I Wish We Had Do-Overs

     Remember as a kid we would say that, do -over and then we could do the entire thing again only better?  Well today was one of those days. I was a total fucking fool this AM and I beat the proverbial dead horse by re-iterating this but I can't help it. I really did not realize my actions and that is not like me (well maybe a little but it's something I'm working on) Without going into detail, which would make this even more boring, I did something meant as funny then it went all kablewy, kwim? I am over it - as the other person probably never gave it a third thought but I can't help it. I overthink, overcompensate, over react and it can be overwhelming to all but the strongest of beings. Fortunately this person has a very strong character LOL  I know it's all good but yea I was an ass!! Moving on now
     The day wasnt much better, I have had a tension headache that will not go away all day and it's making me a bit sick to my tummy. Good note though I did get to the post office today and sent out even more packages, these went to Maine. I had the worst dream last night about my Dad and I think that set my tone for the day. I drempt he died and that is on my mind all the time. He doesn't live with me so I am always afraid of that call I will one day get. I mean I can get a flight out of Dulles every hour and be there in about 50 minutes and just rent a car but the thought of not being there sometimes gets me. This happened because I do his Christmas cards for him every year and this year I only had to do 32 compared to almost 2x that 14 years ago when I started to write them for him. He will be 84 and many of his friends have died and it bothers me. I mean when I see him, I do laundry, clean his bathrooms, cook major amounts of food and freeze it, do his shopping and I wish I could take a month and give the house a good scrubbing but my days there are limited. I have gotten closer to him since my Mom died and in a way when it's his time it will be harder than even my Mom since in his way he needs me more. Sorry for the depressing blog tonight but sometimes I need to get these things out as I have become very reliant on myself and occasionally need to vent. As an only child I am quite used to that actually. I learned how to entertain myself at an early age and help out around the house (its how I got extra allowance too LOL)
     If you have made it this far in my blog I applaud you and appreciate it very much. Lets see;  how about a joke to lighten this up , here goes:

An elderly couple had dinner at another couple's house, and after
eating, the wives left the table and went into the kitchen.
The two gentlemen were talking, and one said, 'Last night we went out
to a new restaurant and it was really great.. I would recommend it
very highly..'
The other man said, 'What is the name of the restaurant?'
The first man thought and thought and finally said, 'What is the name
of that flower you give to someone you love?
You know.... The one that's red and has thorns.'
'Do you mean a rose?'
'Yes, that's the one,' replied the man. He then turned towards the
kitchen and yelled, 'Rose, what's the name of that restaurant we went
to last night?'

hehehehehe
Aw ladies & gentlemen I'm just not into my blogging tonight so I bid you ciao for now.  I can tell you tomorrow's will be much better so stay with me .....