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OH Matron, A New Blog

     Not really sure how that phrase even reads to a proper Englishman. But I like it so fuck it I'm using it.  With all the craziness at work of the will we or won't we have jobs, our manager sends out a group chat on our Skype for business. Asks up to say yes if we can see it. Then - nothing. So of course there's nervous laughter, we are all getting fired. Or getting a two week notice. Finally he comes on to say there will be a 15 question Halloween quiz, winner gets to go home early.  Lots of real laughter at that point. It was actually kind of fun, and I give him kudos for trying to bring a little light into a dark room so to speak. We had lots of laughs, one question was name the girl who was possesessed in The Exorcist , one of the guys puts my name on the group portion, of course every one, even me, laughs. We had to give the answers to his account only not the group.  Monday the spirit squad I'd having a breakfast bash, with bagels, scones, breakfast pastries, coffe, tea, juices. And I will be full on point with my South Beach Diet. Lo. It's okay, it's nice they are trying. Some folks here are very nice, it's the big wigs above who don't care. We've started calling ourselves the Expendibles. Of course we are needed, but they don't see that. They're in a huge high rise, brand new building, where as we are in a mid century building that needs a bit of love. Think Charlie Browns Christmas tree, it needs a little live, it's not a bad building.  Just needs to get its tits perked up a bit. 

     So speaking of South Beach Diet, I've been losing, just eating better but yes I do enjoy my bagel Wednesday at work, but no more. I've lost almost 30 pounds and now, along with my hubs, I'm going back to the no carb, then low carb life.  I'm ready, I'm pumped and Sis is starting her plan, my friend in England has been losing, the time is right.  Tenacity has kick in, and I will get there.  One of the women who works on the same floor as me was walking behind me as I went to my car. Didn't know she was there. When I turned around she came over and said she really could see how much weight I'd lost, especially from the back. (My tummy has always been my problem) but she said it again, I looked flatter. Was glad when she added that my stomach was what looked flatter. I'd hate to think my boobs  got even smaller. Lol. It was so sweet of her and it felt really good to hear and I admit added to my resolve.  Will keep you gently  posted as no one likes a lecture on how to lose weight every time they read a blog entry.    

     Tomorrow will be sad for me, my mom died 19 years ago on the 29th.  It's not really easier. I mean I don't weep my eyes out but there are tears. I now can focus on the fun times more. Which is good.  I had a true friend in my mother, oh my god I'll never forget the first time she realized I had had sex. She asked with who, I told her and she was like reall? Then she asked about one boyfriend she particularly liked and I said yes. She then she asked if it was nice. Nice?  Needless to say I stopped the conversation right there and we laughed. 

      Ah peeps, I'll be back, probably Sinday. Have a few more things to post.  But ciao for now

Let The Games Begin

First two lay-offs happened this morning. One was a friend of mine. She was crying as I hugged her. She asked me to pray that she gets a job. There are going to be more coming, needless to say that office is not very calm. LOL

Ah well, that and the fact that my back is killing me, I have to go for a CT scan soon as the man I saw said it may well be kidney stones. Never had them and I drink water. I see my doctor in a week and a half and am having blood taken again so they can tell that way also.  Hey in the grand scheme i can deal with these if i have to.

Oops phones ringing, ciao for now

Just Thoughts From Last night and Today

     I'm watching Scorpion with hubby, it's a great show, I recommend it. Thing is my mind often goes in many directions. I'm on Pinterest on my iPad, I'm watching the TV, and petting the cat.  So a commercial comes on and it's for a new men's cologne. Makes me think of someone, he wore amazing cologne. I'd never smelled a scent like it. I mean, I was used to Polo, Drakkar or even the occasional Armani but this was designer I had not known before. I think of him whenever I smell the scent.  Then a commercial came on saying how a poor 81 year old man was killed while riding his bicycle. I almost cried, it made me think of my Dad. That poor dear man, I hope he went fast. My dad walks every day, I worry about a car driving too fast, or punk kids trying to rob him.  He's a trusting guy, but who knows, he was in the Navy, he's from Hells Kitchen NYC, he's probably tougher than I think, but he's getting frailer.   Then hubs said something and it made me laugh, I feel better. Man sometimes I think I'm going bonkers.  I care so much about my friends who are going through shit right now. I want to give them all the space they need, but they need to know I'm there, I don't have money but I've got ears to listen to them. A heart that wants the best for them. I've been blessed. I felt the love of true friendship and non blood family and I just want them to know I am here.
      Wow, good morning. Happy Tuesday. Its going to be a high of 84 degrees F today and I hate that. I mean nice temp but not for mid October. Im ready for falling leaves with bursts of colors and pumpkins and fall spices and boots and sweaters.  LOL  I am such an October baby. I adore the autumn season.   I hope you all have a great day and I will be back later   Ciao for now

When Does Old Enough To Know Better Start

     Thats not totally a true question, I do know better and let me tell you. In the last 4 days I have been careless with my food intake. careless may not be the right word, I've eaten things I stay away from, but NYC bagels, and pizza and the rolls for the bacon, egg and cheese are truly special to NY/NJ  Ive never had them anywhere else. But as I sit here in my chair I feel like a very full bubble. Made Dad pancakes for breakfast, he enjoys them and its been awhile. Have had no lunch, didnt need it, and tonight is soup and the beer bread I made. Definitely filling but not over filling. Enjoying a cup of black current black tea. Very nice and relaxing. My colitis is acting up a bit and its all the rich food. I brought it on myself, so I can't complain. But it was worth it, I am looking very forward to my own bed tomorrow night.
     Okay I;m on my second cuppa, this time its my Yorkie Gold. My neighbor came in to chat and he is just so nice. But now I need to get my bags packed
and get everything i order so i can leave early tomorrow. it sucks as i need to time myself to the end of morning rush hour here and get to VA before afternoon rush hour starts there. It gives me a close window but its okay Im used to it. As long as i get past Kennedy Airport and the Belt Parkway Im good, I HATE that road. Hopefully Staten Island will be easy going also. 
    I bought some more jeans, fat girl for the win!! Size 22 and just over 2 years ago i was wearing a 30. Huge indeed and a 22/24 is still big, but Im doing it. I put weight on when I got back from England and Im now around the same if not a bit smaller. Please dont be shocked at my jeans or clothing size, I told you I was fat. But Im not ugly, Im kind, I try to be a decent person but if someone dosnt like me because im fat well fuck 'em! :-D
    I am so grateful to my friends and family, when I go I will miss my Sis and my dad of course. I also miss my hubs. And i miss my bed.  I just ordered new pillows that should be arriving soon too. I just want to get naked and lay down on freshly laundered sheets and sleep. LOL Easily satisfied i guess. LMAO   So Here is a sampling of the foods I ate this week:

Called an Emereld Isle and tea of course THEN...

The pub and a pint , onion soup and shepards pie   (burp)  didnt finish the shepards pie  lol and THEN...............................

We went German with assorted salads and jaegerscnitzel but wait there's more
and lastly

PIZZA   and thats not to mention breakfasts of bacon, egg, cheese on a roll

and the pancakes I made for Dad

Honestly Im surprised I fit behind my steering wheel LMFAO   I mean it wasnt all in one day but i do hear my grilled chicken and salads calling my name for next week 
It was a fun birthday time, Sis is a doll, I love my Dad, spoke to my dear friend over seas and got to have lovely talks with two other ladies I havent spoken to in a long time   so until next time  Ciao For Now

Day 2 Of The Birthday Holiday

   So it seems that i am sampling foods from all over on this trip. Started with a lovely brunch at the quaint tea parlor where as I had not quite a full English, but a modified scaled down version. There was the eggs, sausage, English bacon, black pudding, tomato, and potatoes.  No white sausage, no beans , and the rashers of bacon & the sausages were a much more normal quantity, I only took a bite of the bacon and gave Sis my sausage to go with her eggs benedict. A huge pot of tea and some brown bread split between us made for a very filling brunch, then it was off to shop and yay I got jeans, but boo they are way too big. Yay I know but I now need to exchange them.
    Spoke with my dear friend overseas, was wonderful to have a real nice chat and that we know we are there for each other, its so important to know that people care about you. i have him, my hubby of course, my Sis, Dad and just a handful of people that I truly care about but thats to my core and I don't take that love and trust lightly. Im a nutter and I like i can be that way with all of these people, even had dad laughing a lot today.  Brought him home some Shepards Pie for tomorrow nights dinner. Sis took my leftovers and between here and mine she has another meal. I didnt want to take them as when I get back to VA i go back to 800 calories days and shepards pie is not on that.  of course as it seems to be the norm its more a cottage pie as the meat is ground beef, or minced if you prefer that term. Real shepards pie is made with mutton. So English Sunday, Irish tonight. Tomorrow night we head off to the Oak Chalet for German cuisine. Its Oktoberfest time so Im sure there will be some extra choices. And Wednesday Sis is bring pizza and hero sandwiches to the house so we round this out with Italian.  Gluttony at its finest, but not really, breakfast with dad then nothing else until dinner so its not as bad as it seems. But I can tell you I needed some Alka seltzer tonight. My system is not used to rich food
anymore, not this much of it all at once anyway.  That is a good thing but Ive also learned that I can indulge and still be good too. Ive learned balance. Hubs being out of work has taught me how to budget and i mean in cooking also. Stretching the meal with more veg has made me need to eat vegetables more often and thats  a good thing. Although I admit tomorrow, I may indulge in a favorite, apple strudel. They do it well here.
     Hubs was upset tonight, I dont know if its because Im not there but the cat wont leave him alone. Wasnt bad last night as Monday was a holiday for him at work but he has to go in today (its past midnight) and if he doesnt get sleep, oh boy. Not pleasent.
     Im still wired so what do I do, take a few shameful selfies. I really try not to but my make up turned out well tonight and my face is a bit thinner and well I was alone and unsupervised  LMAO   So I tried to be artsy, heres how that turned out hehehehehe

Im an only child, what??????? LOL yeah I get needy, deal with it! We all need some approval in dark moments. 
As one can tell I am so not a professional photographer, but I do it for fun and not very often anymore. Put one of facebook as my new profile pic. Meh, not that it really matters. I look like me and if people dont like me for whatever reason thats their choice. I like me (mostly lol)
     I am enjoying my NY visit, I love my Dad and the man is a pip I tell you. More on him in a day or so. So its half midnight and I still have to take off my war paint so I bid you all a good night, Ciao for now! xx

Well Hello Again Lovelies NYC is Coming

    Okay I did say I wouldn't be posting everyday, and I haven't.   Not a whole lots going on really, my weight loss is continuing slow and steady, but I am going to NYC next week and I am going ot enjoy myself, I promise you .  I am going to have a slice (or two) or real pizza , a real bagel and oh yes a bacon egg and cheese on a roll. or as we call them a BEC.  LOL   These rolls are also special to the NY/NJ area.  They look like a kaiser roll and are similar but the taste is definitely unique. Unless you have had one you cant understand.
Here is what that lovely breakfast looks like

I tend to get the rolls with no poppy seeds on them as they stuck in my teeth something aweful
And of course a visit to Umbertos is called for, here they are

one word - Delicious.  Ad garlic and peppers or onions or all of them and its just perfect. Dad loves the meatball parm or sausage and pepper heros (subs) they have. The city itself has so many fabulous places to eat and so many great foods from all over.  Sis and I are going to have brunch on Sunday at a place called Swing The Teapot, in Floral Park  Long Island. I see a full english in my future there.  LOL   is it any wonder I am trying to lose weight, I've had years of practice putting it on. :-D haha

But its not just the food, its my family, Sis and Dad, cousins and friends. They are my heart in NYC and I miss them.  It will be great having more than a day to see everyone.
NYC gets in you, if you are from there you never leave, you may live other places but NYC will always be home. Hate it or love it its part of you.
Well I will have more next time.  Ciao for now peeps