Sunday Evening is Time For...r

     Tonight it's time for Christmas cards. I'm finishing my handmade cards. 7 total, the rest will be bought, but the sentiment is real. I need to get my England cards out no later than Tuesday, want them to get there in time. I go in and out of Chrimbo spirit. In at the moment. Lol
     Hubs had an online interview tonight, I'm praying for a Christmas miracle that he gets a job. It's getting crucial, not going into it. It's small actually when I was told the story of a little girl my manager is sponsoring for Christmas. She lost her parents, has no home. All I could afford to donate was a Hello Kitty sweater. Under 20 dollars but it was on her wish list. I wish I could have gotten everything on her list girl her. Kids make Christmas fun, they have that awe and fascination that I try to have too,  but it's hard sometime.
     Enough doom and gloom. I'm thrilled by one major thing, knock wood as I've managed to stay out of hospitals this season, so far. The past two years have found me incapacitated with infections and pneumonia. I've managed to dodge everything this year, and hope to bring in the new year healthy. I'm looking forward to our dessert party thus year at work. I've been baking today, and I'm thinking I will bring my citrus Madeline's. They may even make it into some gift baskets. Tasty and they keep well. I love baking and cooking. I'm bummed I didn't cook while I was in a England.
     It was a quiet weekend. Just tired for some reason. Shouldn't be, been walking at the gym, more needed due to things like dessert parties. Lol hoping to introduce lots of new things in the coming year, me for one. I'm changing, for the better I hope. We shall see.  Want to go take a nice bath, so ciao for now.

Afternoon Quickie (no not the good kind LOL)

   Happy Friday Peeps
   SO glad its Friday, Ive got some cleaning to do this weekend and some card making too. Then its post office Monday or Tuesday night to get the Chrimbo cards out and other odds and ends.  Im feeling the holiday spirit finally as Yule will be here really soon but I'm not setting up a tree this year (again). With the situation we are nit exchanging anything and its not worth putting up a living room tree just for the cat to play with. She likes the hanging balls and she tries to eat the tinsel. You have no idea of funny and gross at the same time until you have seen a piece of tinsel hanging out of your cat's ass.  A warped pull toy for sure. LMAO
   I'm writing a few Christmas letters too that will go inside the cards. I have even more oversea cards this year as I met up with some cool people and Im trying to get everyone's address. Have several already. So yay!
   At work on my morning break, I walked in and went right on the phone as we were queuing when I got here. So a big cup of tea to get me through this until lunch at 1PM. I wont starve :-D
So I really dont have anything but like I mentioned Christmas blog soon  -  oooh arent yu getting excited at the thought? BWAHAHAHA
     Take care peeps and I will be back. Ciao For Now

Gotta Make Ya Smile (A Little )

     As we know I've been a CSR for many years. There are many horror stories, I've told some, hehe, but to be fair there can be amusing moments as well. One thing that had me chuckle today was when I had a particular jolly caller and I asked for his birth date for security purposes, and he hesitated, he actually hesitated. I laughed to myself, how do you forget the day you were born.  Lol
     Funny start of the day, talking to my friend and we ended up discussing bat balls. I find them to be well rounded. Haha for the size of the bat, they seem to be a bit bigger than one might expect. He started asking others in the office if they've ever seen a bat's bollacks? I was crying! Funny was to start the day. I sent him a pic of a few bats. LMAO listened to a cool group called Jazz Liberators. Love everything I've heard so far. Love hearing new people. So much music out there. Yes!!
     Not a lot tonight people.  Writing a Christmas blog, will gave it done soon. So until next time peeps, ciao for now :-)

Half 9

     I'm in bed. At half 9!! Just tired, frustrated, busy as fuck at work. Two really good things today did get to decorate. Yay. It's Beginning To Look A lot Like Christmas.  Lol. Which alwYs make me feel good. The other truly bright spot was a surprise FaceTime from my youngest friend from England. Her timing was good. Just about my lunchtime I facetimed her back. She was doing her gingerbread house. It was such a sweet surprise. Made my afternoon.
     Here I am, more than a bit knackered. So I'm giving into the longing and getting comfy under my comforter. Ciao For Now

Sometimes A TV Show Makes Sense

     Tonight was pretty much the same. I did go to the mall, did not find anything for my nephew. I went to the grocery store, picked up a few things. Came home, had dinner, read my book, then watched a little television. It's a show called Forever. I like it, new for 2014. The man in it is searching for reasons he is the way he is. Tonight it hit a nerve. The end wrap up had his voice over saying that everyone has secrets but a shared secret helps you know who your true friends really are.  This got me to pondering. The answer being 42. Lol if you get that reference - kudos. Why are we drawn to some people and not to others? Why, when two or more people meet do they not feel with the same emotion? Individuality perhaps, yes, we are no two alike,  yet we are exactly the same. Our basic forms of skin, bones, blood, we all gave the same organs same heart. But we are all unique. Talk about a stretched paradox, all unique but all the same. How the hell are we even doing this? I have friends, some truly great ones I trust and would give my life for. Don't really care if they would do the same, and I think that's the thing that makes friends special. What separates people. Some do for others but they look to gain something. From the time I was little, I was the type of person who gave and never expected back. When I was a little child,  I gave away my mothers appliances to our neighbor kids for fucks sake! They liked them so they should have them. Not thinking of my poor mother who got calls saying I had done this and then went to collect her stuff back. I remember my mom telling me, I didn't have to give people things to make them like me. She didn't quite get that was not the reason I did it. Why did I? Still maybe a bit of a mystery even now some 40 years later. One year, I was about 10 or 11. A man asked to shovel the snow from my house. He told me he had no money and was trying to earn some so he could help himself and his family. I told my mom and she agreed to hire him. She did the shoveling, but for whatever reason, (maybe she felt bad too), he was soon shoveling our sidewalk and driveway. He had some kind of Eastern European accent, I actually remember his face too. Kind of strange, but he made an impact on me. He was willing to go around looking for work to help his family. Now a days it would not fly, not in a big city, maybe a smaller town. I lied for him next. I just did it, I wanted to help too. I got another neighbor, 2 houses down to let him shovel their walk also. I said he was a cousin and would they let him shovel? Never found out if my lie was ever discovered. Are there good lies? That would be one I think. Back to my original thought. (See I get there! Lmao) even though we are the same, I don't think the other kids would have done this. They would have been scared or skeptical. Imagine little kids being jaded? Sad right? So telling someone a secret for me was something I felt. It's like my body knows to whom I should open up. And it's not always the person one assumes it would be. I have 4 people who know my secrets. A few know all, others what I think they can handle. Most not at all.  Those that know all I trust 1000%,  no need to go into it. I already have. Thing is now I need to learn to trust myself. To allow me to share my secrets again, to remember why and where and who with me!  It's difficult, I'm in a bit of a stale place right now. I shook it up the other day. Put wheels in motion at home that hopefully for hubs sake was sound advice. I am looking around at my surroundings and yes hate them but isn't everything in life temporary? So working on the here and now. I can be so great at this, but man can I fucking stink at it too. Lol  Let's see where I go. How many times can someone say, "I'm focusing on me now?"  Well I'm answering that with "once more at least!" Keep the faith peeps, even though it's not easy, and I don't help matters. But I am STILL that little girl who feels for people, wants to help them, I just need to do this for me now. Ciao For Now

Not To Jinx Things

    But today has been a decent day so far. On the second half now as all are back from lunch. had a lovely grilled chicken wrap filled with lots of veggies, very tasty and the moisture from the peppers took the place of any dressings - BONUS!!
    So as I was planning to go to the gym tonight but my plans went bust as I have to do a bit of Chrimbo shopping for my nephew so off to the mall. Will do a few walks around it as that should add many steps to my day (Its a big mall Dulles Town Center LOL)  probably find him his gift at Footlocker or Game Stop.
    I've been waiting for the tree for the office to show up so we can decorate it and lo and behold I was just told to look in the cubicle behind me. Sonofabitch it was there this entire time  D'Oh!! Not my fault it was under the desk on the the side from where I sit.  So yay tree decorating in the am, get to untangle lights and get festive, no spiked punch though :-(  boo!  hahaha
    Not a whole lot today, so I'm signing off , oh I started a watercolor last night. I have the paints and the paper so why the hell not.  I will try and post a pic when I'm done. A few folks are know also started painting this week, something in the air. Time to get my mind on other things and make my home as livable as I can, and then once hubs starts working again get it fixed up so my friends can all visit.
Until next time  Ciao for now

Why Wasn't I Born Rich Instead of Beautiful LMAO

    Addendum being added on top. Night got a bit better, brought home lamb kabobs for me and gyro for hubs. Hubs finally applied for unemployment and hopefully he can still get it. Just praying it's not too late. Please dear Goddess let it happen. You have really no idea how much this would help! I would crawl on my knees across broken glass if it would help this come to fruition.

So my post from today, not a stellar work day. lol some days your the bat, some days the ball right?
   The phone calls today are ranging from actually nice to downright insulting. Kind of like that little boy in that viral video that keeps telling his mother, Linda, Linda Linda, your not listening. Except that I am listening but they dont like what I'm saying so of course I am wrong. So glad you called to get help with your benefits, but when I tell you the policy and what your available options are you feel it within your right to scream at me and tell me I don't understand and that I should go back to school. REALLY?? Well a big fuck you to you but of course I have to keep my cool and be courteous to you. not that you deserve it. Did they teach you courtesy at school? Did they teach you to be nice when someone is yelling at you because they messed up and want you to say its all going to be okay? I tell you, after doing this type of work for 20 years plus, I have grown a thick skin but with things in my life I will admit its getting to me more than it ever did. Maybe I'm just losing my patience as I get older. Maybe I've been doing this too long, maybe I'm resenting the fact that I went from a manager (albeit middle management) position to position everyone else here thinks is a peon position. So not true, well yes it is, we are the whipping posts.  Yet we have to learn and know the policies for all the human resources groups as well as the ones for the separate contracts and unions. Plus remember any anomalies in them and any changes they come up with. I give it to most of us here. I kid and say my memory is going BUT when it comes to work this is not true. I know my stuff, I'm a fucking good employee and I know more and often have to hold back as its no longer my place to say certain things. THAT's one of the hardest things to do. Its not easy keeping quiet when I know something I can help a co worker with, but its not my place as its something proprietary, only a manager or supervisor has to handle. It's frustrating to say the least. I bite my tongue so often as I can be sarcastic, not as good as my hubs ans some of my friends, they are masters, but I can hold my own. LOL Like just a half hour ago. I had to help a woman with information and get her the passwords and codes she needed, and the steps she needed to log into a certain site. The call was a solid 20 minutes. I end the call with you have a great afternoon. She says okay and hangs up.  I looked at the phone and said "The courteous replay is YOU TOO!!"  the person who sits next to me started to laugh. I'm not expecting her first born to bear my name but some common courtesy is always a plus. Dont get me wrong there are some people that are wonderful. Thye are a pleasure to talk with and we laugh too. Im pretty easy to talk to and will talk with anyone really but its getting to me.  I am taking classes for HR in January (if Im still here that is)  I want another position but until hubs find a job I cant leave, for as meager my salary is its the only money coming in.  My bro just texted me no prezzies for adults this year okay?  Fine with me, I will be baking so they will get some goodies but the kids have to get. I have a few people I am getting for. Its not an option for me. LMAO .
    So that's work in a nutshell. Exciting eh? Otherwise its just a day to day, tomorrow I'm headed to the gym, just want to get home tonight, have a bit of a headache. Woke up too early and after the long drive yesterday I guess Im feeling a bit fatigued. awe poor me. :-D  So until next time when I'll have some cute funny things to talk about I will say Ciao For Now

Sunday Evening in Northern VA

     Time to gather my thoughts. It's not easy as they tend to wander all over the place. Nice drive home today sans a little stretch of the New Jersey Turnpike right at the second to last exit (of course). Once I got through, it was smooth sailing the rest of the journey. I made a roast this morning, and packed it all nice for the trip back here. Gave my dad several servings along with the roasted veg. He called to tell me how good it was, he's so cute. Lol
      Spoke to an old friend today and he was quite kind in his comments to me. He reached out to me on Facebook and I was surprised when he did. Had a bit of a history that I kind of regret. Not regret as that's not a good word, but a indiscretion I wish I hadn't done for reasons of my own. Things have changed and it was made mention, it was a relief of sort. The man himself is a nice guy and I had lent and ear way back when, he had some hard times that he said I really helped by listening and not judging. Who the hell am I to judge anyone? Let he without sin throw the first stone, as the tale goes. Haven't read that book in years. Not in my library anymore.  May meet for coffee one day, who knows. He was quite complimentary on my looks. Said I've emerged, lol. I know what he means,  but that has much to do with someone else. Someone who encouraged me, allowed me to express myself and shared things with me I never had dreamed of. He saw something in me, I had hidden years ago. They are coming back, I want to show him all of the changes. Hoping we get to hang out soon in the city. He's not in this country. In the coming year I really really hope.
      I'm trying to keep myself on my walking, that started in England and Paris. I'm doing better. But OMG last night, I felt like I was the turkey , meaning STUFFED! LMAO. Not anymore, last night was funny as shit, I laughed so hard. It felt good, it was much needed. But naughty food is a treat now . Healthy eats, lots more veg and grains, less red meat. (She says as she has almost half a roast in the fridge. LMAO  I'm not done with my journey yet and for the first time in several weeks I'm getting excited by the thoughts of it. I've comes to terms with things that although I'd like to speak about, I'm not going to beat that horse. I'm happy with what I have, those I love and those that love me. It is evident they do. I want the best for them and for me too. I want hubs to get a jib. It's very hard right now and I think that's why I'm easily drawn into thoughts I should stay away from. So here's to Chrimbo, a new year and new adventures. I want lots of them, with my friends and with myself.
     Well I'm going to give my self a deep facial as my skin needs moisture baby!  Lol. Ciao For Now peeps.

Deck The Halls And Not Take Phone Calls Fa La La

     Well maybe not quite that way, but I was off the phones for a few blistfull hours. Excited as another giftie came to my desk. This time for the wifey of my friend. Small tokens of affection. I wish I could watch them open their prezzies. That's the best part isn't it? Seeing if their good at hiding the fact they hate the gifts. BWAHAHAHA   NaH. Methinks they will like these. God I love giving things to people! Lol
      It was nice today, it felt festive and guess what? Yours truly is now in charge of our holiday office party. They want a dessert party. Oh goody -work calories. Think I'm going to make a tira misu. So today I made the cutest flyers for our secret santa. Found a very cute pic of Santa that works well. Took it into excel and made the flyer. We get to pick a name and each one puts a possible three things they want. We will open them at the party. Music, drinks (maybe some adult egg nog lol) a nd no phones for awhile.  My company is too cheap to go to any venue but a few of us are talking about a club in the area. One night closer to Chrimbo.  Dancing, drinks, house music will be fun.
    Not too much tonight, I'm a bit tired. Throat a bit scratchy, honey and lemon. Must not get ill. Well peeps tomorrow I head off to NY in the evening. Can't wait.  So until tomorrow night (I think) ciao for now.

One Of My Favorites

     Don't we all have masks, personally I find them sexy as hell. Thats a very special type of mask though LOL  I am happy to say that I know of a few who know my masks and can see through them to the real me. Love to them!! 

Her hands reached out to caress the lace of her bodice, the candlelight shimmered across the copper folds of her skirt. She looked back at herself as the mirror reflected an image she barely recognized. She had been so many different things to so many different people that she never knew which mask she would reach for. So many to choose from, she allowed herself to be picked apart day by day, being what she needed to be at any given moment. So in time the masks became her shield, her amour, her confidence. But not today, no more would she be a prisoner of her own making. But even with that thought, she looked down and realized, without even knowing,  she had already selected her shield. The mask that would transform her, allow her to interact with society. So it seems this would not change, with a sigh, she resigned herself to fate.  She heard a soft sound and then saw him appear in the mirror behind her. He gazed at her with a look that was far too familiar. He saw through all her masks, even those she kept in her secret place. She wanted to run, but she could not bear to leave. She looked at his reflection in the mirror as she felt him place his hand over hers and lowered her mask. His eyes spoke to her soul and gave her courage. He silently pleaded, and she could not bear to see the raw emotion. Stripped bare of soul they stood there, eyes locked, she understood and nodded. She looked at their reflection the mirror again, her lace, her copper folds, gracefully flowing out. No armour, but soft, vulnerable, and now willing to try. His arms engulfed her, his lips kissed her, and she was alive. He was an angel, sent to her she knew, for even as she put the candle out, the shimmer remained. It came from him and she felt it's heat sink into her. Angel or man? She was uncertain; he was as real to her as she was to herself. So a deep breath quietly left her lips. She placed her hand in his, and together they walked into the world. She felt naked without her mask, but enjoyed the feel of the sun on her skin. She turned to gaze at her man angel, smiled at him, and laughed. It was a sound as joyous as bells on Christmas morning, he simply blew her a kiss, his eyes looking deeply into her soul. Anyone who bothered to look, saw only her flowing copper skirts as she ran towards the gardens, to freedom......alone.

HUMP DAY

     Well made it of the middle of the week, despite the people around me getting what seems to be some sort of plague. Coughing and hacking, losing voices. The ladt next to me is so sick and I wish she stayed home today. I'm cringing at the germs she is spreading  Although those I know and love would not mind I'm sure if I lost my voice. LOL
     I am going to say this and I know it is simple and facebook has already seen part of this but I have to say I am so tired of the media shoving all this negativity down our throats. We are supposed to be a great nation but boy are there issues.  Other nations are trying to shove their ideals on us, but heaven forbid we go to their countries and not adhere to their laws we get punished.  But do that to them here and they say they are mistreated.  BULLSHIT  Come to America live by our rules! Simple  I will do the same courtesy to you. Dont shove Sharia laws down my throat, I am not second class, I am my own operson with the exact same rights as any other American, male or female. I will say what I want and eat whatever meat I want, drink what I want and pray to whomever I please. You don't have to do the same thing that's your choice but dont ever tell me I can't.  hate mongers will not like this, they prey on those with weak minds and unfortunately those in our capital are afraid of not being liked. FUCK THAT  Run your country as you should be doing, taking care of YOUR people not allowing others to sway your laws. Our president is a joke, the next one hopefully will be better. Stand up for the constitution don't re-write it to suit your needs. Our country better get unified fast or kiss it goodbye. We have overseas allys, Work with them and unite even more against these tyrannical people.
    Im not feeling warm and fuzzy today, although my image would allude to that. I sit back and watch more than people think I do. I have thoughts in my head that never get out because I do have some diplomacy and also respect for those around me. Even many don't deserve it but I try to treat those people as I would like to be treated. Thee is a reason I used to be called Owl  LOL   We all have our inner most thoughts and I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve for the most part but I have dark corners that many will never see.
     On a lighter note, I have gotten all but one of my overseas gifties but I think I said that already. I have no idea about Dad, my friends son and my nephew.  Male of the species why you so hard to buy for??? LMAO  Im so easy to get for - anything owls, good liquor, perfume, blue roses china, earrings, bracelets, scented candles or anything handmade. So you all go that right?  HAHAHAHAHAHA  
KIDDING  (maybe LOL)
 Well on that note  I will say ciao for now  :-D

Not a Tonight Dear, Well Maybe. Lol

     I have come back at least 10x trying to get a blog out of my mind. Ain't happening! Been sitting in the same spot for quite some time.  I get up and before I can sensor myself. I say " My ass is all tingly it's going to need a rub!" I hear my husband start to chuckle .....hmmm perhaps I'll have something to blog tomorrow. LMTAO (laughing my tingly ass off)
Ciao For Now. X

Ho Ho Freakin Ho

     Tis the season my friends, so I'm rewriting a song just for all of you: Lunchtime boredom is the reason, LMAO

Sung to the tune of My Favorite Things

Snowflakes on sidewalks, boots at the ready
Online shopping, getting me a teddy
pay pal or charge cards flying out of my purse
these are Christmas things I hate the worst

(ba bum ba bum ba bum ba bum)

Getting up early to shop at the big sales
Listening to others telling shopping horror tales
Crowding and rudeness and choirs that sing
Traffic and cursing are regular things

When the sales blow
when there's more snow
When Im feeling sad
I simply look online and this changes my mood
and then I know I'm ........ just screwed!

Okay this is why I DON'T write songs   hahahahahaha  until later peeps
Ciao For Now

Strange Days Indeed

    I swear I need a new job, I hope hubs gets a job soon. Not only are the employees who call downright rude sometines, they have now instituted a break board. REALLY?? Like we are 5 year olds that need to have our actions documented. I'm a grown woman, I don't think I need to announce that I need to go to the toilet. I've been able to do this on my own now for quite some time,  and I do my job, I get kudos often and have people ask me if they can call me directly as I'm the only one or one of a rare few that actually know what I'm doing.  I get paid shite!! it's the way of the position, but I've taken a big hit this past year and a half. I was out of work 10 months so when I was offered this position I jumped at it, hoping at some point another position might open up in the company I could put in for. No such luck. So here I am stuck pretty much. I tell you as soon as hubs gets a job and is there a few months I'm going to start looking. I was no an executive, hell i was only middle management but I hate having to cow tow to people who think they are so much better than me, yet they are asking rudimentary questions. So who knows more???   Life ain't fair I know,  but fuck sometimes I bite my tongue so much, Im a whipping post to many of these employees. Wears a body down it does!
     Okay so I get home and hubs has wine ready for me. Bless. Feeling a bit better and calmer I go to my Facebook to see a hilarious video by my friend to his kids. All about taking out the recycle trash. Brilliant!!!!  Okay the day is wearing off and I'm feeling better. Then the sneezing starts. Ugh. I can't get sick, NY beckons and I won't miss it. So I am going to have a dose of Lemsip, ( works well, wonder if I ask nicely my friend will send me some) take my make up off and settle in for an early night.  Hopefully asleep by half ten. We shall see. Until next time peeps, ciao for now

Am I Becoming THAT GIRL!? Plus Good Stuff Too lol

     Years ago, someone told me it was not fun being my friend. I was too much work. I'm scared that I'm becoming that woman.  In scared that I am turning people off where I used to, for lack of a better phrase, turn them on. Thing is, when I don't have interaction, or things are scrambled to me I need to speak to that person. This is not always able to be done, for whatever reason. Normally it's just my mind anyway. I overthink every fucking thing. I realize this and gods know I try to hold back and not get frantic, but the more silence I get, the more I push. I just don't want to push people away from me, that would kill me SERIOUSLY IT WOULD!!  It's this season, I want to be with everyone, I'm jealous of those I love when I see them with others. I feel so alone right now. I know I have friends who I love dearly and they love me but it's not the same, not being able to give them a hug or have a drink or a meal with them, is it? Maybe I just feel more, I never really learned portion control. Which led to another situation. My ample figure. Lol but that's cool, I'm okay with that. It's taken awhile to come to terms with that and maybe it will happen here too, it has too. But damn hurry up. I'm so delightful that this blocks that from being evident. :-D
     I found more gifties today for the young ladies on my list. My friends daughters and my niece. I'm loving what I got them just hope they like them. Think they will. Hope they will. Ack. LOL Made some cards today. Only making about 6. My special friends only. Boxed cards for the rest, picked them up on Saturday. I have to look through my stamp collection. I want to find my hedgehog stamps for my friends son. He wants one. He told me this today, he wants one more than anything. His words. Can't blame him they do look cute.  He has awesome reptiles. I was able to hold two of I them when I was there. Little Bo. He was so small and cute, then Shy. She is gorgeous, and has some weight on her. She wrapped on my arm and settled but kept wanting to go up in the crook of my neck.   She is so smooth, snakes get a bad rep.
     I'm feeling a bit better tonight but still not 100%. Must get better as I'm so looking forward to NYC next weekend. Needed as I'm being a loon about friends. I'm needy when it comes to friends. Guilty. But give me a gentle sentence please. Although sometimes strict discipline is needed. Ooh daddy. Lol okay I must feel better. I'm getting naughty. I like naughty, speaking of, the adult store I get stuff from is having a cyber Monday sale. Yes folks, stuff your stocking with a vibrator. Hmmm, not in my stocking.......stop that me. I'm a lady. Yes but I can get my freak on, haven't had the chance in a long time. Getting itchy. But I'm good at scratching my own itches. Another blog for another time. So let's see, I've gone from needy, to Christmasy, to deviant. Yep complete night.  Well I'm going to grab some tea. Then I'm off to bed. So ciao for now. X

Much Brighter AM

     Sunday morning and Christmas season is starting. I'm not fully in the mood yet which for me is very odd. Thing is, life us hard at the moment. I'm struggling with cash, trying to make a house a home although so much needs to be done here. This is not how I envisioned things BUT it is how they are. So I must soldier on and do what I can with what I have. It's been quite awhile since I've had to juggle which bills to pay and live paycheck to paycheck. My in laws just loaned a bit of cash, not much (they have bills too) but it will help this month coming up and even allow for some prezzies for Chrimbo.  I am supplementing with baked goods as well. Sorry but this is a must. I have flour, sugar, etc to bake. And although the gifts are small they come from the heart. I am so so lucky to have friends I can count on. Wether they know it or not, a simple email or conversation brightens up my day. I will smile at the world and at them. I mean that smile, it's not fake and it runs deeper than one would expect. Theses people matter to me, put up with me and here's the weird part - they understand me. Better than I do myself sometimes. So Christmas gifts, yep, no options there. :-)
     Hubs is looking for work, and since I've been back, he's been very attentive. It's been 20 years and love changes. We don't see eye to eye in many things and that's okay, but I wish he'd tone it down in some ways and spice it up in others. Lol. God, are we ever satisfied? I'm really a simple creature, I like to go do what I need to (aka work) go out with friends, laugh a lot, cry at sad movies and have kinky sex sometimes to mix it up with regular sex. Is that too much to ask? LMAO
      I've already gotten a few gifties, I need to get my overseas ones as soon as possible for shipping reasons. It's mt Dad, I never know what to get him. My neighbor in NY said he's taking him to a strip club for a boys night out. :-) He's almost 87. Hope his heart can take it.  Hahaha. Maybe we can give him $40 in singles to take. I'm just trying to picture my dad at a place like that. Know what, I think he'd have fun, and I'm glad about that. I hope it happens. I know my neighbor will look after him.
     Well it's past half 10 and I've done squat so far today. Hubs is reading his A+ certification book. He knows it but is taking the test so he can add it to his resume as then it will be official. I'm off to vacuum our Brady Bunch carpet. Ciao For Now peeps.

Blah :-D

    I'm not feeling great tonight. Have a headache and feeling achy. Went to the gym this morning, did my treadmill and circuit. Came home and did some errands, yet I'm now having tea with the TV on in the  background and getting fidgety. I have some cold meds left from overseas, just took some. Thinking sleep. Tomorrow is laundry, cooking for the week and getting ready for work.
     Been stalking Facebook, looking at friends pics. A few groups I know had get togethers. One was in my fav place, Lancaster PA. Such great pics.   I often wonder though, is it me, that makes people never take a hugging pics with me? I looked at my pics and there are very few of them. Just an odd thought. Lol told you I feel rough.   I'd better go, I'm cranky. Hubs is rubbing my back and it feels really nice, so going to enjoy the massage. :-D. Ciao For Now 

One Line Random thought

Sometimes a not so great memory clouds an amazing one. Choosing to focus on the amazing one.

Half 3 - Ugh

     The only time I want to see this is if I've been partying all night. But not this time.  This time I fell into a turkey coma sometime around 11 last night. Day started early so I was done. Made a lovely pie, the cat then proceeded to make it fall on the floor. Bought one, along with some wine. So the day continued with no more SNAFU's.
     My sis made these apple pie cocktails. They were really tasty and I know this, as I had several just to make sure. Hehehe. The dinner was excellent, conversation good. My niece loved the down vest I brought her back from England, courtesy of my dear friend. He saved my ass but good. She didn't take it off all day. Lol
     Just want to say TGIF to all of you, as I'm in bed and going to try to sleep a few more hours. The stores are open as it's Black Friday. No way am I stepping outside this house right now. Too cozy in bed. So until next blog. Ciao For Now.

I Said I'd Be Back

     Well Happy Thanksgiving one and all. It's now almost 4am, I've been up almost an hour. Lots on my mind. It runs from being determined and confident to omg what am I going to do? I'll settle for a happy medium.
      Was in a rotten mood last night. Then as the night went on I felt better. Got some cuddles from the cat, kisses from the hubs, and I ordered my first Christmas giftie. Like I said before, can't do anything big really but I really wanted to get this for my friend. Things like this make me happy.
      I was treated to a dream, for almost 2 weeks I enjoyed amazing experiences and barely opened my wallet sans for personal items I bought. WHAT? Yep and I'm still in awe at this.  I had help getting there, with my accommodations, again, in awe. I have some amazing friends and on this day I am most thankful for them.  My only real sadness today is that my father will be alone on this Thanksgiving. His neighbors are visiting family, now they did invite him, but he said no. He has not heard from his lady friend so not going there. I feel tears coming right now. I love my dad and wish we were together. He has done so much for me, and it hurts not being able to celebrate with him.
     I will call him later of course. I'm about to go bake pumpkin pies to bring over to my in-laws. I make a mean pie. I'm a good baker.  I'm sad I didn't get the chance to cook for my friends in England. I think I will make cookies and ship them over.  Regular and spelt cookies, for my friend sometimes suffers tummy wise.  Hey if you can't make something special for friends who can you make them for.
      Going to quietly head downstairs for tea. Ciao For Now xx