Yep, can't sleep so I sit here while the house is silent and blog. Random thoughts like freight trains are rushing through my head, and I just took aspirin to ease the headache that I feel starting. First off I weighed in today and well I show a gain of just over 2 lbs. No I'm not thrilled but I expected it and no I'm not sorry for it. With my knee making exercise difficult plus the celebrating this past week it doesn't surprise me. Life is ups and downs and I am learning that once in a while is okay. Time was I would have gained 6 or more pounds but fried foods now cause me terrible issues and heavy foods are not eaten in the quantity they once were. So today I went back to phase 1 of South Beach and all is back to what we like to believe is normal.
Another thing in my thoughts is how sometimes I feel out of time, not place but time. I have an overly romantic view of the mid 1800's. lol Gas lamps lighting the streets of Paris, a scene taken right out of a Renoir painting. Well dressed couples enjoying wine and laughing as the city is reflected back at them in the river. What was it like to have a man in tails take his lady's arm with a gloved hand and escort her through the streets of Paris, her long skirts making a gentle shussing sound as her heels click on cobblestones? Paris? Maybe somewhere in the countryside of England? No matter, they walk together, he is her protector and provider and she loves him back giving him a happy home, a family, herself when he longs for her. Today roles are more joined, men & women both work, take care of themselves. I don't know, a part of me feels we lost a great deal in the basic male/female roles. By no means am I abdicating women as property or things to be used,hit or similar, but rather a gentle mix of old & new would be nice. I like when a man opens a door for me or helps with packages and I enjoy doing for him, baking or cooking favorite meals, wearing something I know he likes, or just being there to listen to him when it seems no one else does. Things like this matter a great deal. Well to me at least they do. Am I even making sense? It's almost 3 am so I'm not sure I am.
There is a song by John Denver, a guilty pleasure of mine lol, it's called "Dearest Esmerelda". Something about this songs tugs at my heart in such a way that I get weepy when I listen. Not sad but I understand what he is saying and the bitter sweetness of his words move me. So you know what I will sign off with it. I'll be back sometime later today I suppose but listen to this song. The video is not awe inspiring but the music & lyrics are, give a listen. So until later.....peace out peeps :-D
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