What To Say

     Had a great weekend. Love my friends, concerned about one. Want to make everyone smile. Wish I had answers to all the questions in my head and in the heads of those I care about. Wish the weather would cool off so I can wear my new dresses. 
     I am tired, I'm going to bed. Ciao For Now peeps

Now What Will I Watch?

     Meaning that I saw the final episode of Broadchurch tonight. It was on BBC America. Excellent production. It's like reading a book. You get so caught up in the story that when it ends you feel a bit empty inside. Lol. We do that though don't we? Get so caught up in the lives of people in these stories, we use them to take away our mundane lives. I spent many summer afternoons with my nose in a good book. Or looking forward to the next installment of a favorite show. You have to be careful though or it takes over. Hubs is like that right now with the show Castle. So much that he  downloaded the remaing 4 books in the series. Remember I got him one for his birthday. So now he is either reading the book, or watching the show. I enjoy the show myself but it's getting obsessive. Glad we are going away.
     Oh yeah, we are going away. Lol. I am off on Friday. Saturday is our17th wedding anniversary  so we are doing an overnight in Lancaster  PA. It's about 2 hours from us and it's a nice change of scenery. We have no set place to stay but we will find something. One day I want to stay at the Lancaster Arts Hotel. It's a funky cool place judging from the website. Check it out if you're so inclined. Maybe a girls weekend, we all chip in for the suite. Always a good time.
     I feel a little odd. It's like I have been transported back to my dreary little world. The excitement of  a week and a half ago is now another beautiful memory. Life is good though. I can't complain. I just wish hubs would get out more. Filing for unemployment would be nice! He literally spends the day with his nose in the castle books or watching it on TV. Glad I'm working or I'd be a lot more upset. It's gets boring being home but that's one reason I was always going for drives. You have together out and mingle in the world. Staying home too long drives me bonkers!
      Aw peeps, I am going to bed. 5 AM is only 5 hours away. Getting to the gym early. Lots to do tomorrow. So until then. Ciao For Now.

Thoughts and Stuff

First a correction to yesterday's blog. It was just over a week ago not 2 that I had my amazing weekend. To you, still floating from it. Some people just have a way of making you feel so special. They ate a rare and wonderful breed. I felt special that's for sure. Okay enough. God someone shut me up. Lmao

 OMG today at work, I have a new dad on the phone. His wife had the baby 4 days ago and I'm walking him through the steps to add the child to his benefits, when all of a sudden, I hear his wife screaming! She's yelling "help me, help me," and she's got this fear in her voice. The man stops talking then she says quick the baby's got something stuck in her throat. The man starts to ask if he can call back I'm like go go now. He hangs up and I'm thinking to myself what could this infant have gotten into her mouth at 4 days old. This was their first child, I asked the Goddess to watch the baby and went on to the next call, but wow! Drama at the call center. Scary to imagine.
     Speaking of the Goddess, it's no secret I'm a witch, pagan, Wiccan, however you choose to word it. But to some it's still a frightening word. I wouldn't hurt a fly. But on Facebook I read an article by a woman who clearly had no idea what an earth based religion was as she kept referring to the devil. We don't believe in the devil. Satanists do, but not us. So how can I worship what I don't believe?  But I found myself laughing at what she was saying about Halloween. Basically it's the witches new year. The veil between the two worlds is thin so we honor our loved ones who have passed on. Christians gave All Saints and All Souls days. Also there is dios de la muerta. Day of the dead. It's not a crazy idea but she went off saying that don't buy candy at Halloween since witches pray over it and put spells in it. That we have time release curses, and that candy corn is the devils own .  OMG really? Okay I agree candy corn is evil, delish sweet evil.  And time release curses, for when the 1/ hour curses aren't strong enough?? And at what time do we start this praying over candy. I pray that I don't shove too many fun size bars into my gob! One person wrote on asking her if she knew the cut off time for candy buying. I was crying, so funny.
     Okay peeps, I can be a bear of very little brain sometimes. I am the type of person that on occasion gets feelings about people, that I lately have found to be accurate. It's kind of cool, and helps me tune into what's going on and what the pace is. It's happened at work several times and made for very easy fun days.  BUT  think a friend is hurting, and I can do nothing to help! I need to step back though because I finally realized the last thing someone wants, is to be reminded of is that they hurt, or feel bad.  They know I care, and if they choose to discuss it then I am there. They know that I am, I don't need to keep reminding them. So I'm bringing myself back to normal pace. Be the friend they know I am, you know, that cute lovable, sweet, funny, and modest gal. So that's it on that. Nuff said, 
     I found a new tattoo artist also a few days back. She is wonderful and I want her to ink me. Must save and also must be real sweet to a certain talented friend of mine who draws great, and it would be honored to wear another piece of his art. Maybe if I ask real pretty like, he will draw me something. He's got so much going on though with his football and work, but I'm not demanding. At his leisure of course. I love owls, fairies, moons, I would love him to draw something he thinks of when he thinks of our friendship. Now THAT would be interesting. Draw how he sees me. Oh that could be good or bad! Lmao. I wish I could draw. I can doodle but not the way he does and his daughter is just like him. She did a drawing of Ariel, and in her headband, she drew something. To me that was outstanding. It gave you another point of concentration. It drew your eye in. It's the details others years her senior forget to do. Brilliant!!   Well peeps, this overbearing, and sometimes annoying but always good hearted Baggins is headed to bed. Gym in the AM. So as always I say Ciao For Now 

I Wish I Could Select A Groundhog Day Of My Choice

     Well maybe more than one day, how about a weekend? I would have posted sooner but I was still floating on air from 2 weekends ago. Not going into too many details but I had such an amazing time. Sometimes someone takes what would have been a great night anyway and turns it into an amazing experience. I was so lucky to have this happen. I will eventually get over this. Maybe a year or two LOL 
     Today I got my arse to the gym again!!  Finally it's been 2 weeks. Today I was walking slow LOL  I swear it was like my body said,"its about time" or "oh hell I thought you had given this up" In the past it would have been the second statement. Today it was the first one. I have a different way of thinking, I missed going. Yes, it surprises me sometimes. I like how I'm starting to look and I'd be lying if I didnt say I enjoy being looked at. Not that Im going anywhere, I have my special someone, but it's nice to hear. I want to be so much more fit for when I go to England. I know it's happening and I can't wait to go. I have been forewarn that I will go mental when I see the tea aisle at the local Tesco.  LOL I am bringing an extra case with me for clothes and tea and Garibaldi's (a fantastic biscuit/cookie) I know aim not going to want to leave. Wonder if my friends would let me stay with them until  found a job. Maybe my friend has something I could do. Maybe be a maid for them  LOL 
     So lets reel it back in and talk work. I am feeling happy with my job, and funny thing today, one of the ladies who worked in payroll walked back in today. So it felt like old home week.I am back to my 8:30 to 5 schedule which is why I was able to get back to the gym. Oh peeps ever want to say things but really can't, I feel that way. It's all good things though I promise that. Well I just wanted to check in and say hi and I will be writing more, I am coming into my season. Love the cooler weather!! So until tomorrow I say Ciao For Now!

I finally have Something To Talk About

For over a year, the better part of two really, I have been trying to lose weight. That was my reason for this blog, I wanted to keep a daily log of my ups and downs, the emotional roller coaster that I was the correct height to ride. It went well for so long. I have readers who subscribe to my blog, I have people from countries that a year ago, I would have sworn were made up, reading my blog! Strangers and friends, all reading my words, for what reason, I really don't know. Who in Russia, what person in Latvia, no really Latvia? Well I finally can say after all this time I actually see a change in my form. A waist has appeared, and I can walk more than a block without feeling like I'm going to pass out. I actually have even pseudo ran across a street and "hopped" onto a curb. Look I have friends of all shapes and sizes and I care for them all. I am changing for me, I am no one to pontificate to anyone. I would never do that. I like people who look different, height, weight, different. We are all beautiful architecture created by whomever you believe, and we make up this neighborhood of ours. It's beautiful to see the differences, like lovely streets lined with interesting houses. Each with its own bits of special add ons, that add to the beauty and make each one unique. Look I'm not knocking cookie cutter houses, but when it's all the same, it can be boring. I refuse to believe we are created to be boring. We are created to live to the fullest of our abilities. I lived the first half of my life on the outer rim of my abilities. Some have said I wasted my youth, part of me agrees but what is done is done. I can only go from here. I'm no great scholar, I'm not a charismatic leader with a following of thousands. I'm just me, silly, short, animal loving, emotional dreamer me. I don't know peoples private thoughts on me, that's their secrets to keep. But I will tell you, I give thanks every day for the friends who stay by me, those that see past my outer shell, or as I like to call it my hard candy coating. The ones who see beauty where others see comical. Those who appreciate what lies inside and underneath.  Just very recently, I was reminded that actions speak louder than words. So very true, I hope my actions show the love I have for you dear friends and if I am lacking in this let me know. I always think it, but I can be a scatterbrained Baggins, and sometimes forget to say it , or I say it too much. Ah well, such is me.  I have a waist, go figure!!!

That's it, nothing great, just my thoughts, brought to mind by the cold medicine I've ingested. If it's all daft, blame Vicks NyQuill not me .  LMAO. Ciao For Now.

A Kind Of Thanksgiving

     Sounds like the title of a Nicholas Sparks book doesn't it? LOL I really have taken a moment today and I sat in a little par near my hose. Very warm out, more like summer than the turning to Autumn. I had just purchased my hubby's birthday gift. I brainstormed this one. He is so hard to buy for, he's a computer guy and I'm really not a computer gal. Oh I've learned quite a bit from him over the years but no where near his gift for understanding these machines. But I digress!  We watch a television show called "Castle". It's very good, cop show with a touch of humor, and he loves it. Boardering on obsession almost, lol, but it's nice to hear him laugh. Well I got two Rick Castle books and since he wanted cask I will put cash in the pages of the book fr him to find. Hehe. Taking him for sushi also. Will be a god night. Now today, I ran a few errands along with picking up his gifty. I came home and he was doing laundry. Does he do it the same as me? No he doesn't but he was DOING THE LAUNDRY! Lets focus on that. I got $65.00 in the mail yesterday from my dad. He likes to pay for my gym membership, as he's so pleased I go and he sees how much better I feel. I told him not to but he still sends it. It's a thing he does simply because he wants too. I can understand that! 😄 I have friends who post owls on my Facebook and Pinterest ages simply because they know I love owls. I have a job once again with people I like. Just know as I'm writing this, hubs put the kettle on and brought me a cup of tea. I ask you how lucky a girl am I?  I really am. I treasure all the little things that they all do for me.  I can be a handful, I can be jealous, I can be a total nutter! Yet they stay by me, and I love each and every one of them. I am so lucky to be urrounded by these people, who do for me, just because. Money? Wish I had a ton of it, not just for me, but for all these people in my life who are there daily, there for my ups and downs, these people who deserve everything good in this lifetime. I don't have that kind of money of course, but I would do whatever I can fr them. So yes this is a Thanksgiving of sorts. I am thankfull for them all.
     That's it for tonight peeps, it's been busy getting used to a schedule again. I will be more stray soon with my posts. Until then, keep looking, and thank you for reading. Ciao For Now

When Did This Become. Crime?

     I'm talking about flirting. I am a big 'ole flirt. I admit it, I enjoy it. It goes no further than that. Makes for relaxed time. Doesn't at long, and then it's bye. That was nice, see ya soon. I do it with friends, I've done it with strangers, I've done it on social meda. It's just me, I don't mean to but it happens. Well tonight I learned a lesson. Ths guy had said hello on a social media sight, saying he tought I was pretty. Well who doesn't like to hear they are attractive to o done, especially when you're not used to it. I replied thank you, very sweet of you. Few days later. I get, "so how are you" I reply and for a month or so we just chatted occasionally. Lately he's been more stronger in hs sexual overtones. Okay I can handle him, I'm savvy. Tonight I get asked what turns me on, what do I find erotic. Okay, flirting turns semi sarcastic as in I'll tell you what you want to hear BUT I'm adding me to it. I say I like porn (not a lie) but I find erotica in most things. The way velvet or fur feels on your skin, textures as you eat food, scent on a private place on a person so that when you smell it it reminds you of that person. That there's an erotic sense to most things if you look. It's not just sex, it's what stimulates all of your senses. Now please note that I truly mean this, I believe it fully.   Next thing I know he asks to Skype with me, tells me we could have fun. NO THANK YOU!! Not interested. Then he mentions 80's music and tells me I let my girly side show before. I write back yes I am girly, joked about Catholic upbringing. Then tell him a funny story about Duran Duran that happened to me.  He says he never got it. I not know who it went to. I texted a pal there to see if he got it. Don't know. But then I see I have a message and lo and behold its a pic of his junk , saying we need to stop talking, don't I want this? I wrote back no and I don't need that on my page. Don't do it again. Then he writes back, calling me a tease and a slut!! Saying I led him on, which I didn't do. I was nice, yes flirty at it times, but that doesn't  a slut make.  I immediately blocked him at that point. I have already deleted people for being too over the top. Hes the first full blocked. I've gotten lots of people asking for pics or to Skype or Kik with them. No no no!!   I was really upset, I texted my friend again, poor guy, only one I know on there, so he got the brunt of my freak out. Forgive me friend if you read this.
     Then right after I shut down my laptop, I started to wonder if maybe I portray myself  in a way I don't realize. Am I being a slut by being able to trump a guy in a conversation where he starts talking sex and I outwit him by replying in a more genteel manor and humor. I got so upset I actually cried for a few minutes. My friends those I love and trust , for a moment I thought I betrayed you all. I think I have no business messaging with people. But I have met some of you on the Internet, several of you who are now my closest and dearet friends, I know you trust me and I trust you. Has it changed so much in 5 years? Is it all just one big meat market now?  Look I'm not a prude but I'm not skyping or sending nudes to these men.they have raw porn on their blogs already, it's not me I can't do that.  I DON'T BETRAY TRUST, I DON'T SHARE ME IN THAT MANNER. There are so many ladies who post nudes but yet I don't see them as sluts. More power to them, I just wonder if they get ths crap in their inboxes?  I like to be sexy for a special person, not everyone out there. What's special about that? I think it's nice to do things for your special someone because they matter, and you want something  private between you & them. I guess  shouldn't worry about the social website but boy I wrote a rant on it! Now I guess I'll be a bitch instead, lol.  Guess you can't win sometimes. I'm just going to post pics of Star Wars and doctor who from now on. Maybe it was a good lesson, I'll say it again, I dont think sluts blush as much as I do. Lol
Ciao for now peeps.

Normally

I would be writing a new blog but I am a bit tired and feeling a bit rough. Not bad but just blah. I will write one tomorrow evening. I'm getting up early for the gym and then work. Do until then. Ciao For Now.

On being a grown up - A thought in my head!

I wanted to be a grown up so much when I was younger. Now that I am one, (at least chronologically)  I'm having second thoughts. I never realised how much my parents shielded me from bad reality.  Things like, Vietnam, having to hold down 3 jobs between them,  not doing for themselves so I could go to "good" schools. I'm sure just the daily grind wore them down. I never knew it though. 
      Now I am aware if such things, of money issues, of world issues, of all the "bad" stuff! I understand my parents so much better now. I'm scared of what is going on around me but because of them, I'm not making it my focal point. I will act accordingly as I must do as an adult, but I will keep my inner child happy also. I will have fun with friends, enjoy sports, go to parties and movies. Do silly things on occasion. Because the one thing they could not teach me is that to be a good adult, you still have to let loose. I never knew why my parents always had house parties and holiday parties. They would send me up to bed but heard laughing and glasses clinking. I now know it was at that time, they had morphed back into kids. Just having fun. Being an adult is not always fun. But it is interesting I suppose. Okay I'll be one! 

Almost the weekend

     First I want to apologize for the spelling errors in yesterday's blog. I was typing fast on my iPad and well, you read the results. Hopefully I do not repeat the offense in this blog tonight. Lol
      I am thinking that we may be getting snow! I say this sarcastically, because, hallelujah day, we have an empty yard!! I came home this afternoon and the lawn guy was getting ready to go. I walked with him to the yard, an when he opened the fence so I could look inside I wanted to pinch myself to see it I was dreaming. No overgrown bushes, no debris, no old lawn mower that hubs was strangely attached to. All that was left was our BBQ grill, two chairs and our very cool, wind chimes that's attached to our fence.  Oh and lots of gnats since everything was churned up. I looked for as long as I could because I kept getting bit by the bugs. Citronella time for the yard. At least now, hubs can go out, sit and have a cigar to relax. He does not smoke them inside.  Oh I have plans, but first we need to throw down something like a weed kill so nothing grows back. I want to do that on about half of the yard so we can put a deck.  Then try and grow some grass on the rest. I want to make it a quiet, calm place. So that I can go outside and do my rituals. Maybe build a little garden alter in the corner. Goddess or fairy statue, and stones. Hehe no worries, not building Stonhenge back there, but how cool would a mini one be? 😄
     Well tomorrow ends my first week at my job. I am on the phones. I was taking calls this afternoon and it feels like I never left. Like I mentioned,this is the first step in a very positive road.  More will be added to this saga I knw. Lol
     I am only doing a little blog tonight as I'm a little tired plus I'm getting up early to go to the gym in the morning. So I am saying god night, and as always, Ciao For Now 😀💗

Feels Like Home

     Well lovelies, I made it past my first hump day back. Lol today was a very god day indeed. Look I will be honest, I wish I was making a lot more money. I am actually making about 7 grand less a year right now. Once I do go full time that will change to about a difference of  5 grand. Yeah it sucks but I needed a job. I was out of work for 6 months and its a job in and of itself looking or a job. I need to work, well I need to feel I have a purpose is really more to the point. I feel that again. I admit its doing great things for my ego also. Theses folks haven't seen me since mid January, and I am hearing " oh you look so wonderful" or " wow you look great" every day so far. It makes me feel good that my efforts are noticed. I can be need, look I admit that, but I'm human. I like to hear that I look good. We all do, but I will tell you what makes me float on an even higher cloud, is that I heard today that my manager was speaking with my director and they want to bring me in full ice as soon as they can. That feels good, to be wanted like that. It humbles me that I made that strong an impression on them. I like the company, did from day one. They seem to have gotten over the bumps they were having and the future seems to be going in the right direction.  I'm familiar there, feels like a good fit, a comfy pair of slippers. I so hope I go full time, it means more money, benefits and other opportunities in other I visions. It will help mt socially as well, I will be interacting with people! I will now be able to save for my trip to England. Looking good, knok wood, crossing fingers, throwing salt over my left shoulder. Lmao
     I have now gone 2x to the gym before work. Seems to be working well, but we will see. I missed the gym when I was in Maine. It was a great time, all night party, rock band on the video at 4 in the morning. Bottles of wine, champagne and more than a few gin & tonics found their way to me and I welcomed them with open arms. I weighed in early ths week but loos like at least one more pound of the wright I put on is gone leaving one more. Hope to see that ll gone by Sunday.
     Labor Day is just around the corner. Next Monday , the 2nd of September. Long weekend - woohoo! Then birthdays, my friend coming in from overseas and I will get to see him as well. Then anniversary, and more birthdays, then holidays and then before you know it......HoHoHo 😊
Hehehe. I know, rushing it, but it's tue
      Well poppets, I'm heading to bed. Need to take off my war-paint and wash my face. So until next time I say, as always. Caio For Now
     

Well Time For A Blog Methinks

     Right now I am relaxing at home, sky is showing lasts licks of daylight doing its best to hang on. It was warm today, but make no mistakes, there is a distinct hint of Autumn in the air. Vacation is over, school supplies adverts everywhere, and the bath and body works store by me is pushing their new pumpkin, and caramel apple bath products.  This is coming into my favorite season. I adore the fall. Of course with cooler weather make-up stays on better, you don't overheat walking around. You get to wear thick comfy sweaters and boots and oh the colors of the season. So wonderful. Bright reds, yellows and oranges, mixed with the hearty evergreens, I can almost smell the woodsmoke from a neighbors chimney. Okay maybe I'm loving this too much, 😄, but there is something magickal about this season. Perhaps it's because, I was born in October, but I seem to come alive this time of year. Coming from New York, it meant apple picking, making pies, baking All sorts of goodies because the kitchen wont get hotter than hell this time of year, okay ONE REASON I'm sure I will always be a full figured gal.  I love to bake way too much. Hahaha 😋Funny enough, in VA it's similar. Little known fact that VA is huge in apple growing. Of course this means cider.  I'm talking home brewed hard cider. So exquisite tasting, it rivals a fine wine. We go up to the mountains here and you will find folks selling cider everywhere. If you know who to go to, (and hubs does), you will find the jugs that are put in the back. The ones that that have that layer of foam on top, signaling to you that these babies are fermented and one taste of them, woof!!! You have some fabulous hard cider. Not the crisp kind that I just spoke about, but thicker full flavored hard cider. A most delicious elixir indeed! Lol 😝
     Then you take a drive to Skyline Drive and the views will take your breath away. All the trees are in flames of colors. You are up at about 3000ft. (It goes up to over 4000 in some spots), and it's a colorful blanket for miles. They have log cabins up there and a hotel that serves outrageous hot chocolate. The real stuff, not that Nestlé powder. Not that that is bad, I use it too, but this is real rich Dutch chocolate, combined with organic sugar and homemade marshmallow on top. Reminder to self, save about 400 calories for a steamy mug! YUM!! Add a homemade apple fritter and believe me it's worth an extra hour at the gym.  
     Okay I will end my passion of autumn and tell you some awesome news.....I STARTED MY JOB!!!   Can't say new job, as its where I was actually made redundant from. I am no longer a supervisor as the position was eliminated. BUT it's a job I know, I enjoyed, and it pays more than unemployment. Plus I like the people there.  First day was today, and it felt like home. I will have the same email address again too once I get my computer. Hopefully that will happen on Friday. I felt good tonight, as I missed putting in a day at work. To me it's important to do something that fulfills you. I often feel lonely here as I have mentioned but work, I believe, will fill  good part of the void.
When I was in Maine my friend told me I need to join some groups. She's right, she is one of the few people I know and love who tells it like it is. She pulls no punches. She will tell me to shut the F%#k up and I'm being silly. I have just a handful of people who I'll do that and thank my stars for them everyday. So I'm perusing the ads to see if my writing group is restarting, or now that I will get out of work no later than 6 or 6:30 , I can possibly check out a theater group. Who knows, but I WILL GO TO ENGLAND IN 2014. 😘
     I was very happy this morning when I put on the dress I bought in May, only to find that it fits loosely. Looks better on my now but you can see a bit of excess material on the upper sides. Not that I mind. I am trying so hard to lose my pounds and get to where I want to be. I did put 5 pounds on in Maine but weighing in yesterday shows that I lost 3 of them and hope to loose the rest this week. I get 1310 a day before any work outs. Today I added over 700 calories to my total and right now at 9pm I am under my regular calories by 500. All good as I wanted to really do my fast today but I did a semi fast and probably will come in the same tomorrow. Grilled salmon or chicken with a big salad for lunch will find its way into my lunch rotation. My manager and friend gave me a desk right by the window overlooking the atrium. So I get a view while I eat at my desk. Yes, tonight, life has so much promise again. Work, combined with autumn season coming, friends around me, life is good.  I hope you are all feeling the same. So I will now say good night and as always - Ciao For Now

I've been away

Sorry guys. Will be writing a long blog tomorrow night. New job starting so I'm off to bed. Ciao for now

The Simple Truth

     Won't bore you all today as I did in the last blog, with my Maine tales. Today it's quick and to the point.
     Today I took two awesome kids out for a full afternoon of shopping and lunch, more shopping then ice cream. The simple joy of watching a boy ride in a convertible for the first time. The secret smile I hid while telling the girl that yes the waiter is cute, and why are you looking? LOL  Having them both hug me and tell me in unison "I love you Aunt Mary"
I got back, and smiled and laughed, as I told their mom of the fun we had. Then I went upstairs to where I am staying and cried because I dont have children of my own to experience this with. It's a fucking amazing feeling!!
Ciao For Now Peeps

So Far......Freakin' AWESOME!!

     Well it's been a whirlwind since the convertible and I rolled into town on Friday afternoon.  I was surprised that for the last leg of the journey, I didn't need any directions. I knew where I was going. Then again route 1 goes through all the towns, such as Newcastle, Boothbay Harbor. As one would assume, there is water all around. The area is comprised of peninsulas and from what I've heard, in the winter it can get so cold and snowy, that you really get confined to your given peninsula. Some passages are dirt roads and small bridges. Ah America, there are parts of you still untouched by the industrial revolution. Not one Starbucks in sight! Lol
     I digress - I was greeted by hugs and kisses from the humans and barking and purring from the fur part of the family. Not to dismiss the numerous requests for belly rubs, from the fur side if course. Happy greetings 😀 a few hours later we were off to opening night of the community theater production if the play RENT. Where I was treated to a very very excellent show, yes I cried!
After the show we went our for drinks. I was introduced to the cast and they were all so nice to me. Chatting and interacting as if they knew me for years. I had a great time, yet this was just a small taste of what was to come. The next day was a chill morning. Time to relax a little. Showered and all make up applied, we were off to the second performance. I again found myself chatting while I folded the playbills that got handed out to the patrons. Oh yes, I was put to work! Lol. Then we had the cast party at the house. OMG!!
it was loud, busy, lots of alcohol glowing, music playing and it was fabulous! Food of the night was Italian. I was filling bowls and handing out the food to everyone. Then joined in. Champagne bottles, vodka , gin and several other bottles were emptied one after the other. Spirits were high. Rock Band was sting in the other room. Conversations ran from show critiques to sex, to deep theological discussion to sex, talk about past shows done to sex. I was having the most fun ever! I haven't laughed so much and for so long in a long time. At one point whipped cream was on the scene. The canister  was shoved in my mouth as one guy grabbed me so I couldn't move as the other squirted copious amounts of  whipped cream  until it was all over my face. I couldn't stop laughing. One girl squirted some on my chest and proceeded to like it off. Like I said a friendly bunch. LMAO  the party lasted for 7 hours, maybe a little more. I dragged my tired ass up to sleep finally about 6:30 in the morning. Woke up at 9. Went downstairs and out onto the deck where the sun was wArm and the breeze was refreshing. I sat on a chaise lounge and dozed for about an hour more, with my new faithful pal Bolt (the adorable jack Russell terrier)  Came into find my friend cooking breakfast for us and the few if the part goers who stayed. I made her and myself some coffee. Grabbed a few slices if French toast and prepped it for her son and got him fed. As he informed me, " I'M HUNGRY AUNT MARY"! By noon everyone was fed, and happy. Then our merry group including the 2 guys who slept over trekked off to see a production of the play "You're A Good Man Charlie Brown" it was well performed but it was the geriatric version with a few younger people thrown in. They would entertaining and seemed to be having fun, so it was quite enjoyable. Then driving people home and a fab fish dinner and finally bed. I think I was sound asleep by 11, I was beat!
     So here we are at Monday. Maybe some souvenir shopping, need to pick us things for a few folks. Today is a very chill day, then again, who knows! Hahaha.
      There you have it so far, a few more days then back home. Okay I'm off to shower and get this day started. Ciao for now

You Never Know

     I just found out that a man I knew, and was my director when I did The Music Man, just died. I'm here on the treadmill  and the message came through. A dear friend of mine, who was our musical director for that show let me know. He also said that for years after the show, that the deceased man had always asked about me. He was very fond of me. It was nice to know that he remembered me that way. He was a priest and was stern but I had no problem with him. I didn't walk on eggshells around him as many did. I was just me. Lol  it got me thinking again, we never know truly the impression we make on people sometimes. Yet we all touch others lives every day. It's so important to remember that our actions can inadvertently effect someone. Moreover if we know the person, we do directly influence them. How often have you found yourself doing or saying something that a good friend or lover does. You just pick it up from them.  We don't even realize we are doing it.  Well I'm glad I left a good impression on this man. I will pray for him, that he has a good transition to his next life. He touched mine and I had lots of laughs during rehearsals. Some frustrations too of course, but that's the joys if community theater. He may have been a priest but he was simply a man. With all of the faults us humans have. But he tried, lived his life true to his convictions and you have to respect that. Farewell Monsignor! .
     Just had to get this out. I leave for Maine in the morning so look for a cool blog real soon. And I found out just now that I can type AND walk on the treadmill at the same time. Well ain't I just the shit!! Lmao   Ciao For Now peeps.

Choices

     I have come to realize that I'm settling into a decent routine. I am trying to get to the gym as often as I can. I will be away from it for a week starting in a few days. Then I stArt my job, that will most likely start at 8 to 5 at least in the beginning. I can do one of two things. Go to the gym early at 5:30 shower there then go to work or I can change after work and go right to the gym. The latest I would work until is 6:30 so I could just go after work. I will try it both ways but not going is not an option. I bought new jeans in a smaller size and I liked that. If course I need to get them shortened by 4 inches tomorrow(And these were the petite length) LMAO
     I notice the little things. Like when I get behind my steering wheel I have space. The wheel turns back on its own accord. My rings slide down my finger. I have to get a ring guard as my engagement ring has fallen off several times. It's about the choices I make myself consider before I eat. Like yesterday. I had over 800 extra calories because I worked out. I came in way under as I was even under my daily calories.  Well as I was saying, I wanted a bagel with cream cheese. I'm such a New Yorker. Lol. I was on the way home from the gym and it was really on my mind. As I drive though I thought honestly with myself. I'm going away, good chance I may have one or two goodies. So did I really want that bagel. I was hungry but with coffee it would have been 457 calories. That was too many carbs and not enough protein. So I opted for steel cut oats. And with coffee my total was 205. Big difference. The oats were filling and I put a touch of peanut butter in them (don't judge lol) for protein. I felt as full as if I had had the bagel but less than half the calories. I have taken time to ask if I really wanted it. It's choices and it always  will be. It's life and it is enjoyable.
     I keep reminding myself of that. Life is fun, or at least  can be. Maine will be fun. Earning money again so that I can go overseas and have fun. Right now I'm not on a giggly mood. I have a lit to do today and I'm doing it on no sleep.  My spidy sense tells me I'm crashing early tonight.
     Well perps just a hello and hope all are well. Until next time. Ciao For Now

Sunday Night Happenings

     Had a blog, but I deleted it. Not what I wanted to say. Will have one maybe later or tomorrow. Re-read yesterday's LMAO   Ciao For Now peeps Blessings.

It's just another Saturday Night, Okay Then!

     Well today has been a decent day. My thoughts of course flutter back and forth, much like a pendulum, even once stilled, just takes the smallest stir to set them off again. This is who I am. My mind traveled to my younger years today for some reason. I was a pretty cool kid I think.
I have always been called, " A Jack Of All Trades, A Madter Of None" this moniker was put on me at a fairly young age. Not to be mean, but actually a pretty good explanation, considering I loved so many different things. Funny thing is, I was pretty good at them, things used to come easy to me, when I was young. Now the longing is still the same, yet I have to try harder to achieve my goals. I used to paint when I was young. I remember making a painting for my Mom in school, it was of our grandfather clock, that stood in the corner of our dining room. It won a prize. Granted I was no artist, but it was a good rendition for a 5 year old. Funny, I can still remember it as if it just happened. I also remember in school, our teacher gave us paper that had a squiggle line of some shape on the paper. We were to draw something from that, something that would use the line that was on our page. Imagine my teacher's surprise when I handed her my drawing of a woman in a long gown, with long dark hair and big eyes. Yep the line on my page reminded me of a large nose, I handed the teacher my drawing of Cher! Lmao  I wrote poetry and even wrote a song for my guitar teacher. I always loved the arts, I loved to sing, I woke my parents one Sunday morning by playing the song Caberet on my clarinet at 6 am. Haha. Then all of a sudden it stopped. I don't know what happened but it was like a big eraser came and wiped my abilities. I was never great but I was good and more importantly I had fun! Singing was the only one I brought with me into my teens, as I was in our school glee club. I didn't write but always used more words than needed to make sure I painted a good picture for the person I was telling my stories to. I loved making up small stories and often did when babysitting, as it helped to get the kids asleep. Who knows maybe I was just that boring that they fell asleep. Lmao
Like I said, I was having strong flash backs this morning for some  reason.   This blog is more or less me writing again. See what I mean, using way to many words. 😀😀
      MY APOLOGIES AT THAT MOST SELF ABSORBED FIRST PARAGRAPH. 😜
      I got my new scale today. I love it and the display is digital, so I know exactly what weight I am. Tomorrow is weigh in day. We had Chinese food knight and I am so full. Eating about half of wht I used to, and nothing fried or sweet. Farewell my sesame chicken, I shall miss you may of all. (Shoulder shrug ) we do what we must. This I must, it's been far to many years that I did nothing.
       Oh man my credit card number was swiped. Yep but all is oh, number has a block, they know where it wa done. New card issued. I was shocked and it made me feel a little violated. Never tought that would occur today. I found out right father I had spoken to my friend, who had the coolest adventure! Zombie hunting! I was filled in a bit but the photos look so great, I want to hear more about it. Now that is a fun way to spend the day. Love hearing stuff like ths.
      Had some wine so I will blame my choppiness in tonight's blog to that. Not really the reason but sounds good, right? I'm not even really buzzed. Just nice and mellow.  Just wanted to come here and say hi. Hope you all are enjoying yourselves. Enjoying the weekend. 😄
      I really have nothing pertinent tonight so instead of rambling on, I will say Ciao For Now peace out Peeps lol 😘

Actually This One Seems Good

     It's 2am and I'm wide awake. Mainly because I fell asleep watching TV at 8 tonight for 3 hours. So I'm drinking a 1.5 liter bottle of water with lemon juice squeezed in. There were days gone by when I would be at a club, or a dinner eating gravy fries. You know what those are right? Just a big ol mess on a plate, crispy potato goodness smothered in brown beef gravy. So good at 2 or 3AM. Ah who cared at age 21. I remember being stoned one night in Greenwich Village. Walking up 8th street, it was about this time and I noticed the sidewalk had flecks of something shimmery mixed in with the cement. So as I stepped I tried to avoid these shiny objects, walked into a street lamp. So much for graceful! Sometimes that art if my life feels like a dream. I wonder how I survived a lot of it. I mean it was a time of punk music, new wave rock, sexclubs and after hour clubs. I went to a record premier party for some group, I don't even remember their name. We got so drunk and stoned. You couldn't walk two feet without someone handing you a rolled up dollar to "do that line" with. I remember having a great time. I was in the back garden talking to this man about space, and infinite possibilities. My girlfriends had scattered. It was fine, I like talking to new people. I do remember that one of my friends and I ended up in this closed room with this man we liked. He was from England and had long blonde hair. I don't remember his name, but he was cute, and we were mesmerized by his accent. Then he wanted to have a three way and proceeded to pull his cock out for us. OMG, just like that, no how'd ya do, just unzip and whip it out. My friend and I just looked at each other, considered the option and laughed. Poor guy, he just stood there looking hopeful. I remember grabbing him and putting him back in his jeans saying thank you for such a lovely offering but we were not ino sharing. Damn, you think I'd remember his name!
      The eighties for me read like a weird book, that you had to keep turning the pages because you just couldn't believe the main character did what they did. I practically lived in the city in the 1980's. I loved the clubs, I loved the make up. Oh I had purple hair mixed it with my brown hair. It was big hair but never as cool as the guys in the rock hair bands had. Music was my world at night. Taste ranging from Duran Duran, to The Clash and everything in between. I saw Run DMC walking the streets in Queens, near where I lived. Q-Tip from  A Tribe Called Quest rode the N train right next to me! I saw Dolph Lundgren and Grace Jones walking down Christopher street, what a striking couple. I even got 86'd from this gay bar because, well because I had a real vagina. Go figure lol.
I worked as a phone sex girl, then at an escort house answering the phones. My first customer service position. Hahaha! I never did anything and often marveled at the girls who did. Many had husbands and boyfriends, some even were lesbians. I just couldn't imagine being married and doing sex for a living.  I had so many offers from fetish houses to work them. Man looking back I could have made a fortune but in reality I made it through the 80's disease free, unlike so many of them. I know more than my fair share of people that were taken by AIDS.  Gay and straight! I won that round of Russian roulette and never felt the need to tempt fate again. I was either very smart or very lucky, but we all know its a combination of both. I was always selective, very open, and willing to try anything, but I wasn't a bed hopper. Although I was far from vanilla! Okay enough of that, I don't want to send out the wrong impression. I was young, living in my own place, I performed Rocky Horror in full dress 2x a weekend and was having fun. Unfortunately, hindsight being 20-20, I should have went back to school then. I did eventually go back so I suppose it turned out alright.
      I see I've gone on a Mary tangent, did you get all that? Wow I haven't rambled this much in awhile. Just my mood tonight. I feel good, far cry from the other night. Life throws so much at you and lucky for me, my past helped me. If anything it taught me to trust my instincts ( although I often chose not to) for better or worse, whichever lesson I learned, I never have forgotten. I will be able to sit in my rocking chair, an old lady in my 80's and if you look at me you will notice my smile. I will have great memories. Isn't that what life is? Go out and get experiences, learn from everything, do your best so when you look back, you can say, no regrets? I suppose there may be a few, but so far even those times, taught me something. I am grateful for my past. It has given me strength to handle the present, and made me curious as to the future. I'm a different person some 20 years later, but my core stayed the same. Love your life and the people you have in it. Have fun, be serious when called for and always remember each day is a new possibility.
     Well the bottle on my night table is half full now, and almost an hour has gone by. I think it's time I try to get some sleep. Shopping for vaca clothes tomorrow and some housework. Then enjoying a movie night with hubs tomorrow, along with a nice Pinot Grigio. So until next time pers, ciao for now. 😀😜