Music

All it takes is one song to remind you of the past!! DAMMIT!!!!   Good thing you have a handle on it (for the most part, damn onions!! HA :-D

I do love doing emails though and listening to music, it makes the work day so much more enjoyable.  If you remeber I said I was going to ask my manager about doing it full time when I have my interview. Well I had the interview, I dotn know, I have as good a shot as any of the others. But he said that he is going to rotate emails which is good I suppose as Im sure we all feel the same pretty much LOL     Ah peeps it a decent day, although its been overcast all day. I have two friends who are having birthdays tomorrow, one is going to be 24, old man  hahaha and the other is not 24 ;-)   I won't say how old as she wouldn't like that. but I love birthdays :-D

Just stopped in to say a mid day hey, may be back tonight, may not, we shall see. Ciao for now

There You Are

   Well I did it, I added the pink. Will I keep it? I don't know, maybe. Its fun but as my hairdresser told me this has a tendency to fade out quicker than the blonde. That's fine, gives me more of a chance to switch it up and keep on changing. A work in progress right?   I am indeed. My cousin loved the hair, she said not to lose my flair.  LOl  I have flair? Damn right, dont we all?  It's up to us whether or not we want to let it shine through.  Hubs didn't care for the pink, I looked at him right in the eye and asked him "When did you get so old and lose your sense of fun?"  He stared for a moment and then I think he realized what I was saying, He said, I am not not fun. So I said then lighten up, it's just hair. It grows back and gets cut all the time. So here is a pick of the hair

yep it's cheeky, but hey you have to be a bit whimsical in this life or else you get cold and bitter, It's that flair that my cousin mentioned.
     So it's lunchtime and I'm eating an sachet of oatmeal. I have food that i forgot to bring.  I also have the makings for a one minute muffin that actually has no carbs in it.  Its made with flax meal, egg or egg beaters, splenda and baking powder. There is something else I think. Its really tasty and hey its nice toasted with tea for a little treat at night.  I may make it for breakfast tomorrow along with a scrambled egg.
     It's life as usual now, no more holidays until Presidents day which is February 15th., so it makes for a nice Valentine's day weekend. Not that we are doing anything  LOL  Well maybe Outback. I know its not Smith & Wollenskys but its in the budget and its a decent steak. I make no apologies for it. I would apologize if it was Olive garden, ugh the Italian blood in my veins boils when I hear someone say what a great italian restaurant. I mean okay Im sure its tasty but when you've grown up with Nona and Mom, and you actually, (yes I make a damn good meatball and gravy) it's hard to find a place out that you like.  LOl   But it's the joy of no clean up isn't it? hehehe
     So I was this close (fingers put really close together) to getting into it with a chick on facebook. She was saying how fat girls are just ugly and there is nothing anyone can say to change her mind.  I stopped myself because it wasn't worth it. There are people that will just tear others down for any reason and I'm sorry, but looking a certain way in not a good reason. We were talking about it at the hair salon on Saturday. My hairdresser wants to gain muscle, she's slender and she feels too weak. So she wants to gain weight in her arms and butt area. I want to lose my belly area, One of the other ladies can't gain weight at all and she is too thin to carry a child. She is so sweet, I hope she gets preggers.  Is anyone happy with who there are. Ina  world that strives for perfection, I say embrace your imperfections, thats what makes you you!!   Too tall, Too short, Too fat, too thin or a mix of several  like me  LOL  Be happy, if you don't like something and want to change it, then do it for you, not to fit in.   Go us!!  LOL  
     So peeps its getting a bit crazy, our systems are down and I am having to double on my work because of it   oh joy!! :-D but Im on emails so thats a huge plus.  Until next time   Ciao for now

Therefore By The Grace Of God Go I

     Well hubs got the news, he has 3 weeks left before he will need another job. Sigh...but we will get by, you do what you must.  But it got me thinking of those less fortunate.  Yes we are tight on money, we barely will make the bills. But we will do what must be done, but there are those who have nothing. We see them on the street, but do we really see them. They are people, they have families or had families. It may be a similar tale to ours,  but they weren't fortunate enough to keep the roof over their heads. We are fortunate. We have family and friends who love us and helped us.  Twice this evening hubs saw panhandlers. A woman asking for a few dollars and a man asking for donations to a very good cause. Hubs felt bad about the last one, the man from D.A.R.E. (Drug abuse resistance education) was very nice he said.  Hubs used to do work for them at the printing company he worked at years ago, the owner never charged them. The woman seemed sincere but how can you tell really? Yet if I had a few extra dollars I would have given her some of at least bought her some food. But I honestly didn't have one bit of cash on me.   I look at the ads for all the homeless children, animals and people out in the cold. I read about the abuse elderly people get in nursing homes. It's deplorable, and oh to have won that powerball.  The good that money would have done.  I always gave to The North Shore Animal League, and DAV (disabled American veterans)  I want to help.  There is no place nearby that has a physical place to help. I am thinking of volunteering at the county animal shelter, but right now my extra time would best be put to an extra job.  I'm getting in some OT this week which us a good thing.  NYC us my buffer, don't know what the next few months will bring but hopefully it's good.
     I never thought I would have this kind of struggle with money, but no one sees it coming. If you gave a good job, appreciate it.  A roof over your head, and friends and family to visit you, then smile and be very thankful.
     I still feel this Spring will be bring hood things. I don't know why, perhaps because I am seeing things in a better perspective, it just that I'm not going to host pity parties.  It's life, not always great but at least it keeps you on your toes. Dancing on my toes, oh how fucking awesome I'd be as a Ballerina.  Ha!! Pink tutu of course.  Maybe I'll dye my hair black, nah but perhaps a touch of pale pink? It's fun, why not?  I'm not old and yes, even though I'm not 20 anymore I can still have some flair.  But now it will take the form of stratigicaly placed strands of pale pink mixed with my blonde locks.   Oh I can't wait to run this past my hairdresser.  You think I'm daft right?  GOOD!!! I love tea so why not be a Mad Hatter once in a while?  This thought has me doing flippy flops inside.  I need to research colors...off to Pinterest I go....but first I must give cuddles to the cat. She just settled in next to me and is doing that kneading thing with her paws and purring......so fucking cute..Squeeeeeeee!!! I love her.  :-).    So ciao for now peeps.

Blizzard of 2016

      So the weathermen were correct, we got 30" of snow within a 2 day period. The official ruling for my area is 28, but it ended being 30.  Hubs went out to shovel and he's in a bit of pain. You know they still have not plowed our street.  You can't get out. You can walk to the main road, but there is no real way to get to work without the car.  He doesn't know anyone from work that can come get him. If they plow overnight he can go in. I took a vacation day as I didn't want to go in, as I figured it would be a right mess.
    All the photos on Facebook, including mine, showed all the snow that fell in drifts and prevented people from going anywhere far. My friend had a goodnight idea, and her kids were jumping off a small ladder into the snow. Looked fun. We had really high drifts, some taller than me.  I called my dad, because NYC got hit much harder than they originally said. They got basically the same as us.
     So I've been sketching, online, had great chats and here we are Sunday night.  It's not unusual to have nowhere to go on a weekend but the fact that there was no option,  made it weird. I really wanted to go out. Figures right?
      At 5:30 am this morning, it's now Monday, our street still had not been plowed. Checked in with a friend in NY to see if he was able to get into work. He's a teacher in Brooklyn. He lives in Staten Island and the mayor has opened the schools. How stupid. I know of others in the same area who got into work. And of course you have police, firemen, hospital workers. I hope they are safe. Here too, our emergency people and civil servents have to get in. I wish them all good luck.  I'm snuggled in my bed.  I'm fully awake, have brought up a cup of tea for me and for hubs (he's home today) but tomorrow I'm at work.  Message on my office phone said that the parking lot is not fully plowed so be careful. Hope it cleared by tomorrow.  I don't want to use vacation again. Schools and federal government offices all closed today. 30" of snow in 2 days is a lot to handle.
     Got some good sorting done on my laptop actually. Deleted old files and cleaned it up. Looks brand new. Backed up all my files and transferred music. Been wanting to do that for a long time.
So I'm baking today, looking st Pinterest to get inspired. Meatloaf tonight, chicken chili tomorrow. I want to go out and play in the snow but no one wants to. Boo!! What good is snow if you can't have s snowball fight? Lol. Well ciao for now peeps

Bit Nippy Out

     So everyone is all a Twitter about the snow that's coming.  I must admit, I'm looking forward to it myself. Watching it fall gently, but they are saying Saturday may see gusts of wind at 40 mph. Breezy. Lol. Who knows. The Euro model has us getting pounded, the American model about 6" to a foot, still sizable. East coast is in a watch and wait. Called my dad, he is going to the store tomorrow. He's pretty self contained, minimal living makes times like these seem not as crazed.   We are going mellow. I did ask hubs to get cheese and tomato soup si I can make grilled cheese sandwiches Saturday.  Movie marathon, grilled cheese and tomato soup, then throwing some snowballs, good day     {goofy smile}
     Well hubs got word, he will not be working more than about another month st this place. I'm hoping he gets something else. Sigh, I hate going back to stressful days. I'm already being garnished, I can't afford to have more taken. As it is I will have to put hubs back on my medical benefits. I have no problem doing this but my check is going to be minuscule. I'm talking just about able to pay the mortgage.  Not counting car payment, utilities, and the bankruptcy fees. This must be paid or they take the house.  Well saving every penny, which is why that cheese is not the fancy cheeses I would have liked, but it is food that is needed. I'll be juggling again :-)
      Just stopping in folks, I'll be back. Lol. Ciao For Now

Powerball

Powerball closer now to almost 1.6 billion dollars.  That's obscene!! Yes of course I bought some tickets. I won $4 last time.  Lol what would I do with all that money? Shake the economy that's for sure. The usual, pay bills, pay off house for my family and us. Buy a few houses for people. Sis for one, would have a house near the water, south shore of Long Island. I'd have my Long Island home also. Put money in a tax free something or other. Then build a new place for the no kill animal shelter  I love so much so they could keep a thousand or so animals, with top rate vet  care. Homeless shelters and children's hospitals, veterans hospitals too. Where to start? I'd give to my friend to help him start his dream, I'd set my niece & nephew up with college money. I'd drive cross country with the hubs just enjoying all the different places. I'd travel too.
But in reality I will wake up tomorrow, no better or worse than I am right now.  Things are tight, hubs job is helping but tonight even that bright spot got a bit of a tarnish.  Just think positive for us - okay? I'm still so grateful for what I do have. My job, a roof over our heads, clothes, cars that get us where we need to go. Yes we are already richer than many. I try to keep it in perspective.  So good night all, sweet dreams, and ciao for now.

A Day In Queens

     So i find myself back in NYC, its been a two week break yet again. I am done after this trip until the end of February and i think thats okay, have things to do in VA. So Once more I made very good time and thats a plus as just as i pulled into the driveway I got such a leg cramp, oh man it hurt. Can't really show Dad how badly as he kind of freaks out if I'm in pain. Went right up to go to bed and I took some magnesium pills which usually helps but not last night. Hopefully better tonight.
    Off I went to get pastries for tonights gathering. As I passed by a church i could see a lot of cars and limos. Either a wedding or funeral. It was the later. At the point I was passing by the were bringing the soul down to the awaiting funeral car. I heard the church bells start to toll. I felt that I was intruding on a very private moment and as I drove past I could hear the bells still chiming in metered ringing. Very somber indeed, the gloomy weather just added to it. I felt a sense of passing grief, no I did not know the person, but I know loss. I was immediately struck at how hollow the chimes sounded, almost as if they were crying along with the family. Its interesting to note that around 4PM or so those same bells will most likely chime to mark the happy occasion of a wedding. There will be smiles on those church steps instead of the grief i saw today. I wonder what made those bells sound so hollow, and yet will sound so full and bright later on?
    More observations as I made my way along Tulip Avenue in Floral Park. Lovely little town. It still has a small town feel, signs that read Village Florist or Village Diner. Not big conglomerate names. Even the druggist, not a CVS or Duanne Reade, no this one said Floral Pharmacy. You can just imagine that the druggist knows the patients he dispenses the medications too. I went farther along and I noticed the deflated Santas and Snowmen on the front lawns. Christmas is over, even The Epiphany is past, if you follow that. Yet the last remnants remain. Maybe if by holding onto these decorations will keep the "Christmas Spirit" alive. Hey it could be that the weather is finally getting colder, or that this weekend they will indeed be packed away until next year. Thats how it is by where i am headed tonight.  A good pal in Lake Peekskill, and his partner are keeping up their decorations so we can see the house in all its holiday glory. He is even going to make another figgy pudding to add to the celebration. We will toast the holidays, there will be a small gathering of about 8 or so. One last toast to this New Year and then tomorrow the decorations come down. At least the outside lights wont be on. Im looking forward to tonight. Sis has never been up that way. I have no problem getting there, its at the top of the mountain, getting down is okay too, its just that teeny section of when you reach the bottom which way do you turn  lol
     Hey my friend got a new car, I'm beyond happy for him. It's always a great thing.  He has basically an identical car to mine now.  He originally had the Fiesta which made me look into one and i can understand why he likes it. Its very roomy for its size and its a sweet looking car too. So I test drove one and bought one. Our front fascias were different though, but now with his new one, they are the same. Except of course the steering wheel is not on the proper side. LMAO  I wish him many happy and safe driving miles.
     So the 800 million dollar powerball is tonight. Can you imagine??? yeah I'll let ya know how that goes! :-D
Well, I need to do a few things then hop into a shower to get ready, Sis will be her in just over 2 hours. So enjoy the rest of your weekend peeps. Ciao For Now

VERDICT? Thumbs Up

     Well we saw Star Wars and I really liked it, I will agree that they set it up for the next movie but that's to be expected.  I enjoyed it so much in 3D.  The technology blew me away and even hubs was very impressed at the way it was filmed. He thought it was very well done. he wasn't as thrilled as I as but he did still like it. I think it didn't help that he had to sit in the theater for almost 45 minutes as I didn't want to be late  LOL  Im going to try to get back to go see The Jungle Book in 3D  it looked really good.
     Im actually going into the kitchen, its one of those days when I need to get away from my computer screen. Tomorrow I go to NY and Im so looking forward to it so I will have some new things to blog about. My silly little world.  So until that time , ciao for now peeps

Window Shopping Online

I need to get some clothes. I'm not talking a lot, just adding to things I have so I can wait for the spring when I can get things. I am saving some cash, so I'm looking at sale items.  I love so many dresses but this one would have to be worn with a shrug as I don't like my arms uncovered. I give it to women who are confident enough to go sleeveless when they have large arms. I'm not saying I don't do it at home, just out and about I prefer to cover. I'm going to get a pair of capris me thinks plus a few pair of jeans. Those I need, I have work slacks, need casual ones too.   

     Oh I picked up our tickets for Star Wars tonight, so yay, finally getting to the cinema. I'll give you my thoughts tomorrow.  I'm excited for the movie but I'm also happy to be going out with hubs. We are having a bite to eat before the movie so it's a nice date night. Been awhile. 

     Just took off my make up with coconut oil, ladies it's so gentle and works really well. I used these pads I got at the drug store, they are more like cotton pads. Did that, then washed my face and it feels so smooth. Try it gals, you'll like it, promise. I know boring blog but it's my blog, it's been a quiet night. So I will leave you some photos.  Here's a few pics of what I looked at to purchase.  And ciao for now 

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Will We or Won't We?

Hubs is pretty sick. He's got just over 100 fever and is under 3 blankets.  I'm stroking his head as he makes the weirdest noises while he's sleeping.  Sitting upstairs in the bedroom with him in case he needs something.  So Star Wars tomorrow? We shall see.  Crossing fingers.  All in a day.   Ciao peeps

So Far

    Not bad....lmao.  So it's now almost 5 am, I just can't sleep tonight. Hubs is having a time of it and I think I'm having sympathy insomnia. It's only Saturday, and that's good. Why? It just is, no reason needed.  I think today calls for a glass of ice cold lemonade. I know it's January, cold out, and others are thinking hot chocolate or coffee, nope not me.  I want something super refreshing. None of that fake powder shit either, I'm talking real lemon juice, ooh my mouth just puckered thinking of it. Ha! So as you have seen, I'm all about me.  I did some soul searching about 2015.  It ended better than it started. Dare I tempt fate and shout out I made it through a holiday season without residing in a hospital bed. Fingers crossed as I say that, I am most grateful to the powers that be, this has not occurred. Going to do my fucking damnedest to not have it occur again. Oh and I'm going to say FUCK a lot more in 2016. Fuckin' ay, Fuck off, Fuck yeah and Fuck you!! Fuck Fuck Fuckity Fuck Fuck :-D
      I've decided that in the last few years, I was hurt by things. Not the actual occurrence, but the way it was handled. I have a right to be a little angry about it too. But in the big picture, and I always like to take in the big picture, things went as they should. Lesson learned, I passed - move on to next level.  We all hurt each other at some point, we try not to, but it happens. We are such fragile beings. Oh don't give me that I'm not fragile bullshit. If you have a pulse and a conscience, you are fragile.  The strongest person on this planet, at one point in time is alone in a room and will allow a shadow to cross their minds, a moment of weakness we say. It's allowed and it's our right as humans. Over the course of the last month, I've had more than a few people tell me I'm funny, and one tell me I'm special.   That's another tale, as I think someone may be crushing on me. How the hell do ya like them apples!?  On me!! It's helped put a few things crystal clear to me. Interesting to look through the mirror to the other side. I'll say that for sure.  
     It's so weird. I'm tired and wired at the same time.  I have this energy running through me, I can feel it. It's not for this moment in time, later today perhaps.  The upcoming week it will be needed.  Work is going to be crazy. We had issues with the new timekeeping system. Total SNAFU. Between that and the fact that this Friday is the first payroll off the new year, the calls will be nuts. At least I may get some overtime out of it.  I can use it, it offsets the garnishment. Which will be over in 4 months. It's fine, one more bill I can then say good bye to. It's for my lady hospital visit, last December. I know, how the hell did I not pay it.  Well, when you have your little pay and hubs used to bring home more than double your pay and that one stops then severance runs out and you are now trying to pay all the bills, plus whatever fun house issues pop up all on one little salary, it happens. But now there is another income. Not what it was but it's still another income. I want to zero out bills, get my credit back in good standing. It's still poor but at least it's not very poor anymore so that's the right direction. It's orange now, soon, yellow, then green, eventually blue. Lol color codes, they dumb down everything these days.
       So food, remember how thus all started. It will be lifelong, I'm down with that, I'm down to being a big girl the rest of my life, just want to be a bit less big and feel a lot more healthy.  I am feeling less sluggish, yay, and I'm not giving in to bad choices, BUT,  I will live my life as I need to. Do what I can, for myself. I need to gain strength as I think I'm going to need it towards the middle/end of the year.  I also need to walk better in heels. My friend, he walks better in them than I do.  Sigh....bwahahaha.  Bit of levity thrown in there.  Seriously though, I have to get this ass to the gym again. My back tits are better than my front ones at this point.
     So, it's now half 5 in the morning and I've been rambling about 40 minutes. So now that my brain is fully awake, the it's time to go scrub my face and great the day. So peace out ( I'm so street LOL) and Ciao For Now

2016 THIS..........

Tired

yep all the driving has caught up to me. Took my BP thinking it may be high, we wrong I was. 119/65 damn good actually. im just having some tea, and it's bed. I swear I'm an old lady lately. This will change in a few weeks. Back to NYC in a couple of weeks. Then February to hear a band I've been waiting to hear for quite some time. Right sis? Lol   Well peeps I'm decompressing, so not much tonight, I'll be back though. New Year, new blogs comings your way, new poems, thoughts, rants and positive thoughts.  Ciao For Now

Well Done

     A tiring weekend but a great one. My surprise visit was well received. Getting there though was a chord. The drive was actually very easy, no cars BUT the fog was extremely think. It felt like I was driving through a cloud.  A friend of mine had said when he went skydiving you could taste the clouds. I imagine this was the same. I opened my window and it felt like I put my hand into something. It was that dense. At points I had to put my wipers on as it was misting strongly. It seemed if a car was in front of me (not often) it was swallowed up by the fog. I didn't realize how tense I was until it disepated and I relaxed. I wasn't afraid, just über concentrating. Even so I got to dads in great time and I went to a Starbucks to waste some time. Then I called him and wished him a Merry Christmas. So he was quite surprised when he answered the door and there I was. Lol all day he kept saying that he couldn't believe I was there.  Hubby was going to come, then he decided not to because the trip would not be good for his back BUT he actually caught a really bad cold and was running a fever yesterday so it's good he didn't come.
     I made a mini feast for me and dad. Roasted chicken, stuffing, spinach, baked sweet potato, cranberry sauce (that was ocean spray in the can hehe). I also made a nice beer bread using one of the Guinness I had brought.  I filled his plate high and he ate it all, sans one half of the potato. He still gas a good appetite.  88 this coming Tuesday and he is still spry. I'm fortunate.  So we ate, I did the dishes (no dishwasher at Eds gaff) then I put the kettle on and served the tea with this cake that a neighbor made for him. It was tasty, she said its popular from where they are from. Which is Guiana I believe.
     I made him a nice brekky next morning, I vegged a bit which was lovely. Then I met up with a friend and we went for brunch. I had a full English and I was explaining black pudding to her and she kept making faces. Was funny to see. I love the stuff. Was a great time, and then I went shopping. Made a lovely meatloaf for dad to have later on. I was so full from brunch I did not have dinner.  I did speak to a very dear friend. I met him when I was 2. Lol yep his name is Mike and he is the brother I never had. His mom was from England and I believe she started me with my love of England. We had a picture of the sacred heart in our kitchen, she had a picture of the Queen.  I spoke to Mike about 2 hours. We were so close, we even dated when I was about 17. He was almost 21 hehe such rebels.  It was a natural progression but we both agreed it wasn't right. It felt great but we were too close in thoughts and likes.  Like I said, brother from another mother.  I get that sometimes. Lol
     I also spoke to a friend of mine in England who I've never met but he is a nice enough guy. He's had some wife issues and they are divorced now but he would talk about her and I'd listen, give an opinion now and then. He's sweet, wish I knew someone I could set him up with.  When we were talking I realized who he sounded like. He sounds like Ringo Starr, the inflections, the scouse sound where things go up at the end of a sentence. I think that's scouse or is that gordy? Am I spelling them right.  He's not from Liverpool though, somewhere with an R.
      I even face timed with sis in New Jersey. She was visiting her parental units. I spoke to them as well, they are very cool people.  I will meet up with her one day so we can all go to the Amish Market. Looking forward to it.
     So I'm home now and I'm tired.  Hubs looks like hell warmed over, poor dear. We had dinner, and it's staying down for him. Which is good, gross but good. So now you have my run down, thrilled you are I bet.   My Yoda imitation. Hahaha. So ciao for now guys.

My Christmas Blog

     As I have been saying the last few blogs in regards to not feeling the holiday spirit, I realize it may have been depressing to read. That was never my intent. I am happy to say that this is changing as the day progresses today. Who knew it would be the fact that a quiet day with a few people doing catch up on emails that we just can'tr get to with our phone volume would help lighten my heart to Christmas.  Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and safe travels, the lights on the work tree, my desk all decorated and the Christmas music I'm listening to are working their magic. I celebrate Yule the other day and it was lovely but it didn't help the Christmas slump.
    I spoke to my neighbor and verified that my Dad has no invites for tomorrow but they are having him over for Christmas Eve dinner. That made me happy, they love my dad and I love them, They are wonderful people and you couldn't ask for better neighbors. So they know I am surprising my dad and we added that When I make a pie it will be shared with dad and also the neighbors.  YAY   Im now looking forward to going up and Im going to have my phone on video so I can see the loo on Dads face when he sees me standing there  hahahaha  oh boy   :-D
   I spoke to my friend over in England and also one of his ofspring  hehe   Who made mention of course that she is going to 13 in the upcoming year, almost a pensioner I tell ya. :-)  I also texted with Sis she is having a nice time with her parental units in Jersey.  Im saying that I feel like the Grinch whos heart is growing. I love these people, the year has been nuts and lots has happened, but they hold special places in my heart. My England family and my US family I wish you all the best Christmastime and I am sending you pure love and good thoughts. To all of you I hop ethis holiday season is wonderful no matter what youe celebrate.  Ciao For Now (oh its 67 degrees out at 5PM YUCK!!)

2:22 am Happy Winter Solstice

      In the Northern Hemisphere anyway.  Today will have the longest night then we start to see the return of the sun.  It happens slowly, but before you know it Spring will be here.  I am looking forward to it.  I love Yuletide but I'm still not feeling it.  I was excited to get something for some friends in England but it didn't pan out.  Hubs and I got a great present the other day and we are making use of it I think on NYE.  Going to see the new Star Wars.  Dinner then movie, sounds good to me.  Thank you again my friend for making it happen.    I am off to visit Dad on Thursday late.  I mean Friday early.  Lol well I'll be traveling about 3 in the morning. I hope he is happy to be surprised.  I'm hoping it makes him happy.
      There will be a full moon on Christmas also. Hasn't been since 1977, won't be again for like another 25 years.   That's cool, the moon shines bright into my room in the NY house.  I'm looking forward to having a great dinner with Dad. Hubs has been feeling ill so not sure if he's coming.  I believe so - I hope so.  I want to spend the day with my two guys. Crossing fingers.
      I'm hoping the New Year is better.  It's starting that way.  At least hubs is starting the year with a job.  I am so thankful. It's all I was hoping for. We can start rebuilding and by this time next year, I'll have cards and gifts done and wrapped. (And sent out).  Maybe bring Dad down to us (hopefully). It will be better (wishing). So it's 2:43now. I'm rambling. I'm going back to sleep for a few hours.
HAPPY SOLSTICE / HAPPY YULE to all of you     Ciao For Now

Where Are You Christmas

     I gotta be honest, I'm not feeling the Christmas/Yule vibe. I'm late with my cards. I hope my friends across the pond get theirs in time. I have no clue where the week after the first week of December went. Poof, it's gone! Scramble scramble time. Well in the words of Charlie Brown , I'm not going to let the commercialism get to me. Still a tad cooler weather may help. It's been so warm. I mean it will be good for our surprise visit to Dad and the subsequential trip up a few weeks later for our upstate dinner party, but a little snow is nice. I've got my gloves at the ready. Lol
     I find that many folks are feeling the same. So much is going on with everyone I know. I just want the new year to get here and for it to be fantastic and fruitful for all.  Hoping 2016 treats us all well, health, peace, love, happiness.  You know? That's the true gift I want to see all my dearest peeps get. I could go on and on, but won't. That's MY GIFT to you all. LOL  
    I find myself trying to look for photos of Christmas' past. I miss the simplicity I think. You had a turntable and your records, friends and family singing and dancing. Well trying to dance. My mom had wool carpet and many older cousins wore heels that would catch and well, they go boom! Yep right on their arses. Laughing their heads off since they were so drunk they felt no pain. Once my cousin was dancing and fell backwards her legs flying open right in front of my best friends younger brother.  He got a special Christmas view. I can still remember how red his face was.  We used to have a proper bar in the basement, of yeah, complete with bar stools and shelves and crystal decanters for the liquors. Very groovy.  It was a party basement.   Was when I took it over too but the term party went a little further.  hehehe   Mary stop that!!!  okay!  LMAO   Im a nutter indeed.  
   Okay Im saying Ciao For Now as I have to get back to work. I want to shoot my manager but hey it's the hols so I'll let it go.    

Yay Feeling Better

     How the hell do you go to bed feeling a little crappy and wake up full on stuffed up? Head all clogged, throat scratchy, mouth dry and yucky.  Ugh. But yes it's only Sunday so you take meds and go back to sleep. Wake up around half 10 and feel better but still not great.  So have a cuppa and take more meds, blow your nose and put Vicks capo rub on your chest and under your nostrils. Yay breathing is better.  Have a banana then just veg all day.  Have dinner. Fall asleep and come 10pm you are feeling much better.  Not to jinx it but hopefully s good night sleep and shower in the am will get you all sorted out.  I'm hopeful
     So that was my day, how was yours :-)  I have too much to do tomorrow to be ill.  Work then post office to mail overseas cards, others go out Wednesday. I also need to pick up my secret Santa gift.  I picked one of the guys in the office who wants chocolates.  So will go get him some higher end handmade yummies in town. Small batch and creamy.  I would have loved to get him some pink champagne truffles from my fav place in England.  They are divine but not enough time to order them.  I love them myself lol. So I must say our office pot luck went very well.  I'm so happy. I was thanked for organizing it which was nice so this Secret Santa dessert party is part 2.   I was going to bake cookies, then changed my mind so many times.  I'm going to whip up a decadently yummy cannoli dip.  Then serve it with waffle cookies and vanilla wafers to dip with.  It tastes just like the cream inside a cannoli.  So good. Who doesn't like cannolis? I mean really. I am heading to the dollar store to get a pretty bowl to put it in.  We will again shut the phones and have music and exchange gifts. It's this Wednesday.
    I know several people going to see Stars Wars this coming week, lucky peeps.  I have questions I hopevtheyvwill answer.  I don't care if they are spoilers. I'm going to see it.  Hope they tell me. Made my hot cocoa mix to give out.  Just have to jar them.  I'm going to the post office to ship on Ssturday. Going early. It will be packed.  Wish I could get more for people but just starting to get back on my feet.  Have no real money to speak of.  But it's going to be a better year this 2016.
     I've got more to say but I'm going to wait for tomorrow as I'm tired. Meds kicking in. So until next time. Ciao for now.

Wow, I Wrote That?

Ever get thoughts in your head that come like rapid fire, all at once. So when you write them you are not even sure what you're writing?  That happens to me sometimes. Usually if I'm emotional or drunk, or both.  Lol. Well this was one from last week.  I wrote it in my notes on my phone.  Read it this morning for the first time.  Hmmm?!

     Time for shadow play. You know it. Images on the ceiling appear night after night - the light over in another room brings them to life. The ones who keep you company, the ones who never leave. Only change as your world rearranges, making new images. 

Seek the ones who are the Constants. You know where they are too, but oh the excitement of finding a new favourite 

The perception changes

Interesting, I must ponder.  Ciao For Now 

Brief hello

I have been busy this weekend. At my Dads and got to see friends I haven't seen in years, met the wife of a friend finally. We are friends on Facebook but now in real life too. Met my little cousin who is just over a year and walking and babbling plus was great to see her Dad and Mom.  Haven't seen my cousin J in many years.  So it was a very fun - very FILLING weekend. I have put some pounds on in the last few months as stress eating will do that but it's time to be good again. My chin is back and I hate that.  That's where I show I've gained weight. Within a few weeks I puff up.  Now a few weeks from now, it will de-puff.  Hahaha. It is and will be a constant for me.  Where as you look at my dad and he's so thin that a good wind will knock him down.
     Okay said I would be brief, so I'm about to have breakfast with dad. Then I'm heading back to VA. I'll be back peeps so Ciao For Now