Whoops I Did It Again

    Goddess please put your hand over my mouth so I can't say things and tape my fingers sometimes so I can't type. I've been so good and today I backtracked. Happens I suppose but my bank shock this morning made me feel like I'd been hit over the head with a cast iron skillet. Today I felt like I was fading from memories and although I know better I let that feeling win. Sigh. I'm going to bed early tonight I need it.  They are fucking up work schedules. Problem is my manager is not there. She is the voice of reason for the most part.   I saw the cutest and actually sexy shoes for spring. Want. Lol one day. It's still cool to look. Nothing much tonight so I will say ciao for now.

Well It's Nice to Hear.

     First and foremost, like many things in life, the day after brings a realization that awesome as it made you feel, the next day, although still pleased, it's not really as great as you originally thought. Now shame on you all thinking I'm speaking of sex with someone you don't really know. I'm not.  I've had that happen few times and luckily, for me,  it was always great! Nothing recent of course. LOL No, I'm talking about what I did to my hair. It's not terrible at all, but it's flat. So my hairdresser is helping me by adding some highlights and trimming down my hair to give it shape, layers, and take away the Dutch boy hair look. All even around the ends. This would look fine had I not chopped it short. I liked my sassy short hair. Thinking it will look just as good in a light reddish brown, with caramel and blonde highlights. I'm looking forward to sassy hair to west with my silver hoops. Like a friend told me once, " You would look beautiful if you were bald, it's in your attitude." He told me this when I was debating cutting my much longer hair. My 80's rock hair he called it. Lmao. He metaphorically held my hand as I jumped into 2008, 2009 actually. Never looked back, now I'm looking forward. What it's not vain to want to better your look. I'm not one of the beautiful people, the ones it all comes naturally to. So I'm working at it.
      What's nice is I'm getting comments on my Facebook from a few who had stopped. One sweet one is a relative of my hairdresser, of all people. He sent me a rose on my Facebook messenger. I thanked him said thank you but no more, absolutely nothing more. Not in the least interested. But it's nice to know I'm attractive to some.  Vain, no! Fishing, no! Happy, yes! I am a woman and it makes me happy that my efforts are noticed. But and it's a big but. I will not stop, I am trying to learn more things. Regain things I had and foolishly left aside. Art, my love of museums, music all types, laughter from being silly, just enjoying the simplicity and foolishness of enjoying a good fart joke. My eyes were opened again to theses things years back. They saw my world in an entirely different light. How can I ever repay that? I can't, I've realized that of late. Then again a few years back, once again, I found the pure caring of a similar soul, showing me selflessness that I had only experienced in a rare few over the years. He and She. These 2 people saved me in a way.  Even hubby, whom I love deeply never quite got / gets me. Only recently is he starting to appreciate my, let's say, uniqueness. Hahaha
     So I am moving forward. No need for day to day conversation, secure in my relationships. I will go forward, make them proud and even better. Make myself proud.

I'm going now, I have a headache. :-D. Bet after reading this you all may have one too. Ciao For Now

Sometimes It Changes

     One day you open up your eyes, get out of bed and decide I need a change. Enough of this pity shit. What's going to happen is going to happen, just do what you do and take it day by day. Oh and the cherry on top of this emotional sundae is that today I see a charge on my bank card that I didn't make. So bank call in the am.
     After OT this afternoon I needed some toiletries so I went to CVS, a drugstore/pharmacy and found myself in the hair color section. I've been antsy, looking to make some changes. I can't afford my hairdresser right now. Her and I spoke and she will help me if I want to go blond again, I'm thinking I will at some point, but I can keep this myself. Now aside from going a different color, I cut my hair MYSELF! OMG what am I thinking, I'm not a hairdresser but it's not bad. I watch my hairdresser very carefully and over the years I've got some basics down. Doesn't look too bad but Tiff will fix the flaws. Onto new things.
      Speaking of OT. I must share this.  I read you can microwave eggs so that they are like soft boiled. So I brought 2 eggs with me to work. So I poke a teeny hole so they don't explode. I put them in a bowl and into the microwave they go. So I take them out and the shells cracked a bit. They're hot ( no shit!) so I take my spoon and lift the shell then all of a sudden. BOOM!! The egg freakin exploded, I'm talking all over the counter. The side of the toaster, THE WALL!! Scared the bejesus out of me. Two people come into the kitchen and there I am on hands and knees picking up egg schrapnel. We all start laughing. So I had tea, that's it. Tea. Good tea though. Lol
     Oh check it. I'm seeing my two English birds in 2 weeks. Lol I'm bringing them some real NY bagels and we will have a breakfast feast before one of them flies back to England. I'm looking forward to this. I'll school them on phrases like Youze guys, and fudggediboutit. LMAO I do miss England so much. I had fun, and I know I'm silly but it felt right. I'm sure my peeps there would flip on a steady diet of me, but wish I could afford to go there more often. {wistful sigh}
     So let's see, dinners been consumed, dishes done, about to go take off make-up, try to be in bed by 11. That is rare. Tomorrow's clothes are already laid out so I'm thinking tea. I'm always thinking tea.  So I am saying good night, with a bit lighter heart than normal :-D  ciao for now x

Sometimes OT is great.

It was a good day. Got home. Hubs is making dinner, not sure what it is but don't care. It's just sweet of him doing it.  I was just window shopping online. Lol. I'm looking at clothes and shoes. Need new ones and as soon as hubs gets his job I'm going to splurge.  Just a little. But time to stop being self pity all the time. Good blogs are coming. Stay tuned.  Have a funky weekend
Ciao For Now

No I'm Not Proud Of What I Did

     I lost it today peeps. Today was payday. My pay and the mortgage hit the bank at the same time. So my balance was less not more.  So I get to work, just relaxing before work and this incredible wave of sadness (self pity?) washes over me. I had to go into the ladies, and I cried. I just lost it. I'm working OT and still I can't add money.  So after I wiped away the tears, I tried looking at it other ways. Yes I know, trying to focus on yes, I had the money to pay the mortgage so I'm a winner there. And yes, this is true. I know this, but with other things going through my mind it just totally threw me off balance.   I will keep trying to look on the bright side, I truly believe it will get better. So bear with me. Writing may be sporadic. :-)  cue music...Look on the bright side of life - whistle whistle...BWAHAHA
     I saw some very cute Spring dresses, but bigger gals like myself, often do not like showing our upper arms. I want to get some ink. But hell no not yet, perhaps in awhile. Have to get my arms a bit smaller, okay a lot smaller. Plus have to save the currency.  I'll have some more blogs comic up with some fun things, I'm not all doom and gloom. I used to be a fun chick, still am, you'll see lol
Ciao for now

I Have No Words

     I'm busting ass and am on my break, we are training new hires and as I sip my illy coffee I prepared to relax a bit, I look up and there are 16 calls in queue. Busy that fine but the two gals across from me (who are training new people by the way) are comparing hair colors and passing pics around. REALLY? Im all for kidding and laughing but fuck, the old supervisor in me gets a bit annoyed at the lack of professionalism.  DO you job and dont give bad examples to the new peeps. They will develop their own I'm sure
     Im just annoyed at people who think they can get away with things, and that pisses me off. Not going to say anything, nothing will change, so Im just turning away and being the good girl going about my day. Not that I get anything for it. World is fucked that way. Now I do have fun and I think that the universe at times takes pity on me in that I get a string of decent callers and not the crazy ones the others here tend to get on a regular basis. WHo knows, I just know I should be in another job.  One day!!
     Im changing my entire look, Im working on the weight and I as we ALL KNOW ALREADY  I've lost weight, yes Ive been told I look lots different and well its great but when others have already lost what you have and look amazing, its a combination of resolve and despair. Does that make sense to you? If you've never really had a struggle it won't, but it does. I'm changing my hairstyle and going to get me some deep red lipstick and go out! LOL  Going to meet up hopefully with a friend from England and another one who now lives in Brooklyn. We hopefully will get together later this month. I am looking forward to it. Going to pack a lot into that weekend. Seeing people I need to re-connect with hopefully, catch up with each other. Summer hopefully will show much change and you know the interesting part, I'm doing this for me, no one else. Not for my peeps, not for those I love, but for me!!! I've developed a bit of a fuck it all attitude, slight one lol
   OMFG  I am the only one answering HR call at the moment  2 people are on not ready and one has been stringing a call to bring him to 6PM     I just can't!!! Really Just can't !!

OH btw - This is the pic of my hair that caused a ruckus  LMAO

      I have to add an addendum to this. Something just happened that got me a little choked up. The lady who sits next to me has been out for 3 days in a row, this never happens. We've had breakfast before weekend overtime, a few times.  She's very sweet, but shy and quiet. She has opened up to me over the last year. Her cat just died and she took it very hard, she lives alone. So I took a few moments to text her, to see how she was feeling. Seems she was / is quite ill. her blood pressure was heart attack level, she's running a fever. She said she was so happy to hear from me. And said how she missed talking and it made me a touch weepy. All it took was 2 minutes to text. We really don't know how much we effect others. How much just one kind word can make someone's day. It made me feel good too. Just sayin'.  Ciao For Now.

Six More Weeks Of Winter You Say?

    Well I say I bet you'd be delicious on a grill. Lmao. Well not really, he's very cute. This weather though is coming later in the season and messing up my travel to NYC plans. I'm hoping to meet up with some friends on the 21st. My sis and I want to try this new bar/restaurant in Brooklyn and it may be the perfect place for drinks and some food with two friends of mine. My friend is coming in to the states to help her friend who moved to Brooklyn. I'm thinking where she lives would not be more than half hour or so from the new digs. Have to run it past everyone. Sis is in!  Would be such fun. I see a few negronis in my future.
     Well my Imbolc candle has been lit all day. Reminder of a Spring that will eventually get here. But the day was marked with sadness. My friends Mother died today. He is a former boyfriend, now married to a lovely lady (also named Mary lol). His mom was in and out of the hospitals the last year and a half. As usual it's a relief, as no one wants to see those they love suffer. I feel so bad for him. He was very attached to his mother.
     Feeling about 90% better, so I'm happy about that. Hubs bought me Alka Seltzer for colds maxiumun strength. Well it fizzed me into feeling much better. It tastes like orange soda lol.
So it's back to work tomorrow. Going in to start at half eight. Trying to get some extra hours since my weekend OT plans were shot to shit! Oh and my UP band is charged and ready to go. I try to walk as much as I can during the day but damn I'm so tethered to my desk. I'm going to try and walk around. I've been parking further from the front door and taking the stairs. So hoping to get at least 3 or 3500 steps in at least. More would be better. I am cooking tomorrow night, so back to healthy meals. Bought eggs to eat for breakfast, packing salads for lunch. Very few carbs and only in the mornings. My NYC weekends will be a bit looser but tight ship at home.  I've been lax with too many excuses. I barely was able to walk all those times in England & Paris. But I did! My friend will tell ya I could barely walk two blocks with him. City blocks but still not far at all. I will continue getting better at this. I'm hoping to walk the city at night when he visits. With him, not just wander around in circles. LMAO. ;-D
     Saw a pic on Pinterest of the little mermaid sewing up her legs together. The point being, stay true to you. If you are going to change, do it for YOURSELF!! Otherwise it's useless. You will never be happy. I take pics of me with no make up. Some think I'm crazy, but hey it's me. Like me or don't. I hope you do. I'm pretty cool, sympathetic, good cook, funny and quite humble. Hahaha. Still a good point to remember.
     Anyway everyone, I'm headed to bed. So until next time, ciao for now.



   



   

It's Monday, And I'm Still Icky

     Sounds like a weird song. Well I was feeling better. Just took at rather long shower and yes it's 1am. I've been dragging again today, spoke to my friend and he said I looked like I hadn't slept in a few days, lol. Well he's right, I went and looked at myself in the mirror and all I will say is you know I'm comfortable with you to let you see me like that. BWAHAHA.  I'm thinking tomorrow is a much needed day of rest and Tuesday I will be normal enough to handle the phones, perhaps even do a little OT to make up some hours although tomorrow is a vaca day not a sick day. I'm going to repot my bamboo plant and do a bit of Spring cleaning, meaning I'm rearranging the area around my bed and night stand.not up to a lot but as I get the feeling I'll be horizontal a lot, I want it to look fresh and tidy. New sheets were washed and the cheery quilt my sis in law made is going on the bed. An accent piece really, as it's not to big but it's a sunny pattern, and Spring WILL get here. To make this seem even odder, my dad is getting more snow tomorrow. Ugh. I feel bad for him, he likes to go for daily walks if only to get the newspaper, but it's so cold he stays in. I'm glad he does though.
     All of a sudden, I'm going to have to go peeps, Still not well....until next time ciao for now

Imbolc Is Almost Here.

     Being sick these last few days have given me the chance to re read my old Book Of Shadows (& Light) Old Imbolc, chants and lore, rituals and yes even foods. This holiday is one of crossed paths. Some call it Candlemas, others the feast if St. Brigid. Others simply call it Groundhog Day. I have been to Pennsylvania, I went to the groundhog ball, yes it's a real thing. No, it's not like the movie. LOL It is a very friendly town, and I met some great people in my short visit. Met a group of people at "the ball". One guy was very interesting, he was a teacher at a high school in Ohio. We clicked and the conversation was lively and we had great debates on different subjects. He taught literature, he was very interesting, had a great sense of humor and was in fact quite good looking. I was surprised actually he hung around for the entire ball. My friend was with the group at the table but he and I wandered around, danced a bit (great band actually) then we found a table near the bar where we could actually hear each other. LOL great band and a loud band too. It was fun, and I'm glad I went. It was way back in 2006. But I digress on a nice memory. 
     Candlemas actually goes back to Germany, Google it, it's interesting. Imbolc is a pagan celebration of a Christian saint, who'd of thought it possible. Like I said, a crossover. It's the time to reconnect with what you want to achieve, as the snow and cold leave, and the earth starts to warm up again, you gather your dreams and goals again. Many, including myself, light candles to celebrate. This year I am taking a votive and placing it in the earth (dirt) itself, to symbolize the warmth returning to the earth. A nice thing , in case, it's too cold outside (it IS February) is to take a clear bowl or vase. Put earth in it and place your candle directly into the dirt so it's about half buried. You can even melt the wax into a hole you've made in the dirt and make a true "earth candle". Eggs and cheese are popular food choices. I'm thinking a nice warmed Brie with cranberries and walnuts. Anything with oats is also good. I have a traditional oatcake recipe but I tend to use that for later on in the year when we celebrate the harvest season. I'm hoping I will be well enough to actually do these things, if not a candle at the very least will be lit. I have pure beeswax candles just for this and also for Litha. (Later in the year for that one) I'm feeling a bit better but my digestive system is still a bit off as my stuffy head is clearing a little. So I'm on the mend I believe. I'm off Monday as I had taken a vaca day, so one more day to rest. All I've done is sleep, oh and play Trivia Crack. lol 
     I didn't eat much today at all. Some Wheatabix cereal. 2% moo juice and 2 packets of Stevia. Then tonight about a cup of mild white cheddar mac n cheese. Not the healthiest food, but not a lot. Also an orange. Of course hubs has kept me in supply of tea and water, bless. I'm actually looking forward
to a soft boiled egg in the morning, oops mean later today, as it's, 3am now. Can't sleep, been sleeping too much. This started Thursday night around 9 then hit hard, Friday I barely moved at all. Getting up only to wee. 
     So looking forward to my next NYC trip. My sis and I are heading up to Connecticut for the day. Seeing what we can get into there. It's about 2 hours east from my Dad. I used to go there on weekend jaunts quite often when I was younger and single. Hehehe. Had great times, meeting people, went whale watching one time, hit a jazz bar one night....good times! 
Speaking of my travels, when last I drove my car, I had just under 11,000 miles. My car will be a year  old on April 4th. I'm going to be under 12,000 miles. WOW For me this is a new thing. I have always had at least 14 or 15,000 by the time I had a car for a year. My Mustang had almost 100,000 miles on it when I sold it, well kinda close. 97,645 to be exact. I had her for just over 7 1/2 years. About an average of 13,000 a year. But my first Mustang in 1986, I had 121,000 miles on it when I sold it. I did that IN 4 YEARS!!!  Yep I had a duffle bag in the trunk that had, toiletries, make-up, extra clothes, shoes. I would just up and go. Made sure I had a credit card and some cash, my music and off I went. I always liked just driving and not always know where I would end up. I would call my parents, from a pay phone ( no mobile then) lmao.....again, good times. 
     Boy I'm all over the place, it's been awhile since I've felt like writing so I'm on a tangent ride. Plus I'm hot - I'm cold. The one thing I hate about being sick. Hubs is snoring away, kitty is off, who knows where. So I'm going to take the last sips of my now cold tea, and head to bed. So until next time, ciao for now. 

Sometimes Ya Just Don't Fell The OT

     Well Its almost 7PM and I am going home. Im just not feeling the OT tonight. Day has not been bad and I think I figured out what I hate about our employees. It's the demands. As most humans, if you ask me I will help you , if you demand it, my back goes up! Yes Of course Im going to try and get you an answer and yes I know how to get this and if i don't I will find out but please when I say I'm getting you the number do not say give it to me in a tone that makes me feel like a servant. I'm an employee just like you and oh wait YOU called ME , do not take that tone unless you are role playing Christian Grey with me.
    Still in a funk a bit, was talking with my friend this morning and he said, welcome to his world and you know he was right, Respect went up, I am going bonkers and I truly hand it to him, he does it proud.   I need to call my sis or at least text her tonight too., need to get to NY to see her soon!! For my reader peeps these are two of the people that keep me almost sane. LMAO
    OMG  today at work I had a sumptuous lunch of steamed chicken and broccoli (smirk) and it came with an egg roll, so I offered it to a co-worker. He asked what? I repeated it and he burst out laughing,  he thought I said, Do you want an A hole?  I was crying!!! He ate it, the eggroll I mean!! hehe ;-D
    I am leaving work now  but i have put in for at least an additional 16 hours for this upcoming weekend. I do like the check this OT brings and hey, Im all for earning my living, just wish it was a little more earning KWIM?
      Well until next time which I doubt will be tonight as Im getting into my second Bill Bryson book, I know me, I will own them all LOL   Until nexttime - Ciao For Now

Oops I've Done It Again

    Canceled my weekend I mean. Luckily dad got away with only about a 13" snowfall, but a friend of mine on Long Island got a little over 2' a total of 26 ". Well it is winter. Plus I hit offered more OT, so yes I am going to work as much as I can. Doing my part to prove not all fat people are lazy :-D
     I'm not doing much anyway, may as well make some cash.
     Not much tonight, I'm not in the mood to sit and write. Hope you all have a fab night or a good morning lol. Ciao for now.

Gah! I'm Bloody Tired Of Worrying

        I'm worried every month that I will pay my bills, I'm worried that hubs won't get a job, I'm worried the little blotch on the ceiling in the back of the dining room is the START of a leak that can be patched in the roof, and not the final stages of a cumulative effect that has reached maximum behind the scenes. Now I have my dad to worry about. NY is about to get pounded with a snow storm that will, if goes as expected, be one of the top storms ever since they started tracking theses storms in the 1800's. It's not Finland or Lapland, but NY. Snow is supposed to be pretty and make Central Park look like a fairyland, not cause buses and airports to close.  The suburbs where my dad lives, is inland so no tides to worry about, but electric can go out. He has wonderful neighbors who will watch out for him, I know this. One reason I'm not making him come here to live, but still, fuck, he's MY Dad. He worried about me all my life, now it's my turn. I worry about him, I love him. He could trip without lights, lots of stairs in the house. I'm a worry wort I know, but still, please don't fault me, I love him, he's my Daddy.
      I've been in a slump all weekend, gee could you guess? Lol I know life has issues and I'm trying to change them for the better, but it's hard sometimes. I did rework my resume and will upload it to linked in tomorrow and several agencies I know of. All I'm asking for is even 10K a year more, that would help so much. Doesn't seem like much but yeah it would take away so many financial burdens. Odd thing is, after all my balancing, and robbing Peter to pay Paul, my credit score went up. Lmao beats the hell out of me too. But yay, felt good when I saw that. I tell you, if I could go back in time, I'd tell myself 2 things....stay at that size 16/14 and pay all your bills on time to keep your credit good. It's so important.
     Hubs today has been sweet, trying to get me to laugh, he even went food shopping. He already said he won't be able to get me flowers for Valentines Day.  He sent me a photo of a huge bouquet of roses, saying he wished they were real. He's a good man, yes he should have been looking for work way before he did, but he's sorry about it. I am angry at that, I have a right to be don't I? But I'll get over it, I am mostly, just frustrating as I more than stated in the last blog. But I'm waking up every day, so new things are possible. I gave myself a nice facial this afternoon, as I felt, I've been ignoring my skin. Bad Mary!
    So peeps, herself is still in a bit of a funk, but I already see me coming out of it. I just would love one day of nothing to worry about, not one care in the world. Not soon, so as my sis told me today, put on my big girl panties and deal with it. I dud, they have little double decker buses on them, cute indeed. Lol so hope all is right as rain in your worlds and until next time, ciao for now.

Mercury Is In Retrograde

     This throws me off. The planets and stars effect us, it's not "witchy" it's scientific fact.  On top of that though, I suppose being a Wiccan, I may be more aware of it. Meaning I can see that certain things happen during this time. Mechanical things sometimes will be wonky. Choices seem difficult and squabbles can occur. For me it's the later. I find myself in a raw mood lately. Emotional beyond even my normal amount. I am finding myself angry at things and people, not really for no reason, but things I normally would shrug off are eating at me and I find myself truly annoyed. I'm holding things in though as it's not the time to discuss these issues. I'm not fair right now, I feel victimized by certain things,  and even though I really want to discuss it, it would not be good for anyone right now. No one has really done anything to me, but too much is left unsaid, I want to know real reasons, real answers! If this confuses you then good, it's not you I'm upset with. Lol
      I must say a group I find myself in on Facebook has been very good for me. It's no one I know, so I can be very open. Share ideas on a different level. To be perfectly truthful, right now I'm feeling if I facetimed with people everybody, no one,  but my sis in Long Island, would answer. That's okay, I really have nothing to say, but a real friend is someone you can just say hi to then be quiet with as well. I'm not reaching out or suggesting anything or being needy, and yes I'm stupid perhaps for saying it but damn I said I was in a raw mood. Someone tell me a fucking joke - please!
     I'm grabbing overtime tomorrow, then going to the craft store to get some red and pink paper to make Valentine cards for a few of you because,  well fuck,  I love you and even though I'm a crazed shrew at the moment, I want you all to know this.  I can't sleep, I should be, but I can't. Think I'll make some tea, meditate a little, try to calm my ass down. I'm really very lovable, dammit I am! I'm fucking adorable, so if you're feeling off kilter a little just keep saying, Mercury goes back to normal on Feb. 11th. Until then, remember my friends I love you, everyone else I truly appreciate you coming here and ready what I write. I will keep writing, I just can't promise it will always make sense. Until next time. Ciao For Now

Can You Believe This?!

   So now I not going to NY tomorrow night. Damn damn damn! But better safe than sorry though as  it's calling for snow up there this weekend. So I don't have that much vaca that I can waste my days being snowed in at my dad's , with no wifi, tv I don't have to share, no craft items. Gillian had a better time than I would. So we've pushed it all forward a week. Now that Sunday is Super Bowl, but I don't care much for American football, so no big deal. My negroni will have to wait for me. Lol
     Not much today, except that I had some calls that just make me roll my eyes. One guy today had a hard time when I asked him for his date of birth. I know he was young when it happened,  but really?
     So I am giving everyone a Mary break, okay stop applauding. {smirk}. I will be back, I'm thinking Sunday night. Ciao for now peeps.

To Go Or Not To Go

     Well it snowed today, and I was so grateful for the guys at work when we left tonight. I don't have a snow scrapper so I asked them if they would get the snow off the top of my car. I hate when I'm driving behind someone who doesn't do that. Two of them ran and got their scrapers and brushes and cleaned my car off in a few minutes. I felt like a queen, lol. It was nice of them to help. They're good guys.   So snow is playing hide and seek this weekend and making me question my trip. I so want to go. I want to see my friends. Plus the place my friend and I are thinking of going to has an old time bartender type place. He loves old cocktails. They have an in house burnt orange vermouth. I'm dying to try his negroni. And they have duck that looked divine on a show I watch on Food Network. I think I'm going to risk it as I'm off that Monday so I will be driving in daylight and not on a weekend, when everyone is rushing back home. Well I just worked that out on here didn't I? Hehehe
    I'm also starting a new food regiment. I'm going to do the larger breakfast, medium lunch, small dinner plan.  Hitting the gym at least 3x a week. I lost weight in England, gained it back over the holidays, and have now  lost it plus a few more. My evening dress is now loose on me. Yay. One main thing was all the walking I did overseas. Proof that for me at least, it's getting my butt moving.  So taking this time for me. I want to have fun with my friends, hit the wineries with my sister  and visit the cool stores and shops out on that beautiful North Fork of Long Island NY. I want to explore Manhattan with my friend when he comes to the states. Dance again at the clubs, let my hair down.
     It's also time to look seriously for a new job, I'm nit challenged at my job, I'm training people and they move on. It's frustrating and although I can't leave and look, no reason I can't take a few hours here and there to interview if I have to. I have vacation time I must use from last year, so I think this is a good way to use it. :-)
      My cat is starring at me, she wants treats again. She is a rotund kitty, we've been cutting her treats down and of course she acts like we are starving her. Her and I have both been altered so we both have that belly hang. BWAHAHA she's so cute though, and my god foes she love the hubs. We will be in bed and she will literally walk over me to get to him. Furball that she is. My friend at work just had to put her kitty down, she was crying at work today. I felt so bad for her. I got all weepy along with her. She brought me some food that she had, I offered to pay her but she said no. One of the foods was a bag of treats that had catnip inside them. Ever see a cat on catnip. OMG it's funny as fuck.  So basically these cat treats are the feline equivilant of pot brownies for humans.  More you eat, the higher you get, the more you eat. It's a vicious cycle. LMAO
       Little witchy me, likes to open my witches cupboard and take a little Valerian Root powder. Sprinkle it on the carpet and Harley- Fang ( my cats name, long story) loves to roll around in it, and rub into the carpet.  I even keep her fresh catnip in there. I have been known to make a tisane with it as it's very calming to humans. I also have small jars that contain other herbs and oils. Nothing like eye of newt lol but things like mugwort, lavender, camomile, sabbat & esbat oils for anointing candles and myself. I heard a joke one that vegan witches use eye of potato. Lol
      Yeah I'm a strange little round chick, so many thoughts in my head you would never imagine. Well some of you might give it a good guess. Well I suppose I have decided, I'm going to NY this weekend. Whoohoo! So here's to no snow thus weekend, well not any measurable snow. I'm headed to bed, my evening cuppa us long finished. Going to sleep later tomorrow morning, as I took a bath tonight so I won't need but a quick shower to wake up and refresh. Sweet dreams or good day for whenever you read this. Until next time, ciao for now.

What They Said

 

Nuff said  LMFAO   

Turn Off The Lights Sweet Darling...bit vulgar for a lady

     Okay, I'm in a better mood, coming home and seeing the kitty's eyes peeking out the window as I pull into the parking pad made me smile. Had some trouble eating as my mouth hurts like hell. So ended up eating sugar free pudding for dinner. Banter between us was minimal tonight but weird of course as the night went on. In the movie Shrek 3 a kid asks Shrek to Do The Roar, so at this point we are upstairs in bed watching Castle. Hubs get up to get a tea from downstairs, he comes back in the room, I say Do The Roar. He proceeds to pull his shorts off and moon me and farts. Do the roar indeed! Men, you love farts. I yell out stop, you're getting farticles in my tea. He says I Wouldn't Talk Bubblebutt. So I reply I do not have a Bubblebutt , I just have a fat ass! He then gives me a rather fun spank across my butt. I'd like to say the rest of what happened is private but it was a good episode tonight and he was into it. So I just sat my fat ass down and watched the show , thinking of the spank hehehe.  20 years together, he still makes me laugh. I don't know how this is going to go, or when a job will come for him. I just have to think about the silliness we share, the memories I have on my desk, my own resolve. Just wanted to say hi and not be bitchy. Sweet dreams guys, until next time ciao for now

Yeah I'm venting today

     Today is a good day to leave me alone. Im sure I will be okay tomorrow but I'm just annoyed at things . I'm training someone today and I hate not having my desk to myself, he's a nice guy but I like my desk to be just so. Im getting annoyed that hubs still hasn't gotten a job, I shouldn't I know,  but i mean, not even one interview?? He's sending out all these resumes he says. People next door were having a fight in the street last night around 1:20 AM,  yelling and screaming at each other -  classy right? LOL
     Im on edge and everything is rubbing me the wrong way. I am tired of not living up to decent standards, I need so many things, normal things, a freakin bed that doesn't stick me in the hips. A kitchen that is up to date with a stove that I can use all four burners. Until Hubs gets a job none of this will help.  I have updated my resume and well lets see what happens, maybe I can get something else. I have vacation time I can use to interview. It's just getting to me, I cant wait for NYC this weekend, Bohemian Beer Garden in Astoria is sounding better and better every day LOL . Any place really thats not here.
     My friends birthday was today, we sent flowers and she took a picture and I am not happy with the flowers. They sent so many unopened blooms. Im sue their thought was that they will open up, but you know as I do, those blooms will not fully open. I wanted it to be such a nice full color full presentation as the picture had. I may call to mention this and maybe I can get her another little something in addition. I'm glad she liked the vase, I tried to pick one I thought she might like. The balloon was just for a giggle. It just bugged me. I have a little something for my friend when I see her as well. My dad gave me some of that "Walking around money I mentioned so I used it for a few nice things, also mailing to another friend as I can ship it now priority and make sure he gets it.
    Plus now I HAVE to get that damn bridge done, I filed my tooth but its still sharp  ACK!!!!  lol Ah life - it keeps you on your toes.

Pity Party Or Bitching, Your Choice! LOL

   I came into work today to get some OT and catch up with the emails we are getting at work, so I get to my desk and my director asks me to take calls instead, fine no problem. The first call of the day turned out to be from the most pompous, condescending "A"hole you can imagine.  All he did was yell at how he hates the company and he never gets any satisfaction, now, he did make a few valid points BUT how he was so miserable on the phone I just wanted to disconnect the call. I need a new job! Its messing up my cherubic demeanor I swear to Goddess.
   people often tease me here that I have so many things on my desk. There is a reason I promise. I have some post cards I got, my first oyster shells I ever ate with a dear friend on a fun night in the city, S&P shakers from the same friend from his plane trip, another set from a friend and her daughter, another mug from an other England friend reminding me of my travels, a fairy handmade for me, collection of owls, one given by my sister,  a mug from hubs with a rose saved from the birthday bouquet from my UK besties. I have these because on days like these I need them. I look at these and think of the times they represent and the people that they bring to mind and I feel better. I have another section on the far end of my desk that has a Bamboo plant, Dr.Who tea kettle and my hubs photo. I know it may be silly, but , well thats me. :-D here is a look see

     Well Im on lunch right now and I had to just come an vent a little. Ive been working 11 days straight with the OT I've gotten and please dont get me wrong, Im happy to get the opportunity for extra hours, but Im getting tired. Its hard to explain to a person who works hard labor like lifting boxes or doing construction, those jobs are physically demanding but sometimes dealing with idiots and getting yelled at by callers, so much more than you would expect, takes it out of you to the point where you just can feel yourself snap. Im going to stay overtime tonight but not working the full weekend again, just Saturday.  I'm headed to NY soon and I can't wait!! a day out on Long Island and then headed into Manhattan on that Sunday. So there you have my bitch fest.  Sorry but I needed too. So until later  I say Ciao For Now

Oops She Did If Again

     I'm talking OT. I worked early today and I'm working OT tonight so today I will be at work 12 hours.  I'm also working on Saturday.   The next week in NYC and I took a vaca day so I have a full weekend to play. But I don't think I'll blog tonight. I'll be home late. By the time dinner is done I'm going to ho sleepy time. Lmao so retread any you missed and I'll be back tomorrow.  Ciao for now