Sunday Morning. ( and evening too)

     Maybe Sunday morning is a good time for reflection. I'm just thinking and that's never a good thing. Lol all in all I'm good, few things still annoy me, things in regards to Facebook for one. But that's social media and not life, so I'm actually pretty much over it. Besides its not malicious, it's just my take so it's my issue. One friend who's been on, whom I've known for over 25 years never even mentioned my being in hospital. I'm not saying I want people fawning over me, it's nothing like that, but not even a hey, how are you feeling might be nice. Anyway....
I was a bit concerned as my legs and feet have been very swollen and I'm holding water. I went to my Weight Watchers meeting yesterday and gained .8 of a pound. OH THE HORROR! I know that's nothing really but I was decent all week, well I did eat a donut. Okay 2! But they are Duck Donuts (company name look them up)  hot out of the oven and divine. Not an everyday occurrence. Well I looked at my meds and the 20mg of Xarelto I am taking I was supposed to start tomorrow, the 15mg I was taking when I left the hospital was supposed to last until then. They didn't. Seems I was taking them 2x a day and I was only supposed to take one a day. My own stupitidy. Hopefully all will right itself now. This morning my legs and feet are not swollen, good sign.
     I am liking my look lately. So do others it seems. I got several crude requests after I put it on Instagram. Seriously, it's not like I'm a size 6.  Okay I like how I look in it, it suits me, and of course I like compliments (nice change for me) but I'm not about the crude blatant sex requests. I'm not a prude, gods know, but there is a finesse and of course the person behind the requests matters a great deal as well. Some random chappie is not par for the course.
     Well I DID get my fruit basket this week. LMAO my manager was so apologetic and I think I mentioned this already. Lol well there is this ginormous pineapple in it, so today methinks it's time to grill some pineapple. Also thinking a trip to the market to see if I can find a ripe mango and make some pineapple mango salsa. It will go well with the chicken I'm planning on cooking this week.
     Time to go great the world. Had a great lazy morning. Slept in until 10am. FABULOUS!!  Had a lovely breakfast of yogurt with granola and fruit, now I'm showered and ready to show my face. Lol
So ciao for now peeps
     Okay it's now almost 8pm. I did a few odds and ends and have just taken another shower. It was so very hot and sticky today, I just needed to cool off. Would have loved to go into a pool, but alas, there is none. We ate light tonight. I made cole slaw, I use raw honey and light mayo. So it has way less sugar and fat plus I don't laden it down with mayo so it's still nice and crisp and refreshing. I prepared turkey sandwiches. Nothing special, but I tell you. At our meeting yesterday it was discussed that we should actually enjoy our food. I do enjoy my food, that's the problem lol. I enjoy food too much. Hahaha. I did use this new bread though. Called Ezekiel bread. It contains ancient grains. Quiana, Spelt, Barley, Amaranth etc. very dense bread. So I toasted it, placed my broiled turkey breast plus a few thin slices of sharp cheddar cheese. The piled on lettuce, tomatoes, carrot slices, radishes. Thin layer of sweet hot honey mustard and took a bite.  WOW. So good!  About 2 spoonfuls of cole slaw and iced tea.  Grapes for dessert.  Diet? Don't think so. Was so yummy and I ate a sandwich .....while watching my weight. Glorious. I get bored easy, this helps me not get bored. I'm not going to go on and on about weight as that gets boring very quickly. Just pleased when something new (the bread) tastes good.
     Spoke (well texted) with my friends son, well he's my friend too. They had an excursion to Amsterdam to play football. From what I saw posted on Facebook, they did very well. Kudos boys. He's a good lad, he will go far. I just know it. He has a good mom and dad, they raised him well.
     I'm thinking it almost time to put on the kettle, a nice cup of tea while the storm goes on outside. Thunder booming, and lightning putting on a show, love it!! I bought new slacks for work, very excited. They are white, fit well but damn it they are too long. I even bought petite length. Sigh. Well at least they fit well. I can get a few other colors for work at least. Just need to hem them. No shock there. Lol
     So peeps, I'm going once again. Have a fantastic Monday.  Ciao For Now

My first week back and new clothes

     So here I am getting into my day and just went to get my leave rep all my final paperwork from when I was out.  I'm sitting at my desk, feeling decent and then I walk to the other side of the building to where they are and when I get back I had to sit for a moment as I had to catch my breath. THIS SUCKS!  Im cool now, only took a moment but it's annoying  LOL
I've been having very bad nights this week actually, I am getting horrendous leg and foot cramps. I take magnesium tablets as soon as it happens but last night I was feelng pain like never before. I have a call in to my doctor. My ankles and legs seem a bit swollen also. I think my meds may be the cause of this. Oh peeps, Im like fuck this - just shoot me.  I used to weigh a lot more, and I never had these issues when I was fatter. WTF?????     i was told by her (mt DR.) to walk slowly and pace myself.  I have problems walking too slow, I just can't. All the years of having short legs and trying to keep up with everyone else I suppose. HA!
     On the other hand, I was able to play dress up this week with some new clothes. The dress I wore on Tuesday was banggin'! I felt pretty in it too (been awhile). Today I'm wearing a new pair of kiks and they are  incredibly comfortable. They are by GH Bass. Pink and tan, right up my alley lol
I'm hoping today is a slower day, I need to get myself sorted. Still feeling the effects of very little sleep last night.

    GUESS WHAT?!  I just got a call and there is a fruit basket being delivered to my home today. LMAO   I'm not going to be petty and I  thank them, and thats all Im saying :-D
be back later peeps, day is busy  Ciao For Now

Happy Hump Day Peeps

    So yesterday was my first day back to work and it went fairly well. My reception from my manager is amicable but its lacking the warmth that was there. I have no clue as to why, I mean it's not like I planned getting blood clots in my lungs. I also looked up my profile and I was correct that no tribute was done for me while I was out.  I am not angry at this, i am hurt by it. I always do whatever favors I'm asked, I never say no to helping on any projects and yet no floral tribute which is the norm. I know this as I do them for others at least 5x a day, employees call in requesting them for sick employees or births or deaths. of well. Just gives me more reason to get ready to move on.  
    On the other hand my co-workers were very happy to see me and this was lovely.  I wore a new dress and I have to say I felt very pretty. I got several compliments and one lady was like mary you look great, you can see you're losing weight and not to be odd but your boobs look great  LMAO I laughed out loud. She said don't think I'm weird and I let her know hell I'm just happy anyone notices them.  :-D 
Here's the pic 

So peeps all in all the day went well, but I was tired last night. I fell out about half 9 my hubs said. I feel stronger today and my breathing although still labored when I walk, IS getting better. Still on my pills and we shall see when I go to the doctor on the 11th of June if that's going to change.  So until later (or tomorrow, next day? lol) I am saying Ciao For Now 

2AM

Good night

Holiday Weekend

     Sooooo I went out early this morning to go check out the fruits and veg at the farmers market. Was a little chilly which felt nice. Sunny day so far and I brought back some strawberries and cucumbers and some fresh basil.  I'm planning on making marinara sauce tomorrow.  So simple and yes it's a sauce, no meat, or meat flavors in it.  Simple whole wheat spaghetti for tomorrow nights dinner.  Again I lasted about 2 hours before I had to head back home. I lasted a half hour more today and am contemplating heading out again.  Way to nice to stay inside.  BUT....my meds are causing some issues in the bathroom. Not to be rude, but I think you know what I mean. So lots of yogurt being injested to help counter this.
     I really can't wait to get to the gym again but not for awhile yet.  I see why, just walking around a gets me. My life at the moment is basic, boring and un exciting. Still. It's going to be epic when I get moving again.  Once again.   I was looking at pics of myself and I have changed. In a good way (mostly) so onward and upward.  I try not to get jealous or petty but I often fall short of this.  Life here is a steady course, love is there, but I'd honestly replace the love right now for a steady paycheck from hubby. Sigh.  It's getting tight again. But at least this time all those big bills are paid off until next year and we will be able to pay next year. I'm hoping. If not. I'll be writing this in NYC.
     So I want to wish everyone a happy Memorial Day, remember all those who fought for us. The rest of you have a great bank holiday. And just a fabulous Monday to the rest of you.  Safe travels to two friends, have s great time on your trip.  Until next time Ciao For Now.

Mona Lisa's and Madhatters

     I do enjoy that throwback song. Has nothîng to do with the blog really, lol. I'm sitting in the middle of my side of the bed, in an upright Buddha position (complete with cute round belly). Rub it right and you'll have good luck. Wink Wink. BWAHAHA  Just contemplating the day ahead of me, meaning after I actually fall asleep and wake up. Alarm is set for half 9 just in case. I've got a bit of a headache starting, but nothing major. I really hate being held up at home. I'm headed to the doctors tomorrow for my follow up. All seems well, but the humidity causes a little issue. I'm going to assume that's normal. Stupid blood clots! Actually they tell me it's quite dangerous when they hit the lungs. I guess they can go to the brain? I don't know. Meh, just another something to deal with.
     I ordered the cutest dress from Torrid today. It's black top with short sleeves and the skirt is a leopard print. Not my usual style, but fuck usual, it's time to shake it up a bit. I bought a cute shirt dress from them, and I have two nice dresses that I got at the Avenue. Sandal season so it's dress to work days. I like wearing dresses, especially since with my ink on my legs I often will not wear hose. I have a pair of black kicky sandals to wear as well. Need silver or natural ones as well. The dresses I bought were all on sale. Oh hell....Sis?? Cost?   You know I'm not thrilled with work (no fruit basket yet lol) so I'm going in looking even better than normal.  Meaning no black slacks. God don't I wear them often? :-)
     In a compliant state at the moment. What is - is. Nothing I can ever do change anyone's nature. That's cool, mine is mine, and no one will change that either. Just let those I love live their lives, join in their celebrations and be there for their pain. Love, at least in my opinion, is a constant. That fits the shape we need at the time.
     Oh peeps, my friends daughter wrote a song. Yep. She's a teen and it's very good. All the teens I know make me forget they are teens, they seem so much older. I don't remember being so wise at 14 or 16. Perhaps I was. I know I wasn't dumb, but even now, I don't feel my age. These youngins truly amaze me. I often wonder what kind of children I would have had. Fun to speculate sometimes. There is a software that allows you to put a pic of you and one of your hubby, and it calculates what a child may look like. I did it and it showed a little girl with curls. She was actually a cutie. Mad me smile, and a little sad at the same time.  I often wonder if I wasted my life. Oh I'm not crying over anything, but I sometimes wish I hadn't dropped so many opportunities. Like a cat, it would be cool to have 9 lives. Wonder how the hell they figures that for cats. Lol wow the train of thought goes off the rails easy at 2:13 in the morning.   Perhaps I should stop before this blog turns into my version of The Beatles White Album.  Hehe. So I think I will try to sleep, so until next time. Ciao For Now

Home Sweet Home

     So good to be home. Got here yesterday afternoon. Blood pressure at 117/78, and a loss of 6 pounds. Whoot Whoot. So here a sit just about 24 hours later and I'm contemplating my future. Meaning my job. For awhile now, I've known I want to move on, earn some extra cash. This episode with the hospital started on the morning of the 14th. I was released 4 1/2 days later, my manager never returned any of my calls. Oh she texted and wished me well, but no call or even a comment on my Facebook comment? Seems odd. I mean, I always felt we are friends.
       This kind of bugs me, along with the fact that I have not gotten the company flowers ( or fruit basket). No!! I'm not being a spoiled brat or big baby about this. It's a standard that we do for employees. I know what you're thinking, but as of late work has been odd. Hard to explain, but trust me, with my current financial situation, I'm not about to go look for something and jeopardize my job. But I am leaving it.
     Speaking of, a friend from there, did come to visit me. It was very sweet of her to do so. She started last September. We hit it off. She's fun, younger of course, but I don't mind this. Young in spirit here peeps. Lmao
     So now I'm here, walking a little but I'm told to take it slow. No clots in my legs is a good thing. But how the hell they got in my lungs, I'll never know.  Peeps I'm just checking in. I'm a little tired, so I'm going to go wash my face, brush my teeth and read until I drop off.  Thanks for looking and reading. I truly appreciate it. So as always, ciao for now.

Hospitals And Teddy Bears Pt. 2

.    So the day passed and now it's about 1/4 to midnight. It's much quieter now and I can here the person across the hall snoring, while down the hall someone's monitor is beeping to let the nurse know it's offline or something like that. Blood pressure was 141/74. Low enough that I should be headed home tomorrow. I hope so. I find myself awake and yet I'm closing my eyes. Understandable, as anyone who has been in a hospital can tell you, it's not not indusive to good sleeping. So I'm getting in cat naps. The nurses and techs here are very nice,
     A friend from work came to visit today. Was very cool of her to come see me. Hubs stayed and watches MadMen series finale with me. I know people are going to hate it as it left the end to interpretation. I think it was obvious if you paid attention.
     Here's to getting released and I'll be back.... Ciao for now

Hospitals and Teddy Bears

     So peeps. I know it's been a few days. I'm in the hospital. SURPRISE. Today is the first day I've felt decent enough to actually write. I'm here in bed, yet there is no real rest. One moment I will be wide awake then BAM I'm falling asleep.  It's a bizarre narcolepsy that I think only happens in hospitals.

     Turned out blood clots made their way in my lungs. Whaaaat??? Yep. Who would have thought this would happen. It happened a long time ago and now it's back. They are putting me on this medicine to reduce the risk of it happening again. GOD I HATE BEING HERE.  My hubs has been here right along with me. Sometimes just sitting there while I'm sleeping. I would do the same for him, you do that for those you love but I know he's losing his application time. He's still looking for work and he's wasting time here with me.  He's looked a little, the hotel has guest WiFi, but not like he would if I were at work. He came into my room the evening they admitted me, and on top of his head was this super soft teddy bear.  He was grinning like a kid.  I named the bear Hiroshi. The next day he sprayed his cologne on the bear, at my request, so I can hold the bear and pretend he's here.  

      So it's Sunday, just after 9am, nurse has been in. My blood pressure is much better. It was strange my lower number is fine, even lower than the 80 which is deemed "normal". It's the upper number that is going above the 120 they want.  This morning it was 160/64. Blood sugar is normal, heart okay. Who knows why it's up and only in one direction. 

     I'm getting quite bored. I'm supposed to go home tomorrow and I so hope so.  I'm out of work this coming week, will be nice but I'd rather have a vacation later this summer.   I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself. You know I didn't even tell my Dad I was in the hospital.  It's not that I'm keeping it from him, it's just that oh hell if I get a cold he's all nervous and freaking out about me. I don't want him to get worried but I really want to talk to him right now. So I'll call him and tell him I'm fine. I just don't want him to worry. 

     I'm going to go, all of a sudden I don't feel like writing.  Ciao For Now

The Weekend That Was

    I am tired, let me start with that. Oh and I'm also full. We ate so well this weekend, from lamb to brunch to shepherd's pie. Accompanied with cocktails all equaled a very lovely weekend. Did a few things around my dad's home. The usual dishes and laundry, and on Monday morning after my shower I scrubbed the bathtub and sink and toilet bowl. Dad likes to do a James Pollock with the toothpaste in the basin. LOL   Ah I love him very much.
    So Sis and i tried a new place on Saturday and we had that bourbon my friend recommended. I am not sure if it was the Gold version but it was very very good. The Sunday was mother's day and we went out to brunch bringing my neighbor with us. She doesn't go out often and she is such a lovely person. We were out almost 12 hours  LOL, yep left at about 10AM got him about half eight in the evening. It was a very full day. After brunch we went to this fabulous outdoor mall. Had so many shops and I was able to resist the Coach store. I love Coach handbags.  They are well made, now I have to tell you my friend in England had bought his wife a handbag from a high end store for Christmas one year, he mentioned the brand but I do not remember. This is a good thing as I can not afford 800 dollars for a purse. But I saw a gorgeous purple one that I am still lusting after 2 years later LMAO
     We got some walking in which was good and I bought my first purchase ever from the store Torrid. They have some amazing things and know I know my size there. So I will occasionally go online to see whats there. I ended up with 2 dresses a few new blouses. It was funny. Sis and I went to one store before Saturday dinner and I ended up wearing the blouse I bought and the shoes I got also. I stood there while the sales lady cut tags off me. She teased me if my jeans were the same ones I came in on. I swear there were so many things i would have loved to get but watching my pennies.
     The night came to a close at an Irish pub, that had a elder man playing electric guitar singing the songs of Tom Jones and Bobby Darrin, he was funny and we laughed at this one little boy wearing an O2 shirt that was a dancing fool, cutting shapes with the best of them. he was fun to watch.  The lemon Drop martinis were good, had two of them and I guess they were stronger or I was tired as they hit me harder than normal.  We are in the car, Sis has the air conditioner on as it was hot out, but at one point she opened her sunroof.  So I felt something on the top of my head and I went all freaked out by it asking what is on my head??  Sis looks at me and replies  - AIR!  hehe I felt my face get hot at that one  HAHAHAHA hey at last it wasn't a spider
    One thing I will say is I HATE ALLERGIES!!   I am sneezing like a fiend today. yesterday I was driving back to VA on the PA Turnpike and i had a sneezing fit. I almost pulled off the road, I was afraid I'd cause an accident LMAO   I have to laugh at PA  - one sign I passed said Old Hershey Road, I had to chuckle at that, yes I have a dirty mind - sue me! ;-D
 (for those not understanding that, its  a reference as to the color of chocolate and using a certain body part during physical relations  :-)
     The weekend was a good one, NYC is usually a good time. Hoping the summer brings friends in, good places to go and lots of fun.  I'm thinking yes!! So anyway ciao for now

Its FRIDAY!!!

    Woohoo, no more sleeps until NYC I'm off tonight to see my beloved but hurt city.  I was raised in Queens, got there at 18 months old and lived there for all my life, same house my Da still lives in. It was an amazing childhood. Oh there were moments but, looking back and trying to be non biased, I had a good time. never wanted for anything and lived in a community that you felt safe in. Today on the computer I watched a live feed of a young man laid to rest. He was shot in line of duty as a member of the NYPD. They kept showing the precinct he worked at, my precinct, the one that keeps dad safe. Tears streamed down my face as I watched this young man's father sobbing with grief. I can't even imagine how broken his heart is.  Tonight I will arrive at Dads anywhere between 12 and 1:30 AM. I am bringing cookies with me that I am dropping off at the 105th  precinct either tonight or in the AM. I want them to know that people still respect them and are grateful for their service.
    Then onto shenanigans for the rest of the weekend LOL  YES!!! I will tell all about it in next weeks blogs. Im out peeps , have a fabulous weekend, Ciao For Now

But But.....It FEELS like Friday

     For some reason lately, every Thursday has felt like a Friday here at my office. Funny thing is I'm not the only person that says that. Everyone here is very happy today as the Washington Capitals Hokey team won again last night against my NY Rangers.  Not easy being the lone fan in a group of opposing fans. They did well though, must admit. 
    Well I promised the weigh in and its been 6.7 pounds in the last 2 weeks. I am pleased considering i had a few drinks in between. So its back on. I am not hounding on it as that would get very boring and I can't make this more boring than it usually is or none of you will read it anymore LOL 
    So on to new things......
One is that I am now using coconut oil as a major moisturizer. Its amazing, you can cook with it, and I also use it on my legs and arms. I have mixed it with raw sugar to make a scrub I use on my legs after I shave them (can't afford a waxing at the moment) but its lovely. Makes them smooth and soft and its great on my ink too. Keeps them looking sharp and bright.   I love this stuff, I use it every other day as a full body moisturizer so of course I have the really bit jar as I have a big body :-D  Its great and the only downsides for me are:1) I lay there at night craving a Bounty or Mounds bar as I smell of coconut and 2) the cat likes the taste , so I have been woken up once or twice my the cat attempting to lick my ass cheeks. NOT happening cat!!   Aside from this - it's great  I even use it under my eyes to help with wrinkles. I don't mind them, especially the ones I got from laughing but it helps. On my lips too to keep them kissing soft.  I have yet to try that oil pulling thing that everyone says helps with your teeth. I'm going to though as I need help in that area. I so need to get my other bridge done, I just need to find the time to get to the dentist, sadly he doesn't have weekend hours. 
    This actual Friday I am off to NYC, The plans have changed a bit, 2 of the couples are now spending the day closer to home so I cancelled the reservation and Sis and i are going to cause havoc on our own Saturday and Sunday. I am off on Monday so I will not have to rush home. I'm thinking of getting bagels for my co-workers. REAL NYC Bagels, YUM  Hot and crusty on the outside and moist inside. They MUST be boiled then baked.  I have a recipe that I'm dying to try but the less carbs I make the better. CARBS RULE! oops did I say that?? Whoops, evil sneaky bastards they are :-D  Hubs loves - on a sesame bagel with lox and cream cheese , I am more a cream cheese and jelly on an everything bagel  LOL  Oh hell I love them all BUT I don't care for the poppy seed bagels, They get stuck in my teeth.  YAWN  Oh God I'm boring myself now  hahahaha  
      I could talk about the racial unrest or people stomping on the US Flag here now. I'm blind to race colors so I will address the flag issue.  I am not a soldier but most of my family has been in the service and I am proud of my country, we are in a bit of flux at the moment but we will be great again one day soon (I'm  hoping with our next president) As far as stomping, standing , jumping up & down on it - if you do this and you are getting any type of government aide ANY TYPE , it should immediately be taken from you. Sorry but if you disrespect the symbol of our country you DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING FROM THIS COUNTRY. Tough titties people. It's a too way street. Don't like our rules, our regulations  then leave. Do not  try to impose your beliefs on us. You come here respect our laws, Don't like it? Get the hell out then and I'll help you pack your case!  I would love to travel the world and see every country if I could, But I'm a visitor and yes I personally will respect the rules of the land I am in, That's all I'm saying on it. 
    Ooh round chick had a bit of a rant LOL   Well thats it for this morning peeps I may be back tonight maybe! :-D    So Ciao For Now 
    

Cinco De mayo and other Spanish Words

    Happy Cinco DeMayo celebrate safe 

 Well its been a few days and so far Weight Watchers has been very good, now I am figuring out my points for this weekend.  HAHAHAHAHAHA yeah well, I must try the duck confit fries right? Also sample a few libations especially since they have the bourbon my friend mentioned was outstanding, at the moment I can't think of the name, but it starts with a B.  lol  I cant wait to get to NYC especially with the upheaval in my old neighborhood. A young policeman was shot in the head 3x when he and his partner saw a man walking around adjusting something in the waistband of his jeans. When approached he immediately took out the gun and shot the cop. No talking , not even running, just shoot!! The guy had a long criminal rap sheet too.    So sad, only 24. This was on the south end of where I grew up, I was on the east end. Still the 105th precinct  is about 6 blocks from my dad's house, MY house. Things like this never happened but its a different world. We need to be a bit harder shelled. I don't know if I can, its not my nature. I don't know whats going on, race wars seem to be escalating at a ridiculous rate. There are hate mongers taking advantage of people who are lost and afraid. Such a shame and I wish I had an answer to this, but I don't. Sigh
     Hope all is well, just living life and actually feeling good. Got my review yesterday and got all high ratings, not surprised. LOL now I'm not saying that because I'm so grand, but I am a good worker. I enjoy work, it gets me out of the house, gives me purpose. I get to interact with mostly good people in an office large enough that I can stay away from annoying people yet small enough that I can go visit nice people easily. I do wish my pay was higher. Im hoping that we get our raises this year. There were none last year :-(   
     I am looking forward to having some adventures this summer. I really hope I get to have some drinky-poos with my friend from England this summer if he happens to get to NYC again. I miss him. I'm seeing Sis this weekend. We are hanging out on Saturday, shopping and maybe visiting the wineries or taking a boat ride on the island, who knows. Sunday I'm meeting some friends for brunch. many of us have lost our mothers and Sis lives far from hers so its a Mom tribute day for us. then after brunch, who knows. maybe a film, Avengers anyone??  Weather is promising sunny skies so anything can happen. Maybe a jaunt into Manhattan to check out some rooftop bars or old haunts.  
    Well thats it for now peeps, weighing in tonight so I'll let you know if i will be ordering that duck Saturday  LMAO   Ciao For Now 

Making Up For Lost Blogs

     Does seems like it eh?  Lol.
     Well just now, I was on Pinterest. I saw some amazing pieces of old Victorian dressing tables. I simply melt at the thought of having a dressing, or if you'd rather, make up table. I often look at things like this. This does not mean I'm against woman being equal, or getting paid less, far from it. I think people who do the same work should get the same pay, it's just that my sex, in their quest for equality may have lost something along the way. Don't think badly of me, it's just that femininity is not always in the front line. Looking at these pics, it makes me a little wistful. There was something so appealing. Sitting at the dressing table in a pretty dressing gown. Prepping for your evening. Brushing your hair and applying rouge, then perfume behind each ear. Applying your lipstick and putting the pearls your man gave you for your birthday. Silly I know, but there is nothing wrong with getting prettied up for the man you love. Men did this too. They were well dressed and groomed. My dad has pics of his friends and him when they were only about 16 or 17. They were in suits. He said they always hot dressed when they went off. Now I'm not saying to wear a suit if you're going bike riding. But what happened to taking a little time to look nice. When I used to meet my boyfriend, lover whatever you call him, once this was actually a relationship, I always tried to have myself groomed, nails done, hair done. I tried at least, so when the no make up moments came about it was okay. Believe me it's not always easy to look my best. I can be scary. Lmao
Another thing I actually love to do is cook for my hubs, making foods he likes. It makes me happy and when I wasn't working, I used to have dinner ready for when he got home. Not always with candles on the table but again it was what my mom taught me growing up. I love having dinner parties and watch friends enjoying my culinary offerings.
     There was something about the past that seemed romantic. Even in the accoutrements that would be on the dressingt table, or dining table. Furniture too. They were intricate in design, people put some of themselves into each piece. Oh I sound dumb, of course I'm speaking of upper middle class. Those times were extremely hard for poor folks back then, and personally if I ever could go back in time, I'd have to have money and an air conditioner. Definitely an air conditioner:-D
     Then I love modern time as well. I love the convenience of modern cleaning appliances, cars, technology and of course air conditioners. Hehe. The thing is to incorporate the passion into what you do. Put some of yourself into all you do. As the saying goes - Do it with passion or not at all.  I'm realizing this more and more. So friends my wistfulness has been penned. I'll let you know the day I get my dressing/make-up table. I know you'll be waiting. Lmao.  So until next time. Ciao For Now
   

No One Is Alone

     So have you ever had a song stuck in your head, and you are a bit surprised since its not your normal type of song that usually sets up residence in your mind?  Today the song going through my head is No One Is Alone from the musical production of Into The Woods. Its very cute considering its Sondheim. The man has a dark streak running through him that makes his music very interesting, for me anyway. The music and chords that you don't always see follow one another. bass lines are prevalent. It appeals to me very much. Oh I love a sweet melody in a show as I tend to sing melody but his music has some songs you can really have fun with. I was doing a music review and I had to sing one of his songs and I had a hard time reaching the bottom note and would slide over it into the next note and damn if my musical director (and friend) would not let me. We went over and over it and then when I finally got the right note, THEN he said I could do the easy slide. I wouldn't though at that point. Hey IO worked hard and was able to give a good solid performance. He was never easy on me and I never sang better than when he was my musical director. I had that pleasure on 6 different musicals I did.  So my long story actually plays into the words of the song i was thinking of all day.  We can do things on our own but we are never really alone. There is always someone who is watching out for us even if we don't want them too. I tend to do this and I know I have others who do this for me. One of the verses goes like this:  

Sometimes people leave you
halfway through the wood.
Others may deceive you.
You decide what's good.
You decide alone.
But no one is alone.

     I like knowing that people care for me and hope they don't mind I care about them. My dear friends are always in my heart and mind, I pray to my Goddess every night to bless and watch over them. To help them with situations they may have and just in general to give them strength to face their days. Oh I ask this for myself as well :-D    There again we are not alone.  I was basically an atheist before i found my path but even as an atheist I believed in the spirit of the universe.  Hard to explain this to you Italian (Catholic) Grandma. But she was actually pretty cool about it. I mean I am a decent person. HAHAHA 
    Obviously this is a random post that just came over me today about an hour ago when the thunder started.  I adore a good thunderstorm but sadly the sky is brightening up and I think this part of the storm has passed over us. Powerful night, night before Beltane.  Energy can be felt by those sensitive to it. Even if not known why :-D
So i am signing off as it's almost 4PM and I leave work at half past.  So thats its for now, Ciao For Now 

May and Moms

     So, the merry month of May is almost here. It's a month I have 6 friends celebrating birthdays, 3 anniversaries, Mother's Day, and a partridge in a pear tree. LOL  So for me a few things are going on. Friday is May Day. It's the feast of Beltane. I'm probably going to be cheesy and watch the original Wicker Man, with Edward Woodward. It's actually pretty accurate, except for the human sacrifice. They may have done that eons ago but not now. It's time of rebirth. Plough those fields, start planting so fruits can grow, sex plays a part also. Who would have thunk it? Hahaha. Not sure what I'm doing. I actually think I'm going for drinks with some folks from work. Next week, I will be in NYC for Mother's Day weekend. I'm off that Monday so I will head home that day. It will be a treat to have Saturday AND Sunday to hang out with friends. Since most of us have lost our mothers, sis doesn't live close to hers, so we are all going to brunch at The Milleridge Inn out in Long Island to celebrate and remember our moms. Saturday I'm spending time with Sis, if the weather is nice maybe a trip out to the wineries on Saturday.  Who knows, I'd like to go to Janes in NYC Saturday, and who knows what else?
Another thing, in regards to Moms. A friend lost her Nan today. Very sad, but I was told it was expected, and she is in a better place. I tend to agree. We are the ones who suffer. Peace to her in the next life.
      All the talk of mothers gets to me a little. It pulls at me a little since I couldn't have children, but I was able to experience things I wouldn't have otherwise. So I think it worked out how it was supposed to.
       I know I've been scarce blogging lately, been busy. This weekend is going to be bed buying and maybe even delivering on Sunday. God my left hip needs it. It actually hurts when I walk. Not like I strained it on the treadmill, which I've been on again, more like my bone or joint is injured. I'm thinking of going to the doctor for pain meds. I wore a dress to work the other day.mits long do I wear my sandals, with a heel on it, but this time I wore solid black sneakers. Well let's just say, I almost tripped 3x stepping on my skirt. Lol. Graceful is not a word one would think of.  Hehehe
      Just lots of work going on. My friends you know who you are, I love you much, miss you even more. We will chat soon I'm sure. So that's it for tonight, until next time, ciao for now

I got nuttin"

Nothing today peeps, check back soon  X

Snippet

     It's Monday late afternoon. I am home, I needed today, I woke up with pains that reminded me of when I used to get bad colitis attacks. I called in this morning around 6am. I had been up a few hours. I am pure slug girl right now. I feel like sh#t. I'll be fine tomorrow and get to work as always. I just getting nervous for my husband.  He has gone on interviews and no one of them have had the courtesy of telling him thanks but no thanks. They just leave you hanging, hopeful.. IT SUCKS! I see him getting more and more upset. He tries not to show it, but after almost 20 years I know him. I see the look he gets when he thinks I'm not looking.  It's taking its toll, we both look haggard, not eating as we should. I am not at my best. But more importantly I'm scared for hubs.
More things going through my head but not in the mood to blog. I'm in a good head, good place, not sad, just feeling rough at the moment.  May be back later, if not tomorrow.  Ciao For Now.

HAPPY FRIDAY PEEPS

     The sun is shining and it's almost May. Although this morning I had to wear my coat! I couldnt believe it. We had the heat on last night and I heard from my cousins in upstate NY they got snow!! Mother nature is reminding us that she calls the shots boy.  We are supposedly headed for a high of 60 degrees F but its only 42 at half nine this morning. brrr
     Headed out tonight with some people from work. We are going to a place called The Green Turtle. Its kind of like a T.G.I.F or Applebees. Very casual bar and food place. Looking forward to an after work drink and nibbles. Was a very steady week!
     Not much going on, aside from tonight, I'm going out to breakfast then a matinee on Sunday  with a friend of mine. Not sure of what we will see.  I'll give you a round up on Sunday night  LMAO
    So im off to take my morning break, be back later , ciao for now.
   

Let's Start At The Very Beginning

    So when I started this blog, it was for me to track thoughts as keep up to date on me trying to get fit. Well here we are about 2 years later, I am more fit and even with the loss and yes I admit regaining of some weight back, I am still down 55 pounds. Great right? yes and no  I should be much further along but I enjoy food , I enjoy cooking for people, I enjoy the act of cooking itself.  So this is going to be a lifelong struggle. I have resigned myself to this so with that being said I am happy with shedding only 55 pounds. I will shed another 55 pounds and then eventually another 20 or 30 or so. Im not going to lie , Im not a teeny person, nor will I ever be. My structure is a medium bone for my height of 5 foot tall. Oh yes I have stood in front of a mirror and looked at where my body should stop without my tummy claiming dominance of my silhouette. Im pretty, but oh man I can look a fright in random pics. As you can tell Im doing an honest personal study right now. Im not kidding anyone, proof is in the pudding.   OOO Pudding   LMFAO   I am walking easier which for me is huge. I am pleased with this. I get winded if I walk a lot but I'm walking and that's what matters . Not as much as I did in England and Paris, but more than I used to here.  I no longer look for the closest parking space near a house when i visit. WHOOT WHOOT  
      So as time has gone by this blog as become a place to bitch, to vent, to admire people, and today a kind of a do over re-start. 
     So much has happened in this time, I am not the same person, my friends are not the same people, I will say the good thing is the people I trust and loved I STILL trust and love and I'm getting the fact that even though I don't speak to them often I love them dearly. Some I see as often as I can, one or two I rarely see due to logistics. Still love them and still want to see them. This year hopefully. 
     I am cooking good food, measured meals and cutting back on carbs again as after all this time, I know for certain they are my worst offenders. I an realizing that a bag of chocolate raspberry milano cookies is not a single serving size.  I leave a bit of food on my plate now. Usually between hubs or the cat it gets eaten though LOL 
     I went out this weekend to go for a walk and it was just the perfect weather, it was low humidity, 83 degrees. A bit warm for April but the weather has been crazy from the start. Roll with it I say. I am tempted to go buy some of these cool looking veg pods I saw advertised. I dont really have enough sunlight in our yard but I'm thinking if I get some larger planters I can do some tomatoes and put the planters in the sun.  I adore fresh tomatoes.  I always get them at the farmers markets when I go. 
    So on the home front we are finally getting a new mattress. Its actually an used new one. My in-laws had bought a king mattress last year, actually not even a year and they now have and an adjustable bed so we are taking theirs. Its like new, I know them so I am not worried about it being clean, and the price is right. :-D   This is a good thing as hubs still has not gotten work. he was very hopeful on his last interview but its been over a week and he has heard nothing. He called and left VM. No return call so he figures they are not hiring him and just not answering. I HATE that. It seems so rude. At least let the applicant know you are going another route. Doing it this way just keeps one hopeful and it just lends itself to more upset when you know they are not hiring you. I dont know if its age, maybe hubs suit isn't the right cut or designer ? Who the hell knows  He is more than qualified for all of the jobs he is looking at. This morning he told me hes going ot deliver pizza until he finds another job so at least he will be bringing in some cash. Not that thats anything to be ashamed of, its honest work, but he's not a college kid or retired. he has so much to give a company and it makes me sad he is at the point of settling. I mean he will not stop looking and interviewing, but if he does do this he will be gone at night. Not sure I like that all the time. sigh.....
     Dad is great though, he said that it was so windy in NYC yesterday. I laughed and asked him if it bothered him to have all his hair blowing around.  if you saw my dad that would make you laugh as he is almost totally bald, sans a few stray hairs on his head that will not sucumb to time. He laughed hard at it. As I enjoyed making him laugh, Love him so!  
     This brings me to the end for today. So onward and upward I say, heres to more boring blogs to come, more weight loss triumphs and fails, Until next time Ciao For Now