I Need 6 Good Numbers

First - I had a wonderful time in NYC. Spent Friday night in Staten Island, had a great time meeting up with old friends. They have lived there for almost 3 years.  Very nice home and their two Yorkies are sooooo cute. Real Pizza as Staten Island is very italian. My travels were actually very quick for a friday night, was really surprised and my friend gave me directions to take the back way so that helped too
next I suppose is my nose piercing. I love it, yes it hurt for a second but it was over before it even started  LOL  Since I'm on the blood thinners I was watchful but knock wood, nothing.  I got it done at Lark Tattoo. Its in Westbury NY and I've gotten some pieces done there, my owl was done there. Nice shop, nice people, clean. Hat Trick of Ink shops  HAHAHAHAHAHA
I didn't tell my dad and he never noticed tt, he still doesn't know  :-D

Okay peeps, so much personally going on right now, I'm not boring you all with it, those who know me will know if they want to, some do already.  I will try to be as upbeat as possible but I know there are going to be some real lows, just bear with me and hopefully I will have a path sooner than later

Thats it for a quick hello and I'll be back soon. Look at past blogs you may have missed, there are some good ones :-D  Ciao For Now

UP CLOSE  NOW 

Draggin Today

     I did not sleep well at all last night peeps and I am dragging my arse today boy! It's been hectic. Apparently the stock market crashed and came back up and I totally missed it.  No jumping out of windows here.  Been laying low, just living.
    I picked up my pencils and did some drawings and the concepts are similar to the paintings they do on the paint nite get togethers that many pubs and restaurants here do.  Not bad actually if i do say so myself.  I am going to get some primary acrylics and then make other shades with them. We shall see if I'm still doing owls with flippers   lol
    Headed ti NYC tonight. Looking forward to a low key kind of trip. just friends and diner and hanging with Dad.  Not a lot at the moment, ciao for now peeps

A New Week Begins

     I am all smiles as it's a short week for me ending in NYC. This weekend will as usual bring friends and fun, and my nose getting pierced. LOL    I'm very excited to see my old friend on that Friday. I'm heading out to Staten island to visit him and his partner. Simple night, I told him not to cook so I know we will do a pizza and salad, and antipasto. I'm bringing wine. It's catch up time.  Looking forward to it. Saturday is with Sis. Tattoo shop, camera store for her. The friends for dinner or music or both. Evening not set yet but that's fine. We can go where our noses take us. Sunday I'm headed back. I always hate leaving my dad but oh let me tell you the latest. I call him and he tells me he was at McDonalds ( he gets a coffee and reads his newspaper cover to cover - oh yes he does) so he's sitting there and he looks up and this woman is looking his way and she smiles at him. He smiles back. This goes on for a little while, so my dad gets up and WALKS OVER TO HER!! He asks her if she's waiting for someone and she says no. So he sits down and they talk. He gets up to go and she asks if he wants her phone number.. WHAT!?  After he tells me this, I ask him if she was widowed maybe.mhe said no, she's looking for work. I then ask how old she is. He says oh about 50. 50!!!!????   Oh no no, he can't pick up women younger than me. Holy crap, my dad's a dirty old man. LMAO. I told him I'm going to put a collar on him, he's such a dog. He cracked up at that. I like that he laughs, I enjoy seeing and getting him to laugh. He has no idea what's going on here at home, and I'm not about to tell him, unless of course we have to move there. Cross that bridge when we have to.
     Work is getting stranger than usual with the government/ private sector split. I was sent log in information to programs I'm not trained on but will be soon. By the end of October I'm thinking we will all be crossed trained in all departments. Thinking that they are going to split us into both groups and if we know all the areas we can help all who call. What I'd like to know is will there be any salary increases to go along with the added work? Time will tell.
     Hi spiked me up tonight after work and just as I was about to leave the office, not 3 minutes before, we get a downpour. Rain and thunder. I'm standing in the lobby, see hubs in the parking lot. Call him to bring the car right out front. I see him pull out and come over. Off come my sandals and I put I reusable shopping bag over my head so my hair stays dry. Out the door I each, barefoot and getting soaked on my body. I get to the car to get in and the bag slips right down over my head. I kind of stumble into my car, hit my head on the door jam whilst hubby is laughing like mad.  I pull off the grocery bag hood and well it worked, my hair was dry. The rest of me looked like a drowned rat. Lol I said did I look dumb, he replied not terribly until the entire bag just covered my head when I got to the car.  HA!
      We got home and hubs aide dinner. Simple burgers, cole slaw I made, (less fat and sugar) and salad. Yes it's simple but when you work all day and he's nice enough to have prepared a meal, well, those burgers seem like filet. He even did clean up.  Kudos to him, he knows as I said it to him. He did laundry also. I knowi know, he's home all day. He is looking for work but I told him its to the point where he now needs to put on his suit and hit the ground running, resumes in hand. I know he will get something, I just hope it's soon. I need my NYC release. Even if it's only 2 days there. One driving back.    Well that is it for now. Not much going on, nothing even remotely as interesting as what I've written already.  Hehehe. So until next post, ciao for now

It's Raining

.    I can hear the rain on the roof.  I have always enjoyed that sound. The music it seems to play. A different song every time.  Thee was thunder earlier. Love me some thunder.
Just have to comment on my weight progress, or lack thereof.  At 12:39 am Thursday mornings I can honestly say I don't give a fuck. Nope not one fuck to be had.  I have gained about 6 pounds in one month. In the grand scheme for me that's a haircut. Right now the only thing I care about is getting to and through the holidays, and still be standing on my two feet.  I honestly get the feeling I will but yeah I cry.  I cried before, but I am getting up every morning, taking my shower and going to work.  Yes I am getting my nose pierced next week but it's a small inexpensive indulgence that I need.  To make me know that this too shall pass.
     I am imagining the rain washing away the tears and cleansing my home. My beliefs and views are silly to most people but that's okay.  They are my thoughts. They are not for anyone but me to like, but oh it's pure joy when you find someone who thinks similar, or laughs at the same things.  Like attracts like yet opposites attract. What?? I'm the crazy one who can agree with both of those.
     Yep so here I am, quiet house, everyone snoring as I will be soon I'm sure.  I'm secure in my Goddess body, my size 24 squishy body. At this point I would like to be tanner. Thinner is a given but not thin. I wish my tits were bigger, but my legs are sturdy and decently shaped.  Toes need a pedicure but that's easy to fix. Can you believe my friggin bangs/fringe are already getting long. My hair grows fast. Lol. I have my arm under my tit and it's nice and warm. Lmao. Can you believe that?! Oh it's so cold out- here warm your hands under my tits.  Hahaha. Gravity you SUCK!!!
     Okay, I'm off to great sweet Morpheus. Until later peeps, ciao for now.

I Need To Know A Few Things

How do you strip wallpaper
How do you sand a oak floor
How do you check to see if you need electrical redone
How do you attach a new top to your banister when the spokes are good
?????????????????????????????????????

I CAN paint and spackle
I CAN clean and scrub kitchen cabinets
I CAN paint a table so it looks good
I CAN make a nice home, cook good food

Is NY in the future? Lets toss a coin in the air and see where it lands

Life is Weird

    If you had asked me years ago what life would have been like for me, I probably would have said, married, a few kids, house on Long island somewhere. But that is so not what happened. I ended up not being able to have kids and I live in Virginia. I'm working but hubs still is not, which has made for the most unbelievable stress I have ever felt in my life.  I wasn't this stressed when I was told I had cancer. I mean its ridiculous. I have gathered all my gold jewelry and am going through it to sell. I mean some items are not even a thought, like my Grandma's Alexandrite earrings and pendant from the 60's. I love it. An opal ring from my Mother is also off the table but all other gold including my anniversary band is fair game. I am just not sure where to go to sell these. I have a watch for sale on Ebay but I'm not sure of where to get the best prices. I've never done this before. I'm doing all I can and watching my credit score go down because of it. I will not kick a man when he is down, that's not me but I'm not opposed to giving a nudge. Ugh I know I will never be homeless as I will haul my cute big arse to NYC but it's the thought I have to that annoys me. I really try not to let it get to me, but friends can only help for so long, pay for your drinks or meals for so long and I HATE IT!! Once in a while sure, and i will do the same but when it's so once sided, well it's not fair to them. So as per usual I am spending most weekends reading.
     I was ill most of last week, oddly enough it was in my head and throat so yesterday was more of a sanity day more than a sick day. Im back today and actually feeling well (Knock Wood)
I am looking for work, mainly due to the fact that yes I need more money  LOL plus our company is splitting into two divisions. Government and private sector. No one is sure what is happening right now as my division served them both.  I'm hearing rumors that we are going to be split and put in separate groups but who knows. We may be moving to the 1st foor also. Its all up in the air and we won't know fully until October. It's all in upheaval and we get calls from employees asking what's up and I have to tell them we don't know. Great helpdesk huh?
    Eh life is crazy right now peeps. I'd be lying if i said i don't get depressed, I do. I have my days but you do what you have to, trudge on and work through things. Little by little. I have agreements with all the companies that want money, I'm trying to rob Peter to pay Paul . Leaving Peter enough to live on and enough that Paul is satisfied for now  LOL   And it's me, the girl who sucks at math but I'm a good juggler I suppose.
     I'm so looking forward to the Autumn Equinox. Time of change and hope fully more abundance. Just the crispness of the air revives me.  The changing colors on the leaves, the coolness of the weather. I love sweaters! lol  I come alive in the fall. I'm so looking forward to it

Oh peeps here's to better times  for me personally but for everyone. Its seems so many I know have hurt or confusion/ I just want all to be happy in life. So until next time, when our heroine will let you know how it went with her opening her femo clay she bought a year ago and finally makes her God and Goddess statues, I say Ciao For Now   lol

Ya Know

You can only smile so many times at someone in the hallway, and never get a return smile,or even an acknowledgement before you have to think, "Yep, you're a cunt!"

Monday Musings Have Turned To Tuesdays Post

     So here I sit at my desk at 10 in the morning.  My bed this morning was so comfy that I did not want to get out of it.  The weather is dreary and rainy. I say and rainy and rain doesn't bother me, I like it, but the dreary part is a totally different subject.  Dreary is almost a state of mind, its definitely a multiple cups of tea day.  ANYWAY...... not a thing really is going on. I think that's good though.  Just your basic chill weekend, cleaning the house, laundry, etc, etc.  We did go out to dinner on Saturday night. Thats it really I will be back LOL 

     Okay I am back even though it's Tuesday. HA! Well I guess perhaps its good that life has gotten low key, I tell you I've said it before and I've said it again. having no money has got me budgeting and that is a good thing. They said it would never happen  LOL  So since yesterday I did find out a bit of news, sad news unfortunately. You know I bitch and moan about my job and I am looking now for a new one but I was informed that one of the employees (don't know who or where he is located) committed suicide and blamed the company for it in his note.  OMFG!! That poor soul, to be that distraught that the only out they can think off is to end it all.  I never joke about this, its a serious topic.  usually you don't notice it in those that will really do it. I've walked in on a friend who tried to off himself, wrists cut, blood all over. Thank the heaven he survived and is thriving today. I couldn't be more pleased but imagine if he had succeeded years back. I guess if I'm saying anything about it it is the fact that if you feel this bad, please don't kill yourself. It can get better, we must hold onto that thought always. Thinks like this hit me hard, few things do, this is one. That's why I always try to see how those I care about are doing and to assure them I am there if they need me. Even if its just to be a person on the other end of the phone or facetime so they know someone is there and cares.  
     Change horses in mid stream here. They seem to be hiring people in my office, I have no idea why. Im sure we will find out soon enough. The company is splitting into two divisions, and hell I am not even sure what side I will be put on. Rebel Alliance or Empire   BWAHAHAHAHA  I know my choice :-D     Well anyway, another 2+ hours and work is over, then its out to dinner with the hubs. Its that Cracker Barrel place, its decent, I mean its no 5 star michelin place but its inexpensive, good portions (enough to bring the extra for lunch tomorrow) and comfortable family low key place. 

I found this pic and I love this sentiment 

Imagine what if..... I mean we touch others lives, and they touch ours, I have learned so much from others and hope, that in my life I have brought a smile to someone, or helped them in some way. Its beautiful to think that you touched a life, I thank those I know who have touched mine. I will always remember them and hope there is more to come. 
Random thought -  I can't wait for NY in a few weeks  LOL    :-D  I'm so weird  MUAH !!!!
Ciao For Now Peeps 

I Did It I Did It

I am getting my nose pierced end of the month. I know its silly to make an appointment but I don't get to NYC all the time and wanted to make sure he will be there.  I know the place and they are clean, which is so important. Matt (that's the piercer's name) went over the process and since I am on Xarelto we talked about that but I'm pretty sure all will be fine. I'm so happy, I've wanted to do this for years.  I know silly girl but as it's been said - It's the little things that make you happy and happy is very important.

Not much of a blog today peeps, but there will be tomorrow at some point I'm sure so until then , Ciao For Now

I know You Are Dying To See LMAO

Well I went and got my hair done and it turned out well. It looks better in person and looked better when she did it. I'm preparing her a huge tray of Baked Ziti and meatballs since she wont take money from me.  So here is the finished product today

Same basic shape, well i did sleep on it so it lost it's poof.  LOL   But its darker then gets lighter. Was really interesting. She put on the two blond shades then after the foils came off and she washed my hair she painted the darker shade on at the roots and only left it on for 15 minutes. Interesting process this stuff  LOL
     So today was another day in paradise.  I really do not know why people are so snarky. BUT my shipment of tea came in WHOOHOO  my friend here at work went in on the order so we were able to get a good shipping rate and he ordered some bakewell tarts. I was excited to try them as I have heard about them and my friend over in england sent me a recipe for them (which I am now certainly going to try) so i ate the one i was offered and OMG they are so so sweet. Not what I was expecting at all. I could feel my blood sugar rise  lol   I was surprised as they seemed more American sugar content that UK sugar content.  But the almond flavor was lovely and the texture nice.  I can't wait to make my own now.
      Well about to sign out of work, will be back later peeps
       I'm back, we had chili for dinner, good for a low carb diet. It has beans but good proteins, plus who doesn't like chili!?  So good to relax at night. Dishes are done. Planning on watching me some testosterone home fixing up. Yep, it's Property Brothers tonight.  I love Jonathons designs.  Oh if I could do whatever I wanted without any monetary restrictions, I would have one very awesome home. Doesn't have to be super bling. That's not my style. I like sleek, mid century, with modern updates. Glass backsplash for the kitchen, heated floors in the bathroom. A pantry, deep apron sink and large center island. Sub zero fridge. Tasteful dining room set, with funky fun chandeliers. Oh I could go on. My mother was a frustrated interior designer. It was something we shared. When I got my drivers license, we would go look at new houses for sales.  We would decorate in our minds. After she had finished her chemo, I took her to Massachusetts and we tourney colonial homes. Her favorite lol.  Some great memories of my mom right there.
      So speaking with the admin for my solitary witch page on Facebook, I mentioned I crafted my own large pentacle for my alter. She had posted a photo that had a really cool Goddess statue. I was thinking there is a simple set of God & Goddess statues I like and I bet if I tried, I could create these with the same Fema clay. As I was chatting, it seemed that I now have a new project. So in these next few weeks I will be figuring out how to make these. I will post pics once I'm done. They will be crude but they will be mine. Statues that will be from me. They will be infused with my thoughts and prayers as I craft them into life so to speak. I'm actually a more than a little excited.  I'm always saying I need things I can do. Things I can get into to. Well at-da!! This is one. Happy crafty bunny.
      Well peeps, it's almost 8pm. I am going to take off my make up. Change into my  lounging gown. Make some tea for hubs and I and then enjoy Property Brothers.  Later read before bed.  Hubs gave me a book to read. It's by Robert Heinlen, called Number Of The Beast. It's really good. Well written, very sarcastic, dry humor and a tad naughty. Who knew?  I finished the Bill Bryson books my friend recommended. I think my friend would enjoy this book actually. I love to read. I like finding new books, even if they are old ones. Lol.
       Well ciao for now peeps. Until next time.

No Rest For the Wicked :-D

     OMG so so busy today, one of our systems is down so of course everyone has to call. Then they yell at me that its not working. I am not the tech department I did not break it, now shush!! Jeez people, they act like we do this on purpose. Many are nice though and thank the gods for them, the keep you sane.   Like I said on facebook, I was so crazy busy I emailed a form to myself then got all like oh wow, who sent email.  Um...ME!!!  LMAO  

     Well at least I get these bangs cut and hair colored to a more pleasing color and some style put into it. I looks horrible - 

     It's way to light a blonde for me. hard to tell as this si the women's toilet at work and the lighting is not the best.  But you get the idea LOL   I'll let ya see tomorrow. OOH I know you all can't wait hehehe  

     Not much today peeps so until tomorrow, ciao for now 

Waste Of A Weekend, Not Really LOL

     So another weekend has come and gone, this one included a holiday for me, Lammas.  yes the first of the harvest festivals. the early harvest is in and the bounty is being celebrated.  We had some really tasty whole grains rolls with dinner to add to the festivities. I did my little working and I am in a group on facebook that has some great fellow wiccans in it and we had some nice chats and messages going all day. It's nice to be able to talk about this with others who know what I mean when I use terms like besom and athame. LOL  All my magickal tools ar in NYC actually. I need to cleanse them and re-affirm them but I have to get a few items to do this, and I can't do that just yet, so they stay safe in the hand carved wooden box I got one Yule.
     Sunday was chill, not a whole lot to do.  I puttered around the house, did a handful of laundry, not much to do so I just vegged out.  Went to bed rather early actually so it was a very quiet day.  Spoke to my dad as he went to a party on Saturday and the lady who hosted sent me some pics of my dad that I put on facebook. he asked her to take one of him for me to see. How cute is that? He is getting on but is still fairly strong and independant. Thank the gods for that.  I love seeing him have a good time. My boss at work thinks he is just adorable, and he si. I mean he and i argue but we are alike and i think that's part of the reason. But I love him dearly.
     I can not wait to get my hair done tomorrow. My bangs are so long and I am going for a change. I am adding low lights and high lights both this time around. My hairdresser is amazing, and she is an amazing person as well. She is aware of my finances and only charges for the colors she needs to use.  I am going to make her a tray of baked ziti this coming weekend.  Kind of a barter system,  there are still good people in this world. I'm very thankful and lucky.
    So this brings me to Monday at half ten in the morning. Thrilling isn't it? Hope this day goes quickly. I have sent out my resume to a few places, and now we wait. We shall see if I can get more wages at a different place. I'm not going anywhere but if a good offer comes in, I'm outta here.
Ciao For Now peeps

Lammas

I got this online, it's not mine and I left the copyright tag to show credit for the dear lady who wrote it.  It is a nice little passage on what Lammas is.  Next will be in September, it's called Mabon. Brightest Blessings Peeps. I'm working on that cold that's been under the surface for over a week.  Early to bed for me. 

In the Northern Hemisphere, the celebration of Lammas or Lughnasadh is August 1 but the festivities usually begin the eve before with sacred bonfires, and this year that falls on the second Full Moon or Blue moon in July bringing a very powerful and potent energy to this time.

This is the first of two harvest festivals it is also called “First Harvest”. It is at this time that we begin to see fields of early harvest being gathered. The greens of the fields begin to ripen and gold starts to show up in amber waves. The Summer air is still hot but the days are waning, as is the light.

There is a deep awareness during this time as we see the changing world around us and we know the Winter is coming. We see all that was born in the Spring maturing and feel the changing Earth around us. Here we really tap into the essence of the transformation of the world around us and begin to feel the shift of the seasons.

This is a time of celebrating the abundance, both literally as we are blessed with vegetables, fruits and grains that are being brought in off the fields, but the abundance that manifests in our own lives.

Here we take the time to give thanks for all that has come into our life in the last year, all the changes that have brought with them lessons and growth. As the fields ripen in sunlight, so do all that we plant in our own world.

Some easy ways to celebrate would be to gather friends and family together with some of the bounty of the natural world. spread your table with newly harvested foods and give reverence and thanks to the Earth Mother and the Sky Father for their continued blessings. Get everyone to bring a dish and enjoy the merriment.

You can celebrate with sacred fire as well, writing on strips of paper what has blessed your life in the last year and offer them to the fire with a word of gratitude. Offer some sacred bread from the bounty of the Goddess in reverence for your blessings

This is a good time for working with intentions and energy surrounding drawing abundance, especially under the light of the extremely powerful Aquarius Full Moon/Blue Goal Moon (July 31) which is ending a month of full of transition and transformation. This is a great time to focus on what you would like to draw in and shine a light on the shifts occurring around you and to out these plans into the Universe

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Ciao For Now peeps