It was nice actually just chillin' with Dad and I swear even at my age I hate when movies we're watching have sex in them. Oh God one year we were visiting my cousins for Thanksgiving and everyone was watching The Devil's Advocate, I'm still embarrassed. LMAO It's odd I have no trouble with porn NONE!! watch it, love it. Yet certain things I get embarrassed about. I mean I can write a dirty story and post it here and trust me when I say that was mild in comparison to some I've penned yet I look at the lovely ladies on other pages on other site posing nude pics but I just can't do it. See I have no issues with taking nude photos, as I have, but they are for only the eyes I'm taking them for. To me it takes away from them if that makes any sense at all. Plus I guess there is a small part of me that feels a bit inferior to them and I know I shouldn't feel that way but they have no problem posting all these shots and even have their own websites but I don't know i would rather the person who my pics are for know that it's for them and not public viewing. I can't tell you how many times I've posted a few pics then second thought it and taken them down. To me they are special, I don't know maybe I'm weird. I have nothing against nudity, I think the US is way too uptight about sex in general but as for posting nudies of myself, well that's just my opinion, feel free to disagree.
This is a short week as Thursday is Thanksgiving. I can't believe the year is almost over. I love this time of year and I love Christmas although through my married life it's never been what I wanted. See my husband's family never really celebrated it he told me, they didn't have the funds and well it was never a big deal. When we dated I went all out and decorated and bought way too many presents and thought he was getting with the idea of it but not really. Last year we didn't even have a tree. I don't know why I'm even writing this. Please don't think badly as my husband is a very hard working man and he tries to do the best he can with the aches and pains he has on a daily basis but Christmas is not his priority. This makes me very sad sometimes and I can go overboard gifting occasionally but I have very few people in my family that I see. My Dad never wants anything so I buy things he needs like the recliner one year and the DVD player the next but all he wants this year is shoes and slippers LOL So that's what he'll get. I have no children so I like to indulge other people's that I know and care about. I just wish I could once again have a huge Christmas party like I used too. Decorate the house and the tree with my friends and cook for a crowd and go to look at Christmas lights. We used to do that but after hubby's mom died he lost the impulse to go do that I guess. See my Mom loved everything about Christmas so to me it is a remembrance of her. I have her ornaments and they are lovingly packed away. I so enjoy the party we have at work every year and we are having 2 this year. A holiday pot luck on the 1st then a secret Santa and dessert party on the 22nd. Some of us are also going out to dance the night away one weekend TBD as of now. I have an idea of what I want to get my hubby and you know what after writing this I think I am going to take out the tree and decorate it and have him help, and he will, this I can say honestly and maybe by doing so he will get into the spirit of the season. I know he loves his family and enjoys seeing them in the holidays but I think his aches are more than he says sometimes and that's why he doesn't get into a festive mood, I suppose its hard to be jolly when you are in pain. So my Christmas wish this year is that his pain lessens so he can start enjoying himself again. I mean come on he's married to me so we know he likes a good joke!! ;-)
WOW did my blog go from one thing to another tonight, thanks for taking the ride. I am going to sign off though, so until next time CIAO x
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