Okay It Is Difficult

For me to stay away from carbs.  So I've lost weight and today I logged in 100 days in a row on My Fitness Pal.  I've not done that in like ever! I've been honest. Most times I was under my calorie goal but I felt it was a bit high at 1400 calories. But then again there were days I wS over. Not by a huge amount but those days some pizza or French fries found there way onto my plate. The fries were rRd as I really don't eat fried foods much anymore. Don't get me wrong I had me some mighty good fish and chips in England and I do love them. With all kinds of sauces bad for me and malt vinegar of course. But bubs and I decided to step it up a notch and do south beach diet. No carbs for 2 weeks. Maybe 4 if I stay in phase 1 longer. I may. And this is dsy  2 so those past few days no problem. My calorie count yesterday was 633 and today I come in at 810. Tonight though I'm craving carbs. Bread, garlic bread to be exact. I won't have it. But it's day by day right.  I'm having a weak moment but it will pass.  As Sis and her friend like to say, I fought the carbs and the carbs won.  But this time I WON. I'm preparing foods, and although limited once I go on Phase 2 I can have whole grains, sweet potatoes, brown rice, whole grain crabs, limited of course but yes. Real food, real cooking, healthy so the occasional wild or special days can occur.
    I will not go on and on, not right now anyway.  Lol.   Ciao For Now

Yesterday's Short Blog, Allow me To Clarify

   In a perfect world, when a transition comes to your company, all will be set up and run smooth. As usual this was not the case and of course we here at the helpdesk are the ones under fire. Im just tired of being yelled at for something nit my fault. Its just enough is enough, but at least personal life is fine, knock wood.  Doctor on Thursday to check these pains in my left side (possible kidney stones) so otherwise all is status quo.  I'll be back peeps.  Ciao for now

You Know That Proverbial Straw

Well I'm The Camel , I'm done!

OH Matron, A New Blog

     Not really sure how that phrase even reads to a proper Englishman. But I like it so fuck it I'm using it.  With all the craziness at work of the will we or won't we have jobs, our manager sends out a group chat on our Skype for business. Asks up to say yes if we can see it. Then - nothing. So of course there's nervous laughter, we are all getting fired. Or getting a two week notice. Finally he comes on to say there will be a 15 question Halloween quiz, winner gets to go home early.  Lots of real laughter at that point. It was actually kind of fun, and I give him kudos for trying to bring a little light into a dark room so to speak. We had lots of laughs, one question was name the girl who was possesessed in The Exorcist , one of the guys puts my name on the group portion, of course every one, even me, laughs. We had to give the answers to his account only not the group.  Monday the spirit squad I'd having a breakfast bash, with bagels, scones, breakfast pastries, coffe, tea, juices. And I will be full on point with my South Beach Diet. Lo. It's okay, it's nice they are trying. Some folks here are very nice, it's the big wigs above who don't care. We've started calling ourselves the Expendibles. Of course we are needed, but they don't see that. They're in a huge high rise, brand new building, where as we are in a mid century building that needs a bit of love. Think Charlie Browns Christmas tree, it needs a little live, it's not a bad building.  Just needs to get its tits perked up a bit. 

     So speaking of South Beach Diet, I've been losing, just eating better but yes I do enjoy my bagel Wednesday at work, but no more. I've lost almost 30 pounds and now, along with my hubs, I'm going back to the no carb, then low carb life.  I'm ready, I'm pumped and Sis is starting her plan, my friend in England has been losing, the time is right.  Tenacity has kick in, and I will get there.  One of the women who works on the same floor as me was walking behind me as I went to my car. Didn't know she was there. When I turned around she came over and said she really could see how much weight I'd lost, especially from the back. (My tummy has always been my problem) but she said it again, I looked flatter. Was glad when she added that my stomach was what looked flatter. I'd hate to think my boobs  got even smaller. Lol. It was so sweet of her and it felt really good to hear and I admit added to my resolve.  Will keep you gently  posted as no one likes a lecture on how to lose weight every time they read a blog entry.    

     Tomorrow will be sad for me, my mom died 19 years ago on the 29th.  It's not really easier. I mean I don't weep my eyes out but there are tears. I now can focus on the fun times more. Which is good.  I had a true friend in my mother, oh my god I'll never forget the first time she realized I had had sex. She asked with who, I told her and she was like reall? Then she asked about one boyfriend she particularly liked and I said yes. She then she asked if it was nice. Nice?  Needless to say I stopped the conversation right there and we laughed. 

      Ah peeps, I'll be back, probably Sinday. Have a few more things to post.  But ciao for now

Let The Games Begin

First two lay-offs happened this morning. One was a friend of mine. She was crying as I hugged her. She asked me to pray that she gets a job. There are going to be more coming, needless to say that office is not very calm. LOL

Ah well, that and the fact that my back is killing me, I have to go for a CT scan soon as the man I saw said it may well be kidney stones. Never had them and I drink water. I see my doctor in a week and a half and am having blood taken again so they can tell that way also.  Hey in the grand scheme i can deal with these if i have to.

Oops phones ringing, ciao for now

Just Thoughts From Last night and Today

     I'm watching Scorpion with hubby, it's a great show, I recommend it. Thing is my mind often goes in many directions. I'm on Pinterest on my iPad, I'm watching the TV, and petting the cat.  So a commercial comes on and it's for a new men's cologne. Makes me think of someone, he wore amazing cologne. I'd never smelled a scent like it. I mean, I was used to Polo, Drakkar or even the occasional Armani but this was designer I had not known before. I think of him whenever I smell the scent.  Then a commercial came on saying how a poor 81 year old man was killed while riding his bicycle. I almost cried, it made me think of my Dad. That poor dear man, I hope he went fast. My dad walks every day, I worry about a car driving too fast, or punk kids trying to rob him.  He's a trusting guy, but who knows, he was in the Navy, he's from Hells Kitchen NYC, he's probably tougher than I think, but he's getting frailer.   Then hubs said something and it made me laugh, I feel better. Man sometimes I think I'm going bonkers.  I care so much about my friends who are going through shit right now. I want to give them all the space they need, but they need to know I'm there, I don't have money but I've got ears to listen to them. A heart that wants the best for them. I've been blessed. I felt the love of true friendship and non blood family and I just want them to know I am here.
      Wow, good morning. Happy Tuesday. Its going to be a high of 84 degrees F today and I hate that. I mean nice temp but not for mid October. Im ready for falling leaves with bursts of colors and pumpkins and fall spices and boots and sweaters.  LOL  I am such an October baby. I adore the autumn season.   I hope you all have a great day and I will be back later   Ciao for now

When Does Old Enough To Know Better Start

     Thats not totally a true question, I do know better and let me tell you. In the last 4 days I have been careless with my food intake. careless may not be the right word, I've eaten things I stay away from, but NYC bagels, and pizza and the rolls for the bacon, egg and cheese are truly special to NY/NJ  Ive never had them anywhere else. But as I sit here in my chair I feel like a very full bubble. Made Dad pancakes for breakfast, he enjoys them and its been awhile. Have had no lunch, didnt need it, and tonight is soup and the beer bread I made. Definitely filling but not over filling. Enjoying a cup of black current black tea. Very nice and relaxing. My colitis is acting up a bit and its all the rich food. I brought it on myself, so I can't complain. But it was worth it, I am looking very forward to my own bed tomorrow night.
     Okay I;m on my second cuppa, this time its my Yorkie Gold. My neighbor came in to chat and he is just so nice. But now I need to get my bags packed
and get everything i order so i can leave early tomorrow. it sucks as i need to time myself to the end of morning rush hour here and get to VA before afternoon rush hour starts there. It gives me a close window but its okay Im used to it. As long as i get past Kennedy Airport and the Belt Parkway Im good, I HATE that road. Hopefully Staten Island will be easy going also. 
    I bought some more jeans, fat girl for the win!! Size 22 and just over 2 years ago i was wearing a 30. Huge indeed and a 22/24 is still big, but Im doing it. I put weight on when I got back from England and Im now around the same if not a bit smaller. Please dont be shocked at my jeans or clothing size, I told you I was fat. But Im not ugly, Im kind, I try to be a decent person but if someone dosnt like me because im fat well fuck 'em! :-D
    I am so grateful to my friends and family, when I go I will miss my Sis and my dad of course. I also miss my hubs. And i miss my bed.  I just ordered new pillows that should be arriving soon too. I just want to get naked and lay down on freshly laundered sheets and sleep. LOL Easily satisfied i guess. LMAO   So Here is a sampling of the foods I ate this week:

Called an Emereld Isle and tea of course THEN...

The pub and a pint , onion soup and shepards pie   (burp)  didnt finish the shepards pie  lol and THEN...............................

We went German with assorted salads and jaegerscnitzel but wait there's more
and lastly

PIZZA   and thats not to mention breakfasts of bacon, egg, cheese on a roll

and the pancakes I made for Dad

Honestly Im surprised I fit behind my steering wheel LMFAO   I mean it wasnt all in one day but i do hear my grilled chicken and salads calling my name for next week 
It was a fun birthday time, Sis is a doll, I love my Dad, spoke to my dear friend over seas and got to have lovely talks with two other ladies I havent spoken to in a long time   so until next time  Ciao For Now

Day 2 Of The Birthday Holiday

   So it seems that i am sampling foods from all over on this trip. Started with a lovely brunch at the quaint tea parlor where as I had not quite a full English, but a modified scaled down version. There was the eggs, sausage, English bacon, black pudding, tomato, and potatoes.  No white sausage, no beans , and the rashers of bacon & the sausages were a much more normal quantity, I only took a bite of the bacon and gave Sis my sausage to go with her eggs benedict. A huge pot of tea and some brown bread split between us made for a very filling brunch, then it was off to shop and yay I got jeans, but boo they are way too big. Yay I know but I now need to exchange them.
    Spoke with my dear friend overseas, was wonderful to have a real nice chat and that we know we are there for each other, its so important to know that people care about you. i have him, my hubby of course, my Sis, Dad and just a handful of people that I truly care about but thats to my core and I don't take that love and trust lightly. Im a nutter and I like i can be that way with all of these people, even had dad laughing a lot today.  Brought him home some Shepards Pie for tomorrow nights dinner. Sis took my leftovers and between here and mine she has another meal. I didnt want to take them as when I get back to VA i go back to 800 calories days and shepards pie is not on that.  of course as it seems to be the norm its more a cottage pie as the meat is ground beef, or minced if you prefer that term. Real shepards pie is made with mutton. So English Sunday, Irish tonight. Tomorrow night we head off to the Oak Chalet for German cuisine. Its Oktoberfest time so Im sure there will be some extra choices. And Wednesday Sis is bring pizza and hero sandwiches to the house so we round this out with Italian.  Gluttony at its finest, but not really, breakfast with dad then nothing else until dinner so its not as bad as it seems. But I can tell you I needed some Alka seltzer tonight. My system is not used to rich food
anymore, not this much of it all at once anyway.  That is a good thing but Ive also learned that I can indulge and still be good too. Ive learned balance. Hubs being out of work has taught me how to budget and i mean in cooking also. Stretching the meal with more veg has made me need to eat vegetables more often and thats  a good thing. Although I admit tomorrow, I may indulge in a favorite, apple strudel. They do it well here.
     Hubs was upset tonight, I dont know if its because Im not there but the cat wont leave him alone. Wasnt bad last night as Monday was a holiday for him at work but he has to go in today (its past midnight) and if he doesnt get sleep, oh boy. Not pleasent.
     Im still wired so what do I do, take a few shameful selfies. I really try not to but my make up turned out well tonight and my face is a bit thinner and well I was alone and unsupervised  LMAO   So I tried to be artsy, heres how that turned out hehehehehe

Im an only child, what??????? LOL yeah I get needy, deal with it! We all need some approval in dark moments. 
As one can tell I am so not a professional photographer, but I do it for fun and not very often anymore. Put one of facebook as my new profile pic. Meh, not that it really matters. I look like me and if people dont like me for whatever reason thats their choice. I like me (mostly lol)
     I am enjoying my NY visit, I love my Dad and the man is a pip I tell you. More on him in a day or so. So its half midnight and I still have to take off my war paint so I bid you all a good night, Ciao for now! xx

Well Hello Again Lovelies NYC is Coming

    Okay I did say I wouldn't be posting everyday, and I haven't.   Not a whole lots going on really, my weight loss is continuing slow and steady, but I am going to NYC next week and I am going ot enjoy myself, I promise you .  I am going to have a slice (or two) or real pizza , a real bagel and oh yes a bacon egg and cheese on a roll. or as we call them a BEC.  LOL   These rolls are also special to the NY/NJ area.  They look like a kaiser roll and are similar but the taste is definitely unique. Unless you have had one you cant understand.
Here is what that lovely breakfast looks like

I tend to get the rolls with no poppy seeds on them as they stuck in my teeth something aweful
And of course a visit to Umbertos is called for, here they are

one word - Delicious.  Ad garlic and peppers or onions or all of them and its just perfect. Dad loves the meatball parm or sausage and pepper heros (subs) they have. The city itself has so many fabulous places to eat and so many great foods from all over.  Sis and I are going to have brunch on Sunday at a place called Swing The Teapot, in Floral Park  Long Island. I see a full english in my future there.  LOL   is it any wonder I am trying to lose weight, I've had years of practice putting it on. :-D haha

But its not just the food, its my family, Sis and Dad, cousins and friends. They are my heart in NYC and I miss them.  It will be great having more than a day to see everyone.
NYC gets in you, if you are from there you never leave, you may live other places but NYC will always be home. Hate it or love it its part of you.
Well I will have more next time.  Ciao for now peeps

Great Pumpkin Is Coming

     I admit it I'm a pumpkin lover, but a pumpkin spice latte at Starbucks is 330 calories and 37 grams of sugar!! Whoa, I'll pass. I made coffee this morning and added pumpkin pie spice on top, tastes great and 0 calories!! I'll save those calories as I made a light pumpkin custard for dessert tonight. Can of organic pumpkin, 2 eggs,cinnamon, allspice, cloves, fat free evaporated milk and a little real sugar.(hey it is dessert) Yum lol It can be done folks. 
     I can't believe its almost October, I sense it may be a chilly winter season. Thats what the Farmers Almanac is saying. I love snow, it just keeps me lose to home. The fall is easier to drive to see Dad and Sis. 
     Im going to see Sis in about 2 weeks for our birthdays, I know Ive mentioned it, but really looking forward to it now. 
    Long day, had a nice chat with my friend in England after work. But now dinner is done and Im going to take a bath, relax and make it an early night me thinks. Monday wind down. Chill tomorrow night then, out for Anniversary sushi on Wednesday.  Threat of rain all week, how English LOL   Anyway , untill next time, Ciao for now. 

Happy Fall Ya All

      I'm going to write this blog and I'm doing it while I'm actually talking into my cell phone. So I bought new clothes. I had mentioned that,  well believe it or not everything I bought was too big including the underwear LOL It's all going back - felt good but sad as I wanted to wear the blouse I bought this coming Saturday in NY.
     Looking forward to it. Going to hang with Sis and listen to some good music. Will do live on Facebook if I can.

    Okay that was all don't talk to text, cool. Im at work now and its Thursday now. First day of Fall here in the northern hemisphere. I am seeing my hairdresser tonight to add a little depth to my color. Highlights and lowlights will add a but of umph. LOL I so love this time of year, I am looking forward to cooler temps and crisp air, having my windows open and seeing the leaves change color.  I'm off my birthday week, Sis and I are 2 days apart so we are going to go out for our birthdays and celebrate. Watch out NYC, we are going to party!  lol

Just Got Back From Grocery Shopping

     Little Wins, life has them and of course for me its weight loss and life gains. Two of them today.  Making smart choices by passing on the cookies for dessert. I went straight to the dairy and got strawberry greek yogurt for dessert. Its satisfying and only 80 calories. Second win is when you go into your car ad think your seat has been moved back, just for a moment as you know no one has been in your car. You have room behind your steering wheel again, but your mirrors are correct and your feet reach the pedals, WHOOHOO!! Most take it for granted, but then again its not unusual for most people to do that.  I must say using my fitness pal has helped, I write it all down. Even on days where I go over my calories and I do. LOL In truth though its never really badly over. Ive had a few days ive been about 500 calories over, but never hitting the 2000K mark.  Hey its life and I enjoyed those calories, but I adjusted myself the next few days. I usually come in way under, some days its closer to my allotted amount but still under.  So yeah for the little wins.  It helps ya keep on keeping on.  Ciao For now

OOOH Child

Herself just had a very nice rum and coke with Sailor Jerry.  He treats a gal great. The effects are hitting me, as I have not really drank in a long time. We had a bad diner and by bad I mean not the very healthy type. Mine wasn't bad at all in truth. It was a 6" whole wheat sub with turkey, lettuce and tomato, pickle wedge on the side, cucumbers, onions and cranberry sauce on it. The whole thing was only 495 calories and it was filling. Hubs had a foot long which had more calories Im sure but I want to stay decent but sated.  So tonight this is a very happy bunny signing off yet again   Me and Jerry

I bid you a good evening. Ciao for now.

It Felt REALLY Good

    LOL Now now, that's not what I'm talking about you naughty lovlies.  ;-)   I was just on lunch and one of my coworkers had a guy in the phone who  was arguing that he got his VP to approve an exception to policy for his overdue expenses.  WE have to get a letter from the VP of the business unit to approve expenses that are over 60 days old. Well this guy had sent in 4 emails asking about it, he was told on each email what was needed and basically ignored it. So i had enough, I asked my coworker if he wanted me to get on the phone and he did, so I let the employee know that we need a letter. He said that he sent the attachment , NO , he added a section where it said approved and had the VP's name n it.  I explained that is not what we need, as stated to him several time.  he said the emails were not clear and in my best supervisor voice (which was my old position here) I let him know that the add on to the email is not sufficient as policy states it must be a separate letter.  After about 15 minutes of repeating myself he finally disconnected. I tild him sir I know the email from today are getting worked and if you send this I will make sure it gets sent up to expense today.  Sheesh.  One of the women who work over in AP brought me over a postie with a "gold" star on it. She was saying that she had no idea how I kept my cool and she would have hung up on him  LMAO

I felt good to do that again, I miss my old position, I was a damn good supervisor!!  I need to look for another job like that once hubs is at his new place about 6 months and we can truly breathe easier I will seriously start looking.  

Oh here is my award  hahahahahaha

Well that's it peeps, the round chick is feeling pleased today :-)  Ciao For Now

Harvest Moon

    This Friday, the 16th of September is a full moon. Some call it the corn moon, some the harvest moon. It comes as a precursor to the Autumn Equinox, which arrives on the 22nd of September at 10:21AM EST. I know lots of folks hate that summer is ending. I am not a fan of heat and humidity, mainly because I am at work, not on some island enjoying a fruity rum drink. I could get used to that LOL But perhaps because I am born in the fall I get a sense of rebirth this time of year. As much as I like laying in a fetal position stark naked, I mean I feel it more emotionally. I seem to come alive more this time of year. I adore the tastes and scents of Autumn. I almost get a sense that I want to nest.It makes sense if you think about it. You spend more time at home as the days get brisk. It makes send to want your home comfy and welcoming.  I always have autumnal scented candles going this time of year. Apples and cinnamon, cloves are common. I love the spicy woodsy smells. Makes sense  as I like them in perfumes and colognes also. Smells like hugs. I love to hug.  Humans, we like to think we have come so far but our instincts from years gone by kick in and we have no idea why. LOL I have to laugh, I know why, we didnt have electric heat, electric air conditioners, we lived by the land, the sun and the moon. As much as we have gained, and dont get me wrong, I am a huge fan of modern conveniences, but we have lost something also.  I am trying to regain this.  In my way of course. Marking the moon phases, marking the Equinox, saying thank you before I take a bite of food for the animal that gave its life so I can continue with mine. Its a simple ting I can do in a very un simple world.  A world that scares the hell out of me sometimes.  Our government is going crazy, we are more divided than ever. People want to re write history as not to offend people, NFL player who make millions are protesting because they are oppressed.  How the fuck are they oppressed?? Give some of that money you get for playing a game to those who are oppressed. Put up or shut up, I am glad the are losing their endorsements, they are nothing but asswipes. There are some who go against them and more power to them. It all does you head in really. So yep, let me make my home cozy and warm. I plan to bake, bake some goodies for friends and coworkers, I want my finds to settle their lives. So many , actually I think all of us need to do some house cleaning. Get our heads to  place where we can settle don and be happy for months. As the next season will approach sooner than we think, we need to hunker down, and get our physical and mental selves in a place that we can handle and shape into a pleasing outcome. It aint easy, but deep breaths, phone calls, facetime, basically sharing helps us. Remember our ancestors knew that being in a group or having friends made one stronger. Alone is fine but to be always alone makes you vulnerable, to others and even worse to your own inner voices.
     Did I go off again? LOL   Well I will stop here, and until next time, ciao for now

Food Pics

I was teased by my friend in the England about how us Yanks love to post pics of our food.  I am totally guilty of this. Why do I? Not sure, I like to share what I've had if its good. I like to show others on my Instagram, who like me. are watching what they eat. Or just because I fucking feel like it. ;-D  But I do and since I've kind of geared this blog back to food and life you can bet your boots you are going to see some on here too on occasion.   OOO Wait - OCCASION!! LMFAO

Todays lunch was a whole wheat wrap, filled with laughing cow cheese wedge in french onion flavor spread on it, avocado slices and fresh baby spinach.  It was very good and as you can see a handful of seedless grapes to go with it.  Bloody hell, look at me actually preparing lunch at my desk, even more wow, that I remembered to bring them to work!! All I need is a silver candlestick to set the mood at my desk HAHAHA

There's really not much going on peeps, had some weird dreams over the weekend, I was riding the subways in NY and started downtown then got out uptown and as I turned the corner it turned into my old neighborhood in Brooklyn, then it became way uptown Manhattan. Then and here's the even weirder part, it became London.  No I didn't drink or have any illegal drugs this weekend :-D 

Can you imagine if I had???????? 

ha!!!   Well thats it peeps, Ciao for now

Mercury In Retrograde

    So what's been going on?  I ordered some new clothes from the big girl store. I found some slacks for work that I'm hoping fit well. I am not talking about waist size, I mean length. Yes "Miss 24" inseam of 2016" here always has issues with this. LOL I bought one pair in black and if they are good I plan on getting a few others, in navy, grey and pinstripe for the days I'm feeling saucy. Maybe even a plum or burgundy.  Oh missus please!!  HAHAHA  I am at the point I had too. We shall see. I also gathered up my coat and jacket to take to the dry cleaners to get ready for the cooler and cold weather that, if you believe the Old Farmer's Almanac, we will be getting. 
    Weight is coming off slowly and steadily, its so weird, the scale shows weight loss but these past few days I feel so blobish. LOL  I took a smaller size at the fat girl store which is not always a good monitor as their sizes run differently than other stores. And even other fat girl stores can be different. Grrr Its frustrating so I'll just believe my scale as I'm sure it will register correctly (fingers crossed). I go to the doctor later this month early october anyway and I will check it there. I don't use the scale at the gym as my gym shoes alone are about 2 lbs lol  I make sure I wear light weighing clothes at the dr.s and at home I'm usually coming out of the shower so Im starkers. LOL 
      So mercury In Retrograde  - in case you do not know this means that the planet mercury is now appearing to move backwards causing issues with things like communication and electronics.  I read a good comparison and here it is: 
If you were in a car and another car passed you, you could tell it was going faster than you. But if it slowed down and you then passed it, it would appear that that car was actually going backward. Then when the other car speeds up and passes you again, it kicks up all of the dust in the road. As Mercury speeds by, it is like a train flying past, creating a powerful, turbulent gust of “wind” in its wake. The turbulence and disruption Mercury creates when it retrogrades can affect what we feel on Earth in our everyday lives.
So its only appears to go backwards but I can tell you I have already seen the effects. Now granted it doesn't hit everyone the same, but here at work servers are being a bit wonky and my co-workers car mechanical system is giving him problems all of a sudden.  Coincidence, maybe LOL   
This will continue until the 22nd of September. Good luck  ;-) 
     Okay peeps,  its been a decent retrograde for me, so far, if I'm honest  LOL  I thank the Goddess every day, she watches out. Although Ive used it as an excuse 2x today for brain farts on tickets  hahahahaha
      I still have a gift card for a place here called Bath&Body Works, its a store that carries lotions, candles, body washes. Kind of a trifecta for ladies gifts. They have all the fall scents out, I am going nuts over them. I think I may go after work to smell them in person. I know I will use the card if I do LOL
    So today was like Christmas at work.  We had ordered a few things on Amazon that have long been needed. Nothing really pricey but things like deep bowls (got 4) lightning cables, man's wallet. Then I also order a NARS concealer from Sephora. They all came today, the poor mail room guy, he had 3 big boxes. Wel anyway as Sephora does you get samples and one was a perfume from Balenciaga. Now I love their Paris scent, the one with < of all things> a soccer ball (football) on top  LOL well this one is called B then it says Skin, so Im not sure which it is. I sprayed it on as I had no perfume on today and so far its settling to a really nice scent on me. Bit powdery, floral but a underlying sweetness. Kind of like me  HAHAHAHAHA  but yes I think I know what I want for Christmas now. :-D
     Okay peeps, im out as Im going back in to answering emails soon. So until next time, Ciao for now.

Pissed Off

   I went on Facebook today and every post I see is either about the two idiots running for president (gods help us) or the asshole NFL player who won't stand for the national anthem, but of course the money you make is okay, you over paid talentless jackhole! Sorry dude, you're oppressed in what way? I didn't see you down in LA helping the flood victims. Anyway......it's ridiculas. I really go on now to play Alpha Betty. I just hate the hypocrisy of the people on there, and I'm over it.

I'm stuffed

     Thai food for lunch, chicken pad see ew, very tasty but I ate only half. Im hoping it will keep in the refrigerator at work over the weekend so I have lunch already sorted on Monday.  Got a good deal on Slimfast shakes at Walgreens.  I'm looking forward to the weekend, although the heat is back!! ugh  its going to have a real feel of 110 either today or tomorrow. It definitely gives one initiative to stay in and clean.  LOL
     I will be in cooking for the week on Sunday as hubs has a schedule change, and will be working later hours until they hire a new person on. This new person will take hub's place as the low man on the totem pole so to speak, A senior employee just left and this was his shift, its not bad really, 9:30AM  - 6PM. With the closeness of the company to where we live he will be home by 6:10 lol  its around the corner almost.  I'm going to make a roast, we haven't been eating mucg red meat at all but like I said we will occasionally so a nice roast will give many meals. That and Im thinking some lamb stew.
     So I got to meet our new neighbors yesterday. Nice lady and nice kids. haven't met her husband yet. They actually were renting a home about 5 house up the block and when they saw this house for sale they jumped on it and worked out great for my neighbor. They didn't even have to have an open house.  That's so great, I hope when the time comes I'll be able to sell so quickly.
     Well Peeps I will say ciao for now and I will be home this evening starring at the marshmallow pumpkin my hubby bought me as a treat. deciding if I want it or hang on to it a little longer. I'm leaning to hang on. Ta....

How Much Is That Blouse???

    Good grief, I was looking for a few choice pieces of clothing to supplement my slacks for work and also to add to my jeans.  Well I look at Torrid, cool jeans, found a pair, great pair and only $75.00. I look at Catherine's and see a fab blouse for only $64.00.  WTF, why do they feel that by adding a little more fabric they charge designer prices? Fat girl clothes are so fucking expensive. It drives me batty. I finally found a few bits and pieces I got, but jeez.  Sis has given me a few lovely tops. One I can't wait to wear, it's a black crisis cross top that will look fab with my dress.  Why over a dress? Because I do not go sleeveless in public. I have seen women with arms larger than mine but I don't care for it, I also like my tummy covered. My personal taste. Again some women don't care, but I do. Just because I'm fat doesn't mean I have to be slovenly. I say that as there are times I will run out looking like crap, but it's usually to go to the drug store or if it's a quick grocery run I go to a store not in my area. Less chance of seeing someone I know. Hahaha
     Well I've been doing great, but what irks me is that when I go and put in my food and I eat less calories than the website thinks I should they don't log in that I came in under my calories. It counts my day as a log in, almost a month strait and I've lost 11 pounds so far.  I'm not unrealistic, I just want to get to where I was in high school. It's quite achievable. I'm ready. Except. Except well it's coming into Autumn. A weakness will be on the shelves soon. That pure sugar, either love it or hate it candy. Yep I'm talking candy corn. I love the stuff. The good thing though is that even I, Queen of the sweet tooth, find it even a bit too sweet. So I never eat too much in one sitting. Where as you put a Cadbury fruit & nut bar in front of me ( I mean the bigger bar) I will go animal on that thing if I'm in a chocolate mood. Candy is odd with me, I have my moods. I'd rather have some form of baked good.  My mom was just the opposite, she'd pick candy every time. Now Dad, he's not as much a sweet eater, he likes them, he can put a hurtin on a pie but he's one a night. He has a cup of tea and a little something sweet to end his night. A donut or slice of pound cakes a few biscuits or cookies. He's a balanced eater. Yeah, I may look like him but I have my moms eating habits.  Lol. I love cooking though.  So I've been making good dinners, lots of veg. No red meat. But I sense a nice steak is coming. Now, if I will stop thinking of candy corn.  Lmao
     It's interesting, I've noticed it's easier these days to be a bigger gal. More and more people are rooting for a "real woman" body. Which I'm not sure what a real woman means. If your born with a pussy you're a woman. Just be happy in the body you have, change what you want for YOUR READONS whatever they are.
     Oh hey I'm a redhead again. Hubs asked so sure, I am going to go a slight shade darker as I used a similar formula I used to but before I put it on brown hair and this time I put it on blonde so it turned out a bit brighter than I wanted.  If you watch the show Castle, think Castle's daughter Alexis.  It's pretty but I need a bit richer. I also need to get a 30 developer, for the grays. Shhh don't tell. :-D
Well peeps, I'm out so until next time ciao for now