looking at other colors now and the selection is not really giving me warm and toasty feelings but I will have a new car, hopefully before I go to England. Hubs is asking for me to wait until he starts working again. Fair enough I suppose.
      I was talking to a co-worker today, and he was sweet. He said I should not worry about social stigmas as I am a one of a kind. He's a really nice guy, and very intelligent. It's nice to know you can have a good conversation. Actually there are a few of them in the same pod, and the conversations that happen would make The Voice pale in comparison. Good group, we had all hung out on our snow team when we had a in room party one night, as the snow came down heavy. Speaking of snow team, another friend from work, will be leaving us tomorrow. Him and his partner are moving out of state. I'm sad that he is leaving but happy for him, and all the new beginnings. I bought a little something for him as a going away. I will miss him terribly.
     Sunday is Easter so we will be headed over to the in-laws. Love them and there may be lamb.  Yummy!!! Lmao today was Holy Thursday and all day today, when someone said Holy Thursday I so wanted to shout out "Batman!"  BWAHAHA.  I'm so sarcastic 😊😎
     Not much of a blog but life is steady decent so I'm not complaining. So until next time, ciao for now.

Just Give Me The Night

     Hello once again peeps. It's Saturday night, just about 11 pm. Hubs is nodding off and I am doing a crossword, but I needed to give my mind a rest from it as it was making me cross eyed. No pun intended. I've had an enjoyable day, went for a lovely drive as the weather was stellar. I went to the gym and did my circuit, on that a side note of frustration. I am wearing my jawbone again, but it doesn't measure anything that doesn't not include walking and the circuit doesn't, so it looks like I sat on my ass all day. I try to reserve that for work. Lol ah well I know it at least and I put it on my fitness pal to keep track of it. I did have some gelato this evening. It was super yummy, but I limit myself to a little even though I could have had more quite easily.
     Going to a brunch tomorrow, and making traditional English scones. I haven.  the recipe from a woman who married a man from England. I found it on Pinterest. Had very high ratings and they looked lovely. Not overly sweet, which I like. I am stopping at the store to pick up strawberry jam and clotted cream, or maybe Devonshire cream. I have put the question to my friend hoping he can explain the difference and suggest which one based on his preference I would imagine.
     Spoke to my friend today who was moving into her new house this very day. I am beyond happy for her. I love when I hear good news from dear friends. I like to know they are happy. I can't wait to visit her. It won't be for a few months as she wants to paint and arrange the home as she wants it. She has quite a decorating flair, and her home will look like a magazine I'm sure. I've seen it in the house she rented and in her apartment also. She's very good, good eye!
     I have to say I wrote a blog yesterday that I erased. It was a bit maudlin and I wrote it in frustration as I had no one to speak with. Just a bad night. As what usually happens, with the coming of the sun, it was better. I try to keep calm, for my health and my sanity, but on occasion, it's gets a bit much. The worst is hearing the words said that sting me, knowing they are not meant I try to let it go. Hell, most of the time, it's not even remembered. But today has been lovely, I'm feeling good, in a great mood. I was in such a good mood that I didn't even bug friends on Facebook although I know they were on. I am not the sun and their lives do not circle around me. So how selfish of me to act that way. I'm looking forward to tomorrow as brunch will be fun, the day is supposed to be as beautiful as today was. A friend at work gave me daffodils and I am planning to plant them around the lamppost in my front yard. They should look pretty there. So that is on the list for tomorrow as well.
     The tea cup is now empty and that is my cue. Party animal that I am, I'm heading to bed at half 11. Lmao I will be up early as I need to get an early start. So I will say to you all as I always do, Ciao For Now.

Well Ain't That Just Perfect

     I'm talking about the news I got this afternoon at work. Now my credit suffered quite a bit when I was out. I was making about a third of what I was making when I worked. So I have been trying to regroup and get back in Fico's good graces. Well today I get an email saying the credit check that is given prior to working was not done for me, and 4 other people. I am a little freaked out. What if I don't pass? What happens? Will I be let go? I can't be, I need to work. I wasn't in yesterday and today I was on the verge of barfing more than once. I just started to feel better than I saw this. Not happy at all! Oh well no use worrying about it. My bills are all paid, car is paid off , that should help. Fuck fuck fuck. 😄😂
     I'm just still tired. Headed to the gym after work tomorrow. Going to get in early at work and do a few things. Concentrating on day by day. And the time will go. I'm going to worry about what effects me, help those I love if I can, and keep my eye on what I want. We shall see.  Signing off peeps, not in the blogging frame of mind. Sorry. Until next time, ciao for now. 💗😎

Days Of Future Passed

     Ever feel like you are somehow being tested? That's my last few days I tell you. My memory has been strong lately and I find myself longing for adventures that occurred and even more so the urge for new memories. Not happening I know but one can hope that those involved think back occasionally and long for them again.
     I plan on making some awesome memories later this year. I will have lots of pics to share so I will do thus on my laptop so I can share them. 😀
    I must share, my friend over in England had my peeing I was laughing so hard. I had mentioned my perfect length slacks, well he teased me and called them shorts, I said they are not shorts! Then he messages - belt? I burst out laughing. He just cracks me up! Thanks for that my friend. Even hubs audibly Lol'd at that one hahaha
     I promised some poetry, and here is a snippet of what I'm working on:
She awoke from Winters slumbers
Ready for new adventures
Her body ripe and wanting
Ready to feel her destiny once more
She had prepared all through the cold and darkness
Knowing that the time would come once again.......
That's the start of it, more tomorrow or maybe I'll just for Sunday and post the whole damn thing. 😌
    Another weeks close is upon us and I'm happy. It went rather quickly but I find myself sad as the lady who is leaving work thinks she may make tomorrow her last day instead on next Friday. Must stop and get flowers on the way to work. I am running on a high energy but I feel it stabilizing. I am not writing long blogs peeps as nothing is going on. So I will say night night. I really want some long chats with friends this weekend, hope it can happen. 😳
Ciao for now

Just a teeny something.

     Good day today, but busy. Bit of upsetting news though. One of the temps that we hired during open enrollment was informed that her last day will be the 11th of this month. I am sad, she is a doll and I will miss her. On another point, she was one of the people who was on the HR side until closing at 6pm. Now it's just 2 of us, and I don't see us getting out at 6 now. Oh well, can you say overtime? Lol 

       There's a stomach bug going around and several folks have it. Tonight I feel a bit off in the tummy area. To reference Winnie The Pooh, I have a rumbly in my tumbly. My belly made a rather loud rumble, and Hubs starred at me and I asked what? He said it was nice to get the F5 warning.  I smiled and told him, fabulous, you finally realized I'm the finger of God. (Major Twister reference lol) 

       Wasn't that post exciting? Lmao. Working on some poetry so I will post that tomorrow. I leave you now and wish you as always, ciao for now.

There Was A Black Moon

     It was yesterday. A time for change, new starts. Well let's see. I have felt the pull of this moon from down deep inside. I have made some changes and we shall see if they benefit me or not. I am feeling positive about these, I will say that.
     Ooh peeps, I wish I could sometimes be as raw as I want to be. I hold back on occasion, even on a blog that's supposed to be that raw kind of emotion. Thing is there is shit that I deal with every day, that I've learned to live with, that I shouldn't have to. I go to work every day, usually with a smile, to the point where if I'm quiet, I get asked what's wrong. Nothing wrong, just being reflective. What if I had zigged instead of zagged? Things like that. Looking at photos of gorgeous kitchens and rooms set just so. I've been promised a new kitchen for about 4 years now, the hope of one is fading, but I will cling onto it. Thing is, it's not something I can just go out and purchase right? There planning, choosing cabinets, colors, and I love to do this, hubs not so much, so until I can get him fully onboard, it's like dangling food in front of a starving man. Yet, there I am, watching HGTV, and drooling at glass backdrops. Lol
     Things I can change, I am changing. My body, my emotions, my hair color. Lol So I'm not being stagnant, but I wish I could change things that no one seems to be able to. Hubs' skin issues for one, the fact that he's up to about 15 oz of booze to sleep, things going on with that, that I'd never put in a blog. It would disrespect him, and I'm not about doing that. He's a good man, and I love him. So never would I shame him, even in secret. Suffice to say, rest of the days he's been very good, he does a lot, and I try to tell him as much as possible that I appreciate all he does.
      It's almost midnight and I'm not tired. I should be sleeping or at least get horizontal, but lots of thoughts going on. I've eased back into the gym. Not at 100% yet but almost. Most of circuit and treadmill - check. I want heads to turn, not because I'm vain, but because of things lately I need a bit of coddling. Nothing major, just to know that " I still got it!" Needy bunny - yes! I won't deny it, but I'm human. It's also kind of odd to be the older one in the office. I work with lovely people but the majority of them are kids. They all go out to bars in the area, and I'm never invited. I'd go. I've been to a few house parties, but would be nice to go out and have drinks. There are others in work, mid30's and up and yes I tend to talk more with them, but when 85% of the Helpdesk is all going out! it would be nice to get invited. Hell I'd go, I'd probably give them all a run for their money too! It's weird. There is one woman, who is the same age as me, yet she gets treated like she's older. And she acts it to. So I guess I could be that way, and I'm grateful I'm not. So I know, shut up Mary and be happy with what is. That's all well and good, but I'd still like to go for a drink.
      Tomorrow is April Fools Day. And aside from the jokes, I can't believe it's actually April. A quarter of the year gone! How?? It was just New Years. Time is passing by, and I'm going to enjoy it. Like I mentioned I've been drawing, I've been singing, I've been eating more veg less meat, I've been taking off my make up EVERY night. But I can say, at night, I can look at myself in the mirror and smile. I've done nothing to be ashamed off and may have actually helped someone at work. So yes, needy bitch on occasion, but all in all, I'm happy! Just after midnight, so I'm off. Ciao For Now peeps.

Couldn't Sleep

     Nothing much has really happened, which is why I haven't really written much. I can drone on and  it's bad enough when I have something to say but when I don't? Whoosh ......boring! Lol
      Today is a black moon, second new moon in a month. Time for changes and I think I've felt these changes happening over the last few days.  Mostly good.  I guess one change , very visible on me is that I am once again a redhead. BUT this is a very different red. I like it, kind of sassy. I'm very lucky to have a great hairdresser. Something all women need. I love my blond too. Hard to choose but judging from a pic I posted on Facebook I'm thinking this new color wins. I'm trying to do my best to stand out. To do things that benefit others as well as myself. I'm still trying to draw although I'm not posting anything as it's mainly shapes and forms.  I will again though.
      Life is steady right now, for this I'm thrilled. Friends are fine and love them all. I'm just trying to balance life, and how it actually is and how I want it to be. They are getting closer I'm happy to report. Lol. So see I told you - ramblings.  Talk to me peeps, I know you read these. Any thoughts you want to throw out, questions for me perhaps. Let's make this a give and take. So until next time, ciao for now.

Do we know when?

     There's a saying from the from the gospel of Matthew that says, if the homeowner knew when the thief was coming, he would have stayed home. 😝Yes you can take the girl out of the bible but 12 years of catholic school stays with you no matter what. Lol. Well I'm just asking if you believe we know when our time on earth will be ending. Like we act different or do different things. It's just that I went to see my dad this past weekend and I noticed, on the table next to his chair, was a set of rosary beads. Now most Cathoilic homes gave at least a set or two. I even have the ones I got on my first communion. But Dad has never ever done a rosary. Not at church, not as an usher at church, not when, family dies, never! So imagine my surprise when he told me he has been saying them for a while now. My immediate reaction was suspect to say the least. Then I got sad wondering if he thinks jus time is coming. You see, his father was never sick, just like him. Just didn't wake up one morning. My father has said more than once, that he will be the same. Just odd but if saying the rosary brings him a spence of peace, good for him.
      Was a great weekend. Obviously I saw my dad, but also friends, and as always it was great. Food, spirits and laughs, a trifecta win! One couple there, OMG, one night they heard a pop and go look outside. Seems a live overhead wire had fallen right next to their car. Needles to say their car went up in flames. Gone! So the host of the evening, gave his older car to the couple so they would have a car. See, these are the people I know, wait let me be more specific as I know many people. I should say these are the people I hang out with. Funny and friendly and giving. Makes for a fun time always.
      My happiest moment this weekend was a shock of happiness, when I tried on a pair of slacks in petite length and they fit perfectly. Usually I still have to get them hemmed but these I can wear tomorrow for work and I'm going to! Lol. Woohoo! It's the little things, or in this case, the short things, that make your day sometimes. I told hubby and he said, "are you sure they aren't Capri pants?"  Oh funny funny hubby. Grrrr lol
      Well peeps, I'm going to put the kettle on and get ready to watch Cosmos, so I will say, as always, Ciao For Now.

Happy Tuesday Folks

So there was no snow falling this morning, so that was good. My car finally was able to be driven without fear of skidding, or slipping. I love snow, I have no problem driving in snow, but since I'm going to be selling my car this year, I am sure I'm being a bit over cautious. Yes, I'm normally so even keel. Lol
Well it happened again this weekend, we had Sunday to Monday snow, almost didn't make it to work, but I did. I have no real vacation time to take, so I trudged in around half 12. It was fine that night and today. Tomorrow us already Wednesday. These weeks seem to be going so fast. It's great yet terrible. This month us already half over, I have so much I want to get done. I will, as I'm going into hyper drive soon, but being me, I'm always questioning and wondering. Time to put the blinders on and go!  Like a rolling ball down a hill, I need to gain my momentum. But you see, today wasn't a great day. But it started bad, at about 4am this morning. I woke up and started crying. I had had a terrible dream. I was being hugged and then I died. Has anyone else ever dreamed of your death. Thing is it was weird. No pain, no accident, just a hug by arms that were trying to comfort me and I died. Why, what does it mean. Kind of put a cloud over me all day. Even now I'm a bit misty thinking of it. What is ahead for me? I'm going to take it as a metaphor, in that death is change. Damn it I'm going to make it a positive change too.   Weird I know. But oh well.
   Ciao for now peeps.

One More Time

     Can you hear but? Sound of snow gently falling down, blanketing my area with it white. Once more do we find ourselves in a Sunday to Monday situation. I for one will have to try and make my way in as I can't yes anymore vacation hours.  I need them for England!!  I love snow but wish this started yesterday instead of today.
     I'm almost feeling 100% better. I had a sneezing fit around 2am Saturday morning and wrenched my back. OMG it screwed up my weekend but at least I was able to bake and cook hubby one of his favorite meals. I also realized that  I truly suck at trying to be amusing over text. DOES NOT WORK FOR ME. Lesson driven home yet again. I'm sure in the future I will do it again. It's like a woman forgetting how much pain childbirth can be then goes and has another baby. It's not that I overthink, in theses cases I just don't think. I know sad, but it's happened and I'm doing my best to go forward.
      I am awake now as I went to bed early but hubby is having a bad night. He's not the quiet type when he's had a few. Although he's snoring steady know, so thankfully I should be able to get to sleep. If there us too much snow, il be back in the day tomorrow, if I get into work, I'll catch you all tomorrow night. Ciao for now.

Things That Make You Go Grrrr!!!

     I'm pretty laid back, okay I know some you just muttered "what??" But you must I'm pretty easy going. There are a few things that get me enraged. Cruelty to animals and children are two big ones. Well today the wife of a former co-worker, sent her 6year old child out in this bitter cold weather with no coat, no gloves, no scarf of hat. Seems the boy has a habit of losing them. For us to say a prayer for his cold ass. He also has terrible ADHD, but from other comments I get the feeling comments like she wrote may be a clue as to why. Well she goes on to say through remarks that it was part of her dark humor. REALLY you take a child outside in bitter cold weather, lucky child services isn't knocking down your door. Now where the jackets went, don't know, is this an issue, absolutely. Us this how you handle it? NO!!! I was so upset. Not my business I know, she said the bus stop is in front of the house, but thus doesn't solve the issue. What more other women said yes, tough love. Seriously? I was, and am still so upset by this. Am I over-reacting? I'm asking you all, am I? It's over now and onto new things on good ole Facebook. But damn if it didn't strike a chord with me.
     I'm looking forward to baking this weekend. I'm making Irish Soda Bread. The recipe is one I've been making over 20 years. It was brought over from Ireland by my Grandmothers mother. Bonefide yummy noms. Lol. Been a steady week peeps so not much going on. I'll be back with some rant or boring story I'm sure. So keep an eye out girl it. Lol. Until next time, ciao for now

Sometimes You Need A Jolt

     It's Sunday night and I'm watching a television show called "Cosmos".  Some may laugh and think it's silly, but it fascinates me. Science and space has always made me wonder. I'm a heretic of sorts I suppose. Yet devout in other ways. I have faith that the divine, no matter by what you call it, often has a great laugh at our expense. This world and and all others are part of a greater world. To think we are the only ones in this universe is quite a silly thought. How self centered and elitist we would be to think that. I wonder in that huge universe out there, if we'd be in the cool group of kids or the nerdy outcasts. Just a thought. Lol. I think Neil DeGrassi Tyson is a great choice as the host of the series. He and Michio Kaku are my favorites in the science fipelds  They are personable, like able and, they are not just scientists, they are educators. Both are wonderful at bringing you in and getting you excited about the world around you, because they truly are. I will try to catch all the episodes.
     It's been a good day, a decent weekend actually. Saturday was beautiful. We hit 62 degrees F. Got the car washed and I cleaned the inside. Today was nice, good afternoon and dinner turned out very well. I've been more diligent with food and I've been counting calories, keeping to no more than 1200 calories a day. I'm not working out and have yet another, hopefully my last, doctor appointment later this week. I do feel better even though I get winded easy still, it's better than it was. So I am hopeful that I am in the last stages of whatever the hell hung on.
     Not much to talk about, nothing has riled me up, it's been pretty status  quo as of late. So I will just say hope everyone has been having a calm time.  Have a great Monday and ciao for now 😀

Very Sinple

     As I go to sleep tonight in my warm bed. I am thinking how lucky I am. My friends my family I love them so. So all I ask for is that those outside man woman and animals please be able to find shelter from this bitte cold. Give them some warmth as our temps fall to -4F. I wish I could do more than pray for them but I know the Goddess hears and does what's possible. Not everyone will get but perhaps it's meant that way. Helps us be truly grateful for the ability to earn what we have. That's tonight. Ciao For Now.