Sucks Big Time

Those who know me know I hate not knowing, today I am not sure if I did something, I don't think so but I was kidding with someone and it ended abruptly. Not bad but emails you can't tell. So I'm here just waiting to hear. And to bring it home, hubs is a bit more than a little tipsy, he's okay but on a tightrope of going off or staying calm. I'm here trying to play nice nice so nothing happens that I'm going to regret, like yelling. I understand he's in pain, I just hate he feels he has to get drunk, then gets stupid. Ugh. I just want today over.  

Ciao for now. 

Feeling Right Now

Apprehensive, nervous, scared, curious oh so curious, hopeful .........

So ....

Now it's time to follow MY DREAMS, and catch one or two of them :-D

Lets Start At The Very Beginning...

     Okay when I started this blog, what seems like eons ago, I was focused on weight loss. I have strayed from this, and it's gone to a daily report of my life, well guess what? I ain't that interesting!! LOL  What??!! You are saying to yourself, why my dear you are enthralling.  Okay, I just made myself chuckle, but really, I was faithfully writing every day, then I skipped a few days and now weeks at a time.  I am not sure why. That's a lie actually, I do know. Life got hard for a year, hubs out of work, me stressing over money and feeling like shit over it. I was lucky to have an amazing support group around me and I saw (and see) things a bit more clearly. I've learned how to budget (who knew), what matters in my life and I am now ready to face my secondary challenges again. So here goes.
     I purged myself of all my old things, clothes, make-up, friends. LOL  That last one was more Facebook than any other. I went through my list and deleted several folks that I had not spoken to in years. They were co-workers who have moved on or old friends from NY and the funny thing is I have not gotten any emails wondering why, so I highly doubt they even noticed.
   I've gone back on my fitness pal and been doing pretty well. There are been a few days I've been over my calories but I'm down 11 pounds. Today I was below my calorie intake until.......da da dum!!! I had 4 tiny peppers and a fiber one bar so let's add an additional 180 calories to my day. I'm over - by 10 calories, but it's still over.  Thing is I ate raw peppers and a low calorie bit of cake. I didn't change the day plan but I know it. I'm not sharing my food diary so it's only me that sees it, I'm not fooling anyone. Lol   I will do it.  I'm changing. I let myself throw a huge pity party this year and I gained weight and lost self esteem. But I'm slowly gaining them back. I dyed my hair red again. It's a bit brighter than I anticipated. I realized my error, last time I dyed my hair I was going from light brown to auburn, and this time I went blonde to auburn. I used the same ratios and well yeah, lighter. It's not horrible but it's not me. I can handle it for now, I'll change it in a few weeks. Have to give my hair time to strengthen a little.  I hope the remainder of this year brings more good things. I hope I get to see my friend from England if he comes to the states. It's 2 years since I went over there. It's time.
     I had to force myself to step on the scale, glad I did and the result was decent.  I have a gal friend who is thinking of getting gastric bypass surgery. The thought scares me, I've thought about it too, but I don't want to lose hundreds of pounds. I'm okay doing it slowly as long as I don't die. Lol it's hard I'm not lying, I'm not as good as I should be but gods I love Chinese food and oh man Thai food like Pad See Ew and Pad Thai just teases me. But I figure every once in a while will be a treat.  Lots of chicken and fish. Not too much red meat. Little by little.
     Well so I will be posting more weight things, aspirations, recipes, poems. More like the old blog complete with my spelling mistakes lol.  So until next time, ciao for now.

So How You All been?

     I've been under the weather as of late, it started Sunday and it continues on.  Its odd, I have great moments and then it hits, I feel the need to get sick so I run to the toilet, then feel better, haven't been eating much, have been home from work all this week and here it is Thursday and its my first day back. I'm freezing to the point my teeth are literally chattering.  I'll live, LOL  I haven't told Sis or my Dad, no need to as I'm on the mend.
     So not much going on since I've done nothing but keep the cat company so far this week. LOL  I think hubs and I are venturing into Lancaster this weekend for a day trip on Saturday. Its about an hour and a half drive for us. We like to go there but haven't in so long, I think its time again.  I need some fresh air :-D
     I'm thinking of going auburn again. Not sure will see. I have to go to the beauty supply store and look at the shades. I like to mix colors. I know the color I want to get to. I will see if I can accomplish it again.  LOL  it's this one

Looking a bit shaggy there but I like the reddish tones, I have no idea what shade (shades) this was but I'll get it one day. I had just discovered the hair straightener when I took this pic. LMAO
so I think its time to go back into the lab and play mad doctor.
     Thats it for now really, I'll be back soon   Ciao for now

Whoot whoot

     Thank the Goddess that things are turning around. I'd never boast that they are great because I'm not that proud and I don't want bad luck.  Hubs worked hard to get a job, I'm thrilled for him. I'm thrilled that I have been diligent and in 3 weeks have lost just over 9 pounds. I know it's the water deal but it's a good start.  That's enough now.  I'm happy but not boastful. So many other bigger things going on, even in my world.  Got the chance to have a nice girls night with a friend from work. She's a very nice lady, wish I knew a nice guy for her. Don't we always say that? Lol I mean it though.  Sis is busy, and she's getting her first ink very very soon. Wish I could be there fir it but we will be getting our sister ink soon as well. We found a pattern we like and she is going to speak to her artist about it. I mentioned a possible watercolor background, small, light.  I'm excited, haven't gotten new ink in a long time.  I've been thinking of a Libra tattoo and this seemed perfect.  I do have a larger piece I want.  I want to do roses on my right shoulder going down to cover my titty kitty. Yes flowers will be on top of my right tit. im thinking spring/summer for that.  I need to pay more bills first.
     I sat outside on the deck for awhile tonight while drinking my Lady Grey tea. I can feel it, the seasons are changing. It's still very hot out, but the highs are not near 100 now, more 90 and a little below. I feel stronger. I always do this time of year, I am a true Autumn Child. I come alive in this season. I feel better that my hair was cut, and it's one color again. Lol oh it was so bad, long and getting very, as a good friend says, 80's rocker chick.   I am that a little, but I love all kinds of music. I listen to most of the links all my friends list on FB wether I mention it or not. I even word eye make- up today.  I am still getting that strange pain in my right side. It comes and goes, not sure what it is but all in good time.  I need to get a mammogram soon, ugh I hate them.  You can't wear deodorant and they squish your tits so tight. Its
     Had a bit of a chat with a dear pal who was in hospital.  I'm so glad he's out and recovering. He's bored as fuck, good sign. Lol. I've been there, you put on smiles for everyone but you think a lot. It shows he's healing to be bored. I'm glad he's smart enough to do what he needs to. Miss the shit out of him, hope to see him before the year is out.
     Well peeps, my iPad is at 30% and I'm going to take off that make up I put on.  So ciao for now.

I didn't have anything to say until now. LOL

     I know I haven't posted much lately, but life has started going up hear I daresay. In no way do I want to jinx this. It's been so fucking hard, but as the song says I get by with a little help from my friends.  Well mainly Sis. She has been my rock through this. Love her to bits.  We're getting sister ink too. We are both Libras so the starpattern will happen. I'm looking so forward to it, I want new ink soon. Lol.
     I was leaving work today and there were about 10 little guys all on their power lawn mowers. They looked like Oompa Loompas lol.  I made myself giggle all the way to my car. Hehe
     I tell ya, I was so out of it. Stress it makes you wilt like a lettuce leaf in a sunny backyard salad. I'm feeling more like myself, and I even made myself get on the scale. I figured I wanted to know where I was starting from, ya know? So I close my eyes, get on, open my eyes look down and wow, I'm down 9.5 pounds since my dr appointment. I would have sworn I had gained. I was ready for the gain, but was very happy with the results.  I'm feeling more like me. Hubs just grabbed me when I said that and his response was "yep, that's you!"  He's so good he made a lovely light spaghetti primavera for dinner.
     I must say, I have been staying away from social media a lot. It's the political posts I can't take. I swear, this one or that one. Spin doctors in overdrive.  I hate them both.  I wish I could fast forward to  November so it's all over. Then we can see what will happen. It seems we are going backwards. Now I love retro and vintage, but not in civil and just plain human rights.  I hate no one except hateful people, radical groups who hate and kill. I'm a simple soul, a cute, round, tattooed, short simple soul. :-D
  So not a huge long blog but I figured I'd ease back into it. So ciao for now lovelies.

Poor Cat

     She didn't know what to make of the morning hustle, that started about 5:30AM. Why is the female in the bathroom AND the male in the kitchen? Its barely light out, as the sun is in process of coming out. LOL  She felt much better once she got cuddles and her food bowl was topped so, heaven forbid, a glint of the bowl its in will not show through in parts.
     So I am here at work at the ungodly hour of 7am. I've had brekkie already so I'm debating a cup of tea.   Hopefully this starts the next chapter of a very productive story.
     I've also had an epiphany of sorts, thought I had prior to this but not as strong as this last one. I have moved on from lots in my past and I feel I've moved even farther this time. This is a good thing, Im just so tired of bullshit, that's one reason I find myself staying away from facebook. All the tension on there just harshes my buzz.  Im interested in politics of course, here and abroad, as it effects us all, but I can't stand the spin doctors. I hate both of the candidates and I need to read up more to have a valid opinion. I have friends who just rant on the party line they follow and refuse to see any ideas the other side may have. No matter if it makes sense or not.  One thing I do know is politics is not black & white, there's a lot more than 50 shades of gray here. So I stay out of it for the most part.
    I'm cleaning my house and concentrating on those I love, My sister is first and formost right there with my hubby. Love them both. My dear friend in Maine has things going on and I wish I could make it all better but its headed in the right direction although the road will be bumpy, she has a collage age child now, hold on tight  LOL  Those I care about know. Im concentrating on my home and hubby. We need to get the house in order and now we can hopefully start once bills start getting paid off. My thing is that I want my credit to go back up. It will, it has but I need it to go higher  LOL
     I'll be back in a day or so, Im looking out the window at what looks to be a very strong storm developing, it got very dark very fast. of course my umbrella is at home   LMAO   So ciao for now my lovelies
   

Yep Yep Yep

This aint been so easy this time, 

but life is taking a turn.
  
So happy thoughts and moving forward!!!
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165 Days and 13 Hours until Christmas (at this writing)

WHAT AM I SAYING THIS FOR???  Lol   I love Christmas. Its just that, for me, it brings back wonderful memories and this year I actually celebrating simply and beautifully. meaning I'm not going to freak out over getting the perfect gift. I'm going to start making some gifts NO ART so not to worry. :-D   I'm going to go natural in my decorating. I love boxwood shrubs and holly, mixed with plaid and some bells look great. I'm focusing on the love I always felt and still feel from family and friends. So HO HO HO Christmas is coming

Things are changing, for the good, but I still feel odd. Change is good they say, I like some change but I feel so much is going to happen at once. I am not sure how to explain it.   It's like one night it was very late, or early morning, depending on how you view things. lets say it was abut 2AM and I was walking with my boyfriend in Greenwich Village in NYC. I had a weird feeling, something was just off. The streets didn't feel right. I know that sounds stupid, but I was unsettled all night. The paper that morning said NYC had had an earthquake. I sensed the disturbance in the force so to speak  LMAO  But that's how I've been feeling for a few months now and I'm not sure why. Hope when I find out its pleasing. I mean there is so much craziness going on right now, political, racial, religion....I hardly go on facebook anymore and when I do I'm playing games not reading posts. I'm over it, truly.  I'd much rather talk with my friends and laugh. We need more laughs

I hope the thought of Christmas whilst we are wearing shorts gave you a giggle.  Ciao for now

Easy Read Today

As a matter of fact sometimes I just feel like sharing photos that have some meaning to me, so here you go:

For laughs:

 For Real: 

More laughs:

Truth:

My look most days with employees calling in:

Uh-Oh  LOL 

 Again Truth

Ciao For Now Peeps xx

Happy Birthday America

     4th of July, the day America celebrates our independence from England.  We did ( with a little help from the French - go figure! Lol)  Apparently Mother England was too "loose" in their ways.  While I'm glad we have a free country, I don't think they were too loose.  But I wasn't alive then, I am here now, I love England, always have. I know several people there, a good friend is from there. I could easily live there.  They know ceremony, I like a good ceremony! They do this very well.  I was treated to a private look see at The Ceremony Of  The Keys.  I was told glorious and amusing tales by a very lovely gentleman who is friends with the people I know over there. I forgot his title (beg pardon) but he's high up there.  I had a delightful time and the Tower Of London is a bit ethereal at night. I could almost imagine it lit by torches. Lots of shadowy doorways and roads leading off to other parts of the castle. One can easily imagine murder and lustful encounters.  Anyway....sorry went back there for a moment.  Oh yes, right, USA independence.  I love my country, we are a bit broken right now but I have faith that one day it will once again right itself. So happy birthday America, may our flag fly over us in peace.
     On another note, I write this from my couch, covered in a throw blanket as I am no feeling well. I caught a bug it seems. Same one that was showing itself at work last week. Intestinal issues that make for a crappy long weekend. No pun intended. This combined with the ongoing threat of rain yesterday and today, do not lend oneself to major motivation. Especially when ones plans were really to go out and follow our noses. To a farm stand or two, or perhaps dome fireworks.  The fireworks were supplied by the high school nearby. We can see them bursting into their silvery twinkles. It's nice to be able to sit on your front deck and watch, music playing, and iced tea in hand.  Today has not been great. I feel worse, gave not eaten anything since the plain rice I et last night. Just not hungry. Hubs made me tea thus morning, which was lovely. I'm now enjoying a herbal peach tisane, not a tea as there's no tea leaves in it.  That's right, I know proper terminology LOL I'm getting asked if I want more rice, oatmeal, bagel. No, nothing thank you. Then a hamburger and potato salad crosses my mind but I quickly dismiss the thought. Cuddles helped before. They often do. Here's a secret, I can be a bit needy, especially when I'm not feelin that great. I'm sure I'll feel better soon.
      Besides our country, there's a lot of birthdays today. First and foremost, it is the anniversary of my   Nan's birthday. This is my dad's mother.  Plus a few friends, and my angel of a neighbor. So I have wished them a happy day. Hubs is watching Andrew Zimmern on the Travel Channel. He is entertaining enough.   As soon as hubs gets a job, we are going for sushi. The show on now is showing eel. I like eel. My grandpa ( the one I never met) liked it too. Had to get it from somewhere. My moms idea of fish anything was Cod and Shrimp.  Lol
       I'm really enjoying this peach beverage, love peaches. Did you know that? I love them, and strawberries, kiwis, melon of all types and fresh corn, tomatoes, asparagus, if it wasn't for those hot fresh loves if bread I'd be a lot smaller. hahaha. Mm bread. ( said in best Homer Simpson voice.
I'm debating on watching Game Of Thrones, I have the first 5 seasons on loan. Not sure if I'm into anything that "heavy".
So that's my thrilling weekend weekend. Some very cool stuff coming up, not going to tell but it's worth watching for.   So until next time Ciao For Now
   

Yep I've been Incognito

   The past few months (year really) has been very hectic, crazy, frantic, frustrating, pick a crazy adjective and insert as you see fit.   Through this all I've felt high and low and every single step in between. I am no the carefree sprite I care to be  LOL   I swear I am still fun but my mind is so occupied with dark thoughts and fears and hopes and well you get the idea.  I think its coming to a light at the end of the proverbial tunnel, at least I hope so.
    Through all this I have to say that I am so thank full for my Sister, she is the light I need to see and my rock. She has been there for me in such a way that I can only say I hope you all know someone lie this and if you don't, ...I'm sorry about that,  She is what I call a pure soul. She is there for you through thick and thin. I am most grateful to have her in my life.
     I also want to say if this lean time, so to speak has done anything, its' strengthened the bond I have with my husband.  I know that there are some out there that are waiting for him to fail. Some since the day I got married.  To them I give my middle finger way up!! He is a good man, he has faults as do I.  I know shocking, I do have faults,  no no  stop its true!! hehehe We are working as a team to get through this and hes ever diligent on bargains and I am so much better at cutting costs and we have worked together on bare minimum,for months now.  I've noticed we argue a lot less and when we do its not frivolous, meaning its for real things , not petty things that often get drawn into fights with spouses.  We atre closer and I can't wait for the days when we don't have to penny pinch as much and can enjoy some of our spare time together. Things that we did "just because" now get looked at (like is spending the money for a drive on a Sunday worth the price of gas), I don't look at things (or people) the same anymore and that may be a good thing.
     I love my friends, they know this, but I may be distant at the moment, I'm not on that dear old facebook near much as before, if I am its because Im playing Alpa Betty
Life WILL get better, its better than many so I have no right to complain really, So lets see what happens from now on
I'll be back , ciao for now

I Felt Bad But It Was Not Working

...the trainee I had. We let her go tonight. It's been almost 3 weeks and still not quite getting it.  Never asks questions, takes very little notes and doesn't keep them with her , the few she did take.  I really hated doing it, especially with hubs looking for work still. I know all to well how hard it is to get a job.  But I wasn't going to waste time either. Well I'm sure I'll be training someone else when the time comes.

I wanted to have a bright and cheery blog, but I'm not in the mood. As a matter of fact, I'm getting frustrated. I miss Mary, she was a great gal. She'll be back one day I know.  Ciao For Now

I Should Be Outside

     But I'm not.  Tonight is a big night. It's Litha, the summer solstice, it's also a full "strawberry" moon. This hasn't happened in about 70 years. Two big events on the same night. But I'm inside here, writing for the first time in days.  I'm getting more and more upset when I go on social media. People are just downright rude. I know it's a silly thing to say, but I'm talking, non thinking, non caring rude. This upcoming election, well it's just ludicrous who we have to vote for, we can't say certain things in a country that was founded on freedom of speech all because it offends a person or group. I'm tired of the entire thing. Illegals are getting benefits and help and yet myself and hubby are finding us again scrambling to pay the mortgage and bills. I'm tired of crying and feeling helpless. I've sent out my resume now, have to look for ways to help. I know it doesn't magically come to you. If we were in NY, I'd drive for Uber, but I'm not as familiar with the area I'm in now. Hubs looked into it too so hopefully he qualifies. He has been going on interviews galore and getting nothing. So when I go on social media and see all the turmoil it just adds to the angst I have inside.
     Sis is good and she had me laughing tonight, oh the shit that goes on. Lol. I miss her and hate that I live so far from her. I am already looking forward to my next trip up.
     Ah I'm just bitchin, I'm not happy, I'm not angry really either though. I'm just unsettled, I'm touchy, things that normally would never bother me are doing just that, my hair sucks, but that will change this weekend (yay). I'm going to work on a really fun positive blog, instead of the crappy ones like this.   Peace out peeps, until next time ciao for now

Night and Day Indeed

.    So I'm sitting in bed, lights out, and it's delightfully chilly in the bedroom. It's a half hour until midnight. I may be done with this blog by then. Lol.
So I left to go to NYC on Friday night.  Left later than I normally would as the sun is setting later and people freak out and drive badly when the sun is setting. I don't know why, perhaps they forgot sunglasses but there was rather heavy traffic. Got to Dads and we chatted for a bit then went to bed. I was getting up early Saturday. Fast forward to Saturday. It's just after 9am and my sister gets to the house and off we go, out to the islands or breakfast/brunch.  We went to a place called Maureen's Kitchen. It's over in Smithtown out on long island.   So I was expecting to wait quite a long time as I've been told the wait is lengthy but worth it. The restaurant has even been on Food Network show Diners Drive-Ins and Dives. Well we got seated inside of 15 minutes. So we are deciding what to have. Sis gets a French toast croissant stuffed with cream cheese and raspberry preserves and a side of sausage, I got lemon poppy seed ricotta pancakes, with a side of bacon. As I watch other folks get served, I notice the portions are huge. Ours arrives and oh man does it look fantastic. I forgot to mention mine came with fresh strawberries on top. Lots of them. It was fabulous. I think these were the best pancakes I've had in years.  The lemon flavor was just right and the strawberries were lush! Sis said hers was excellent and it looked heavenly.  We left about an hour and a half later and asked, so what do we want to do. One thing we both enjoy us just getting in the car and driving. No plans, just go. So that's what we did. We ended out at a town called Orient Point which is the farthest you can go on the north shore without going over water.  We spent some time out there. It was a very nice day, but it always is when I spend it with my sister. We are two peas in a pod except she's way more organized than me. I try, I do and at work I succeed. It's personal life I get cluttered. Lol
     She gave me some clothes to try if I want them.  In the bag were several capri pants. Tried one on tonight and well they fit fine. I just wouldn't call them capris on me. My sister is about 7" taller than me.  So yep, I'm almost at a perfect ankle length on these babies. Sigh.  LOL
      So I go to bed last night in a fine mood, only to wake up and read of this horrific shooting in Orlando FL.  Such a tragedy. 50 dead and 53 wounded. Worst shooting in America. So it seems it was  terrorist related, but of course the anti gun lobby starts.  I have no issue with guns except that you do not need a AK-47 to go deer hunting. Problem is that the people who buy guns for bad reasons will always find a way to get one.  I don't have the answers but my heart goes out to them all. The ones who died and their families/friends.  Also too the wounded, that they all pull through.
      So on a somber note, I once again say, hug the ones you love. Tell them you love them and  because sometimes tomorrow never promised to anyone.
 ciao for now,

He Got 6 Months!!!

    I am sad, and angry, and frustrated at the judicial system at this time.  That little shit who raped that UNCONSCIOUS young woman at Stamford University got only 6 months. The judge said it may be detrimental for him to spend any more time in jail. WHAT!!  This judge is crazy, I know he was paid off , he had to be, because if he believed what he is saying he is certifiable. This poor woman is now scarred for life, she is putting it past her and moving on she says and I applaud her and I know she has the best thoughts and hopes and I hope this all gets locked into the deepest part of her mind where she can then move forward, because 10, 20 , 30 years from now something will happen and its going to flood back and cripple her. She will relive the event and the pain will be real yet again.  This is what happens when you get raped, yet the POS guy Brock Turner, who shows no remorse btw, is getting off with a slap on the wrist.  His father wants people to go lenient on him as his young life shouldn't be ruined for "20 minutes of action"  WHAT THE FUCK?? What about this woman's young life? His son is a criminal plain and simple, he deserves no special treatment, yet he is a young white male in a very affluent area and money talks. DAMN SAD!!! I bless the 2 men from Sweden who by happenstance were riding by and saw what was going on and stopped it.
    People have fantasies about things like this and whatever gets ya going, I'm not a vanilla person myself, but I know the difference, I have to know!! I feel for this woman, my heart goes out to her. I know karma is going to come to Brock but the fact that a criminal is going to jail for 6 months (probably get out in 2) just makes my blood boil.

I'm done, I'm outta here, I'm pissed off  Ciao for now peeps

Monday Morning Is Here Again

    I have started a new blog 4x so far this morning, Nothing is coming out the way I want to say it.  I have this problem talking too  LOL   I will be back when I can formulate the words well enough to have them flow onto the page.

Just Sayin

   In life we meet people and suddenly it clicks, you have a friend for life, you found the family you didn't have. What makes it better is when you see that others are just as concerned and care abut those you love as you do.  Some get jealous, and I have my moments but I am glad, as it validates my feelings n that this is a great person.

                                             My Friends just know this

If you want to laugh, I'll laugh with you , hell I'll probably be the reason you are laughing (I hope)
If you need advice - I'll give you all the free advice you can use (worth every penny )
If you need space - I will let you have it  (but know that I am there for you whenever you need me)
If you need a shoulder to lean on - I have two. no waiting
If you need love - I love you , I will give you a strong hug and a kiss and maybe even bake you cookies
If you need encouragement- I have no problem telling you your good points and even your bad and I'll buy you a pint while I'm at it
If you need help moving -  I'll tape and label your boxes and even call the moving men for you,
If you need help moving a body - I'll bring a shovel (JOKING!!! (maybe) )
If you need help cleaning your windows - I'll clean the kitchen  I can't reach high windows ;-)
If you need to know how great you are - allow me to be your mirror, look at how much you mean to me and how you make my life better and I promise you will have no doubt how great you are

The End Of A Holiday Weekend.

     I'm siting here with a huge lump in my throat. This has been a very unsettling news weekend.  First and foremost it was Memorial Day here in the states. We honor those brave men and women, who served in the armed forces and now lay in national cemeteries. They are the ones who allow me to write and rant about whatever I want without fearing censorship. May their sacrifices never be forgotten.
    I also read about a little boy in Japan, who depending on the story, was either left for 5 minutes on his own in a forest as punishment or was abandoned there by his parents.  Either way he can not be found. How can parents do this. If your angry at your child leaving a little child in the forest is not a proper punishment.  And if they left him there on purpose, with possible exposure, animal attack or worse, how the hell could they just throw him away?  Then there's that poor gorilla that was shot because a mother let her 4 year old out of her sight in a zoo, so the child got through the enclosure and fell into the gorillas area.  Okay how did the child get across grass and through bars and fall.  The gorilla in several accounts looked to be saving the child as he fell into deep water. But the zoo could not promise his safety so they shot him. One less endangered  silverback gorilla in the world. The parents should be held responsible. I'm sorry you take a 4 year old to a zoo, you hold their hand or watch them. They don't run around. No one is perfect, but come on, so many things could have happened. I'm so upset by all if these occupancies.  I'm fortunate to know children raised by parents who watched out for them. I hope the young boy in Japan is found. I hope the parents of the small toddler from the zoo learn to watch that previous gift and feel remorse for the loss caused by them in my opinion.
    Now, for me personally it was a nice rest. A moment to remember those in the service. Then a nice drive with hubs. Some good roadside BBQ. Always the best. One nice thing around these parts.  You will see smokers on the road and lines of cars that pulled off. So we had a fab meal of brisket, home made cowboy baked beans ( good flavor, not over sweet) and coleslaw.  Fresh watermelon, then ice cream for dessert. Burp.  Not a meal you eat everyday.  But so fuckin yummy.
    Spoke with Dad today. He's doing well. I'll see him the weekend before Father's Day, I could have waited but I wanted to see him. I miss him.   Oh I penned a haiku, I'll share it with you now
I just went outside
The sun is so very very hot
Screw it, I went inside
I hope you enjoyed my little bit of poetry. Lmao.
     Well back to work in the am. Elevator is still out. I think my company is going this as a wellness challenge for the employees.  Lol. Should be fixed Wednesday.  I'm not worried, I'm only on the second floor.  So I wish you all a good rest of the week and as always, ciao for now