1am At Least They Are Sleeping

Of course im referring to my hubby and my father.
I will admit, taking care of my dad is no picinic. I'm not saying, it's hard. That's not the right word. It's frustrating. I love him dearly, even knowing what I know now, I would still do this BUT it's not what I envisioned. I really was not sure what to expect. I did not expect to find that my Dad can barely see. He kept thus hidden in a home he had for 55 years. Of course he knew it like the back of his hand. But here, it's blatantly obvious.  This makes me beyond sad. I can't even imagine how he's feeling.  He keeps reaching out for my hand when I'm sitting with him.  Says he's glad his girl is there for him. Of course I am.  He keeps saying he's not sure where he'd be if it weren't for me and my hubs. Oh my hubby is so sweet and gentle with him. It's beautiful to watch them.
My dad knows that he will never be alone. For as long as he walks this Earth, he will be cared for.
 Tonight I heard him yell out on the baby monitor so I went to look. Must have been a bad dream. So I sat in the chair and watched him sleep. He was restless, I heard him mutter gid help me. He's not happy with his situation I know that but he is against books on tape.  I'm not sure why.
Look, we got him a nice comfy chair, some new clothes, I feed him what he enjoys but IT'S NOT ENOUGH!  I want to do more. This man kept me safe growing up, he worked hard and took care of us. I should be able to take away any fears he has, any issues I want to fix. But it's hard. I'm never going to stop so every night I ask the Goddess for strength so I can do right for him.
I'm tired and frustrated yes but when I tell him I love him and I see him smile, it's worth it. I just hope I am doing it right